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isolatedgirl
01-18-2004, 09:17 PM
I just told my family and my fiancees family too and EVERYONE has been supportive. Some of them are clueless to how severe it really is, but they do know it gets worse with time and can ruin your health. They sometimes call bulimia the relationship disease because many people with bulimia use food as the friend, lover, parent they never had. I surrounded myself for years with destructive relationships and bad habits. I used superficial activities (clubs and drugs) to fill the void and make me feel good. When that got old, I stopped the nightlife and became serious with work and being healthy. By not doing drugs and not smoking cigarettes anymor, I went from 115 lbs.-138 in a very short amount of time. Then I met my soon to be husband. He is older and very understanding. For the first time in my life I have a handsome, normal, smart, clean boyfriend from a good family. He knows about my bulimia and really put things into perspective. He asked what would happen if my health failed, or my heart stopped? Why would I want to risk not being with him to get married and have children. For the first time I am facing my feelings. The ones I used to numb with drugs and food. I t has been hard, but the best thing I ever did was tell him.. For a while I did not want to get better because I liked it oo much too. When you start to feel better about yourself or relationship, there are better things to do...long walks, movies etc. I still have my cravings big time, but know once I b/p, I will start the cycle again. With me I cannot satisfy my fix and it is almost easier to NOT have a binge than to plan it out, be sneaky, buy lots of food and be overwhelmed about what I want to binge on.(chocolate or vanilla icecream, warm rolls and butter or peanutbutter and chocolate) I end up driving myself nuts. Then I realize I enjoy the first couple bites and then shove handfuls in to get it over with and throw up. Then start the whole cycle again, be depressed, no enrgy to go to the gym in the morning which makes me feel worse.
Sorry for the long message. I just know how you feel, and if you have REAL trusting relationships, maybe the bulimia and body image will slowly fade to the back burner. We need to stop the all or nothing thinking, stop being so hard on ourselves and know we don't have to ALWAYS BE PErfect!!

 
 
 




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