I binged and purged again today.All day I was saying I was going to do good cause I gained 12 pounds over the winter and I am dying.I was doing good until I got on the wrong train and went uptown instead of downtown.I got so stressed out I went to tasty delight and had a pint of ice cream,then if that wasn't enough I was at the mall and couldn't find an outfit so I has a cinabon,then I bought a big cup of REGUALR SODA,then I has rice and platains that didn't even taste that good but I woofed it down anyway.Then I has an entire box of cookies.So at that point I had no choice but to throw it up.I have been going through this for 11 years abd its not going anywhere,and yes I've gone to every therapist in the world and its all ********.I feel like I'm never going to be cured cause even if I go through a time period where I don't B/p or starve myself or excessive exercise ETC it is always there like a dark cloud that follows me.YOu ever think when your going through a B/p moment no one even knows just how screwed up you really are.They think everything is fine but really its a nightmare.Is anyone else out there as screwed up as me?

I just wanted to ask u...out of all of the therapists u have been to...what advice did they give n did u try anything that they said that worked?xx