total break down last night. i went to see my therapist and an hour is either way too much or not even close to enough. last night it wasnt cloes to enough. so i get home and decide that its a good time tohave a "talk" with my boyfriend. he was honest which is nice, but its not what i wanted or needed to hear. im absolutely beside myself. see i live with him. hes having money problems where his expenses are morethan he makes. i have a hard time making it through a 20 hour work week, he works his *** off. i feel like a useless piece of crap. i want to be able to help him with bills. i just cant. andso last night i tried to explain to him how my brain works. itseemed like a good ideaat the time. now i justfeel like an *******. i was crying so much last night this morning it feels like someone punched me in the face. this is retarded. i hate being useless.

Weasel, we all do that....

Sometimes I feel the "need to let it out"...

And I find for me, most of the time, I am letting out nonsense ...

Ah well, yesterday is gone, today is fresh... take it from there...

I've tried to explain to my bf how my brain works before....... boy, was that ever useless. Unfortunately, Weasel I think the only person that is ever going to be able to understand how your brain works is YOU. I don't think you're ever going to be able to explain it to anyone.....

Hang in there - I've been there too. Spilling your guts in the hopes that he'll understand, just a little..... and in the end you just end up feeling more messed up.

Try not to dwell on it too much - like Thickman said..... today is a new day. :)

today is a new day but another crappy day. every day this week has sucked. and im still crying.

Poor Weasel... I know those kinda weeks...

This is the FIRST WEEK where I have been HAPPY from MONDAY-THURS!

weasel, don't get hung up expecting too much from yourself. We have an illness, and to a greater or lesser degree, there are limitations that go with that illness. Probably every bipolar person knows how it feels to ask the question: "Why can't I do what normal people do?" Well, first of all, who knows what normal is. Second of all, you have to learn to accept your limitations. Not that this is an easy thing to do. But if you take a breath every time you have those "inadequacy" thoughts, and tell yourself you may be limited but you're NOT inadequate, if you do this enough, you will get the skill and the idea will sink in. Maybe this is something to talk about with your therapist next time. Meanwhile, just don't come down too hard on yourself. You are a unique, wonderful individual!

Acceptance of ourselves is VERY IMPORTANT...

Good tip Wobbly!