John KD C
01-30-2004, 05:28 AM
For the first time in so long I feel relaxed comfortable and happy. I don't know how long it's been since I've felt this way. I've been drinking heavily recently and I think I can give it the flick now it's almost like I've been doing it because I don't want to feel happy again. I have some major finacial problems to face and by staying depressed I gave my self an excuse not to do something about them.
I've got a job interview monday and if I get that I will be so set. I'm doing a bridging course into University at the moment, I'm doing ok at it but I think that I've been sabotaging myself because I really don't feel ready to start, however now that I've admitted that to myself I feel happy about doing the work and hopefully getting a place at UNI that I can defer for a year. Things are really coming together, I've got some work to do, and I've got a couple of good friends but I want to make some more. I'm going to be totally broke the next week, but after that I can start getting on top of my finacial problems. I didn't realise that being depressed affected my entire body I feel so much more lite inside instead of slowed up. This is truly great. I've been taking my 20mg of Lexapro a day and it has got to be the reason I feel good again, as well as being commited to therapy and reading a few self help books. Oh my I actually feel like reading some fiction again. This board has been a great help to me espicially the veterans who post some really useful stuff. Thanks Guys.
I've got a job interview monday and if I get that I will be so set. I'm doing a bridging course into University at the moment, I'm doing ok at it but I think that I've been sabotaging myself because I really don't feel ready to start, however now that I've admitted that to myself I feel happy about doing the work and hopefully getting a place at UNI that I can defer for a year. Things are really coming together, I've got some work to do, and I've got a couple of good friends but I want to make some more. I'm going to be totally broke the next week, but after that I can start getting on top of my finacial problems. I didn't realise that being depressed affected my entire body I feel so much more lite inside instead of slowed up. This is truly great. I've been taking my 20mg of Lexapro a day and it has got to be the reason I feel good again, as well as being commited to therapy and reading a few self help books. Oh my I actually feel like reading some fiction again. This board has been a great help to me espicially the veterans who post some really useful stuff. Thanks Guys.