Hey all --

2 1/2 years ago, i was into Ectascy use. I would use it every weekend for about 8 months.. thats how long my usage lasted. So in total, i probably did about 90 pills within that time period.
I wasnt addicted whatsoever.. and i know everyone experiments at some point in their life....

Ever since i stopped ( i just didnt want to do it anymore ), my nervous system has never been the same.
Im not even anxious about ANYTHING whatsoever.. but my body always seems to go into full anxiety/panic mode so easily... and i can get out of it.
My muscles get tense, i get waves of 'pain' throughout the body, like my nerves are going on overload....
Its just all out of wack....
I've still accomplished SO much while feeling so terrible over these years..
But.. i would so love to have my old body back.

My doctor has tried anti-anxiolytic drugs on me to no avail...

Can anyone relate with me, or did anyone experience something similar?
And if so... did you finally get back so that you body felt normal again.

Im starting to wonder if im stuck like this.. and now im totally regretting ever doing what i did in the past.

Any support is appreciated...

Drew

I've got the same story

Search for my posts on this board you'll see I've just come here too, asking questions about what I've done to myself from ecstasy.

My doctor says I haven't done any damage, just triggered anxiety...

Did you suffer from anxiety prior to ever taking ecstasy?

Are you convinced that ecstasy is to blame for your problems? I was for a long time but I have come to realise I had anxiety before ever taking it and that the ecstasy has probably only brought it out.

I can relate, when I was 20 I started using meth and one night I ended up in the e.r with severe chest pains, It was my first attack and of course not my last I am still dealing with anxiety today 6 years later. I know that meth and other drugs are to blame, It helped bring on the anxiety that is for sure. I am on prozac and klonopin and it seems to be working o.k. I wish the best for you. Feel free to talk anytime. :angel:
Carly

Thanks monkyfonky, and worrywort --

Yeah i really think that its to blame as well.
I think BEFORE i did that stuff.. i was sort of a nervous kind of person?
and i did have worry's here and there...
So maybe when i did it, it really switched my brain into overdrive.

And its so frustrating to deal with... and im surprised i get by each day considering how bad i feel sometimes..

But there's always means to an end right..

Has ANYTHING worked for you so far?


Thanks for your replies..

I think a lot of people who are pre-disposed with anxiety or depression (I'm inclined to believe particularly those with anxiety) are more prone to substance abuse.

Ecstasy and meth seem to be high on the list, probably because they work on serotonin and reward us with a temporary solution to our (possibly unknown) problems.

I think opiates would also be a danger for many of us, luckily I never got into them.

I have spent almost a year in complete belief that I have damaged my brain permanently from drugs, and cannot return to normal.

However, I no longer truly think this, since I know that no one in our situations has ever shown to have any signs of damage despite numerous and various scans.

We all share something too, we are the types who come onto Internet message boards looking for answers; we are thinkers and sadly we are worriers.

I think half our problem is that we worry about what the drugs have done to us, and long past the point of them scattering our chemicals about and causing (temporary) problems, we remain knocked down because of all the worries.

No doubt drugs can mess you up, and the amount you take will be directly proportional to the amount you are messed up, but this is only short term. Providing we have have not touched drugs for months, we are no longer effected by the directly.

What we have is anxiety disorder, which I believe lay relatively dormant in all of us prior to our drug taking. Drug use/abuse brought it by enhancing it for a short time, and leaving this imprinted on out brains. What we are left with is not a million miles away from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

I think therefore we need to exhaust such methods as CBT, since I don't think that we can justify that chemical initiation equals a chemical imbalance.

I am strongly in belief that any chemical imbalance we (may) possess is totally a result of our anxiety, and not a cause.

Fell free to criticise or completely tear up my post, since I am not a doctor and I am basing my statements purely on research and my own experience

Drew... sorry, I have no experience here, but I have read that the rush of seretonin from E can do permanent damage, even if only done once. I suggest researching it on the web. Did you have depression during the days after use?