I'm 17 and was hooked on E for 8 months, at first it was the best thing ever for me, I would get out more, talk to more people, feel like i was top of the world, So me and my mates decided to keep doing

Every day for about 2 months we would do about 2 pills on average, and slowly it started killin you, but you would get Hooked and do more and more a nite to feed your buzz

1 night i decided to do 8, i was fine on 7, off my head, as soon as i dropped the 8th one something in my head just told me that I shouldn't of done it

I started to slowly mess up, my breathing was getting shorter and shorter, my heart was racing so bad it hurt, I started getting funny colours comin down my eye sight, everything wuld swerl around me, and everyones voices was drowning out, I was like a vegetable and then I panicked and thats the thing not to do on Pills because thats the first step to really harming yourself, I could feel my heart getting slower and slower and my breating gettin shorter and shorter, i collapsed in the high street outside a club of all things, nearly dead, i don't know to this day how i got out of it, but I ended up getting rushed away from the scene by my "so called" friends who thoughtit was all a joke, all the rest of that nite, I couldn't breath right i had stinging pains in my heart

Ever since that night i haven't been able to live a normal life and that was 6 months ago, my breating is heavy and short, i get heart pains a lot, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, I will play some Football (soccer), and jus check my heart rate all the time, I don't want to but i can't help it, I cringe when someone talks about Death something in my head would trigger and i would just think about it and slowly get scared of death, i have bad dreams of me dying all the time, I still smoke Weed but i don't have the high that I should because i just panic...

My parents know about it all but not in FULL detail because i don't want to tell them the full detail, they will be ashamed with me...I need medication because I had to leave school because I would just be angry all the time and not listen, and just have punch ups

I see people i used to do it with still doing it and i'm wondering if they feel the same as I do, but i'm not asking them because it's their life, E was so nice at one time that I do get the urge of doing it again, but i know i can't

Me personally i don't know what to do, I have a scan on Thursday because of panic attacks so i'm hoping for a positive result.

If i see my doctor, what will he most likely perscribe for me, what is the best thing for these panic and anxiety attacks

Any suggestion will be much appreciated

I don't have any experience with X so I don't have any info. Have you been honest with your doctors? I'm glad you have decided not to take it anymore as I have heard so many stories about people dying from this drug even in small doses.

I don't have any experience with X so I don't have any info. Have you been honest with your doctors? I'm glad you have decided not to take it anymore as I have heard so many stories about people dying from this drug even in small doses.

I just don't know what to do, What medication to have?

If someone has had a similiar experience and has gotten over it, please share

Sounds like you are freaking yourself out. Relax and go see a doctor if you are that worried. Hopefully this will scare you and will not do X any longer. But as a person you has personally OD before (Not on X) once you feel better you end up doing it all over again. It sucks but that is why we are all here. Anyways, just chill out and be honest with the doctor. And by the way. Panice attacks happens to a lot of people. Not just people with drugs & alcohol problems.

I really hate to have to say this. It is now well known that using extacy in the formative years can have devastating effects on the brain. It is possible that there may be long term damage leading to depression and anziety. I suggest that you find a good psychiatrist and work closely with him. The body and the nervous system have great powers of recovery at a young age. IMPORTANT: Do not take any more illegal drugs. Especially pot, ex, lsd or angel dust.

Don't end up like me, a burned out old drug addict.

Bodymechanic- Take it easy on yourself man. You give good advice and right the makes YOU NOT a burned out old drug addict.

Just a thought... maybe you were so scared because of what happened to you that night (sounds like you almost died) that maybe you are suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. I know if I faced death that closely, I would be scared too. Just remember, you felt that way you did because you were on drugs!!! I suffer from an anxiety disorder and I'm prescribed an anti depressant and a benzo such as Xanax. You have to be very careful with Xanax as is extremely addicting. Let us know what your doctor says. By the way, how do they 'test' you for panick attacks?

Just a thought... maybe you were so scared because of what happened to you that night (sounds like you almost died) that maybe you are suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. I know if I faced death that closely, I would be scared too. Just remember, you felt that way you did because you were on drugs!!! I suffer from an anxiety disorder and I'm prescribed an anti depressant and a benzo such as Xanax. You have to be very careful with Xanax as is extremely addicting. Let us know what your doctor says. By the way, how do they 'test' you for panick attacks?

There testing me for a heart condition not for panic attacks

Thanks for the advice people, I'm not imagining these things or freaking myself out, I know that something just isn't right

There testing me for a heart condition not for panic attacks

Thanks for the advice people, I'm not imagining these things or freaking myself out, I know that something just isn't right

That is exactly what panic disorders feel like. You are sure you are not imagining it, you are positive there is something is wrong. Every doctor tells you no, but you know they are wrong.
I was very overwieght at one point. I had a panic attack that I thought was a heart attack. I went to the emergency room, the gave me a valium, and sent me home. For the next three months I was positive I was having a heart attack. I was having chest pains, and no matter how much anyone told me I was fine, I was sure they were all wrong. In some weird way I was hoping I would have a heart attack so I could say "see I told you so".
I was compulsivley checking my heart rate also. The Doctor put me on a low dose of zoloft, and xanax as needed. Helped a little. What mostly helped was I started exercising everyday and lost 85 lbs. I was 245 and got down to 165.
As this was happening I felt better and better more like myself everyday.
See I removed the base of my problem (which I see now was the fear of my weight and terrible eating habits was catching up to me as I was getting older, and figuring I could not dodge a heart attack forever) and I was fine.

I am only posting this because I know exactly how you feel and if someone only would have told me what was wrong I would have felt much better.
Listen you sound EXACTLY how I felt. I was a weekend pot smoker with my friends and I couldn't enjoy it anymore because it would trigger stress and panic attacks (like you said was happening to you). I constantly checked my heart rate, like you do. I had a traumatic experience, as when I was on my way to the hospital that first day I was sure I was going to die. From this day on I did not feel like myself anymore, just like you don't. I had a stress test like you are going to and it will be negative like mine was.
I promise you if you work at it you will get better. I know exactly what you mean when you say you know there is something wrong with you, I did too, but in the end there wasn't.

Hope this helps I know how much it sucks.

legend...
you scared the crap out of me with your story...i have kids around your age...there are no happy endings for drug addcits who use. you had a near death experience. you should have gone to the hospital that nite, which is a moot point now. anyway, you ARE having panic and anxiety. see a doctor and see a shrink and if you have parents that will stand by you? tell them too. i know i love my kids and would do ANYTHING to help them out....of ANYTHING....
please do not do anymore drugs. and pray. jsut stop. there is nothing worse than burying youor own kid. i watched my mother-in law suffer when my husband ODed and died...we all did. it is horrible...to think how he suffocated to death. sorry if this is scary, but it is...what you did is.
i will pray for you. i promise. please keep us updated.
stormy