This Update is for all those people who wanted to hear how I am doing, and responded so kindly through my ordeal that began August 22nd 2003 with symptoms occuring from unprotected oral sex. I want to wish all of you the best holiday season with those who you love and know love you too.

Now this update is mainly for those that read my story over the past month, and wanted to know whats been going on. I tried to erase some of my posts because I started getting people who were saying I had HIV and all this, which can only be drawn on with a postive HIV test. I also was not getting much responds anyways. Most of us are not doctors and can not suggest what is wrong with me. But, I am glad I did post with my other messages because some people truly took the time to say something informative and sincere, which always will be wonderful to share with anyone who has gone through what I did. FOR THAT I THANK YOU!

Now on with the update, I was tested for strep throat 3 times, gonorehea, mono, syphillis, HIV at (2months), & (3months), chlaymedia. All were negative. I also had a white spot on the left tonsil and that spot fell off and has not come back. My throat seems to be just mildly red and does not hurt, and the neck pain is not severe like it was over the past 2 months. I do not believe what I am going through is anxiety related, and might see an infectious disease doctor on the 30th of December. I am happy to say that my complete blood count, metabolic, lipid profiles were fine as well. I hope to get better, and will let you all know what is happening into the new year.

My doctor does not think I need to get tested again for HIV again after my 3 month test, but I will get tested again after 6 months just to be sure because there is no way that I want to spread nothing to no one. I have realized that no matter how awful I was treated by that guy, it was my fault just the same for not protecting my body, and going to meet him in the first place. I have learned that I really need to date someone for 12 to 18 months or even just stay their friend for that long,
and then go get tested together before I put my body at risk for things. Its so hard to trust anyone or what anyone says at all, and that is one of the hardest things for me. Even if I do this, and get tested with someone after one year, my life will still be in that persons hands everytime I try something with them, assuming that they never cheated, never lied to me, and so on....I still have alot to learn, and hope that God or whatever power is out there will give me that second chance. So far all the tests have been negative, but certain symptoms are still there, and I wonder what it could be, and always will wonder why I even took such a risk with myself in the first place with someone who truly could careless if I was alive tommorow. I need to be patient and realize and even when I posted on here, I have realized that there really are good people in this world who really care about protecting you, and themselves in a world like this. I also need to realize that real love and friendship is worth the wait no matter how long. I am promising myself no matter what my tests come out to be, that I will never do this to myself again, and hope that other people will never experience what I experienced earlier this year.
Thanks again for all those great responds, and reassuraces, it has helped alot.

Appreciating yours,
Jimmy

big hug to you Jimmy. i am very sorry to hear of your bad experience with that man. just because someone lives in a nice place doesn't mean that thier blood is clean, and he sounds like such an a--hole! i am sure you are very aware of that now. have you looked at the HIV/AIDS sites? i think you can find reassuring information as to the possiblity of transmission through oral sex. i can't give you the exact figure, but it is very very low. now i don't know if he had an open sore, or cut like thing as you said, but it doesn't sound like you got a good look at it so you can't be sure. I think you are getting your self all hyped up, making symptoms appear. i think you have done the right thing by getting tested for everything, but i think you should relax now. i wouls wait untill the 3 month window, then 6 months and be done with it. don't do too much reseach because you will drive yourself nuts, believe me i know. take comfort in the tests you have and send that guy a basket of dog poo for the holidays!
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Jimmy please relax and take a deep breath. It is almost impossible to catch HIV via oral. Stopthe expensive tests.

Your sickness is not HIV related whatsoever. We cannot diagnose you over the internet, but we do know you need to focus off of HIV.

By the way, it's never a good idea to just ask somebody what their status is. It doesn't matter what kind of a job they have, they still could have HIV. Always use a condom.

I agree with the others. You did not contract HIV from oral sex. It is almost impossible.

It sounds like you have an anxiety/panic disorder, not HIV. Take the focus off of HIV and put it onto your extreme anxiety which you should deal with before it becomes a huge monster of its own.

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UPDATE:
Thanks for all the kind words and reassurance. I know that oral sex is very low risk for HIV. The doctors told me so. But I also know my symptoms have nothing to do with anxiety and am even afarid to go to the doctor I have, and have her see me anymore because she said my symptoms were related to anxiety. I am surely going to see a different doctor. I really disagree with her diagnosis which is why I came on here hoping someone might be able to suggest what I could have. And the sore throat started right away after the oral sex, and the pain in my neck started about 2 weeks later and still continues. I also have one white spot that looks kinda like a whitehead zit on my right tonsil. I know something is going on. I just wish I never did this oral sex unprotected with this guy. He really did not care the S*** about me. I did not even stop him when he forced his balls on my mouth. Just a bit of advice to all of you is just never let anyone take advantage of you or force themselves on you. There are a lot of sociopath type men especially in this world. Yes I Will always use a condom even for oral sex from now on. I just hope what I have is not serious or life threating and I just want to get better. For now, I am not better and will be seeing an Internist in December. I want to thank each of you for responding to me in kindness and look forward to hearing more as well. Anyways Happy Thanksgiving, and hope u all have warmth in your holiday, and into the New Year as well.

I know you dont believe anyone when they say its anxiety...but im pretty sure it is...im on zoloft for anxiety, and prior to that i was sick all the time...stress and anxiety will lower your immunity and make you sick!!! GOOD LUCK TO YOU!

I agree with most of the posters here, that your encounter was low risk. HOWEVER, for a conclusive HIV result you need to be tested 3 months AFTER psooible exposure, and a 6 month test would only be needed for peace of mind. Your symptoms are not conclusively HIV symptoms, as HIV can cause many things normal healthy people expierence also.

Please, dont toss away the anxiety diagnosis so quickly. Anxiety CAN cause those things, and if your mental state is affected, it can ALSO make your immune system weaker. Anxiety and stress AND guilt affects you mentally and emotionally and physically.

Keep on the Drs. until you get your answers, take an HIV test 3 months AFTER your possible exposure, and if its negative STOP worrying about HIV, its conclusive. Good luck, keep us posted.

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ALMOST 250 people have looked at this along with my other words on Nyxin's and Marc1974's, and only a few responses....I NEED A DOCTOR...or some expert...AND MORE REPLYS PLEASE. IT WOULD BE NICE. I MEAN COME ON PEOPLE!!!!! LOL. I just went in to do a complete blood count and everything was fine. I am doing another HIV test at 3 months and will get results back the 16th of DEC. I will continue to see these doctors till my neck pain and sore throat go away. Its been continuous and no doctor has been much help. Hopefully soon I will get answers. ANYWAYS IT BE NICE TO HEAR MORE FROM YA ALL!!!!

LOVE YA KIDS
Future Doctor to be,
Jimmie

GEEZ i thought i get at least 10 replys ....geez

i know it's crazy about the responses!!! hundreds of people view them, hardly anyone writs back. i saw a really cool link from someone on this boeard to a board where doctors actually do write you back. i will try to remember/find it for you. i really do think you are ok though...

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Anyone with kids will tell you it is NORMAL for kids, and some people, to have bad reactions to a vaccination. As for worrying that it might be related to HIV, its not. Vaccinations are recommeded for HIV infected individuals, as they are at greater risk, and the shots are not dangerous for them.

As for your 3 month test, CONGRATULATIONS its conclusive!! Isnt that great?!!

Your throat pain could be related to the medication you are taking. If I were Id find another Dr., just for a second opionion on what might be going on with your throat.