ok so i think i got a bit of a problem. i cant eat. i havent eat very much of anything lately. and when i over eat i throw up everything. ive been throw up things sense last year, but i never really lost any weight. but right now im in alot of trouble. i cant eat cuz i dont want to throw up cuz in the beginning of the school year i started coughing up blood and my parents found out. so now the last few months i eat here and there. sometimes i over eat and throw it all up. and still i never really lose any weight. everyone thinks and says i look really thin but the scale doesnt tell me that. i have weighed my self sense monday but i did tonight and ive lost 5 pounds. also i just gotta out of treatment for cutting and other things. this ive always keep to my self. but now that its some what out im so screwed. anyone got any adivce that can help me? sorry about the bad spelling if there is any.

First of all, you say you aren't losing weight and what you need to realize (and what I JUST realized myself) is that eating disorders are NOT an effective way to lose weight.

Second of all, get rid of the scale! It will never say you are thin enough. I have a scale obsession, too, and it drives me insane.

Thirdly, you NEED to tell your parents. If they have already found out about it, and if you have been treated for other things, they should be understanding. I know eating disorders are hard to admit to and share, but if you were to the point of throwing up blood and you are starving yourself, you need help as soon as possible. The longer you keep it up, the longer it will take to recover.

When you get help you will learn other ways to cope and also about nutrition and HEALTHY ways to maintain a HEALTHY weight.

Now I know all of this is easier said than done. I am still battling this myself and some days are better than others. But I am seeking help and am slowly realizing the damage I have done to myself and why I need to stop and get better.

Good luck!

Sweet girl.. you are where i was eons ago..if i could reach out to you right now and give you some hugs i would.. i am now 36, married with 2 boys and 1 step-daughter and STILL battling this.. because i have kept it a secret for all of this time.. oh i started eating again and people even look at me as fit and healthy, but without even realizing, i am obsessed about weight and the voices in my head that "i'm not good enough" still haunt me. I have just told my husband as have been in treatment for depression.... i really believe it carried on this far because i DIDNT reach out to anyone.. of course way back then we didnt even have a computer and eating disorders were unheard of..but today with more research and more access for support, you will have an easier path. I am here for you.. you always have to have at least one person in your life to trust and if you need someone, then i will be here to answer any questions i can and to give you support. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE! tell your parents or any family you trust and go to the doctor and TELL THE TRUTH no matter how much it hurts and how ashamed you feel..even if you can write a letter explaining what you are going through.. this is how i told my husband and i am grown woman now.. i just couldn't admit to anyone but realize that i could have died and you know what, i deserve to live! and so do you. Yes, i starved, i threw up and over-exercised , used diet pills, laxatives etc etc and i also in the meantime, cut myself. I now have ugly scars on my arms as a reminder of this horrible time..
getting information from the net is helpful as well-- i printed up pages and when my husband reads facts it helps him understand more of what i am going through. Oh sweet girl, you have people who care .. even if you dont think they do.. look beyond what the voices tell you! I hope this helps a little, i could go on and on but if you write back , i will tell you more and most of all, I WILL LISTEN. I am a little "wiser" now and eventhough still battling this secret war, i have been where you are right now! lots of hugs, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!