i havent written in here in sooo long... but i am back... i have had a tough month, and cant wait for march to start, in hopes of new found happiness, my leavels have been bad. i havent been able to eat , losing weight fast, i am not a heavy girl, but i went from 135 to just under 110 in a little over 2 weeks, not good but i i just dont want to eat and i find i force myself too. i've been sad, and lonely... i got layed off 2 weeks ago, from a job i loved, i worked with awsome girls, who r great friends. my b/f of almost 3 yrs broke up with me.... and i have been just struggle i have like no money, cant get my meds, no health insurance am lost !!!!! , i came on here and left this in hopes of finding some advice, friends, knowledge. lol i dont know... any ones sugars go high from depresssion and sadness???? let me know if any one has any advice thanks take care all....

Babygrl :confused:

Mine didnt go high from depression and sadness but they did go high because I was too sad and depressed to give a crap about them. I was broke, had a 2 year old daughter to take care of, and was in and out of relationships constantly.

I finally just stopped thinking about all of it. I decided that I would tackle one problem at a time. The most immediate thing I needed was insulin. I went and got on state aid to help me. You could also try to find a menial job while you look for a job that you really want.

Sometimes you have to start from the ground up. I have told myself many times that my world was ending when things all happened at once. The good news is that it is rarely that bad. I wish you the best of luck

Babygirl,
Perhaps it's time to get some outside help, as Mindy suggested. Since you are diabetic, which is a major health issue that needs to be addressed immediately, you might want to call hospitals in your area to see if they have an "uncompensated care" fund, and how to apply. This is basically for people who can't afford health care. If you're in a small town, the local hospital might not have such a fund, but any medium to large size city should have several hospitals that have funding for people like you.

You may also need some help with the depression. Sometimes, when life deals us one blow after another, we don't have time to recover our emotional equillibrium. Sometimes a short course of medication for depression will help you get back on track. Doesn't mean you'll need it for the rest of your life, but maybe for six months or less. I've been there, and medication truly saved my life at the time. Haven't needed it for many years, but wouldn't hesitate to ask if I felt myself losing the ability to cope.

First thing, start calling around to see how you can get some health care...hospitals, state funding, whatever. Then you can figure out who you need to see first...an endo or a psychiatrist...maybe both at the same time?

And keep coming back here for support...it helps to talk it out.

Ruth

Hi,

I 100% agree with Mindy and Ruth. You sound like you need some help to get out of the depression. As Mindy said, the depression itself has never caused my numbers to go up, but it did cause me to not care about myself--for years! I have another disease called Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy and I was taking a bunch of morphine for the pain. Well, morphine is depressing to the system. I didn't know about that until I got off of the oral morphine and onto a morphine pump. Within one week, I and everyone around me noticed that I was happy again. I didn't know I was depressed until I became happy again. Within a week of that, I started to care about my diabetes again. There were at least ten years where I didn't care AT ALL. If I took my blood ten times per year, I was lucky. I did always take my insulin though.

I can also relate to your not wanting to eat. For the years that I was taking the morphine, I was NEVER hungry. I quickly learned that I had to force myself. I would recommend that you try to force yourself until you can get some help because it's kind of important that you do eat--it's important for anyone.

As Ruth and Mindy said, keep coming back for support and encouragement if you need it. There are some great people here. Good luck.

Sharon :)

Sometimes you feel so crappy for so long you just forget what it feels like to feel good. I know that's what happened with me.

I heard a great saying today that really hit home. I'm not sure who said it, but here it goes:
"The best thing you can hope for in life is to be inflicted with a chronic illness so that you have a reason to start taking care of yourself."

Boy, if that aint the truth! When things are at their worst you have only 2 choices... let life consume you or take control and make positive changes. Sometimes the latter can't be accomplished without help, but its actually the easier choice.

Since my "wake-up call" at the doctor's 3 weeks ago I have totally turned the tables and am doing everything in my power to start taking care of myself. I am focusing on the ultimate goal of feeling well, looking good, and living a happier healthier life. I realize its going to take a long time to get where I need to be, but I no longer have choices - if I don't do this, I will die.

I don't know if I am helping here, but I am trying to share what I have been going through. Its very easy to get depressed over all the things that have gone wrong in our lives... but if you focus on where you want to be and what you need to do to get there, you will be amazed at how quickly you will start to feel better.

thank you everyone its nice to know there r people out there to listen and help w/t advice. i will keep u all updated. i've been calling the hospitals and all that filling out paper work they say it will take a month, but hopefully somnething good will come out of it. thanks agian.

Babygrl
aka
Erin

Erin,
Good for you...you've taken the first step! Please continue to post, ask questions, vent or whatever. At some point in the future, this will all seem like just a bad dream, and you'll be doing fine again.

Ruth

I can relate to what you are feeling.I had to end a 21 yr relationship with my childhood friend on Dec 31st.We known eachother scent we were 12 yr old.I'm 33.I'm trying to start my TV producing career.I can't find a crew.I go from home to work because i have no friends.It gets bored and lonily sometimes.I have no health insurance.Nice insurance tip.I wish i had true friends to talk to and will be there for me.The only friends i can make are over the internet which is only causal friendship and not long term.I miss talking to my friends about anything.I niss having true friend listening and giving me good advice.I don't test my blood sugar.One good thing i walk and eat right.Any time you want to talk.You know by reading my story my inbox is empty. i'll be around the boards
Robyn



thank you everyone its nice to know there r people out there to listen and help w/t advice. i will keep u all updated. i've been calling the hospitals and all that filling out paper work they say it will take a month, but hopefully somnething good will come out of it. thanks agian.

Babygrl
aka
Erin