Against my will, of course. Why? Because I didn't believe that I was real, I constantly questioned reality and had intense anxiety about death. It's bad derealization but a lot worse. So they tell me it's just anxiety and don't even give me a proper diagnoses. I was diagnosed with panic disorder awhile ago but I doubt it is causing all these weird thoughts. So now I just think I'm going crazy or something, lol. I know this post was meaningless, I just felt like ranting.