I have posted few times but guess I' m a lurker.. Anyway I am 21 and been addicted to oxy's for 1 1/2 yrs although am now on suboxone.
I had a very best friend since I was 3. Her mom passed form cancer she moved in with my fam.. When I first took oxy's she did too!! Until I got really bad on them. She moved out just like that. Well she is now a stripper which I don't agree with. But I found out she told my 2 sisters that I am a heroin addict which I am not, I know oxy's have some same components. But i can't understand why she had said that. my aunt, uncle, grandparents all think this now. I had a big fight but she was more defensive and mean than anything. so we ended by saying hersaying she didn't want to talk. I can't believe it my mom gave her a home and money every weekend to go out! after high school my mom said she'd pay for college.. she did nothing but lay around for 2 yrs, then move out. well I am moving to Fla soon I am now trying to stay sober but I have all this hurt built up and feel like i'm gonna slip. please help i am 1mth 3wks clean .

I know this sounds like kid stuff but she was my shoulder to cry on. and i was hers. How was our friendship so easy to dismiss, we called eachother sisters.

Hi Laura,

Sorry that you are feeling the loss of your friend/sister...it sounds like you two grew up as sisters.

Sometimes it's necessary to let go of relationships that were very held together by getting high together, in order for you to stay sober. I know it hurts now, and you miss her in your life. That could be temporary, you may have a strong relationship with her again in the future. Hopefully, she will choose a better path for herself as well. It doesn't sound like she is in a good place herself.

For now it would be better for you to continue to build new relationships and let the old one's go, the one's attached to using. It is harder to let go of a family memeber but what is best for you? If you were to be close with her again, what would happen? Who knows, you might inspire her to change her life once she sees the change in you. But it does take time for those changes to occur in your life. Right now, just focus on how you stay clean. You are doing well. The depression will lift. Hang in there.

Patty

Patty thank you for your beautiful words. I really liked the verse of the beatles it lifted my spirits. I know that my biggest problem right now is to get better, but I wish i had that shoulder to cry on.. but this board gave me many
Thank you to everyone who is supportive to everyone it makes it easier..
Patty thank you for always replying to me it makes me feel like someone cares... :wave: