For some reason, all of a sudden, I went out and bought a digital camera and I dont know why...

Help.

Why did you buy the camera? Was it just a shopping spree? If so, shopping spree's are normal in our case. Hopefully you saved the receipt. ;) I think that maybe, and only going on little info, that your feeling the lows of BP. Just try to remember that this too shall pass and most importantly your not alone.

Yeah, save the receipt is good advice! I have learned how not to feel guilty if (when) I return things I bought on impulse. I suppose it's better to learn to control the impulse, but sometimes it just hits you and next thing you know...

Why did you buy the camera? Was it just a shopping spree? If so, shopping spree's are normal in our case. Hopefully you saved the receipt. ;) I think that maybe, and only going on little info, that your feeling the lows of BP. Just try to remember that this too shall pass and most importantly your not alone.

My REASON for buying the camera makes no sense to me... I wanted to take PICTURES so I can email them to a girl I met on the internet!? BUT I have a girlfriend... I am so confused... Anyways... then I figured, but wait! I don't own a camera, so now I can take all these great pictures of my kids and make dvd movie slide show things...

but it doesn't seem like such a hot idea now :(

I have the receipt and I think my gf will force me to take it back, cause she will figure out it was an "act of bp"....

i am scared, cause i will get in trouble... or feel like i will get in trouble...

i am all panicky now :(

do this. take the receipt, go return it before your gf finds out and problem solved. nothing to it. :D

she knows i went to buy it cause she called me when i was out at lunch time... i answered my cell and said i am buying a phone...

then i emailed her all the details of the phone when i got in to the office...

then she said i should take it back, cause my bp made me do it, and i think she is right...

i am scared of MYSELF!

I am at work, freaking out in my OWN HEAD ... why me ?!?!?!?

I don't own a camera, so now I can take all these great pictures of my kids and make dvd movie slide show things...

Here's my 2 cents....

If you really cannot afford the camera - take it back. You have the reciept, no problem. No harm done, other than maybe a slightly peeved gf. ;)

If you can afford it, then I say keep it. Digital cameras are a handy and a lot of fun. You would be able to get a ton of awesome pics of your kids which you will treasure later on. No more buying film, developing pictures only to find out that they suck... now that I have one, I wouldn't live without one.

Sure it was an impulse buy, but at least you thought to keep the receipt. Now you just have to decide how much you really want it.

IM :)

Here's my 2 cents....

If you really cannot afford the camera - take it back. You have the reciept, no problem. No harm done, other than maybe a slightly peeved gf. ;)

If you can afford it, then I say keep it. Digital cameras are a handy and a lot of fun. You would be able to get a ton of awesome pics of your kids which you will treasure later on. No more buying film, developing pictures only to find out that they suck... now that I have one, I wouldn't live without one.

Sure it was an impulse buy, but at least you thought to keep the receipt. Now you just have to decide how much you really want it.

IM :)

I know... i dont know how much I want it...

it was a GREAT DEAL and it was a MUST BUY and I feel like it was a nessesaity item...

but i am poor and should not be using my credit card for nonsense...

i am scared, confused, lost, and every other word in the book right now...

O.k. you guys, try THIS one for Unfair.
My husband buys stuff like that all the time on impulse - and I'M the one with Bipolar Disorder!!
Sometimes he even pretends that he bought it for ME because he thought I would "really like it".
<heavy sigh>

(I MUST admit tho, I DO truly enjoy the Digital Camera!!!)

Hang in there Thickman - you really are a delight and a wonderful soul traveling around in that Bipolar bod of yours no matter how miserable you may feel from time to time to time...!!

Funny thing is... my new doc isn't sure if I am bp yet, but he does think I may be... so he has confused me... so I am on NO MEDS for my constant change of mood and unstable mental health...

celexa/paxil for me ...

I know... i dont know how much I want it...

it was a GREAT DEAL and it was a MUST BUY and I feel like it was a nessesaity item...

but i am poor and should not be using my credit card for nonsense...

i am scared, confused, lost, and every other word in the book right now...

Well, most stores have something like a 30 day return policy. You have some time to thing about it anyways. If it makes you feel any better, we've all done it (Bipolar or not!). Give it some thought, if you end up returning it you can always pick up another one at a later date.

IM :)

yeah, i have a return policy... i guess i could take a whack of pictures this weekend and return it :)

but i have one more issue...

i am PARANOID and SCARED TO DEATH of my gf...

why?

If I suggest a plan or something, it seems that EVERY PLAN she has to rebut or question or say it makes no sense... Then while/when I try to execute my "sub-standard" plan, she voices her opinion and then I end up doing whatever she says so I dont have to hear any more from her mouth...

i am so scared...

im just going to give you my opinion. take it or leave it....i dont really care, but she cant blame everything you do on your bp. stand behind what you do. my motto, if i question it, dont do it. that way im not always second guessing.....any doubt=not sposed to be....

why could i not be born a cat?

walk around, use the can, eat, sleep, lick myself...

not talking, no harassment, just left alone...

my life is crumbling in front of me and i cant take it anymore...

why could i not be born a cat?

walk around, use the can, eat, sleep, lick myself...

not talking, no harassment, just left alone...

my life is crumbling in front of me and i cant take it anymore...


amen. mine is too. im getting wicked mood swings again. wednesday i was ready to kill. its an hour drive to my therapist (thank god my apt was that day) and everytime someone cut me off or was going to slow id speed up and cut them off....i was crying so hard i could barely see. then all day thursday, i was wired. i went to job #1 in the am, came home, cleaned the house, went to job number two, came home and finished cleaning, went to bed late, got up super early, went grocery shopping, been going going all day, and here i am, trying to sit still for five minutes. id be willing to place money on tomorrow being a cant get off the couch day. rapid fire. does a body adjust to medication so you need to take more?? this is insane. ok sorry, off the subject, anyways, when you are feeling down, stand up and twirl....then sit back down. guarenteed to put a smile on your face. do you like music? listen to Disturbed's first album "down with the sickness" i dunno what kind of music youd like, but its loud, hard, fast, and angry. helps me bunches...doesnt work unless you play it LOUD.

why could i not be born a cat?

walk around, use the can, eat, sleep, lick myself...

not talking, no harassment, just left alone...

my life is crumbling in front of me and i cant take it anymore...
Boy, do I know how you feel! I have been doing so well and now I'm in a really stressful situation at work and I feel worse than I have in weeks! I've been looking for a new job, but there's just nothing out there...my hands are shaking so hard I can barely type this...all I want to do is lay on the couch and shut the whole world out...I had a cigarette and my husband will kill me for that...I guess the only good thing I can say is I'm not suicidal and I'm not wishing I could die...just wishing I could get into a healthier situation...wondering why I have to be this way instead of the normal person I once was...

why could i not be born a cat?

walk around, use the can, eat, sleep, lick myself...

not talking, no harassment, just left alone...

my life is crumbling in front of me and i cant take it anymore...

LOL.... had to say - got into work this morning and that made me smile. ;)
I've been thinking a lot lately that I would probably be happiest spending the rest of my life in the company of animals... my cats, a couple of horses, maybe even a dog. They're so much easier to deal with, they don't judge. Now actually being a cat doesn't sound bad at all... ;)

i have always said that when i die, i want to come back as one of my cats...problem is, if i'm dead, i can't own a cat and be one also...guess i'll just have to hope to be a cat in a home similar to this one....yo ho yo ho, a cat's life for me!!
PPP~~~

Now today... The weekend has gone... The gf likes the camera, my mom likes the camera, i like the camera, the deal was good, I am KEEPING THE DAM THING! :D

Now, why on earth was I so paranoid?

Today I am cloud *#&$ 9!!!!

I WANNA PARTY :D

lol...

hey...glad it all worked out...i do the same thing when i make an impulsive and/or extravagant purchase...i obsess for a few days about why i shouldn't have done it, how i'll pay for it, how i'll explain it etc...usually 2 or 3 days later i'm over it and it's all fine again....
so crack open the champagne and start snapping some pics!!
PPP~~~

hey...glad it all worked out...i do the same thing when i make an impulsive and/or extravagant purchase...i obsess for a few days about why i shouldn't have done it, how i'll pay for it, how i'll explain it etc...usually 2 or 3 days later i'm over it and it's all fine again....
so crack open the champagne and start snapping some pics!!
PPP~~~

Well, the pictures have been awsome :D

lol...

that might of worked this time, but be careful next time.

HEY i was also thinking of this as a "consumer smart" tip. If the deal feels so good that you have to impulsively buy it, then you made the right choice. :D

that might of worked this time, but be careful next time.

HEY i was also thinking of this as a "consumer smart" tip. If the deal feels so good that you have to impulsively buy it, then you made the right choice. :D

Yes, it could have been a SMART OVERALL PURCHASE...

However, I just HATE people telling me, NO, IT WAS YOUR BP!

:(

haha, you see a poster on future shop saying 75% off ALL products and just as you are about to park, your wife tells, NO it's just your BP turn away.

haha, you see a poster on future shop saying 75% off ALL products and just as you are about to park, your wife tells, NO it's just your BP turn away.

EXACTLY... Mind, I have no wife, but GF, and yes, she would say that to me and HAS...

I said, oh, I want to go in to so and so store to buy "item a"...

Next thing out of her mouth...

"You dont need it, your bp wants u to buy it"

So now I SECOND GUESS EVERY DAM THING I BUY :(

"...but mom we really don't have any toilet paper"
"it's only your bp honey"
"guess ill have to go old school and use the newspapers" :jester:

"...but mom we really don't have any toilet paper"
"it's only your bp honey"
"guess ill have to go old school and use the newspapers" :jester:

:D


Welcome to my World :)

I dunno... I have NO IDEA what people think of me as...

All I know is that AT WORK I am told all kinds of crap:
- You will be the 1st to run in here with a gun and kill everyone
- You will end up in jail
- You are crazy
- You need medication
- You need therapy
- ETC ETC ETC

Funny thing is, NOBODY knows I take therapy or med! LOL... I laugh :D

I guess I must be really screwed then...

As as for the weed, that has gotta suck... Cause I cant live without the stuff... Not right now... Life is just way more than I can handle...

heh, my parents all my life called my psycho (for no reason) and now I laugh at it, because I'm really a psycho and they have no idea. Sometimes my brother would make sarcstic jokes saying "what were you doing in your room all this, torturing yorself, self-mutilating" and I would laugh at that with him, knowing that he has no idea on how right he is. :bouncing:

heh, my parents all my life called my psycho (for no reason) and now I laugh at it, because I'm really a psycho and they have no idea. Sometimes my brother would make sarcstic jokes saying "what were you doing in your room all this, torturing yorself, self-mutilating" and I would laugh at that with him, knowing that he has no idea on how right he is. :bouncing:

hehe... yeah, I do odd things myself...

One day, when it was like -30 outside... I decided I was a bad man and that I deserve to drive in 40 minutes of traffic with the window open and the heat turned off...

Yes, we have issues :D

If it's a depressant then you can use it intead of your sleeping pills :p .

Do you ever feel, like you have another personality inside you, that's directing what you do. Like sometimes I am pleading myself to go to the plaza and play some games with people instead of going back home, but my body just keeps on walking away. The same thing happens when I reach for the phone to dial 'Kids Help Line' or tell someone important about my problems, just doesnt happen. I've once seen a therapist before I started to self-injure and she said, that my life is perfectly okay and she didnt care about my depression. So why exactly are all these things happening?

[QUOTE=Lieph]Do you ever feel, like you have another personality inside you, that's directing what you do. Like sometimes I am pleading myself to go to the plaza and play some games with people instead of going back home, but my body just keeps on walking away. The same thing happens when I reach for the phone to dial 'Kids Help Line' or tell someone important about my problems, just doesnt happen. QUOTE]

Sort of... my mind knows what I'm supposed to be doing and what has to get done (budget, housework,laundry, making an effort in relationship) but something just doesn't let me do it. I know I have to do it, I know it should get done, I know that I'm sabotaging my own life by not taking care of things... and yet I still put them off. I think I'm the queen of procrastination! :rolleyes:

that makes me king :wave:

Sort of... my mind knows what I'm supposed to be doing and what has to get done (budget, housework,laundry, making an effort in relationship) but something just doesn't let me do it. I know I have to do it, I know it should get done, I know that I'm sabotaging my own life by not taking care of things... and yet I still put them off. I think I'm the queen of procrastination! :rolleyes:

You have met the KING over here.

100% of the time I am ruining my OWN DAM LIFE :(

Some days are better than others. Some days I can actually be productive! If I set my mind on something, it gets done. Other days I think a bump on a log gets more accomplished than me. :rolleyes:

Now if I could only be consistent that would be something!

Some days are better than others. Some days I can actually be productive! If I set my mind on something, it gets done. Other days I think a bump on a log gets more accomplished than me. :rolleyes:

Now if I could only be consistent that would be something!

Consistantly accomplishing I hope :D

Consistantly accomplishing I hope :D

Well ideally, yes. I would settle for consistent of any kind at this point though.