You sounded so hopeless and stressed out. Can you please tell us how you are doing?

You sounded so hopeless and stressed out. Can you please tell us how you are doing?




Well, After 8 days in the hosp my wife is doing poorly. They have her so doped up she can barley walk, talk, smoke, or most anything else.
My life has been to care for her. I just about gave up the other day but I saw a small glimpse of hope. She actually came to me and just hugged me. She almost never shows any emotion towards me. She is now a walking zombie.
What a life! :confused:

I do love her and desire us to be a normal couple. That may never happen. :confused:

I wish that I could make the break from her and not feel the way that I do. It hurts from the inside out to think of leaving her or sending her off to someplace. The place is just not there either. :confused:

I’ll try to post more often. But time on the computer is limited due to the fact that it is down stairs and we mainly live up stairs. She cannot come down here without help.

Just a short update on the wife. It’s been almost two weeks now since my last post and loads of things have happen.
1st, she has seen 2 more dr’s about a stomach problem. My goodness, she takes almost 13 meds a day! It is no wonder her stomach gives her problems.
2nd, she does have something wrong because her blood something another was out of wack. My guess is that it could be the meds; however, I may be wrong.
3rd, she has seen her phy dr too. She did reduce some of the meds. It was not enough for me; but she is the dr.
4th, my bus continues to suffer. My production is so low that making ends meet is getting hard. We are able to pay the bills. There is very little extra. Being self employed means that when I don’t work I don’t get paid. I suppose that if I were on a reg job I would have been fired or let go for the time that I have missed. I can’t very well fire myself. LOL :D
The only good news is that she is still my wife and I still love her. My church reaches out to help when they can and my family does too. My dad has agreed to keep her for me to go camping sometime next month by myself. I need the time alone. :confused: