u2fran
01-18-2004, 01:27 AM
Hi everyone. I have been having too many problems that I contantly worry about. and I feel helpless, like there is no way out. Last week I got a letter from a lawyer that said I owed over 3000$ on an outstanding balance of a credit card, that I never even used. My old boyfriend from 3 years ago had a card that was in my name too, and it's really his debt. I wrote a letter back to the lawyer and I emailed my old friend. This is really bothering me, because I've always had good credit with the one account that I do have.
Also I am living in a mobile that is way over my budget, and I w :confused: as planning on getting applications for low income apts. But I have no help when it comes to moving my stuff. My brother was telling me that he couldn't help and that my sister couldn't either because her fiance is very sick with liver disease and she is taking care of him. My brother told me that me moving soon would be 'bad timing.
I am so unmotivated that I feel that I'm unable to get a part time job, and my ssi just isn't enough. This unmotivation and depression seems to be getting much worse than it has been. I feel totally alone and helpless with no one else to turn to. I stay up late and don't get up til after noon, and I am feeling empty and listless. Going to my doc every 2 months doesn't seem to help, but at least I go there for my meds. Anyway I just needed to vent and I know this board is good for that. It's good to know that there are other people who can relate to problems similar to mine, and who understand bi-polar disorder.
Also I am living in a mobile that is way over my budget, and I w :confused: as planning on getting applications for low income apts. But I have no help when it comes to moving my stuff. My brother was telling me that he couldn't help and that my sister couldn't either because her fiance is very sick with liver disease and she is taking care of him. My brother told me that me moving soon would be 'bad timing.
I am so unmotivated that I feel that I'm unable to get a part time job, and my ssi just isn't enough. This unmotivation and depression seems to be getting much worse than it has been. I feel totally alone and helpless with no one else to turn to. I stay up late and don't get up til after noon, and I am feeling empty and listless. Going to my doc every 2 months doesn't seem to help, but at least I go there for my meds. Anyway I just needed to vent and I know this board is good for that. It's good to know that there are other people who can relate to problems similar to mine, and who understand bi-polar disorder.
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Afirayeshua
01-18-2004, 04:42 AM
I feel what your feeling now. I was being switched to different medications left and right i just couldnt take it anymore, i dropped out of school. im barely holding on to a part time job, and during the day its horrible i am so unmotivated and i waste my money on pizza and sit on my *** all day.
Sometimes i get spurts every now and then like after i watch a movie or something and illt ry to go run or something but it never works. Im not going to be like hey its gonna be ok everything will get better, cause the truth is right now it wont, your surviving like i am.
I know what you mean when you say u need to vent and stuff. Our worlds are burning right before our eyes, and no one can see us burn, no one understands.
I am starting to get so unmotivated that its making me angry, and im starting to use that anger to get back in shape, and struggle through my shitty job. im starting not to care. im evolving.
so **** your brother turn up some music and move out into a cheaper place. dont think of it like your just gonna move out and thats it.
think of it as starting your new life, tougher stronger smarter, a new you. you still be depressed, you will still have to take meds, but you are your own vigilante. try it, **** yourself and be something your not, be the person YOU want to be.
its late and i may be rambling but whateveri cant sleep hope this helped
Sometimes i get spurts every now and then like after i watch a movie or something and illt ry to go run or something but it never works. Im not going to be like hey its gonna be ok everything will get better, cause the truth is right now it wont, your surviving like i am.
I know what you mean when you say u need to vent and stuff. Our worlds are burning right before our eyes, and no one can see us burn, no one understands.
I am starting to get so unmotivated that its making me angry, and im starting to use that anger to get back in shape, and struggle through my shitty job. im starting not to care. im evolving.
so **** your brother turn up some music and move out into a cheaper place. dont think of it like your just gonna move out and thats it.
think of it as starting your new life, tougher stronger smarter, a new you. you still be depressed, you will still have to take meds, but you are your own vigilante. try it, **** yourself and be something your not, be the person YOU want to be.
its late and i may be rambling but whateveri cant sleep hope this helped
u2fran
01-18-2004, 06:17 AM
Thanks for the good advice. I'm gonna try to be my own person, the person I want to be. :)
HoosierBj
01-19-2004, 10:09 AM
Hey Fran, if you figure out how to do that would you help an old friend out and tell me the secret??
Everyone but me seems to think I could certanly find SOME job out there to do...
They all think I'm "doing better than I think I am".
Ha.
My learning curve is totally flat. My memory stinks. I get nervous when someone stands over me. Yeah, uh-huh, sure I could handle being a new employee.... !!
The worst thing is that I DID work from age 19-47... And I WOULD be working if I could. No one seems to get that...
And thanks for listening (again)...
:angel:
Everyone but me seems to think I could certanly find SOME job out there to do...
They all think I'm "doing better than I think I am".
Ha.
My learning curve is totally flat. My memory stinks. I get nervous when someone stands over me. Yeah, uh-huh, sure I could handle being a new employee.... !!
The worst thing is that I DID work from age 19-47... And I WOULD be working if I could. No one seems to get that...
And thanks for listening (again)...
:angel:
thickman
01-19-2004, 02:10 PM
Let me start by sayings, for ME... "Money is the root of all evil"...
Then let me second by saying, for ME... "Unsupportive family is worse than having 30 enemies"...
Then let me third by saying, I feel for ya!
That has gotta suck... Just hang in there...
I think some people have LUCK in life... I am just UNLUCKY... I hope you turn out to be on the LUCKY SCALE!
Then let me second by saying, for ME... "Unsupportive family is worse than having 30 enemies"...
Then let me third by saying, I feel for ya!
That has gotta suck... Just hang in there...
I think some people have LUCK in life... I am just UNLUCKY... I hope you turn out to be on the LUCKY SCALE!
u2fran
01-20-2004, 01:23 AM
Thickman I think that money is root of all evil too, and bad luck does suck. I seem to be on the badluck scale right now, but then things could be worse. Thankgoodness they aren't WORSE, my family thinks they are supportive and what's worse is they think I can always take care of myself.
Hi Hoosier, I really don't know the answer to that secret about being my own person...just wishful thinking. My sister and brother think I'm doing better than I really am too. I don't think I can work, I have memory loss and anxiety bigtime. I just wanna make a decision to move to a low income apartment and start over, and my brother acts like I'll go crazy if I move and both him and my sister act like I'm exxagerating about my finances, My sister had told me she could help me move , even though her fiance is sick, but my brother acts like I'd be imposing on her, and he doesn't want to help me move anyway.I'd be on a waiting list anyway. Oops I didn't mean to go on and on and on again! :bouncing: Anyway I feel better since I got such good replies. Thanks Thickman and Hoosier :angel:
Hi Hoosier, I really don't know the answer to that secret about being my own person...just wishful thinking. My sister and brother think I'm doing better than I really am too. I don't think I can work, I have memory loss and anxiety bigtime. I just wanna make a decision to move to a low income apartment and start over, and my brother acts like I'll go crazy if I move and both him and my sister act like I'm exxagerating about my finances, My sister had told me she could help me move , even though her fiance is sick, but my brother acts like I'd be imposing on her, and he doesn't want to help me move anyway.I'd be on a waiting list anyway. Oops I didn't mean to go on and on and on again! :bouncing: Anyway I feel better since I got such good replies. Thanks Thickman and Hoosier :angel:
thickman
01-20-2004, 12:18 PM
Thickman I think that money is root of all evil too, and bad luck does suck. I seem to be on the badluck scale right now, but then things could be worse. Thankgoodness they aren't WORSE, my family thinks they are supportive and what's worse is they think I can always take care of myself.
Yep... Money is devil stuff :blob_fire
I wish we lived in a World not so dependant on the stuff :(
Oh well... My mom gave me the "be strong" speech last night... Sometimes I think things CANT get worse, but they do... go figure... lol...
I am at the point where I LAUGH at my misfortunes...
So is your family supportive? Mine think they are all the time... But they are like 1/4 of the time, sorta... I have to be like crying or in a TOTAL WRECK to get support... Anything less, I am told to "snap outta it"....
Hang in there...
The optimistic people say things can only get better...
I sure hope so!
Yep... Money is devil stuff :blob_fire
I wish we lived in a World not so dependant on the stuff :(
Oh well... My mom gave me the "be strong" speech last night... Sometimes I think things CANT get worse, but they do... go figure... lol...
I am at the point where I LAUGH at my misfortunes...
So is your family supportive? Mine think they are all the time... But they are like 1/4 of the time, sorta... I have to be like crying or in a TOTAL WRECK to get support... Anything less, I am told to "snap outta it"....
Hang in there...
The optimistic people say things can only get better...
I sure hope so!
u2fran
01-20-2004, 09:01 PM
My sister and brother are the only family I have around here, and my sister listens to my problems, and my brother always talks about his. They aren't supportive when it comes to my financial problems, which I wouldn't have, if they could help me move my stuff, when I ever get on a waiting list and get a lowincome apartment. I guess siblings are not always supportive. Way back when I was having serious problems with a manic episode, many years ago, they got tired of being supportive and now that I'm OK, they just don't seem to understand. Go figure!!