no patience
04-06-2004, 09:23 PM
:yawn: it has been 2 months i have been off methadone thanks to all of the messages ive read on health boards it was really encouraging to know i wasnt the only one in this situation the reason im writing is because ive been off methadone 3o mgs for chronic back pain and decided it was consuming me 2 months later i still have severe anxiety depression and just have no self worth or pleasure in anything and my patience is wearing pretty F-ing thin can some one tell me if this is normal ifeel like im in some one elses body
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Karla
04-06-2004, 09:34 PM
I just quit using the duragesic patch. I have been on opiates for 5 years. I am having increased anxiety attachs also. My dr put me on a low dose of xanax for the anxiety and upped my antidepressent to also help. Good luck in staying of the methadone.
no patience
04-06-2004, 09:51 PM
the only time it really gave me euphoria was when i didnt have any for a day or so i didnt really take it to get high but just to make the withdrawals go away iwas so scared to come off of it because the withdrawal the worst part for me was the prickly skin from the anxiety and no energy and i also now have panic attacks my therapist put me on klonopin due to having panic and these pain in the a.. prickling feelings in my face lips arms and shoulders for 2 months i was ready to die thanx for responding
tryinmybest
04-06-2004, 10:24 PM
Paitence,
After two months and with a dose of 30 mgs you should not be feeling any residual effects of the meth. I think your anxiety is unrelated. The meth is a good mask for these things. Meth is a long acting drug. It seems to drag you down forever after you quit. But at two months, the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone. We sometimes link all of our woes to our encounters with opiates. I've kicked much higher doses several times. Most of my methadone detoxes were courtesy of the state. No weaning, no xanax, if you get my picture. Takes 30 days to really start to get your full energy back. My belief is you got the physical part licked!
TMB
After two months and with a dose of 30 mgs you should not be feeling any residual effects of the meth. I think your anxiety is unrelated. The meth is a good mask for these things. Meth is a long acting drug. It seems to drag you down forever after you quit. But at two months, the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone. We sometimes link all of our woes to our encounters with opiates. I've kicked much higher doses several times. Most of my methadone detoxes were courtesy of the state. No weaning, no xanax, if you get my picture. Takes 30 days to really start to get your full energy back. My belief is you got the physical part licked!
TMB
no patience
04-06-2004, 10:36 PM
thanks for the info i know the phsycal part is over but cant understand thes lasting prickly feeling in my skin and no self worth i am on effexor and switching to lexapro also just started klonopin which im kind of nervous about its just amazing how many other things i have to take know just to be of the wonder drug my life has been more of a mess off it than on it thanx tmb it helps
no patience
04-06-2004, 10:45 PM
thank you for your response it makes it easier knowing its a normal thing to feel this way i thought i was crazy and it was all in what mind i have left thanx meredith
Banker
04-09-2004, 12:11 AM
I can say that I'm sure the people that wrote to you read your replys. They probably just thought that you had all of the info you needed from your original question. I couldn't respond to your other post so I replied here. I haven't been through this but I have heard that meth withdrawal can last months and months. But I don't know AND 30 mgs doesn't seem like much to me...
Just FYI - if you ever write a post and need more feedback on it, then start a new thread so everyone will see it again. Take care and what exactly do you mean from 'prickly skin'?
Take care,
Banker
Just FYI - if you ever write a post and need more feedback on it, then start a new thread so everyone will see it again. Take care and what exactly do you mean from 'prickly skin'?
Take care,
Banker
no patience
04-09-2004, 04:32 PM
banker the prickly skin is from anxiety it just feels like the feeling when your in fight mode and i have had it for 2 months and its pretty annoying dealing with it day after day thanks for your reply it helps later kelleigh
farmboy7
04-13-2004, 09:57 PM
Hi no patience,
How are you doing now? I am wondering because I am considering weaning off of methadone that I take for my chronic back pain. I tried a quick switch to more of a different opiate last week (doctors idea) and had a bad withdrawal. How is your pain now and what are you doing for it?
thanks,
farmboy7
How are you doing now? I am wondering because I am considering weaning off of methadone that I take for my chronic back pain. I tried a quick switch to more of a different opiate last week (doctors idea) and had a bad withdrawal. How is your pain now and what are you doing for it?
thanks,
farmboy7
no patience
04-14-2004, 12:35 PM
hey whats up it is so hard to switch from methadone to another opiate because the withdrawals from the meth still shine through one thing that did help me a little was my doc weaned me off with a fentynal patch right now im taking celebrex but not working ive tried everything the sad thing is ill probably end up back on it because my pain sucks and its the only thing that helps you to function w/out pain i dont mean to discourage you about weaning off but if you do my heart goes out to you its tough thanx kelleigh and good luck if your pain is that bad i suggest staying on it i think i made a mistake
howard678
04-16-2004, 01:27 AM
Off opiates and on Klonopin... You have jumped from the frying pan into the fire. Sorry people, but I cannot believe the ignorance of these doctors. Want to really know about hell? Try kicking that stuff if you get addicted. Ask Stevie Knicks and many others.
no patience
04-16-2004, 09:13 AM
Off opiates and on Klonopin... You have jumped from the frying pan into the fire. Sorry people, but I cannot believe the ignorance of these doctors. Want to really know about hell? Try kicking that stuff if you get addicted. Ask Stevie Knicks and many others.
thats so funny you wrote this i was just gonna post and ask if any one knew any thing about klonopin why do people get addicted because when i take it it doesnt do any thing but calm me down it doesnt give me any kind of euphoria howard right back and let me know some more details cause ive been really scared about these especially being in the dark about them thanx let me know pleeaase kelleigh
thats so funny you wrote this i was just gonna post and ask if any one knew any thing about klonopin why do people get addicted because when i take it it doesnt do any thing but calm me down it doesnt give me any kind of euphoria howard right back and let me know some more details cause ive been really scared about these especially being in the dark about them thanx let me know pleeaase kelleigh
Jennita
04-16-2004, 03:10 PM
I'll jump in here...by the way, howard, I hope you are doing better...remember, it does take the brain some time to recover from benzo use...been there, done that too!
No patience, addiction is really a misunderstood term. Addiction is a combo of physical dependancy along with social and behavioral issues. Most addictive drugs have the ability to create euphorias at higher doses. Higher doses of benzos like klonopin usually will simply put one to sleep. Not much in the euphoria dept there.
I commonly tell people benzos are addictive, but sometimes I need to clarify that to some people. Benzos create sometimes huge physical dependancy. Physical dependancy in itself is NOT addiction. True "addiction" is a behavior, driven by various things, but mainly a behavior.
For example, even if one kicks the cocaine habit physically (no more withdrawals), the old way of behavior (liking or being drawn to the euphoric feelings or the people involved in the drug circles) tends to be what is hard to fight....and sometimes it leads back to the old habit again. But simply getting sick if one skips a klonopin or trys to get off is not addiction...it's physical dependancy.
Klonopin and other benzos have high potential of dependancy and tolerance. How fast these develop is varied by dosage, type of benzo, how often it is taken, personal chemistry, etc. Also, withdrawal type symptoms can linger for months to years depending during the phase after physical withdrawal, called the recovery phase. I read that benzos are exclusive to having the longest recovery period of any drug, illegal or legal! Unfortunately, nobody takes them seriously, usually the cocaine addicts, junkies and alcoholics get all the attention! I guess it's because the effects of benzos vary and sometimes are not even recognized as a culprit because of prior conditions or simply because they are all nice-and-cozy legal drugs...
Look up the free online Ashton Manual. It's pretty long and it goes into alot of explanation about benzos. The woman who wrote it, Professor Heather Ashton in the 1980's, ran a clinic in the UK for benzo patients.
Occassional (not daily) and lower doses may help avoid dependancy in most (not all) cases.
Also, no cold turkey on a benzo as sometimes seizures can result.
No patience, addiction is really a misunderstood term. Addiction is a combo of physical dependancy along with social and behavioral issues. Most addictive drugs have the ability to create euphorias at higher doses. Higher doses of benzos like klonopin usually will simply put one to sleep. Not much in the euphoria dept there.
I commonly tell people benzos are addictive, but sometimes I need to clarify that to some people. Benzos create sometimes huge physical dependancy. Physical dependancy in itself is NOT addiction. True "addiction" is a behavior, driven by various things, but mainly a behavior.
For example, even if one kicks the cocaine habit physically (no more withdrawals), the old way of behavior (liking or being drawn to the euphoric feelings or the people involved in the drug circles) tends to be what is hard to fight....and sometimes it leads back to the old habit again. But simply getting sick if one skips a klonopin or trys to get off is not addiction...it's physical dependancy.
Klonopin and other benzos have high potential of dependancy and tolerance. How fast these develop is varied by dosage, type of benzo, how often it is taken, personal chemistry, etc. Also, withdrawal type symptoms can linger for months to years depending during the phase after physical withdrawal, called the recovery phase. I read that benzos are exclusive to having the longest recovery period of any drug, illegal or legal! Unfortunately, nobody takes them seriously, usually the cocaine addicts, junkies and alcoholics get all the attention! I guess it's because the effects of benzos vary and sometimes are not even recognized as a culprit because of prior conditions or simply because they are all nice-and-cozy legal drugs...
Look up the free online Ashton Manual. It's pretty long and it goes into alot of explanation about benzos. The woman who wrote it, Professor Heather Ashton in the 1980's, ran a clinic in the UK for benzo patients.
Occassional (not daily) and lower doses may help avoid dependancy in most (not all) cases.
Also, no cold turkey on a benzo as sometimes seizures can result.
no patience
04-16-2004, 04:34 PM
I'll jump in here...by the way, howard, I hope you are doing better...remember, it does take the brain some time to recover from benzo use...been there, done that too!
No patience, addiction is really a misunderstood term. Addiction is a combo of physical dependancy along with social and behavioral issues. Most addictive drugs have the ability to create euphorias at higher doses. Higher doses of benzos like klonopin usually will simply put one to sleep. Not much in the euphoria dept there.
I commonly tell people benzos are addictive, but sometimes I need to clarify that to some people. Benzos create sometimes huge physical dependancy. Physical dependancy in itself is NOT addiction. True "addiction" is a behavior, driven by various things, but mainly a behavior.
For example, even if one kicks the cocaine habit physically (no more withdrawals), the old way of behavior (liking or being drawn to the euphoric feelings or the people involved in the drug circles) tends to be what is hard to fight....and sometimes it leads back to the old habit again. But simply getting sick if one skips a klonopin or trys to get off is not addiction...it's physical dependancy.
Klonopin and other benzos have high potential of dependancy and tolerance. How fast these develop is varied by dosage, type of benzo, how often it is taken, personal chemistry, etc. Also, withdrawal type symptoms can linger for months to years depending during the phase after physical withdrawal, called the recovery phase. I read that benzos are exclusive to having the longest recovery period of any drug, illegal or legal! Unfortunately, nobody takes them seriously, usually the cocaine addicts, junkies and alcoholics get all the attention! I guess it's because the effects of benzos vary and sometimes are not even recognized as a culprit because of prior conditions or simply because they are all nice-and-cozy legal drugs...
Look up the free online Ashton Manual. It's pretty long and it goes into alot of explanation about benzos. The woman who wrote it, Professor Heather Ashton in the 1980's, ran a clinic in the UK for benzo patients.
Occassional (not daily) and lower doses may help avoid dependancy in most (not all) cases.
Also, no cold turkey on a benzo as sometimes seizures can result.
thanks for the info very helpful at least now idont feel like an idiot theyve just helped me tremendously i couldnt even go anywhere before taking these but then again i dont want to go through all this pyshological crap again thanks so much kelleigh
No patience, addiction is really a misunderstood term. Addiction is a combo of physical dependancy along with social and behavioral issues. Most addictive drugs have the ability to create euphorias at higher doses. Higher doses of benzos like klonopin usually will simply put one to sleep. Not much in the euphoria dept there.
I commonly tell people benzos are addictive, but sometimes I need to clarify that to some people. Benzos create sometimes huge physical dependancy. Physical dependancy in itself is NOT addiction. True "addiction" is a behavior, driven by various things, but mainly a behavior.
For example, even if one kicks the cocaine habit physically (no more withdrawals), the old way of behavior (liking or being drawn to the euphoric feelings or the people involved in the drug circles) tends to be what is hard to fight....and sometimes it leads back to the old habit again. But simply getting sick if one skips a klonopin or trys to get off is not addiction...it's physical dependancy.
Klonopin and other benzos have high potential of dependancy and tolerance. How fast these develop is varied by dosage, type of benzo, how often it is taken, personal chemistry, etc. Also, withdrawal type symptoms can linger for months to years depending during the phase after physical withdrawal, called the recovery phase. I read that benzos are exclusive to having the longest recovery period of any drug, illegal or legal! Unfortunately, nobody takes them seriously, usually the cocaine addicts, junkies and alcoholics get all the attention! I guess it's because the effects of benzos vary and sometimes are not even recognized as a culprit because of prior conditions or simply because they are all nice-and-cozy legal drugs...
Look up the free online Ashton Manual. It's pretty long and it goes into alot of explanation about benzos. The woman who wrote it, Professor Heather Ashton in the 1980's, ran a clinic in the UK for benzo patients.
Occassional (not daily) and lower doses may help avoid dependancy in most (not all) cases.
Also, no cold turkey on a benzo as sometimes seizures can result.
thanks for the info very helpful at least now idont feel like an idiot theyve just helped me tremendously i couldnt even go anywhere before taking these but then again i dont want to go through all this pyshological crap again thanks so much kelleigh
Jennita
04-17-2004, 02:03 AM
Your welcome and good luck to you :)
howard678
04-17-2004, 05:33 PM
No patience,
Terminology has evolved and I actually agree with the distinction addiction/dependency that Jennita makes. True "addicts" are out to get a buzz or get wasted and benzos are often used by them to enhance alcohol highs or to come down from opiate and cocaine binges. But these rarely get "addicted" to "dependant" on or say "hooked" on benzos. Daily theraputic users often do. Yet some of these may increase doses in order to escape from life which may fall under "addiction." Frankly though, I am much more concerned with encouraging you to flush those pills than semantics. Why take a chance on the potentially worst and most long term withdrawal syndrome of all? Looking up the Ashton Manual on the net was a good suggestion...
Jennita,
Thanks for your concern. Am half way to the finish line. Got an excellent doc. I am "the same ole me," however. I read stories of people that spent months not answering the door or telephone. Well, in my case, there would be no telephone or door to answer... So I instead choose to listen to Ashton, who says a slow taper enables one "to go on with their normal lives." So far, so good. As to recovery time for the brain, makes perfect sense. Particulars, longevity in my individual case, will have to wait and see. No point in worrying about tomorrow. Can only work to screw up today.
Terminology has evolved and I actually agree with the distinction addiction/dependency that Jennita makes. True "addicts" are out to get a buzz or get wasted and benzos are often used by them to enhance alcohol highs or to come down from opiate and cocaine binges. But these rarely get "addicted" to "dependant" on or say "hooked" on benzos. Daily theraputic users often do. Yet some of these may increase doses in order to escape from life which may fall under "addiction." Frankly though, I am much more concerned with encouraging you to flush those pills than semantics. Why take a chance on the potentially worst and most long term withdrawal syndrome of all? Looking up the Ashton Manual on the net was a good suggestion...
Jennita,
Thanks for your concern. Am half way to the finish line. Got an excellent doc. I am "the same ole me," however. I read stories of people that spent months not answering the door or telephone. Well, in my case, there would be no telephone or door to answer... So I instead choose to listen to Ashton, who says a slow taper enables one "to go on with their normal lives." So far, so good. As to recovery time for the brain, makes perfect sense. Particulars, longevity in my individual case, will have to wait and see. No point in worrying about tomorrow. Can only work to screw up today.
no patience
04-17-2004, 08:45 PM
No patience,
Terminology has evolved and I actually agree with the distinction addiction/dependency that Jennita makes. True "addicts" are out to get a buzz or get wasted and benzos are often used by them to enhance alcohol highs or to come down from opiate and cocaine binges. But these rarely get "addicted" to "dependant" on or say "hooked" on benzos. Daily theraputic users often do. Yet some of these may increase doses in order to escape from life which may fall under "addiction." Frankly though, I am much more concerned with encouraging you to flush those pills than semantics. Why take a chance on the potentially worst and most long term withdrawal syndrome of all? Looking up the Ashton Manual on the net was a good suggestion...
Jennita,
Thanks for your concern. Am half way to the finish line. Got an excellent doc. I am "the same ole me," however. I read stories of people that spent months not answering the door or telephone. Well, in my case, there would be no telephone or door to answer... So I instead choose to listen to Ashton, who says a slow taper enables one "to go on with their normal lives." So far, so good. As to recovery time for the brain, makes perfect sense. Particulars, longevity in my individual case, will have to wait and see. No point in worrying about tomorrow. Can only work to screw up today.
howard my therapist said i would only be on these for 4 to5 weeks i take them to get rid of the rage and constant panic attacks i was having also for the 2 1/2 months i was off methadone i felt a constant prickly pins and needles feeling in my arms face and back of neck it was like the feeling that comes over your body when you are in a horrifying situation and the klonopin took that away i couldnt stand it anymore im not a violent person but let me tell it was coming to it this methadone thing really messed me up physical addiction to me is a crock i dont care if its heroin or what ever other drug they say physical addiction comes with no phychological addiction well the experts can talk to me and if the klonopin is gonna help me at least feel like a human being instead of pin cushin and help me beable to go out and function in society im gonna continue im sorry if i sound like a bi--- but im just so sick of this long drawn out f-ing process i guess thats why im no patience thanks so much i really appreciate your input love and peace kelleigh
Terminology has evolved and I actually agree with the distinction addiction/dependency that Jennita makes. True "addicts" are out to get a buzz or get wasted and benzos are often used by them to enhance alcohol highs or to come down from opiate and cocaine binges. But these rarely get "addicted" to "dependant" on or say "hooked" on benzos. Daily theraputic users often do. Yet some of these may increase doses in order to escape from life which may fall under "addiction." Frankly though, I am much more concerned with encouraging you to flush those pills than semantics. Why take a chance on the potentially worst and most long term withdrawal syndrome of all? Looking up the Ashton Manual on the net was a good suggestion...
Jennita,
Thanks for your concern. Am half way to the finish line. Got an excellent doc. I am "the same ole me," however. I read stories of people that spent months not answering the door or telephone. Well, in my case, there would be no telephone or door to answer... So I instead choose to listen to Ashton, who says a slow taper enables one "to go on with their normal lives." So far, so good. As to recovery time for the brain, makes perfect sense. Particulars, longevity in my individual case, will have to wait and see. No point in worrying about tomorrow. Can only work to screw up today.
howard my therapist said i would only be on these for 4 to5 weeks i take them to get rid of the rage and constant panic attacks i was having also for the 2 1/2 months i was off methadone i felt a constant prickly pins and needles feeling in my arms face and back of neck it was like the feeling that comes over your body when you are in a horrifying situation and the klonopin took that away i couldnt stand it anymore im not a violent person but let me tell it was coming to it this methadone thing really messed me up physical addiction to me is a crock i dont care if its heroin or what ever other drug they say physical addiction comes with no phychological addiction well the experts can talk to me and if the klonopin is gonna help me at least feel like a human being instead of pin cushin and help me beable to go out and function in society im gonna continue im sorry if i sound like a bi--- but im just so sick of this long drawn out f-ing process i guess thats why im no patience thanks so much i really appreciate your input love and peace kelleigh
SimplyStupid
04-17-2004, 08:54 PM
Jennita~ you are the first person on here to really put into words what a BENZO can do. I am living proof of what a HORROR you will go thru if you abuse and stop. As I stated in another thread, it took me well over a year to regain control over my body. I had to RELEARN how to write my name. thats just the beginning of the hell I went thru. I have NO idea why these docs write them so freely. You could never get me to take another one. I would tell anybody to just bo-up and bear it before you take a benzo for the wd's....but anyway, I've never really talked to anybody that went thru what I did and you're the closest that I've seen describe it. ~SS
no patience
04-17-2004, 09:28 PM
Jennita~ you are the first person on here to really put into words what a BENZO can do. I am living proof of what a HORROR you will go thru if you abuse and stop. As I stated in another thread, it took me well over a year to regain control over my body. I had to RELEARN how to write my name. thats just the beginning of the hell I went thru. I have NO idea why these docs write them so freely. You could never get me to take another one. I would tell anybody to just bo-up and bear it before you take a benzo for the wd's....but anyway, I've never really talked to anybody that went thru what I did and you're the closest that I've seen describe it. ~SS
ss jennita definitly did give some awesome information i am horrifyed to hear the story of what you went through i thought my detox from methadone was bad im so glad to hear that part of your hell is over im not sure if your fully recovered but if your not i hope you will be soon love and peace kelleigh
ss jennita definitly did give some awesome information i am horrifyed to hear the story of what you went through i thought my detox from methadone was bad im so glad to hear that part of your hell is over im not sure if your fully recovered but if your not i hope you will be soon love and peace kelleigh
howard678
04-17-2004, 09:41 PM
Paitence,
After two months and with a dose of 30 mgs you should not be feeling any residual effects of the meth. I think your anxiety is unrelated. The meth is a good mask for these things. Meth is a long acting drug. It seems to drag you down forever after you quit. But at two months, the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone. We sometimes link all of our woes to our encounters with opiates. I've kicked much higher doses several times. Most of my methadone detoxes were courtesy of the state. No weaning, no xanax, if you get my picture. Takes 30 days to really start to get your full energy back. My belief is you got the physical part licked!
TMB
No patience. I empathize, promise. :) Above is what a prior poster told you. You have been off two months, and from what I have read, heard, and seen, your physical withdrawal from opiates should be over. Did you have panic attacks before you became addicted to opiates? The issues that caused one to want drugs will usually be waiting for the user once they are off them, IMO.
Less than a month of Klonopin use probably would not produce any physical dependance, but what is the plan after that? If you still have intense anxiety I assure you that you can find someone to give you more Klonopin or Xanax. Was never a problem for me. Then you are heading down the road... For those that must have meds to function because of these issues SSRIs more likely to be a better short term solution because there is much less propensity to build tolerance, and the withdrawal syndromes, when they occur, are known to be shorter and less severe.
I know what it is like to need to function, as unlike many in cyberspace, I do not have the personal resources stay at home 6 month or a year then go job hunting again. Unless you want to call an automobile or a refrigerator box a home. I had some panic attacks when trying to come off Xanax or Klonopin because the withdrawals made me feel like I was having a heart attack. Well, I have had extensive tests done and I am healthy as a horse, aside from benzo dependency. So if I feel a bit of anxiety coming on, which everyone has to some degree, I do not "freak out" or believe the lie, at least have not in many months. There are non-drug methods for coping with these problems. CBT therapy being one.
After two months and with a dose of 30 mgs you should not be feeling any residual effects of the meth. I think your anxiety is unrelated. The meth is a good mask for these things. Meth is a long acting drug. It seems to drag you down forever after you quit. But at two months, the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone. We sometimes link all of our woes to our encounters with opiates. I've kicked much higher doses several times. Most of my methadone detoxes were courtesy of the state. No weaning, no xanax, if you get my picture. Takes 30 days to really start to get your full energy back. My belief is you got the physical part licked!
TMB
No patience. I empathize, promise. :) Above is what a prior poster told you. You have been off two months, and from what I have read, heard, and seen, your physical withdrawal from opiates should be over. Did you have panic attacks before you became addicted to opiates? The issues that caused one to want drugs will usually be waiting for the user once they are off them, IMO.
Less than a month of Klonopin use probably would not produce any physical dependance, but what is the plan after that? If you still have intense anxiety I assure you that you can find someone to give you more Klonopin or Xanax. Was never a problem for me. Then you are heading down the road... For those that must have meds to function because of these issues SSRIs more likely to be a better short term solution because there is much less propensity to build tolerance, and the withdrawal syndromes, when they occur, are known to be shorter and less severe.
I know what it is like to need to function, as unlike many in cyberspace, I do not have the personal resources stay at home 6 month or a year then go job hunting again. Unless you want to call an automobile or a refrigerator box a home. I had some panic attacks when trying to come off Xanax or Klonopin because the withdrawals made me feel like I was having a heart attack. Well, I have had extensive tests done and I am healthy as a horse, aside from benzo dependency. So if I feel a bit of anxiety coming on, which everyone has to some degree, I do not "freak out" or believe the lie, at least have not in many months. There are non-drug methods for coping with these problems. CBT therapy being one.
Jennita
04-18-2004, 01:35 AM
Simply,
I'm very sorry for what you went through...I hear you...after the hell I went through, I would never take one again either! I'm glad you got away from those horrible pills, some people never escape. I guess we are both very fortunate!
Howard,
I'm so happy you are pushing on...I remember your old thread and you were really suffering, sometimes I did think you were not going to follow through. I know withdrawal was one of the worst experiences of my life, so I don't blame people who give up, only that it's scary to think what will become of them one day.
I developed such a high tolerance to my prescribed 2mgs. Ativan ,I could take that dose at night and be wide/bright awake the entire night and this could happen sometimes 4 nights in a row! It had absolutely no effect. So I looked down the road a bit one day and realized where I would end up. Meanwhile , my doctor wasn't concerned about addiction (he didn't mention dependancy) and I suppose he thought I was in such a mental state that I could literally force myself to not sleep for all those days despite the fact that 2 mgs. Ativan at one time is plenty to knock most people cold. I guess he never heard of tolerance withdrawals. But neither had I then, or I would have never taken those pills to start with.
No Patience,
All of us here can sympathize with you, having been through it too. If you are going to take the Klonopin anyway, well, at least stick to the time frame your doc suggested and no more, then insist he help you do a very, very slow taper... and not necessarily what is deemed the standard "safe" taper, sometimes that is even too fast! The Ashton Manual can help. And please do not let him insist you need these drugs for life...you do not, I can assure you. Myself and tons of other people I've read about that were told that found, in the end, it was not true.
I hope it goes smooth for you...you might be one of the lucky ones and not have a severe withdrawal...hopefully so. Lots of luck to you.
I'm very sorry for what you went through...I hear you...after the hell I went through, I would never take one again either! I'm glad you got away from those horrible pills, some people never escape. I guess we are both very fortunate!
Howard,
I'm so happy you are pushing on...I remember your old thread and you were really suffering, sometimes I did think you were not going to follow through. I know withdrawal was one of the worst experiences of my life, so I don't blame people who give up, only that it's scary to think what will become of them one day.
I developed such a high tolerance to my prescribed 2mgs. Ativan ,I could take that dose at night and be wide/bright awake the entire night and this could happen sometimes 4 nights in a row! It had absolutely no effect. So I looked down the road a bit one day and realized where I would end up. Meanwhile , my doctor wasn't concerned about addiction (he didn't mention dependancy) and I suppose he thought I was in such a mental state that I could literally force myself to not sleep for all those days despite the fact that 2 mgs. Ativan at one time is plenty to knock most people cold. I guess he never heard of tolerance withdrawals. But neither had I then, or I would have never taken those pills to start with.
No Patience,
All of us here can sympathize with you, having been through it too. If you are going to take the Klonopin anyway, well, at least stick to the time frame your doc suggested and no more, then insist he help you do a very, very slow taper... and not necessarily what is deemed the standard "safe" taper, sometimes that is even too fast! The Ashton Manual can help. And please do not let him insist you need these drugs for life...you do not, I can assure you. Myself and tons of other people I've read about that were told that found, in the end, it was not true.
I hope it goes smooth for you...you might be one of the lucky ones and not have a severe withdrawal...hopefully so. Lots of luck to you.
howard678
04-18-2004, 04:56 PM
Jennita,
Yea, I suffered pretty bad for 3 months trying to get off, was using the wrong tapering medium (Klonopin) and had my dose cut in half by the doc from the get go. C/T is not easy. Yet have only used 5 sick days this year. Less than average. lol I had no support other than the net and most of what I read there were all but promises of becoming cripled and homebound. Ashton however says that symptoms typically disappear within 3 months of coming off, and that slow tapering typically enables one to keep their normal life. I stand on this, work on my spiritual life, and have e-mails and telephone going with people on the same page as me. I am not in the internet support forums. Got a good doc this time. I am not worried. What good would it do? I turn a deal ear to anyone that tries to drag me down. I do like this board though. Gives me some opportunities to encourage and warn, and learn also.
Yea, I suffered pretty bad for 3 months trying to get off, was using the wrong tapering medium (Klonopin) and had my dose cut in half by the doc from the get go. C/T is not easy. Yet have only used 5 sick days this year. Less than average. lol I had no support other than the net and most of what I read there were all but promises of becoming cripled and homebound. Ashton however says that symptoms typically disappear within 3 months of coming off, and that slow tapering typically enables one to keep their normal life. I stand on this, work on my spiritual life, and have e-mails and telephone going with people on the same page as me. I am not in the internet support forums. Got a good doc this time. I am not worried. What good would it do? I turn a deal ear to anyone that tries to drag me down. I do like this board though. Gives me some opportunities to encourage and warn, and learn also.
Jennita
04-18-2004, 05:26 PM
Sounds like you have it all together. I didn't have the benefit of the Ashton stuff when I tapered too quickly off Ativan, so I did get the protracted stuff peolple mention. But I noticed most of the severe anxiety stuff did go after only a few months. The insomnia hung on for years, but the severity of it diminished over time. The first year was the worst. I never had some of the other stuff like depersonization/derealization....alot of people it seemed were on antidepressants during withdrawals in the support groups so maybe that was a factor?
See, when I investigated, I didn't just investigate benzos...I went for all the psychoactive drugs, so when I quit Ativan, no other drugs were even a consideration for me. So although I did suffer alot during my withdrawal and recovery, I never once felt out of touch with the world or myself, or felt crippled in any way. I never once considered any other drugs to get me through....I was finally educated about those pills...fool me once, because I don't allow it twice!
I used to be quite an athletic sort, so I even went to the gym several times a week during my worst withdrawals....not much of a workout achieved but I was determined to get back to my old self....all it would take is a few hours sleep for me to get up and go there, sure, I was tired but I knew it was good for me.
Sounds like you have the same determination. When you do hit a bump in the road, there's no shame in feeling down. It's not an easy thing, getting off these benzos.
See, when I investigated, I didn't just investigate benzos...I went for all the psychoactive drugs, so when I quit Ativan, no other drugs were even a consideration for me. So although I did suffer alot during my withdrawal and recovery, I never once felt out of touch with the world or myself, or felt crippled in any way. I never once considered any other drugs to get me through....I was finally educated about those pills...fool me once, because I don't allow it twice!
I used to be quite an athletic sort, so I even went to the gym several times a week during my worst withdrawals....not much of a workout achieved but I was determined to get back to my old self....all it would take is a few hours sleep for me to get up and go there, sure, I was tired but I knew it was good for me.
Sounds like you have the same determination. When you do hit a bump in the road, there's no shame in feeling down. It's not an easy thing, getting off these benzos.
howard678
04-18-2004, 06:27 PM
Jennita,
It all seems to be in the long half life of the Valium, that and the gradual reduction. The support forums gave me that, as did the founder of one of them give us all the Ashton Manual. So a debt of gratitude is owed, and I have expressed it. Just too much for me reading in them at this time. I did not really want to taper before. It was not anxiety that did me in C/T, it was back, head, and neck pressure. Would probably have toughed it out if I had it to do over but hindsight is 20/20.
Your situation sounds reasonable. I fully expect to feel the after effects of these drugs for some time once I come off. I guess is sort of like rebooting your computer. But I also expect to function. Insomnia: I have been plagued by that for 10 years, way before benzos. I have been over-worked, first with working on advanced degrees and now with two jobs, one that requires getting up at the crack of dawn and has steady confrontations. Doc says to quit afternoon naps even though I come home exhausted. This may require caffeine. lol Also, there are times, especially now that the Valium is less sedative, that I have to knock myself out with antihistamine. It is that or work all day with no sleep. Is always a last resort. I`d skip it if I did not have to get up and work. What has been your experience, if any, with sleep aids during withdrawals? I do not see my insomnia so much as a withdrawal symptom, just things back to normal. I have a several friends at work that also have sleep problems. Know one guy that has been functioning on about 3 hours sleep a night for many years. He takes not meds except Beta blockers which he needs.
It all seems to be in the long half life of the Valium, that and the gradual reduction. The support forums gave me that, as did the founder of one of them give us all the Ashton Manual. So a debt of gratitude is owed, and I have expressed it. Just too much for me reading in them at this time. I did not really want to taper before. It was not anxiety that did me in C/T, it was back, head, and neck pressure. Would probably have toughed it out if I had it to do over but hindsight is 20/20.
Your situation sounds reasonable. I fully expect to feel the after effects of these drugs for some time once I come off. I guess is sort of like rebooting your computer. But I also expect to function. Insomnia: I have been plagued by that for 10 years, way before benzos. I have been over-worked, first with working on advanced degrees and now with two jobs, one that requires getting up at the crack of dawn and has steady confrontations. Doc says to quit afternoon naps even though I come home exhausted. This may require caffeine. lol Also, there are times, especially now that the Valium is less sedative, that I have to knock myself out with antihistamine. It is that or work all day with no sleep. Is always a last resort. I`d skip it if I did not have to get up and work. What has been your experience, if any, with sleep aids during withdrawals? I do not see my insomnia so much as a withdrawal symptom, just things back to normal. I have a several friends at work that also have sleep problems. Know one guy that has been functioning on about 3 hours sleep a night for many years. He takes not meds except Beta blockers which he needs.
no patience
04-18-2004, 07:25 PM
Simply,
I'm very sorry for what you went through...I hear you...after the hell I went through, I would never take one again either! I'm glad you got away from those horrible pills, some people never escape. I guess we are both very fortunate!
Howard,
I'm so happy you are pushing on...I remember your old thread and you were really suffering, sometimes I did think you were not going to follow through. I know withdrawal was one of the worst experiences of my life, so I don't blame people who give up, only that it's scary to think what will become of them one day.
I developed such a high tolerance to my prescribed 2mgs. Ativan ,I could take that dose at night and be wide/bright awake the entire night and this could happen sometimes 4 nights in a row! It had absolutely no effect. So I looked down the road a bit one day and realized where I would end up. Meanwhile , my doctor wasn't concerned about addiction (he didn't mention dependancy) and I suppose he thought I was in such a mental state that I could literally force myself to not sleep for all those days despite the fact that 2 mgs. Ativan at one time is plenty to knock most people cold. I guess he never heard of tolerance withdrawals. But neither had I then, or I would have never taken those pills to start with.
No Patience,
All of us here can sympathize with you, having been through it too. If you are going to take the Klonopin anyway, well, at least stick to the time frame your doc suggested and no more, then insist he help you do a very, very slow taper... and not necessarily what is deemed the standard "safe" taper, sometimes that is even too fast! The Ashton Manual can help. And please do not let him insist you need these drugs for life...you do not, I can assure you. Myself and tons of other people I've read about that were told that found, in the end, it was not true.
I hope it goes smooth for you...you might be one of the lucky ones and not have a severe withdrawal...hopefully so. Lots of luck to you.
jennita thanks for your support
I'm very sorry for what you went through...I hear you...after the hell I went through, I would never take one again either! I'm glad you got away from those horrible pills, some people never escape. I guess we are both very fortunate!
Howard,
I'm so happy you are pushing on...I remember your old thread and you were really suffering, sometimes I did think you were not going to follow through. I know withdrawal was one of the worst experiences of my life, so I don't blame people who give up, only that it's scary to think what will become of them one day.
I developed such a high tolerance to my prescribed 2mgs. Ativan ,I could take that dose at night and be wide/bright awake the entire night and this could happen sometimes 4 nights in a row! It had absolutely no effect. So I looked down the road a bit one day and realized where I would end up. Meanwhile , my doctor wasn't concerned about addiction (he didn't mention dependancy) and I suppose he thought I was in such a mental state that I could literally force myself to not sleep for all those days despite the fact that 2 mgs. Ativan at one time is plenty to knock most people cold. I guess he never heard of tolerance withdrawals. But neither had I then, or I would have never taken those pills to start with.
No Patience,
All of us here can sympathize with you, having been through it too. If you are going to take the Klonopin anyway, well, at least stick to the time frame your doc suggested and no more, then insist he help you do a very, very slow taper... and not necessarily what is deemed the standard "safe" taper, sometimes that is even too fast! The Ashton Manual can help. And please do not let him insist you need these drugs for life...you do not, I can assure you. Myself and tons of other people I've read about that were told that found, in the end, it was not true.
I hope it goes smooth for you...you might be one of the lucky ones and not have a severe withdrawal...hopefully so. Lots of luck to you.
jennita thanks for your support
Jennita
04-19-2004, 03:00 PM
Your welcome, no patience. Sometimes we have to educate ourselves on some of these issues because doctors are usually too busy to look into details of things like withdrawal syndromes. Best wishes to you! :)
Howard,
Well, it sounds like the insomnia of your past was from overwork and bad sleep schedule. Napping does seem to exasperate that sort of thing. I wouldn't know really; the only time of my life I had insomnia at all was when I was exposed to prescription drugs, and of course the withdrawal syndrome. Before that, I slept like a teenager practically...a good 7-8 hours everynight...I don't know if it was genetics, or the fact I exercised alot, or that milk was my choice with a steak dinner instead of wine. I was not a health nut(I like my chocolate and sodas) but I did have an interest in healthy lifestlyle. I especially like weight training.
As far as sleep aids during withdrawals, I found it was hit-and-miss. Some nights, one thing would work, but not always.
I did get good results from double-bagging chamomile tea into just a half cup water a little before bedtime. Milk sometimes worked too; either warm or cold. I seemed to get results from calcium supplements around an hour or a half hour before bed. When my sleep started to improve, Benedryl did help me on nights it looked like I wouldn't drift off at all.
And I remember another thing that helped me....believe it or not, plain tylenol. Someone in the support group mentioned that a drop in body temp encourages sleep. Again, this was not a sure-everynight thing, but it was wonderful when it actually worked, and it did quite a few times. Benzos /withdrawals seem to mess with body temp as well.
I've heard some people swear by Valerian Root but I didn't try it; I guess the fact it was toted as a weaker version of Valium turned me off of it. I thought it might be too simular. But really, I'm sure it is safe enough. Check with your doctor anyway. Melantonin is another one I was a bit afraid of, but maybe you could ask about that one too.
I think there are alot of things you could try out there; all are definately safer than prescription drugs! Let me know how it goes....
Howard,
Well, it sounds like the insomnia of your past was from overwork and bad sleep schedule. Napping does seem to exasperate that sort of thing. I wouldn't know really; the only time of my life I had insomnia at all was when I was exposed to prescription drugs, and of course the withdrawal syndrome. Before that, I slept like a teenager practically...a good 7-8 hours everynight...I don't know if it was genetics, or the fact I exercised alot, or that milk was my choice with a steak dinner instead of wine. I was not a health nut(I like my chocolate and sodas) but I did have an interest in healthy lifestlyle. I especially like weight training.
As far as sleep aids during withdrawals, I found it was hit-and-miss. Some nights, one thing would work, but not always.
I did get good results from double-bagging chamomile tea into just a half cup water a little before bedtime. Milk sometimes worked too; either warm or cold. I seemed to get results from calcium supplements around an hour or a half hour before bed. When my sleep started to improve, Benedryl did help me on nights it looked like I wouldn't drift off at all.
And I remember another thing that helped me....believe it or not, plain tylenol. Someone in the support group mentioned that a drop in body temp encourages sleep. Again, this was not a sure-everynight thing, but it was wonderful when it actually worked, and it did quite a few times. Benzos /withdrawals seem to mess with body temp as well.
I've heard some people swear by Valerian Root but I didn't try it; I guess the fact it was toted as a weaker version of Valium turned me off of it. I thought it might be too simular. But really, I'm sure it is safe enough. Check with your doctor anyway. Melantonin is another one I was a bit afraid of, but maybe you could ask about that one too.
I think there are alot of things you could try out there; all are definately safer than prescription drugs! Let me know how it goes....
howard678
04-19-2004, 10:24 PM
Jennita,
Today is day one of cutting the naps out. Has been a fight but looks like I have made it and will be to bed soon. This might be the ticket. Thanks.
Today is day one of cutting the naps out. Has been a fight but looks like I have made it and will be to bed soon. This might be the ticket. Thanks.
no patience
04-20-2004, 01:31 PM
Your welcome, no patience. Sometimes we have to educate ourselves on some of these issues because doctors are usually too busy to look into details of things like withdrawal syndromes. Best wishes to you! :)
Howard,
Well, it sounds like the insomnia of your past was from overwork and bad sleep schedule. Napping does seem to exasperate that sort of thing. I wouldn't know really; the only time of my life I had insomnia at all was when I was exposed to prescription drugs, and of course the withdrawal syndrome. Before that, I slept like a teenager practically...a good 7-8 hours everynight...I don't know if it was genetics, or the fact I exercised alot, or that milk was my choice with a steak dinner instead of wine. I was not a health nut(I like my chocolate and sodas) but I did have an interest in healthy lifestlyle. I especially like weight training.
As far as sleep aids during withdrawals, I found it was hit-and-miss. Some nights, one thing would work, but not always.
I did get good results from double-bagging chamomile tea into just a half cup water a little before bedtime. Milk sometimes worked too; either warm or cold. I seemed to get results from calcium supplements around an hour or a half hour before bed. When my sleep started to improve, Benedryl did help me on nights it looked like I wouldn't drift off at all.
And I remember another thing that helped me....believe it or not, plain tylenol. Someone in the support group mentioned that a drop in body temp encourages sleep. Again, this was not a sure-everynight thing, but it was wonderful when it actually worked, and it did quite a few times. Benzos /withdrawals seem to mess with body temp as well.
I've heard some people swear by Valerian Root but I didn't try it; I guess the fact it was toted as a weaker version of Valium turned me off of it. I thought it might be too simular. But really, I'm sure it is safe enough. Check with your doctor anyway. Melantonin is another one I was a bit afraid of, but maybe you could ask about that one too.
I think there are alot of things you could try out there; all are definately safer than prescription drugs! Let me know how it goes....
jennita youre definitly right my primary doc and my pain doc both said after 2wks from withdrawaling from methadone i'd be fine look at me almost 3 months later still a basket case and feeling like i'm living someone elses life if they are gonna hand out all these scripts like candy they need to tell you the consequences i knew nothing about methadone when i started taking it if i was more informed of the after effects insted of a little pharmacy paper this could be habit forming why doesnt it say if you ever have to stop taking this medication prepare to feel like your in hell for months thanks had to vent just so angry kelleigh
Howard,
Well, it sounds like the insomnia of your past was from overwork and bad sleep schedule. Napping does seem to exasperate that sort of thing. I wouldn't know really; the only time of my life I had insomnia at all was when I was exposed to prescription drugs, and of course the withdrawal syndrome. Before that, I slept like a teenager practically...a good 7-8 hours everynight...I don't know if it was genetics, or the fact I exercised alot, or that milk was my choice with a steak dinner instead of wine. I was not a health nut(I like my chocolate and sodas) but I did have an interest in healthy lifestlyle. I especially like weight training.
As far as sleep aids during withdrawals, I found it was hit-and-miss. Some nights, one thing would work, but not always.
I did get good results from double-bagging chamomile tea into just a half cup water a little before bedtime. Milk sometimes worked too; either warm or cold. I seemed to get results from calcium supplements around an hour or a half hour before bed. When my sleep started to improve, Benedryl did help me on nights it looked like I wouldn't drift off at all.
And I remember another thing that helped me....believe it or not, plain tylenol. Someone in the support group mentioned that a drop in body temp encourages sleep. Again, this was not a sure-everynight thing, but it was wonderful when it actually worked, and it did quite a few times. Benzos /withdrawals seem to mess with body temp as well.
I've heard some people swear by Valerian Root but I didn't try it; I guess the fact it was toted as a weaker version of Valium turned me off of it. I thought it might be too simular. But really, I'm sure it is safe enough. Check with your doctor anyway. Melantonin is another one I was a bit afraid of, but maybe you could ask about that one too.
I think there are alot of things you could try out there; all are definately safer than prescription drugs! Let me know how it goes....
jennita youre definitly right my primary doc and my pain doc both said after 2wks from withdrawaling from methadone i'd be fine look at me almost 3 months later still a basket case and feeling like i'm living someone elses life if they are gonna hand out all these scripts like candy they need to tell you the consequences i knew nothing about methadone when i started taking it if i was more informed of the after effects insted of a little pharmacy paper this could be habit forming why doesnt it say if you ever have to stop taking this medication prepare to feel like your in hell for months thanks had to vent just so angry kelleigh
no patience
04-20-2004, 02:34 PM
farmboy 7 you posted me a few days ago about weaning off methadone just wondered how it was going and if you made your decision kelleigh
Jennita
04-20-2004, 03:52 PM
Ah, yes, anger is an appropriate response. I was angry for a long time...actually, I still get angry now and then about the whole ordeal I went through. Well, what can you do, except warn others. They are prescribing psychiatric drugs for everything but sneezing these days (thank goodness for Claritin or maybe that wouldn't be true) and it's sickening.
But at least some of the stuff is hitting the fan...aka the latest bad press about antidepressants and most importantly, the misleading information from clinical trials for those drugs....pharma co's have been filing away the clinical trials that showed very poor results, and also have not accurately presented the positive ones. A recent article on Msnbc shows that the drug co's misrepresented how effective the AD's are at all. Wow, what a surprise, huh...people like Dr. Ann Tracy has been saying this for years. Thank goodness, because they are giving more and more children drugs. I guess they weren't making enough millions on adults. Well, now they are being investigated....
Sorry for the rant, but I think you are yet another victim of this system. Well, I do hope you can eventually slow taper off your klonopin and feel better. Be patient; it takes time, a long time sometimes but in the end you will be ok again!
But at least some of the stuff is hitting the fan...aka the latest bad press about antidepressants and most importantly, the misleading information from clinical trials for those drugs....pharma co's have been filing away the clinical trials that showed very poor results, and also have not accurately presented the positive ones. A recent article on Msnbc shows that the drug co's misrepresented how effective the AD's are at all. Wow, what a surprise, huh...people like Dr. Ann Tracy has been saying this for years. Thank goodness, because they are giving more and more children drugs. I guess they weren't making enough millions on adults. Well, now they are being investigated....
Sorry for the rant, but I think you are yet another victim of this system. Well, I do hope you can eventually slow taper off your klonopin and feel better. Be patient; it takes time, a long time sometimes but in the end you will be ok again!
Jennita
04-20-2004, 03:54 PM
Howard, did you sleep well last night? :wave:
howard678
04-20-2004, 06:18 PM
<<Howard, did you sleep well last night?>>
Was out like a light at 9:45, would have been Valium or not, but had to take my dose. Up at 4 then slept another hour. Am exhausted now, post-work. That has been the case for many years, well before benzos. I will stay awake another 5 hours come hell or high water. The napping habit will not be easy to break but it will be. Doc told me to stop it. The fact that benzos produce inferior sleep aggravates the situation. But benzos will be beat as well, slowly but surely... Thanks for asking :-)
Was out like a light at 9:45, would have been Valium or not, but had to take my dose. Up at 4 then slept another hour. Am exhausted now, post-work. That has been the case for many years, well before benzos. I will stay awake another 5 hours come hell or high water. The napping habit will not be easy to break but it will be. Doc told me to stop it. The fact that benzos produce inferior sleep aggravates the situation. But benzos will be beat as well, slowly but surely... Thanks for asking :-)
no patience
04-20-2004, 07:17 PM
<<Howard, did you sleep well last night?>>
Was out like a light at 9:45, would have been Valium or not, but had to take my dose. Up at 4 then slept another hour. Am exhausted now, post-work. That has been the case for many years, well before benzos. I will stay awake another 5 hours come hell or high water. The napping habit will not be easy to break but it will be. Doc told me to stop it. The fact that benzos produce inferior sleep aggravates the situation. But benzos will be beat as well, slowly but surely... Thanks for asking :-)
howard 678 ive read some of your posts if you dont mind my asking whats your situation why are you having sleep problems sorry if i seem nosey but just concerened kelleigh
Was out like a light at 9:45, would have been Valium or not, but had to take my dose. Up at 4 then slept another hour. Am exhausted now, post-work. That has been the case for many years, well before benzos. I will stay awake another 5 hours come hell or high water. The napping habit will not be easy to break but it will be. Doc told me to stop it. The fact that benzos produce inferior sleep aggravates the situation. But benzos will be beat as well, slowly but surely... Thanks for asking :-)
howard 678 ive read some of your posts if you dont mind my asking whats your situation why are you having sleep problems sorry if i seem nosey but just concerened kelleigh
howard678
04-20-2004, 09:07 PM
Kayleigh,
You ask why I have sleep problems? Would be hard to be nosy. We are about helping one another and sharing experiences.
1. I am a very hard working professional.
2. I have a demanding boss.
3. I am tapering off of Valium, and this drug is now useless as a sleep aid. It is a highly sedative drug but only for about a month if taken daily, unless you start upping dosings but there is no way in the world I will do this.
However, I do sleep, but not enough, and not well enough.
You ask why I have sleep problems? Would be hard to be nosy. We are about helping one another and sharing experiences.
1. I am a very hard working professional.
2. I have a demanding boss.
3. I am tapering off of Valium, and this drug is now useless as a sleep aid. It is a highly sedative drug but only for about a month if taken daily, unless you start upping dosings but there is no way in the world I will do this.
However, I do sleep, but not enough, and not well enough.
howard678
04-20-2004, 09:25 PM
Jennita,
We have cooresponded quite a bit. You strike me as being pretty anti-prescription med, but open minded. I have the same sentiments but am also shy of herbal remedies as they are unregulated and problems associated with some of these are reported also. Anyway, I am sitting on a bottle of Trazadone, short half life sedative non-SSRI AD, that on further research, is kin to the Serzone you were on. I have read a variety of sources and the reviews are mixed. Many report it is a great sleep aid for them, even long term, with no serious side effects. What do you think are the risks of giving a bedtime dose a few tries? I am not finding any tales of horror like with benzos and SSRIs. Though there is a male specific side effect that has occured in a small number of cases that does sound troubling...
We have cooresponded quite a bit. You strike me as being pretty anti-prescription med, but open minded. I have the same sentiments but am also shy of herbal remedies as they are unregulated and problems associated with some of these are reported also. Anyway, I am sitting on a bottle of Trazadone, short half life sedative non-SSRI AD, that on further research, is kin to the Serzone you were on. I have read a variety of sources and the reviews are mixed. Many report it is a great sleep aid for them, even long term, with no serious side effects. What do you think are the risks of giving a bedtime dose a few tries? I am not finding any tales of horror like with benzos and SSRIs. Though there is a male specific side effect that has occured in a small number of cases that does sound troubling...
Jennita
04-20-2004, 10:37 PM
Howard,
Yes, I have always tried to be open-minded but after what happened to me, I admit I am very anti-drug....or more specifically, anti-psychiatric drugs. I do understand there comes a time in extreme circumstance that maybe these drugs are helpful, but I'm talking extremely violent, disturbed, hallucienating or psychotic individuals....not the average, depressed or anxious person who might better be served with psychotherapy, nutrition, lifestyle change, cognitive behavior therapy, etc.
I believe they have gone too far with prescribing psychoactive substances. Besides the lack of biological proof of need for these meds, also, the negative effects/diseases on the body from long-term use....you know, diabetes, heart/blood pressure problems, memory problems, eye problems, liver and kidney problems, parkinson's like disorders, tardive dyskinesia, etc. all linked to such drugs like antidepressants, benzos and neuroleptics.
How far have they gone? I'll tell you. I just saw on T.V. that the FDA has approved a narcolepsy drug for, guess what.....shift work. Yes, shift work, to help keep people awake easier. Now, is shift work a disease/disorder in need of "medication" I ask you? When did the medical community step away from their original purpose of curing medical disease and into unnessarily prescribing of toxic substances?
If you ask me, they've have left the world of medicine and entered the world of drug pushing.
Next on the list is the development of extascy, the street drug, for use in depressed patients. How appropriate; the two worlds have finally openly joined as one!
Enough of my rant.....I am glad you slept, howard, even if it wasn't great sleep...at least it's something. I know what you mean about the poor quality sleep of benzos. I slept so well last night; awoke without the anxiety rebound of those pills. You will get there, someday, too.
I wish I could give you an answer about the Trazadone. I have also heard the mixed reviews on it. It works for awhile, then it can stop working. Or some people say it didn't work at all. Others say it worked great, at least at the time they wrote about it.
I wouldn't consider you weak to try it with your pressures/work. Sleep is so important. The only worry would be any parodoxial reaction or if it didn't work. It's up to you, I'm not sure if it's hard to get off of. Maybe you could wait a bit longer and see if your sleep improves. If not, perhaps a short run with it might help you get through a tough time....
Yes, I have always tried to be open-minded but after what happened to me, I admit I am very anti-drug....or more specifically, anti-psychiatric drugs. I do understand there comes a time in extreme circumstance that maybe these drugs are helpful, but I'm talking extremely violent, disturbed, hallucienating or psychotic individuals....not the average, depressed or anxious person who might better be served with psychotherapy, nutrition, lifestyle change, cognitive behavior therapy, etc.
I believe they have gone too far with prescribing psychoactive substances. Besides the lack of biological proof of need for these meds, also, the negative effects/diseases on the body from long-term use....you know, diabetes, heart/blood pressure problems, memory problems, eye problems, liver and kidney problems, parkinson's like disorders, tardive dyskinesia, etc. all linked to such drugs like antidepressants, benzos and neuroleptics.
How far have they gone? I'll tell you. I just saw on T.V. that the FDA has approved a narcolepsy drug for, guess what.....shift work. Yes, shift work, to help keep people awake easier. Now, is shift work a disease/disorder in need of "medication" I ask you? When did the medical community step away from their original purpose of curing medical disease and into unnessarily prescribing of toxic substances?
If you ask me, they've have left the world of medicine and entered the world of drug pushing.
Next on the list is the development of extascy, the street drug, for use in depressed patients. How appropriate; the two worlds have finally openly joined as one!
Enough of my rant.....I am glad you slept, howard, even if it wasn't great sleep...at least it's something. I know what you mean about the poor quality sleep of benzos. I slept so well last night; awoke without the anxiety rebound of those pills. You will get there, someday, too.
I wish I could give you an answer about the Trazadone. I have also heard the mixed reviews on it. It works for awhile, then it can stop working. Or some people say it didn't work at all. Others say it worked great, at least at the time they wrote about it.
I wouldn't consider you weak to try it with your pressures/work. Sleep is so important. The only worry would be any parodoxial reaction or if it didn't work. It's up to you, I'm not sure if it's hard to get off of. Maybe you could wait a bit longer and see if your sleep improves. If not, perhaps a short run with it might help you get through a tough time....
howard678
04-21-2004, 12:04 AM
I am with you. The psychiatrist used to place the lion`s share or all of their efforts on counseling, helping patients work through their problems. Now it is depensing meds, and unquestionably this is way over done. I once had a nurse practioner of all things prescribe me Paxil to try and pulll me off Xanax. They can do that, is not a controlled substance. The pills cost me $79 even with my co-pay. They did zilch after 10 days, plus I do not believe I have a chemical imbalance so I tossed them. $ down the drain... Plus, being depressed or anxious was for centuries an accepted part of life, and often considered a good thing as it encouraged spirituality. Bad health, early death by today`s standards, that was the norm...
On the other hand, many of the syndromes you described have been linked to substances that have been around for milleniums, incuding alcohol, caffeine, and opiates. And anxiety, trauma, or paranoia all by themselves can cause many of these syndromes, irrespective of drugs. This is not to say that benzos do not have a tough withdrawal syndrome. Can`t speak about the SSRIs from experience.
And it might be argued, that certain psychoactive drugs allow some that, 100 years ago would have been institutionalized, to live pretty normal lives. We have had the so called "lunatics" around since the dawn of history, though of course kinder terminology is now used. Let me confess that I do not know a whole lot about any of this. Your research is surely more extensive. But I do know that there are a few crusaders on the net that seem to have an agenda and perhaps are setting themselves up to be highly paid "expert witnesses" in future civil trials or may have other motives. With my training, this is a red flag for perhaps a lack of objectivity. And such individuals seem to be the loudest voices on the net. Ideally, I would love to watch an SSRI or benzo suit hammered out, both sides, on Court TV. This I think would provide me with the best medium for an assessment.
I thought you may take a milder view on the Trazadone. It will be a last resort. Thanks for the input on that. :)
On the other hand, many of the syndromes you described have been linked to substances that have been around for milleniums, incuding alcohol, caffeine, and opiates. And anxiety, trauma, or paranoia all by themselves can cause many of these syndromes, irrespective of drugs. This is not to say that benzos do not have a tough withdrawal syndrome. Can`t speak about the SSRIs from experience.
And it might be argued, that certain psychoactive drugs allow some that, 100 years ago would have been institutionalized, to live pretty normal lives. We have had the so called "lunatics" around since the dawn of history, though of course kinder terminology is now used. Let me confess that I do not know a whole lot about any of this. Your research is surely more extensive. But I do know that there are a few crusaders on the net that seem to have an agenda and perhaps are setting themselves up to be highly paid "expert witnesses" in future civil trials or may have other motives. With my training, this is a red flag for perhaps a lack of objectivity. And such individuals seem to be the loudest voices on the net. Ideally, I would love to watch an SSRI or benzo suit hammered out, both sides, on Court TV. This I think would provide me with the best medium for an assessment.
I thought you may take a milder view on the Trazadone. It will be a last resort. Thanks for the input on that. :)
no patience
04-21-2004, 08:29 AM
Kayleigh,
You ask why I have sleep problems? Would be hard to be nosy. We are about helping one another and sharing experiences.
1. I am a very hard working professional.
2. I have a demanding boss.
3. I am tapering off of Valium, and this drug is now useless as a sleep aid. It is a highly sedative drug but only for about a month if taken daily, unless you start upping dosings but there is no way in the world I will do this.
However, I do sleep, but not enough, and not well enough.
howard i take trazadone for sleep also you should look in to it before i started taking it i woke up every hour i even took it during methadone w/ds and slept the whole night never had insomnia during w/ds because of it jennitas right there really no side effects from it and no w/d symptoms like from effexor and paxil this stuff is great thanks for replying hope this helps kelleigh
You ask why I have sleep problems? Would be hard to be nosy. We are about helping one another and sharing experiences.
1. I am a very hard working professional.
2. I have a demanding boss.
3. I am tapering off of Valium, and this drug is now useless as a sleep aid. It is a highly sedative drug but only for about a month if taken daily, unless you start upping dosings but there is no way in the world I will do this.
However, I do sleep, but not enough, and not well enough.
howard i take trazadone for sleep also you should look in to it before i started taking it i woke up every hour i even took it during methadone w/ds and slept the whole night never had insomnia during w/ds because of it jennitas right there really no side effects from it and no w/d symptoms like from effexor and paxil this stuff is great thanks for replying hope this helps kelleigh
Jennita
04-21-2004, 04:09 PM
Howard,
Yes, you are right, perhaps the drugs save many "lunatics" as they used to be called, and keep some out of the asylum. That is worse case scenario, however, and that's what I was talking about. Those were the only appropriate drug candidates in the past but now you can't even be upset over a job or your cat dying without the big push for Paxil.
I haven't read as much about those things, just like you howard, but I have read a few things about some research about B-vitamins are curing some schizophrenics. There is also the old research on fish oil and depression. Margot Kidder, the actress, has publically said that a regiment of amino acid therapy from her doctor has literally cured her of the manic-depression she suffered from for many years. So, even those worse-case scenarios I think should be looked into more, don't you?
However, I'm sure drugs are an easier, more profitable way to deal with those cases for the psychiatric/drug communities, so I'm not holding my breath on this one. I guess for now, the drugs are the only way for those extreme cases. But maybe the future holds better things for those poor people other than health compromising drugs; we will have to wait and see.
I don't see a red flag for professionals willing to testify against drugs, I mean, aren't other professionals who are pro-drug more than willing to testify in support of them? I can't say for sure, but some doors swing in both directions, ya know?
I've seen books written by pro-drug doctors as well as the anti-drug ones, so....
Well, the point is, the majority of people that are on these drugs probably should not be, and it is becoming a mental/physical health hazard.
They say mental illness is on the rise, but by what definition....someone like you, howard? I'm sure if your old doctor had his way, by now you would be classed as a mental disorder patient on medication, right?
Now, you and I both know that ain't so.... :nono:
Yes, you are right, perhaps the drugs save many "lunatics" as they used to be called, and keep some out of the asylum. That is worse case scenario, however, and that's what I was talking about. Those were the only appropriate drug candidates in the past but now you can't even be upset over a job or your cat dying without the big push for Paxil.
I haven't read as much about those things, just like you howard, but I have read a few things about some research about B-vitamins are curing some schizophrenics. There is also the old research on fish oil and depression. Margot Kidder, the actress, has publically said that a regiment of amino acid therapy from her doctor has literally cured her of the manic-depression she suffered from for many years. So, even those worse-case scenarios I think should be looked into more, don't you?
However, I'm sure drugs are an easier, more profitable way to deal with those cases for the psychiatric/drug communities, so I'm not holding my breath on this one. I guess for now, the drugs are the only way for those extreme cases. But maybe the future holds better things for those poor people other than health compromising drugs; we will have to wait and see.
I don't see a red flag for professionals willing to testify against drugs, I mean, aren't other professionals who are pro-drug more than willing to testify in support of them? I can't say for sure, but some doors swing in both directions, ya know?
I've seen books written by pro-drug doctors as well as the anti-drug ones, so....
Well, the point is, the majority of people that are on these drugs probably should not be, and it is becoming a mental/physical health hazard.
They say mental illness is on the rise, but by what definition....someone like you, howard? I'm sure if your old doctor had his way, by now you would be classed as a mental disorder patient on medication, right?
Now, you and I both know that ain't so.... :nono:
howard678
04-21-2004, 06:26 PM
This may not answer your questions directly but I just felt like posting it. Today`s technologically driven, highly materialistic world is often very stressful, even more so than the monotony of the industrial age or the physically challenging agrarian life.
Doctor please, some more of these
Outside the door, she took four more
What a drag it is getting old
Men just aren’t the same today
I hear ev’ry mother say
They just don’t appreciate that you get tired
They’re so hard to satisfy, you can tranquilize your mind
So go running for the shelter of a mother’s little helper
And four help you through the night, help to minimize your plight
Doctor please, some more of these
Outside the door, she took four more
What a drag it is getting old
Life’s just much too hard today,
I hear ev’ry mother say
The pusuit of happiness just seems a bore
And if you take more of those, you will get an overdose
No more running for the shelter of a mother’s little helper
They just helped you on your way, through your busy dying day
Rolling Stones
Yes, I am all for alternatives. Mine is going to be drug freedom, slowly, surely, as safely as possible. I think the best thing we can do is educate the medical community. I give my doctors, who were GPs, the benefit of the doubt. I think they were ignorant. I hold no resentment. And I would like to see a fair fight in court over some of these drugs, with many millions at stake, only 7 of 12 jurors to convince. My flu last week. Benzos? No. Have had mild nausea today. Benzos? Probably not. Had to rush my breakfast this a.m. Boss hates tardiness. Day was particularly challenging. Neck is a tad stiff. Benzos? No. Lousy computer chair, spent a lot of time in it last night. And I`m not getting any younger. But, many would have said it was all benzos and all but promised me much more. That is why I am out of the support forums.
Doctor please, some more of these
Outside the door, she took four more
What a drag it is getting old
Men just aren’t the same today
I hear ev’ry mother say
They just don’t appreciate that you get tired
They’re so hard to satisfy, you can tranquilize your mind
So go running for the shelter of a mother’s little helper
And four help you through the night, help to minimize your plight
Doctor please, some more of these
Outside the door, she took four more
What a drag it is getting old
Life’s just much too hard today,
I hear ev’ry mother say
The pusuit of happiness just seems a bore
And if you take more of those, you will get an overdose
No more running for the shelter of a mother’s little helper
They just helped you on your way, through your busy dying day
Rolling Stones
Yes, I am all for alternatives. Mine is going to be drug freedom, slowly, surely, as safely as possible. I think the best thing we can do is educate the medical community. I give my doctors, who were GPs, the benefit of the doubt. I think they were ignorant. I hold no resentment. And I would like to see a fair fight in court over some of these drugs, with many millions at stake, only 7 of 12 jurors to convince. My flu last week. Benzos? No. Have had mild nausea today. Benzos? Probably not. Had to rush my breakfast this a.m. Boss hates tardiness. Day was particularly challenging. Neck is a tad stiff. Benzos? No. Lousy computer chair, spent a lot of time in it last night. And I`m not getting any younger. But, many would have said it was all benzos and all but promised me much more. That is why I am out of the support forums.
Jennita
04-22-2004, 03:13 PM
Ah hah, that Mick and the gang knew the score, way before most of us!! But I think most people thought only the abusers had problems with the drugs, but we've learned differently, right howard?
Well, benzo withdrawal did not make you get a cold; however, when one is in withdrawal/recovery, the immune system isn't up to par and you can get sick alot easier....also, aches, pains, etc. are more likely too. It's just because benzos do effect the muscles. Valium has been used as a muscle relaxant.
In fact, when I used to be in the support group, there was a bodybuilder who hurt his back and his doctor gave him Valium for the spasms. He only took it for a few months intil the back healed, and not a very high dose. You know what, he went through the typical withdrawal symptoms for a year...anxiety, insomnia,tinnitus, etc? The man had absoulutely no history of such things...he just hurt his back. Goes to show, the stuff has potential to mess anyone up!
Anyway, I got sick with colds/bronchitis/infections alot too in the beginning, but now I think it's been about 2 years since I have been in a doctor's office. My new doctor must wonder where I went off to! :D
Well, I'm sorry you have to go through this under such stress with your job and all. Do you do anything to de-stress like mild exercise? I know it's hard to exercise amid withdrawals and work, but it doesn't have to be much, maybe only a few minutes of jumping-jacks, walking or bike. A few sets with light weights.
I exercised even on almost no sleep; of course, I couldn't do much but I did what I could. It was very hard for me, I remember one day during only a few minutes of aerobics at home, I actually started crying while I was doing it because I was so tired out! Tears were pooring down my face from nothing but shear exhaustion (I only did a few minutes) I'm glad I was at home instead of in an aerobics class...goodness what would that have looked like?
Oh well, now I can exercise again quite well. Anyway, it might be good for you...your'e not training for the Olympics, so any amount/type exercise will do the trick! I know from experience exercise will not take away withdrawals, but you might feel a bit better and keep your blood pressure down, since withdrawals can raise it in some people. Also, you may feel less stressed. Of course, maybe your boss sounds like he needs to de-stress too :bouncing:
Well, benzo withdrawal did not make you get a cold; however, when one is in withdrawal/recovery, the immune system isn't up to par and you can get sick alot easier....also, aches, pains, etc. are more likely too. It's just because benzos do effect the muscles. Valium has been used as a muscle relaxant.
In fact, when I used to be in the support group, there was a bodybuilder who hurt his back and his doctor gave him Valium for the spasms. He only took it for a few months intil the back healed, and not a very high dose. You know what, he went through the typical withdrawal symptoms for a year...anxiety, insomnia,tinnitus, etc? The man had absoulutely no history of such things...he just hurt his back. Goes to show, the stuff has potential to mess anyone up!
Anyway, I got sick with colds/bronchitis/infections alot too in the beginning, but now I think it's been about 2 years since I have been in a doctor's office. My new doctor must wonder where I went off to! :D
Well, I'm sorry you have to go through this under such stress with your job and all. Do you do anything to de-stress like mild exercise? I know it's hard to exercise amid withdrawals and work, but it doesn't have to be much, maybe only a few minutes of jumping-jacks, walking or bike. A few sets with light weights.
I exercised even on almost no sleep; of course, I couldn't do much but I did what I could. It was very hard for me, I remember one day during only a few minutes of aerobics at home, I actually started crying while I was doing it because I was so tired out! Tears were pooring down my face from nothing but shear exhaustion (I only did a few minutes) I'm glad I was at home instead of in an aerobics class...goodness what would that have looked like?
Oh well, now I can exercise again quite well. Anyway, it might be good for you...your'e not training for the Olympics, so any amount/type exercise will do the trick! I know from experience exercise will not take away withdrawals, but you might feel a bit better and keep your blood pressure down, since withdrawals can raise it in some people. Also, you may feel less stressed. Of course, maybe your boss sounds like he needs to de-stress too :bouncing:
no patience
04-22-2004, 05:58 PM
I am with you. The psychiatrist used to place the lion`s share or all of their efforts on counseling, helping patients work through their problems. Now it is depensing meds, and unquestionably this is way over done. I once had a nurse practioner of all things prescribe me Paxil to try and pulll me off Xanax. They can do that, is not a controlled substance. The pills cost me $79 even with my co-pay. They did zilch after 10 days, plus I do not believe I have a chemical imbalance so I tossed them. $ down the drain... Plus, being depressed or anxious was for centuries an accepted part of life, and often considered a good thing as it encouraged spirituality. Bad health, early death by today`s standards, that was the norm...
On the other hand, many of the syndromes you described have been linked to substances that have been around for milleniums, incuding alcohol, caffeine, and opiates. And anxiety, trauma, or paranoia all by themselves can cause many of these syndromes, irrespective of drugs. This is not to say that benzos do not have a tough withdrawal syndrome. Can`t speak about the SSRIs from experience.
And it might be argued, that certain psychoactive drugs allow some that, 100 years ago would have been institutionalized, to live pretty normal lives. We have had the so called "lunatics" around since the dawn of history, though of course kinder terminology is now used. Let me confess that I do not know a whole lot about any of this. Your research is surely more extensive. But I do know that there are a few crusaders on the net that seem to have an agenda and perhaps are setting themselves up to be highly paid "expert witnesses" in future civil trials or may have other motives. With my training, this is a red flag for perhaps a lack of objectivity. And such individuals seem to be the loudest voices on the net. Ideally, I would love to watch an SSRI or benzo suit hammered out, both sides, on Court TV. This I think would provide me with the best medium for an assessment.
I thought you may take a milder view on the Trazadone. It will be a last resort. Thanks for the input on that. :)
HOWARD YOU HAVE AMAZING WILLPOWER AND I JUST WANTED TO COMPLIMENT YOU ON THAT IVE READ ALOT OF YOUR POSTS AND WANT TO GIVE SOME SOME MORE DESERVED CREDIT SORRY IF IT SEEMS A BIT KORNY BUT YOU REALLY SEEM LIKE A STRONG WILLED PERSON KELLEIGH
On the other hand, many of the syndromes you described have been linked to substances that have been around for milleniums, incuding alcohol, caffeine, and opiates. And anxiety, trauma, or paranoia all by themselves can cause many of these syndromes, irrespective of drugs. This is not to say that benzos do not have a tough withdrawal syndrome. Can`t speak about the SSRIs from experience.
And it might be argued, that certain psychoactive drugs allow some that, 100 years ago would have been institutionalized, to live pretty normal lives. We have had the so called "lunatics" around since the dawn of history, though of course kinder terminology is now used. Let me confess that I do not know a whole lot about any of this. Your research is surely more extensive. But I do know that there are a few crusaders on the net that seem to have an agenda and perhaps are setting themselves up to be highly paid "expert witnesses" in future civil trials or may have other motives. With my training, this is a red flag for perhaps a lack of objectivity. And such individuals seem to be the loudest voices on the net. Ideally, I would love to watch an SSRI or benzo suit hammered out, both sides, on Court TV. This I think would provide me with the best medium for an assessment.
I thought you may take a milder view on the Trazadone. It will be a last resort. Thanks for the input on that. :)
HOWARD YOU HAVE AMAZING WILLPOWER AND I JUST WANTED TO COMPLIMENT YOU ON THAT IVE READ ALOT OF YOUR POSTS AND WANT TO GIVE SOME SOME MORE DESERVED CREDIT SORRY IF IT SEEMS A BIT KORNY BUT YOU REALLY SEEM LIKE A STRONG WILLED PERSON KELLEIGH
howard678
04-23-2004, 12:42 AM
Jennita,
I am afraid I relate to Mic and the guy`s lyrics. My pills were a shelter for me. They were my "little helper." And from June to October of last year, I really did not know how many I was taking. I loved to take a Xanax bar, big dose, 2 mgs, about 6 p.m. and sleep undisturbed, wake up 12 hours later. And I drank with them too. That song makes me said while motivating me. I listen to it from time to time. And I was a drug recepticle in my late teens and early 20s. When first prescribed benzos I was under some pretty serious stress and symptoms were manifesting. I really do not relate to the pure accidental addict that was prescibed benzos for some simple muscle twitch or something then stayed at the same dose for 8 or 10 years. I developed tolerance quick. My biggest complaint is that I was not warned of the extent of the withdrawal syndromes, had I, I would never have started benzos. But I had eaten blue Valiums like candy when I was young along with whatever else happened to be available and never had any benzo specific problems that I can recall. BUT, as to know, I got the discipline to taper, and that is good. It is great hearing you are athletic. I think more exercise will do me good, have gotten slack on my walks, will kick them back up this weekend.
Yep, makes sense, stress weakens the immune system, but I am working on stress reduction. You will see a victory here my friend, no matter the cost, and I think you will be here to rejoice with me. :)
I am afraid I relate to Mic and the guy`s lyrics. My pills were a shelter for me. They were my "little helper." And from June to October of last year, I really did not know how many I was taking. I loved to take a Xanax bar, big dose, 2 mgs, about 6 p.m. and sleep undisturbed, wake up 12 hours later. And I drank with them too. That song makes me said while motivating me. I listen to it from time to time. And I was a drug recepticle in my late teens and early 20s. When first prescribed benzos I was under some pretty serious stress and symptoms were manifesting. I really do not relate to the pure accidental addict that was prescibed benzos for some simple muscle twitch or something then stayed at the same dose for 8 or 10 years. I developed tolerance quick. My biggest complaint is that I was not warned of the extent of the withdrawal syndromes, had I, I would never have started benzos. But I had eaten blue Valiums like candy when I was young along with whatever else happened to be available and never had any benzo specific problems that I can recall. BUT, as to know, I got the discipline to taper, and that is good. It is great hearing you are athletic. I think more exercise will do me good, have gotten slack on my walks, will kick them back up this weekend.
Yep, makes sense, stress weakens the immune system, but I am working on stress reduction. You will see a victory here my friend, no matter the cost, and I think you will be here to rejoice with me. :)
howard678
04-23-2004, 01:08 AM
Kayleigh,
Thanks. I know how serious this is. I know potholes in the road may probably be ahead. But I just cannot quit. I hate these drugs, and I will wean off of them even if it hurts like hell. And I will do it in accord with the best available research, slowly, and with the long acting benzo, Valium. I have a course of action, a well trained supportive doctor, and I do everything I can one day at a time to live a normal life. Though I am not real religious I also pray. I also think your life will come together eventually also. After a while you get more used to hurting some off and on (it comes in waves) so thus far I just feel it and keep going, taking rests when I can.
Thanks. I know how serious this is. I know potholes in the road may probably be ahead. But I just cannot quit. I hate these drugs, and I will wean off of them even if it hurts like hell. And I will do it in accord with the best available research, slowly, and with the long acting benzo, Valium. I have a course of action, a well trained supportive doctor, and I do everything I can one day at a time to live a normal life. Though I am not real religious I also pray. I also think your life will come together eventually also. After a while you get more used to hurting some off and on (it comes in waves) so thus far I just feel it and keep going, taking rests when I can.
DannDees
04-23-2004, 05:46 AM
patience, I have just stopped taking methadone hours short of 8 days..could you tell me when I can expect to sleep . No sleep and not even a yawn. Sometimes I think I fall asleep for about 45 minutes..Please tell me soon.. noreally I need honesty , just in high hopes that it will be soon..thanks in advance...and stay strong, I admire you alot, I know it was a nightmare for me..I keep thinking ..."yes!I made it through the hard part, If I can beat that, nothing in life can hold me back. Although I feel like crap I also feel like it has kinda empowered me. Maybe its silly and maybe its from lack of sleep but hope I continue to feel this way. You should be very proud of yourself. I know it was the hardest thing I have ever done. stay strong!!! ;)
no patience
04-23-2004, 09:03 AM
patience, I have just stopped taking methadone hours short of 8 days..could you tell me when I can expect to sleep . No sleep and not even a yawn. Sometimes I think I fall asleep for about 45 minutes..Please tell me soon.. noreally I need honesty , just in high hopes that it will be soon..thanks in advance...and stay strong, I admire you alot, I know it was a nightmare for me..I keep thinking ..."yes!I made it through the hard part, If I can beat that, nothing in life can hold me back. Although I feel like crap I also feel like it has kinda empowered me. Maybe its silly and maybe its from lack of sleep but hope I continue to feel this way. You should be very proud of yourself. I know it was the hardest thing I have ever done. stay strong!!! ;)
deeanndees call your doc and see if he will prescribe you trazadone i was on it going through the w/ds and was lucky enough to sleep its just an ssri they use for sleep because everyone is different and your sleep pattern could not be normal for along time my heart is with you i know what your going through i also called my doc and he put me on a fentynal patch and weaned me down to help ease the withdrawals im telling you i really feel for you did you wean off the methadone or go cold turkey please keep in touch im proud of you for doing this it takes alot of will power sleep soon and please call your doc kelleigh :angel: :angel: :angel:
deeanndees call your doc and see if he will prescribe you trazadone i was on it going through the w/ds and was lucky enough to sleep its just an ssri they use for sleep because everyone is different and your sleep pattern could not be normal for along time my heart is with you i know what your going through i also called my doc and he put me on a fentynal patch and weaned me down to help ease the withdrawals im telling you i really feel for you did you wean off the methadone or go cold turkey please keep in touch im proud of you for doing this it takes alot of will power sleep soon and please call your doc kelleigh :angel: :angel: :angel:
Jennita
04-23-2004, 02:48 PM
Jennita,
I am afraid I relate to Mic and the guy`s lyrics. My pills were a shelter for me. They were my "little helper." And from June to October of last year, I really did not know how many I was taking. I loved to take a Xanax bar, big dose, 2 mgs, about 6 p.m. and sleep undisturbed, wake up 12 hours later. And I drank with them too. That song makes me said while motivating me. I listen to it from time to time. And I was a drug recepticle in my late teens and early 20s. When first prescribed benzos I was under some pretty serious stress and symptoms were manifesting. I really do not relate to the pure accidental addict that was prescibed benzos for some simple muscle twitch or something then stayed at the same dose for 8 or 10 years. I developed tolerance quick. My biggest complaint is that I was not warned of the extent of the withdrawal syndromes, had I, I would never have started benzos. But I had eaten blue Valiums like candy when I was young along with whatever else happened to be available and never had any benzo specific problems that I can recall. BUT, as to know, I got the discipline to taper, and that is good. It is great hearing you are athletic. I think more exercise will do me good, have gotten slack on my walks, will kick them back up this weekend.
Yep, makes sense, stress weakens the immune system, but I am working on stress reduction. You will see a victory here my friend, no matter the cost, and I think you will be here to rejoice with me. :)
Yes, I will be here rejoicing! :)
Wow, it takes guts to admit all those things you did. I can see why then, you can't relate to most of the people in those support groups since most of them are accidental addicts....they are probably have alot more anger issues about it than you do, and I know sometimes they can go a bit too far with it.....deep down you are taking some of the blame yourself because of your past behavior...the accidental addicts don't, and for good reason.
I think you are being a little hard on yourself and don't realize that your past is not to blame here. Yes, you did something very unwise and dangerous in doing drugs when you were young! But that does not excuse what the doctors did to you in later years by prescribing benzos to you. Because whether or not you did drugs in the past, those drugs should not have been prescribed to you at all, or to anyone for that matter. Yep, I'm one of those people who thinks that benzos have their place in hospital/emergency/anesthetic settings only (their original intent) and that's about it....never should they have reached prescription drug status.
But, then again, I am one of the accidental addicts, so my view is different than yours. I know I had no blame, other than trusting doctors and being a good patient. My past involves no drugs, as I never understood it, really. I prefer real life, not a fake one. Fake ones have no meaning and the real world is always going to be there whether you like it or not, right? As far as alcohol, I tried it but really hated the taste. Plus, I got a bit tipsy and also didn't like the feeling...a little out of control....I like being in control of myself I guess.
But like I said; this is really not your fault either! Your past is not relevant because they also prescribe these pills to innocents like me, and I had a terrible time with tolerance and getting off of them....if my past was relevant, it should have been a different story, right? You get what I'm saying?
Doctors love to blame the patient when their drugs go wrong, you are a perfect example. But where is my blame? I ended up just like you with these drug, but without the drug past. Now, true, I didn't drink with my pills....but guess what? One night out of desperation, I actually did! Yes, me, Ms. "I hate the way alcohol tastes". Why? because it got me a few hours sleep.
I didn't do it again because I realized the next day what was happening and didn't like it. Although I admit, during my worst, sleepless withdrawals, I wondered if I drank some alcohol, would I go to sleep?......sometimes, my husband even would say, maybe I should try it (I wouldn't sleep for days on end and he felt sorry for me). But usually, I'd say to him only if I go one more night without any sleep at all...then thankfully, that night I would get a few hours...so I staved it off long enough to actually avoid using the alcohol.
So as they say, where there is benzos, alcohol is not far behind, even for non-drinkers like me.
The thing is, alcohol will boost the effects of benzos when they start to poop out on you. Some non-drinkers had taken it up during tolerance. One woman in the support group said that she met a doctor who outright admitted that benzos were really just concentrated "alcohol in a pill"....so if a doctor thinks benzos are ok then he is saying (whether he knows it or not) that daily drinking is an ok thing to do.
Now, I remember the measure of comparison was around 1 mg. Ativan=4 oz pure gin. So my daily dose was 8 oz. of gin. This was given to someone who didn't like alcohol...how ironic!
As you can see, the accidental addict is usually no better off than you, howard, when it comes to benzos.
So, I have to insist you do NOT blame yourself for any of this. Your past, although risky, is ancient history and would probably not make a difference in your current situation(as my past did not make a difference either!)
I am afraid I relate to Mic and the guy`s lyrics. My pills were a shelter for me. They were my "little helper." And from June to October of last year, I really did not know how many I was taking. I loved to take a Xanax bar, big dose, 2 mgs, about 6 p.m. and sleep undisturbed, wake up 12 hours later. And I drank with them too. That song makes me said while motivating me. I listen to it from time to time. And I was a drug recepticle in my late teens and early 20s. When first prescribed benzos I was under some pretty serious stress and symptoms were manifesting. I really do not relate to the pure accidental addict that was prescibed benzos for some simple muscle twitch or something then stayed at the same dose for 8 or 10 years. I developed tolerance quick. My biggest complaint is that I was not warned of the extent of the withdrawal syndromes, had I, I would never have started benzos. But I had eaten blue Valiums like candy when I was young along with whatever else happened to be available and never had any benzo specific problems that I can recall. BUT, as to know, I got the discipline to taper, and that is good. It is great hearing you are athletic. I think more exercise will do me good, have gotten slack on my walks, will kick them back up this weekend.
Yep, makes sense, stress weakens the immune system, but I am working on stress reduction. You will see a victory here my friend, no matter the cost, and I think you will be here to rejoice with me. :)
Yes, I will be here rejoicing! :)
Wow, it takes guts to admit all those things you did. I can see why then, you can't relate to most of the people in those support groups since most of them are accidental addicts....they are probably have alot more anger issues about it than you do, and I know sometimes they can go a bit too far with it.....deep down you are taking some of the blame yourself because of your past behavior...the accidental addicts don't, and for good reason.
I think you are being a little hard on yourself and don't realize that your past is not to blame here. Yes, you did something very unwise and dangerous in doing drugs when you were young! But that does not excuse what the doctors did to you in later years by prescribing benzos to you. Because whether or not you did drugs in the past, those drugs should not have been prescribed to you at all, or to anyone for that matter. Yep, I'm one of those people who thinks that benzos have their place in hospital/emergency/anesthetic settings only (their original intent) and that's about it....never should they have reached prescription drug status.
But, then again, I am one of the accidental addicts, so my view is different than yours. I know I had no blame, other than trusting doctors and being a good patient. My past involves no drugs, as I never understood it, really. I prefer real life, not a fake one. Fake ones have no meaning and the real world is always going to be there whether you like it or not, right? As far as alcohol, I tried it but really hated the taste. Plus, I got a bit tipsy and also didn't like the feeling...a little out of control....I like being in control of myself I guess.
But like I said; this is really not your fault either! Your past is not relevant because they also prescribe these pills to innocents like me, and I had a terrible time with tolerance and getting off of them....if my past was relevant, it should have been a different story, right? You get what I'm saying?
Doctors love to blame the patient when their drugs go wrong, you are a perfect example. But where is my blame? I ended up just like you with these drug, but without the drug past. Now, true, I didn't drink with my pills....but guess what? One night out of desperation, I actually did! Yes, me, Ms. "I hate the way alcohol tastes". Why? because it got me a few hours sleep.
I didn't do it again because I realized the next day what was happening and didn't like it. Although I admit, during my worst, sleepless withdrawals, I wondered if I drank some alcohol, would I go to sleep?......sometimes, my husband even would say, maybe I should try it (I wouldn't sleep for days on end and he felt sorry for me). But usually, I'd say to him only if I go one more night without any sleep at all...then thankfully, that night I would get a few hours...so I staved it off long enough to actually avoid using the alcohol.
So as they say, where there is benzos, alcohol is not far behind, even for non-drinkers like me.
The thing is, alcohol will boost the effects of benzos when they start to poop out on you. Some non-drinkers had taken it up during tolerance. One woman in the support group said that she met a doctor who outright admitted that benzos were really just concentrated "alcohol in a pill"....so if a doctor thinks benzos are ok then he is saying (whether he knows it or not) that daily drinking is an ok thing to do.
Now, I remember the measure of comparison was around 1 mg. Ativan=4 oz pure gin. So my daily dose was 8 oz. of gin. This was given to someone who didn't like alcohol...how ironic!
As you can see, the accidental addict is usually no better off than you, howard, when it comes to benzos.
So, I have to insist you do NOT blame yourself for any of this. Your past, although risky, is ancient history and would probably not make a difference in your current situation(as my past did not make a difference either!)
Jennita
04-23-2004, 03:12 PM
No patience,
Be aware that Trazadone can also lose it's effectiveness over time and also has a withdrawal syndrome. Using it to get over a rough time right now is fine as long as it is doing it's job, but as soon as you feel better, I'd start thinking of tapering it...a nice, slow one, slower even than your doctor recommeds for good measure.
But I am glad for now you are getting some relief while you rid yourself of your former pills. Someday, I am sure you will get off all pills for good. Take it one day at a time; it's not a race but you can make it to the finish line and that's what's important! :wave:
Deeandees,
Don't worry....I know that is hard to do when you simply cannot sleep at all. I've been there and I can tell you, natural sleep will come back. It doesn't come back all at once, and sometimes is irregular for awhile. I remember some of my first sleeps after quitting my benzo as being very light and short....I could hear everything around me, yet I was extremely relaxed. When I would wake, I felt a bit refreshed. Sometimes I would be dreaming....dreaming was a big clue I had actually dosed off because sometimes I wasn't sure!! But the sleeps usually only lasted a short while....sometimes, as little as 10-15 minutes!
But eventually, those minutes became a half-hour; the half-hour became hours, etc.; going without alot of sleep for days turned into sleeping some everyday. Inbetween, I'd have a full night here and there. There was no specific pattern to predict.
It's a process which takes some time. You could go with the Trazadone, if it gets too tough, but it's always' best to let the brain do it's thing in it's own time. If you do take Trazadone, it should start at 50 mgs. from what I've heard, and 100 is average. I would be leary of anything above that since you want to not develop a dependance or tolerance to it.
Good luck to you; I know what you are going through and it's horrible to say the least....
Be aware that Trazadone can also lose it's effectiveness over time and also has a withdrawal syndrome. Using it to get over a rough time right now is fine as long as it is doing it's job, but as soon as you feel better, I'd start thinking of tapering it...a nice, slow one, slower even than your doctor recommeds for good measure.
But I am glad for now you are getting some relief while you rid yourself of your former pills. Someday, I am sure you will get off all pills for good. Take it one day at a time; it's not a race but you can make it to the finish line and that's what's important! :wave:
Deeandees,
Don't worry....I know that is hard to do when you simply cannot sleep at all. I've been there and I can tell you, natural sleep will come back. It doesn't come back all at once, and sometimes is irregular for awhile. I remember some of my first sleeps after quitting my benzo as being very light and short....I could hear everything around me, yet I was extremely relaxed. When I would wake, I felt a bit refreshed. Sometimes I would be dreaming....dreaming was a big clue I had actually dosed off because sometimes I wasn't sure!! But the sleeps usually only lasted a short while....sometimes, as little as 10-15 minutes!
But eventually, those minutes became a half-hour; the half-hour became hours, etc.; going without alot of sleep for days turned into sleeping some everyday. Inbetween, I'd have a full night here and there. There was no specific pattern to predict.
It's a process which takes some time. You could go with the Trazadone, if it gets too tough, but it's always' best to let the brain do it's thing in it's own time. If you do take Trazadone, it should start at 50 mgs. from what I've heard, and 100 is average. I would be leary of anything above that since you want to not develop a dependance or tolerance to it.
Good luck to you; I know what you are going through and it's horrible to say the least....
no patience
04-23-2004, 03:42 PM
:No patience,
Be aware that Trazadone can also lose it's effectiveness over time and also has a withdrawal syndrome. Using it to get over a rough time right now is fine as long as it is doing it's job, but as soon as you feel better, I'd start thinking of tapering it...a nice, slow one, slower even than your doctor recommeds for good measure.
But I am glad for now you are getting some relief while you rid yourself of your former pills. Someday, I am sure you will get off all pills for good. Take it one day at a time; it's not a race but you can make it to the finish line and that's what's important! :wave:
Deeandees,
Don't worry....I know that is hard to do when you simply cannot sleep at all. I've been there and I can tell you, natural sleep will come back. It doesn't come back all at once, and sometimes is irregular for awhile. I remember some of my first sleeps after quitting my benzo as being very light and short....I could hear everything around me, yet I was extremely relaxed. When I would wake, I felt a bit refreshed. Sometimes I would be dreaming....dreaming was a big clue I had actually dosed off because sometimes I wasn't sure!! But the sleeps usually only lasted a short while....sometimes, as little as 10-15 minutes!
But eventually, those minutes became a half-hour; the half-hour became hours, etc.; going without alot of sleep for days turned into sleeping some everyday. Inbetween, I'd have a full night here and there. There was no specific pattern to predict.
It's a process which takes some time. You could go with the Trazadone, if it gets too tough, but it's always' best to let the brain do it's thing in it's own time. If you do take Trazadone, it should start at 50 mgs. from what I've heard, and 100 is average. I would be leary of anything above that since you want to not develop a dependance or tolerance to it.
Good luck to you; I know what you are going through and it's horrible to say the least....
jennita i've been on trazadone for over a year 200 mgs and its never lost it effectiveness the way i see it is i got the sleep i needed to heal seeing how sleep is the best way to heal i'm now actually weaning my self down off it because i want natural sleep and all these other meds i take i cant wait to get off off i just feel if you need some help through a rough time thats what you gotta do if i wasnt on some of these meds i'd be a basket case i actually still have alot of issues but hopefully in time they will resolve their selves thanks so much for caring it means alot you're awesome to worry about someone you dont even know and with what i've been through i completly understand why you do thanks again kelleigh :angel: :wave: :)
Be aware that Trazadone can also lose it's effectiveness over time and also has a withdrawal syndrome. Using it to get over a rough time right now is fine as long as it is doing it's job, but as soon as you feel better, I'd start thinking of tapering it...a nice, slow one, slower even than your doctor recommeds for good measure.
But I am glad for now you are getting some relief while you rid yourself of your former pills. Someday, I am sure you will get off all pills for good. Take it one day at a time; it's not a race but you can make it to the finish line and that's what's important! :wave:
Deeandees,
Don't worry....I know that is hard to do when you simply cannot sleep at all. I've been there and I can tell you, natural sleep will come back. It doesn't come back all at once, and sometimes is irregular for awhile. I remember some of my first sleeps after quitting my benzo as being very light and short....I could hear everything around me, yet I was extremely relaxed. When I would wake, I felt a bit refreshed. Sometimes I would be dreaming....dreaming was a big clue I had actually dosed off because sometimes I wasn't sure!! But the sleeps usually only lasted a short while....sometimes, as little as 10-15 minutes!
But eventually, those minutes became a half-hour; the half-hour became hours, etc.; going without alot of sleep for days turned into sleeping some everyday. Inbetween, I'd have a full night here and there. There was no specific pattern to predict.
It's a process which takes some time. You could go with the Trazadone, if it gets too tough, but it's always' best to let the brain do it's thing in it's own time. If you do take Trazadone, it should start at 50 mgs. from what I've heard, and 100 is average. I would be leary of anything above that since you want to not develop a dependance or tolerance to it.
Good luck to you; I know what you are going through and it's horrible to say the least....
jennita i've been on trazadone for over a year 200 mgs and its never lost it effectiveness the way i see it is i got the sleep i needed to heal seeing how sleep is the best way to heal i'm now actually weaning my self down off it because i want natural sleep and all these other meds i take i cant wait to get off off i just feel if you need some help through a rough time thats what you gotta do if i wasnt on some of these meds i'd be a basket case i actually still have alot of issues but hopefully in time they will resolve their selves thanks so much for caring it means alot you're awesome to worry about someone you dont even know and with what i've been through i completly understand why you do thanks again kelleigh :angel: :wave: :)
howard678
04-23-2004, 10:33 PM
Jennita,
I see what you are saying. I agree that the drugs should not have been prescribed to me in the first place. They are too risky, my case not severe enough, but again I think my docs were ignorant and maybe lazy also, but not devious. And the doctors, from the get go, gave me what I asked for, and I am good at asking... And I liked my "little pills" as they helped me through the stress of a profession that most people could not or would not do. It is a "real world" that you may not want to experience. So I am on the same page as Mic and Kieth`s song, and honestly, think there are probably more in those forums that are also than lead on. But once a tone is set one is pressured to go with the flow or face criticism or "the swarm," to use internet terminology. Yes, it is nice not having the doctor anger to deal with, but I do not beat myself up either. I have taken a sound course of action to protect and regain my health and that is all I can do, one day at a time.
I see what you are saying. I agree that the drugs should not have been prescribed to me in the first place. They are too risky, my case not severe enough, but again I think my docs were ignorant and maybe lazy also, but not devious. And the doctors, from the get go, gave me what I asked for, and I am good at asking... And I liked my "little pills" as they helped me through the stress of a profession that most people could not or would not do. It is a "real world" that you may not want to experience. So I am on the same page as Mic and Kieth`s song, and honestly, think there are probably more in those forums that are also than lead on. But once a tone is set one is pressured to go with the flow or face criticism or "the swarm," to use internet terminology. Yes, it is nice not having the doctor anger to deal with, but I do not beat myself up either. I have taken a sound course of action to protect and regain my health and that is all I can do, one day at a time.
howard678
04-24-2004, 12:57 AM
Kayleigh,
Am glad the Trazadone is helping you. I have searched near and far for horror stories about it but cannot find any. And if it had any big risks I am confident, that Jennita, who has done a lot of homework, would be slamming it... I may take it up if things get rough, but right now, antihistamine is an effective knock out when needed. Comes recommended, and no need to taper it like Trazadone. But this is all made easier by the slow Valium taper. Thank you Heather Ashton... :-)
Am glad the Trazadone is helping you. I have searched near and far for horror stories about it but cannot find any. And if it had any big risks I am confident, that Jennita, who has done a lot of homework, would be slamming it... I may take it up if things get rough, but right now, antihistamine is an effective knock out when needed. Comes recommended, and no need to taper it like Trazadone. But this is all made easier by the slow Valium taper. Thank you Heather Ashton... :-)
no patience
04-24-2004, 09:24 AM
Kayleigh,
Am glad the Trazadone is helping you. I have searched near and far for horror stories about it but cannot find any. And if it had any big risks I am confident, that Jennita, who has done a lot of homework, would be slamming it... I may take it up if things get rough, but right now, antihistamine is an effective knock out when needed. Comes recommended, and no need to taper it like Trazadone. But this is all made easier by the slow Valium taper. Thank you Heather Ashton... :-)
howard678 i never thought of taking antihistimine when im glad something is helping you and good luck on the valium taper are you almost through that? i want to thank you to for all your info on klonopin since i read all you told me i've been very careful about how musch i take thanx again kelleigh :angel:
Am glad the Trazadone is helping you. I have searched near and far for horror stories about it but cannot find any. And if it had any big risks I am confident, that Jennita, who has done a lot of homework, would be slamming it... I may take it up if things get rough, but right now, antihistamine is an effective knock out when needed. Comes recommended, and no need to taper it like Trazadone. But this is all made easier by the slow Valium taper. Thank you Heather Ashton... :-)
howard678 i never thought of taking antihistimine when im glad something is helping you and good luck on the valium taper are you almost through that? i want to thank you to for all your info on klonopin since i read all you told me i've been very careful about how musch i take thanx again kelleigh :angel:
Jennita
04-24-2004, 03:24 PM
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jennita i've been on trazadone for over a year 200 mgs and its never lost it effectiveness the way i see it is i got the sleep i needed to heal seeing how sleep is the best way to heal i'm now actually weaning my self down off it because i want natural sleep and all these other meds i take i cant wait to get off off i just feel if you need some help through a rough time thats what you gotta do if i wasnt on some of these meds i'd be a basket case i actually still have alot of issues but hopefully in time they will resolve their selves thanks so much for caring it means alot you're awesome to worry about someone you dont even know and with what i've been through i completly understand why you do thanks again kelleigh :angel: :wave: :)
I'm glad the Trazadone didn't poop out on you; I've heard a few people complaining about that. So your tapering may go more smoothly. Glad to hear you do want to be med free someday because there are alot of people who have done just that and have been successful. I do care and hope you will be able to do that someday.....like you said, sometimes you need help through a rough time and clearly getting off meds is just that. Take your time. Lots of luck to you; hopefully all of us will still be here on the boards so we can celebrate that day with you!
jennita i've been on trazadone for over a year 200 mgs and its never lost it effectiveness the way i see it is i got the sleep i needed to heal seeing how sleep is the best way to heal i'm now actually weaning my self down off it because i want natural sleep and all these other meds i take i cant wait to get off off i just feel if you need some help through a rough time thats what you gotta do if i wasnt on some of these meds i'd be a basket case i actually still have alot of issues but hopefully in time they will resolve their selves thanks so much for caring it means alot you're awesome to worry about someone you dont even know and with what i've been through i completly understand why you do thanks again kelleigh :angel: :wave: :)
I'm glad the Trazadone didn't poop out on you; I've heard a few people complaining about that. So your tapering may go more smoothly. Glad to hear you do want to be med free someday because there are alot of people who have done just that and have been successful. I do care and hope you will be able to do that someday.....like you said, sometimes you need help through a rough time and clearly getting off meds is just that. Take your time. Lots of luck to you; hopefully all of us will still be here on the boards so we can celebrate that day with you!
no patience
04-24-2004, 03:30 PM
I'm glad the Trazadone didn't poop out on you; I've heard a few people complaining about that. So your tapering may go more smoothly. Glad to hear you do want to be med free someday because there are alot of people who have done just that and have been successful. I do care and hope you will be able to do that someday.....like you said, sometimes you need help through a rough time and clearly getting off meds is just that. Take your time. Lots of luck to you; hopefully all of us will still be here on the boards so we can celebrate that day with you!
thanks jennita it really means alot that you care so much all the support i've gotten from you and others is really helping me again i can't thank you enough for you're support luv kelleigh :wave:
thanks jennita it really means alot that you care so much all the support i've gotten from you and others is really helping me again i can't thank you enough for you're support luv kelleigh :wave:
Jennita
04-24-2004, 03:58 PM
Jennita,
I see what you are saying. I agree that the drugs should not have been prescribed to me in the first place. They are too risky, my case not severe enough, but again I think my docs were ignorant and maybe lazy also, but not devious. And the doctors, from the get go, gave me what I asked for, and I am good at asking... And I liked my "little pills" as they helped me through the stress of a profession that most people could not or would not do. It is a "real world" that you may not want to experience. So I am on the same page as Mic and Kieth`s song, and honestly, think there are probably more in those forums that are also than lead on. But once a tone is set one is pressured to go with the flow or face criticism or "the swarm," to use internet terminology. Yes, it is nice not having the doctor anger to deal with, but I do not beat myself up either. I have taken a sound course of action to protect and regain my health and that is all I can do, one day at a time.
I'm glad you are not blaming yourself. I might be a bit hard on doctors because I feel they should know better, but I suppose really they can only go by what drug reps. tell them about the drugs. It's like this> we trust the doctors, and the doctors trust the drug companies. But still, some doctors insist they are right when they are clearly wrong and it's that attitude that kinda gripes me.....
Hey, did you mention you were a computer programmer? I wonder because that's what my sons is studying right now in college.
I see what you are saying. I agree that the drugs should not have been prescribed to me in the first place. They are too risky, my case not severe enough, but again I think my docs were ignorant and maybe lazy also, but not devious. And the doctors, from the get go, gave me what I asked for, and I am good at asking... And I liked my "little pills" as they helped me through the stress of a profession that most people could not or would not do. It is a "real world" that you may not want to experience. So I am on the same page as Mic and Kieth`s song, and honestly, think there are probably more in those forums that are also than lead on. But once a tone is set one is pressured to go with the flow or face criticism or "the swarm," to use internet terminology. Yes, it is nice not having the doctor anger to deal with, but I do not beat myself up either. I have taken a sound course of action to protect and regain my health and that is all I can do, one day at a time.
I'm glad you are not blaming yourself. I might be a bit hard on doctors because I feel they should know better, but I suppose really they can only go by what drug reps. tell them about the drugs. It's like this> we trust the doctors, and the doctors trust the drug companies. But still, some doctors insist they are right when they are clearly wrong and it's that attitude that kinda gripes me.....
Hey, did you mention you were a computer programmer? I wonder because that's what my sons is studying right now in college.
howard678
04-24-2004, 03:59 PM
Kayleigh,
I have been tapering 3 months and have at least another 3 to go, perhaps 4 or 5. Longer if necessary, "the tortoise still wins the race." Antihistamine is a great sleep aid, and I am supposed to take it daily anyway for allergies, though I have not seen an allergist in years. I do not take it during the day because of drowsiness.
I have been tapering 3 months and have at least another 3 to go, perhaps 4 or 5. Longer if necessary, "the tortoise still wins the race." Antihistamine is a great sleep aid, and I am supposed to take it daily anyway for allergies, though I have not seen an allergist in years. I do not take it during the day because of drowsiness.
Jennita
04-24-2004, 04:00 PM
thanks jennita it really means alot that you care so much all the support i've gotten from you and others is really helping me again i can't thank you enough for you're support luv kelleigh :wave:
(((((((kelleigh))))))))))))Big hug!!! :)
(((((((kelleigh))))))))))))Big hug!!! :)
no patience
04-24-2004, 04:10 PM
:(((((((kelleigh))))))))))))Big hug!!! :)
awww! i needed that thank you :angel: :) :angel: :)
awww! i needed that thank you :angel: :) :angel: :)
howard678
04-24-2004, 06:20 PM
Jennita,
I truly do not blame myself. One way or another, my requests for those meds should have been denied. When I recover one of my projects will be to work for reforms. I would like to see descriptions of the potentials in withdrawal syndromes, symptoms, longevity, in the pharm inserts. I read these and would not have swallowed the first Xanax had this been done.
Computer programmer? No mam. That should be a moonlight serenade compared to what I do. lol Nice paydays too. I am arguably in the highest stress profession in the country and not well compensated. I could tell you some stories. Just not my preference here on a public board and if there is a PM feature, I do not see it...
I truly do not blame myself. One way or another, my requests for those meds should have been denied. When I recover one of my projects will be to work for reforms. I would like to see descriptions of the potentials in withdrawal syndromes, symptoms, longevity, in the pharm inserts. I read these and would not have swallowed the first Xanax had this been done.
Computer programmer? No mam. That should be a moonlight serenade compared to what I do. lol Nice paydays too. I am arguably in the highest stress profession in the country and not well compensated. I could tell you some stories. Just not my preference here on a public board and if there is a PM feature, I do not see it...
Jennita
04-24-2004, 10:59 PM
Oh, I thought since you mentioned computers/internet/something of that sort....
Wow, sorry you are stuck in such a stress-boiler, whatever it is! :dizzy: :blob_fire :eek: :dizzy:
Well, my son's boss is a dick. But this is only his part-time job while he goes through school, so he ignores his boss and just does his job...he's really the only one there who knows so much about computers as the rest of the staff are sales and accountants...and his boss is certainly not a computer whiz so my son sort of has the upper hand. Anyway, it seems he does yell at all his employees and they are super-stressed out because of it...my son already knew how to handle his type. My son walked out of the bosses' office one time while the boss was still yelling and it seems now the boss doesn't yell at him as much as the others :) My son won't yell back, ignores/makes his statements/answers and then just goes back to work.
Jobs are stressful enough without a pompous boss, right???? Job performance/employee loyalty has been evaluated as better when employees are treated better, so I don't know what my son's boss is thinking; well, my son said lots of people have already quit since he's been there, which hasn't been too long, soooo...
Anyway, hope this helps...((((((((((((howard)))))))))))))) hugs!
Wow, sorry you are stuck in such a stress-boiler, whatever it is! :dizzy: :blob_fire :eek: :dizzy:
Well, my son's boss is a dick. But this is only his part-time job while he goes through school, so he ignores his boss and just does his job...he's really the only one there who knows so much about computers as the rest of the staff are sales and accountants...and his boss is certainly not a computer whiz so my son sort of has the upper hand. Anyway, it seems he does yell at all his employees and they are super-stressed out because of it...my son already knew how to handle his type. My son walked out of the bosses' office one time while the boss was still yelling and it seems now the boss doesn't yell at him as much as the others :) My son won't yell back, ignores/makes his statements/answers and then just goes back to work.
Jobs are stressful enough without a pompous boss, right???? Job performance/employee loyalty has been evaluated as better when employees are treated better, so I don't know what my son's boss is thinking; well, my son said lots of people have already quit since he's been there, which hasn't been too long, soooo...
Anyway, hope this helps...((((((((((((howard)))))))))))))) hugs!
howard678
04-24-2004, 11:45 PM
Jennita,
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
no patience
04-25-2004, 09:02 AM
Jennita,
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
howard if you don't mind my asking what are the benzow/d symptoms i hear their worse than what i went through with methadone thanks kelleigh
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
howard if you don't mind my asking what are the benzow/d symptoms i hear their worse than what i went through with methadone thanks kelleigh
no patience
04-25-2004, 11:26 AM
Jennita,
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
howard i completly understand your story iknow methadone and benzos are 2 different things but when i went cold turkey i still had to work 6 days a week and raise my 7 yearr old daughter and i was working 2 jobs but it just got to be to much one of my jobs which i still do is clean houses which wasnt much fun when you had to drag yourself everywhere by your arms its amazing the willpower we get when we know we have to do something even though we feel like crud all our everyday things we do for some of us just have to be done know matter what i sympathize with your situation even though you seem to be handling it like a champ chat later kelleigh :wave: :angel: :wave: :angel:
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
howard i completly understand your story iknow methadone and benzos are 2 different things but when i went cold turkey i still had to work 6 days a week and raise my 7 yearr old daughter and i was working 2 jobs but it just got to be to much one of my jobs which i still do is clean houses which wasnt much fun when you had to drag yourself everywhere by your arms its amazing the willpower we get when we know we have to do something even though we feel like crud all our everyday things we do for some of us just have to be done know matter what i sympathize with your situation even though you seem to be handling it like a champ chat later kelleigh :wave: :angel: :wave: :angel:
howard678
04-25-2004, 03:22 PM
Thanks Kay Leigh!
Update on Trazadone. Tried one last night. Got no sedation, only some weird feelings and a bad case of dry mouth, a listed side effect. Guess I am one of the ones it does not work well for. One experiment is enough. Glad it has a short half-life, will not be any real traces in my body for long.
Update on Trazadone. Tried one last night. Got no sedation, only some weird feelings and a bad case of dry mouth, a listed side effect. Guess I am one of the ones it does not work well for. One experiment is enough. Glad it has a short half-life, will not be any real traces in my body for long.
no patience
04-25-2004, 04:00 PM
Thanks Kay Leigh!
Update on Trazadone. Tried one last night. Got no sedation, only some weird feelings and a bad case of dry mouth, a listed side effect. Guess I am one of the ones it does not work well for. One experiment is enough. Glad it has a short half-life, will not be any real traces in my body for long.
sorry to hear that thats strange about getting wierd feelings what was the dose you took ? sorry it did'nt help :o maybe it doesnt help with benzow/d was that thanks sarcastic
Update on Trazadone. Tried one last night. Got no sedation, only some weird feelings and a bad case of dry mouth, a listed side effect. Guess I am one of the ones it does not work well for. One experiment is enough. Glad it has a short half-life, will not be any real traces in my body for long.
sorry to hear that thats strange about getting wierd feelings what was the dose you took ? sorry it did'nt help :o maybe it doesnt help with benzow/d was that thanks sarcastic
howard678
04-25-2004, 08:18 PM
<<sorry to hear that thats strange about getting wierd feelings what was the dose you took ? sorry it did'nt help maybe it doesnt help with benzow/d was that thanks sarcastic>>
50 mgs. It produced no sedation and unwanted side effects. I will take no more, nor will I take an SSRI. Antihistamine is good enough right now to get me to sleep if necessary. If that stops working, I will keep going without sleep, sooner or later the body will get exhausted and you will sleep.
50 mgs. It produced no sedation and unwanted side effects. I will take no more, nor will I take an SSRI. Antihistamine is good enough right now to get me to sleep if necessary. If that stops working, I will keep going without sleep, sooner or later the body will get exhausted and you will sleep.
StarToo
04-25-2004, 08:29 PM
Jennita,
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
Howard, If you didn't know, Churchill was an addict in college. Proof we can overcome. Star
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
Howard, If you didn't know, Churchill was an addict in college. Proof we can overcome. Star
no patience
04-25-2004, 09:08 PM
<<sorry to hear that thats strange about getting wierd feelings what was the dose you took ? sorry it did'nt help maybe it doesnt help with benzow/d was that thanks sarcastic>>
50 mgs. It produced no sedation and unwanted side effects. I will take no more, nor will I take an SSRI. Antihistamine is good enough right now to get me to sleep if necessary. If that stops working, I will keep going without sleep, sooner or later the body will get exhausted and you will sleep.
again sorry to hear that hope you sleep normally soon sorry for the poor recomendation just wanted to help kelleigh
50 mgs. It produced no sedation and unwanted side effects. I will take no more, nor will I take an SSRI. Antihistamine is good enough right now to get me to sleep if necessary. If that stops working, I will keep going without sleep, sooner or later the body will get exhausted and you will sleep.
again sorry to hear that hope you sleep normally soon sorry for the poor recomendation just wanted to help kelleigh
howard678
04-26-2004, 12:54 AM
Star,
We will overcome if we want to, even if it hurts.
Kay Leigh,
Do not worry about the recommendation on the Trazadone. My doc wanted me to try it. I did plenty of research and decided to give it a trial. No biggie. Would have regardless of your recommendation. My system does not want it. Is the way it goes...
We will overcome if we want to, even if it hurts.
Kay Leigh,
Do not worry about the recommendation on the Trazadone. My doc wanted me to try it. I did plenty of research and decided to give it a trial. No biggie. Would have regardless of your recommendation. My system does not want it. Is the way it goes...
rosietee
04-26-2004, 01:57 AM
Hey guys, re the trazadone, years ago it did wonders for me and my sleep (loved it). Then I didn't take it for a long time. I tried it a couple years ago and I HATED it and the way it made me feel. Then again, I love ambien, and others hate that. So go figure.
rosie
rosie
Jennita
04-26-2004, 03:57 AM
Jennita,
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
Your welcome! You are lucky to be so healthy, that will help you in the long run...I've heard of some people not only having problems with drugs but also with poor health/diseases at the same time....I can't imagine that, can you?
My brother-in-law is a repiratory therapist and went through some high stress times (emotional too, when patients' die!). He took up skateboarding, of all things, he's in his fourties! He says it helps his stress alot. I guess we all must find what can do that for us...for me it's the gym and walking around Disneyland( South Calf. residents annual pass keeps it affordable). Both my brother-in-law and I are just big kids really. :jester:
Exercise will help the most I do believe; makes you feel so much better, whether it's at the gym or shooting hoops at the park, riding a bike, etc.
Acquaintances and associates that have no idea about the benzo withdrawal say they do not know how I do it. I actually have two jobs, one long hours and high stress, one short hours, low stress. I guess I do not like the alternative, sitting at home watching grade B movies and my bank balance shrink. And I have had a very extensive physical exam and all is good, so I am probably not going to drop dead. But I do plan on some employment changes in the near future. A lot of things inspire me like Churchill`s quote when the bombs kept falling, "We will never surrender." That and the fact that I have acquired a lot of experience at feeling crappy off and on. Affects me less... Thanks for the encouragement and the hug. :)
Your welcome! You are lucky to be so healthy, that will help you in the long run...I've heard of some people not only having problems with drugs but also with poor health/diseases at the same time....I can't imagine that, can you?
My brother-in-law is a repiratory therapist and went through some high stress times (emotional too, when patients' die!). He took up skateboarding, of all things, he's in his fourties! He says it helps his stress alot. I guess we all must find what can do that for us...for me it's the gym and walking around Disneyland( South Calf. residents annual pass keeps it affordable). Both my brother-in-law and I are just big kids really. :jester:
Exercise will help the most I do believe; makes you feel so much better, whether it's at the gym or shooting hoops at the park, riding a bike, etc.
no patience
04-26-2004, 09:56 AM
Star,
We will overcome if we want to, even if it hurts.
Kay Leigh,
Do not worry about the recommendation on the Trazadone. My doc wanted me to try it. I did plenty of research and decided to give it a trial. No biggie. Would have regardless of your recommendation. My system does not want it. Is the way it goes...
howard i admire you to be able to do this w/out the aid of ssris or any thing else you must be very strong i know benzo w/ds are suppose to be awful how long have you been going through this?kelleigh
We will overcome if we want to, even if it hurts.
Kay Leigh,
Do not worry about the recommendation on the Trazadone. My doc wanted me to try it. I did plenty of research and decided to give it a trial. No biggie. Would have regardless of your recommendation. My system does not want it. Is the way it goes...
howard i admire you to be able to do this w/out the aid of ssris or any thing else you must be very strong i know benzo w/ds are suppose to be awful how long have you been going through this?kelleigh
howard678
04-26-2004, 11:16 PM
Kay Leigh,
6 months. I jumped off of a 1 mg a day dose of Klonopin using a barbituate for help the first week. 26 days off my nerves were still raw and the intermittant pressure in my upper back, neck, and head led me to cave in and do things properly by slow tapering a long acting benzo. If I had it to do over I probably would have stuck it out as the hell usually ends within 3 months, but hindsight is 20/20. Now I am down to a relatively low dose of Valium and wil taper it over about 3 or 4 months, making about a 7 month taper. I have taken only 6 sick days from work through it all. Amazing what you can do when you have to. ;) Next time there will be no looking back.
6 months. I jumped off of a 1 mg a day dose of Klonopin using a barbituate for help the first week. 26 days off my nerves were still raw and the intermittant pressure in my upper back, neck, and head led me to cave in and do things properly by slow tapering a long acting benzo. If I had it to do over I probably would have stuck it out as the hell usually ends within 3 months, but hindsight is 20/20. Now I am down to a relatively low dose of Valium and wil taper it over about 3 or 4 months, making about a 7 month taper. I have taken only 6 sick days from work through it all. Amazing what you can do when you have to. ;) Next time there will be no looking back.
no patience
04-27-2004, 08:31 AM
WOW!!keep up the great work and don't forget better days are coming an again it,s great you can you do it w/o any other meds one more question when your taper is done is everything over with like thaw/ds and stuff?
howard678
04-28-2004, 12:31 AM
<<WOW!!keep up the great work and don't forget better days are coming an again it,s great you can you do it w/o any other meds one more question when your taper is done is everything over with like thaw/ds and stuff?>>
No, tapering slow does not mean one will have no withdrawals when you come off completely. Most surely do and I`d be very surprised if I do not have them. But the landing should be much softer dropping from a very small dose, withdrawals less severe as the brain along the way has adjusted to accepting less and less of the drug. One typically feels the real effects of coming off for around 3 months. It is not uncommon to feel some level of the effects from time to time for a year or two as the brain fully adjusts back to it`s pre-benzo state. But, I strongly suspect that I will be functional, effective, and enjoying life during such time. Outcomes vary person to person so it is a wait and see thing. Look for the best, be prepared for any potholes in the road. Is the only way out. Only other option once hooked, keep taking the drugs, keep increasing and increasing doses digging a deeper hole, chasing relief. That is not going to happen here...
No, tapering slow does not mean one will have no withdrawals when you come off completely. Most surely do and I`d be very surprised if I do not have them. But the landing should be much softer dropping from a very small dose, withdrawals less severe as the brain along the way has adjusted to accepting less and less of the drug. One typically feels the real effects of coming off for around 3 months. It is not uncommon to feel some level of the effects from time to time for a year or two as the brain fully adjusts back to it`s pre-benzo state. But, I strongly suspect that I will be functional, effective, and enjoying life during such time. Outcomes vary person to person so it is a wait and see thing. Look for the best, be prepared for any potholes in the road. Is the only way out. Only other option once hooked, keep taking the drugs, keep increasing and increasing doses digging a deeper hole, chasing relief. That is not going to happen here...
rosietee
04-28-2004, 01:27 AM
Hey, Howard, I just finished an inpatient detox. They took me off c/t from 2-3 mg of klonopin/day in addition to my 20-30/day norco habit. gave me pheno barbital at first, then Neurontin. Neurontin didn't sit well w/ me, so now I"m on Topamax, as I previously have had one seizure which might have been linked to discontinuing xanax (though I was taking small amount and irregularly). Looked at Ashton's Manual and see what they did is considered barbaric elsewhere in the world. Am considering having md put me on valium taper--feel headed for more severe protracted w/d. Bad, bad stomach problems. anyway, sounds like you are doing well. Let me know if you have any thoughts on my case.
thanks,
rosie
thanks,
rosie
no patience
04-28-2004, 08:16 AM
<<WOW!!keep up the great work and don't forget better days are coming an again it,s great you can you do it w/o any other meds one more question when your taper is done is everything over with like thaw/ds and stuff?>>
No, tapering slow does not mean one will have no withdrawals when you come off completely. Most surely do and I`d be very surprised if I do not have them. But the landing should be much softer dropping from a very small dose, withdrawals less severe as the brain along the way has adjusted to accepting less and less of the drug. One typically feels the real effects of coming off for around 3 months. It is not uncommon to feel some level of the effects from time to time for a year or two as the brain fully adjusts back to it`s pre-benzo state. But, I strongly suspect that I will be functional, effective, and enjoying life during such time. Outcomes vary person to person so it is a wait and see thing. Look for the best, be prepared for any potholes in the road. Is the only way out. Only other option once hooked, keep taking the drugs, keep increasing and increasing doses digging a deeper hole, chasing relief. That is not going to happen here...
so if iget off these with in 4 weeks am i still going to have w/ds i'm just scared now and my methadone w/d was a nightmare and i don't want another w/d in my life post back thanks howard kelleigh
No, tapering slow does not mean one will have no withdrawals when you come off completely. Most surely do and I`d be very surprised if I do not have them. But the landing should be much softer dropping from a very small dose, withdrawals less severe as the brain along the way has adjusted to accepting less and less of the drug. One typically feels the real effects of coming off for around 3 months. It is not uncommon to feel some level of the effects from time to time for a year or two as the brain fully adjusts back to it`s pre-benzo state. But, I strongly suspect that I will be functional, effective, and enjoying life during such time. Outcomes vary person to person so it is a wait and see thing. Look for the best, be prepared for any potholes in the road. Is the only way out. Only other option once hooked, keep taking the drugs, keep increasing and increasing doses digging a deeper hole, chasing relief. That is not going to happen here...
so if iget off these with in 4 weeks am i still going to have w/ds i'm just scared now and my methadone w/d was a nightmare and i don't want another w/d in my life post back thanks howard kelleigh
howard678
04-28-2004, 05:56 PM
Kay Leigh,
I would say the chances are excellent that you will not suffer withdrawals from the Klonopin if you only use it 4 weeks. Maybe Jennita will come back through and give her opinion. I know your screen name is "no patience," but try and get some. This all is a process, often quite gradual. But in the end, we will be better, stronger, more compassionate human beings for it. :-)
I would say the chances are excellent that you will not suffer withdrawals from the Klonopin if you only use it 4 weeks. Maybe Jennita will come back through and give her opinion. I know your screen name is "no patience," but try and get some. This all is a process, often quite gradual. But in the end, we will be better, stronger, more compassionate human beings for it. :-)
no patience
04-28-2004, 06:11 PM
Kay Leigh,
I would say the chances are excellent that you will not suffer withdrawals from the Klonopin if you only use it 4 weeks. Maybe Jennita will come back through and give her opinion. I know your screen name is "no patience," but try and get some. This all is a process, often quite gradual. But in the end, we will be better, stronger, more compassionate human beings for it. :-)
howard thanks for all your help i really appreciate it and keep up the good work at your end you're very strong willed and i hope one day to be med free and feeling normal w/o the help of meds thanks so much howard for taking the time to inform me and teach me the ins and outs benzos are a drug i was'nt familiar with and you've definitly opened my eyes thanks kelleigh :) :)
I would say the chances are excellent that you will not suffer withdrawals from the Klonopin if you only use it 4 weeks. Maybe Jennita will come back through and give her opinion. I know your screen name is "no patience," but try and get some. This all is a process, often quite gradual. But in the end, we will be better, stronger, more compassionate human beings for it. :-)
howard thanks for all your help i really appreciate it and keep up the good work at your end you're very strong willed and i hope one day to be med free and feeling normal w/o the help of meds thanks so much howard for taking the time to inform me and teach me the ins and outs benzos are a drug i was'nt familiar with and you've definitly opened my eyes thanks kelleigh :) :)
howard678
04-28-2004, 10:10 PM
Kay Leigh,
You are welcome. Any doc, nurse, or pharmacist that is well informed about addiction will tell you that benzodiazepines are easily the toughest withdrawals of all.
You are welcome. Any doc, nurse, or pharmacist that is well informed about addiction will tell you that benzodiazepines are easily the toughest withdrawals of all.
no patience
04-29-2004, 08:20 AM
howard if i do end up going through these w/ds i'll be posting you alot but let's hope it doesnt come to that i saw my councelor and she wants me on this drug for atleast 1 more month and i try not taking it and i get panicky(did i spell that right) like the panic attacks are coming back i don't know what to do because one sh--ty w/d was enough any suggestions thanks howard :wave: :angel:
Jennita
04-29-2004, 03:35 PM
Kay Leigh,
I would say the chances are excellent that you will not suffer withdrawals from the Klonopin if you only use it 4 weeks. Maybe Jennita will come back through and give her opinion. I know your screen name is "no patience," but try and get some. This all is a process, often quite gradual. But in the end, we will be better, stronger, more compassionate human beings for it. :-)
Hey, no patience,
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.
I'm also not sure what your doctor is planning in the way of tapering; sometimes they think a certain length of time is enough but usually they only go by what amount of time will be enough to prevent anything serious like seizures....not to prevent other symptoms because they tend to not believe in the withdrawal syndrome much, as we know.
I'd discuss the withdrawal schedule with the doctor; it can't usually be more than a 10% cut every 2 wks. If the doctor refuses that, maybe you should start it on your own since you will be getting an extra month of regular doses to help you taper slower. By the time the doctor approves the start of your taper, you may already be part the way there and will be able to stretch it out some.
I would say the chances are excellent that you will not suffer withdrawals from the Klonopin if you only use it 4 weeks. Maybe Jennita will come back through and give her opinion. I know your screen name is "no patience," but try and get some. This all is a process, often quite gradual. But in the end, we will be better, stronger, more compassionate human beings for it. :-)
Hey, no patience,
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.
I'm also not sure what your doctor is planning in the way of tapering; sometimes they think a certain length of time is enough but usually they only go by what amount of time will be enough to prevent anything serious like seizures....not to prevent other symptoms because they tend to not believe in the withdrawal syndrome much, as we know.
I'd discuss the withdrawal schedule with the doctor; it can't usually be more than a 10% cut every 2 wks. If the doctor refuses that, maybe you should start it on your own since you will be getting an extra month of regular doses to help you taper slower. By the time the doctor approves the start of your taper, you may already be part the way there and will be able to stretch it out some.
no patience
04-29-2004, 04:22 PM
Hey, no patience,
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.
I'm also not sure what your doctor is planning in the way of tapering; sometimes they think a certain length of time is enough but usually they only go by what amount of time will be enough to prevent anything serious like seizures....not to prevent other symptoms because they tend to not believe in the withdrawal syndrome much, as we know.
I'd discuss the withdrawal schedule with the doctor; it can't usually be more than a 10% cut every 2 wks. If the doctor refuses that, maybe you should start it on your own since you will be getting an extra month of regular doses to help you taper slower. By the time the doctor approves the start of your taper, you may already be part the way there and will be able to stretch it out some.
hi jennita the doctor prescribed more because i.m still kind of having panicky situations like ending up in places i should'nt be like at the wrong doc or going to the wrong store and having a very hard time in social situations like even family situations some times i just can't bring my self to attend i'm just really having a hard time with coping with life after methadone it's like i'm learning certain things over again and all the stuff i avoided or delt with on methadone is hitting me like a ton of bricks and now i'm just so nervous that i may have to go through hell all over again thank you for replying i need all the info i can get so that way at my next prescribers meeting i can discuss these things with her and hopefully she won't sugar coat it i'm just so scared now i did'nt realize these meds were so bad i was nieve just like with methadone thank you jennita i'm glad i have you and howard for support it helps so much :angel: :angel: :angel:
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.
I'm also not sure what your doctor is planning in the way of tapering; sometimes they think a certain length of time is enough but usually they only go by what amount of time will be enough to prevent anything serious like seizures....not to prevent other symptoms because they tend to not believe in the withdrawal syndrome much, as we know.
I'd discuss the withdrawal schedule with the doctor; it can't usually be more than a 10% cut every 2 wks. If the doctor refuses that, maybe you should start it on your own since you will be getting an extra month of regular doses to help you taper slower. By the time the doctor approves the start of your taper, you may already be part the way there and will be able to stretch it out some.
hi jennita the doctor prescribed more because i.m still kind of having panicky situations like ending up in places i should'nt be like at the wrong doc or going to the wrong store and having a very hard time in social situations like even family situations some times i just can't bring my self to attend i'm just really having a hard time with coping with life after methadone it's like i'm learning certain things over again and all the stuff i avoided or delt with on methadone is hitting me like a ton of bricks and now i'm just so nervous that i may have to go through hell all over again thank you for replying i need all the info i can get so that way at my next prescribers meeting i can discuss these things with her and hopefully she won't sugar coat it i'm just so scared now i did'nt realize these meds were so bad i was nieve just like with methadone thank you jennita i'm glad i have you and howard for support it helps so much :angel: :angel: :angel:
Jennita
04-29-2004, 05:04 PM
I'm so sorry for you. All I can tell you is this; it is entirely possible to become drug free and panic free one day. I remember in the early days of my experience that I was so exhausted from racing heart/panic that I could barely talk. I talked in a hushed tone. Sleep? Impossible...
I went to get several opinions from doctors; not one really told me anything about the drugs except they shouldn't have caused any of this; that after 2 weeks, the drug is gone and so should any problems be. ONe time during my early withdrawal I went to a new doctor for a cold and mentioned my conditon at the time...in which I was only sleeping 14 hours a week. She told me it would never improve without pills of some sort because she had seen some of her patients try unsuccessfully....but then again, I wonder how long they tried....2 wks? SHe had never heard of benzo protracted syndrome. But by then, I finally had so I declined her offer of some AD that supposedly would help me sleep. She even offered some more Ativan.....I told her no way.
Now, I don't need pills for anything. I certainly sleep many more hours now too.... and heart racing/panic??....all gone.
Guess she was wrong now, wasn't she? :p
So no matter how long it takes, you will be ok. It may take awhile. It may not. You have a really good chance your withdrawals will be mild or short-lived. I took the benzos much longer than you and developed tolerance....that means, basically, if you took your regular Klonopin right now and felt absolutely no relief. So I was much worse off than you and not informed intil well into it. No doctor informed me of the truth; I found out myself on those websites on benzo withdrawal. I feel very lucky and fortunate that others were willing to go to the trouble to help people like me. I guess sometimes I feel I owe a debt....this is why I periodically visit the boards to try and warn others. Some listen; some don't but I feel it's worth a shot.
Don't let fear about all this get to you because although it is hard to go through, it's not permenant. If you had cancer, or some horrible disease without any cure, it would be a different story. You have something that does have a cure....unfortunately, it's not a magical bullet. It's simply time and preserverance. Take care of yourself, eat right, exercise, rest as much as you need.....and mostly don't be scared this is a life sentence because it isn't. Like Howard said, change your name to have patience! ;)
I went to get several opinions from doctors; not one really told me anything about the drugs except they shouldn't have caused any of this; that after 2 weeks, the drug is gone and so should any problems be. ONe time during my early withdrawal I went to a new doctor for a cold and mentioned my conditon at the time...in which I was only sleeping 14 hours a week. She told me it would never improve without pills of some sort because she had seen some of her patients try unsuccessfully....but then again, I wonder how long they tried....2 wks? SHe had never heard of benzo protracted syndrome. But by then, I finally had so I declined her offer of some AD that supposedly would help me sleep. She even offered some more Ativan.....I told her no way.
Now, I don't need pills for anything. I certainly sleep many more hours now too.... and heart racing/panic??....all gone.
Guess she was wrong now, wasn't she? :p
So no matter how long it takes, you will be ok. It may take awhile. It may not. You have a really good chance your withdrawals will be mild or short-lived. I took the benzos much longer than you and developed tolerance....that means, basically, if you took your regular Klonopin right now and felt absolutely no relief. So I was much worse off than you and not informed intil well into it. No doctor informed me of the truth; I found out myself on those websites on benzo withdrawal. I feel very lucky and fortunate that others were willing to go to the trouble to help people like me. I guess sometimes I feel I owe a debt....this is why I periodically visit the boards to try and warn others. Some listen; some don't but I feel it's worth a shot.
Don't let fear about all this get to you because although it is hard to go through, it's not permenant. If you had cancer, or some horrible disease without any cure, it would be a different story. You have something that does have a cure....unfortunately, it's not a magical bullet. It's simply time and preserverance. Take care of yourself, eat right, exercise, rest as much as you need.....and mostly don't be scared this is a life sentence because it isn't. Like Howard said, change your name to have patience! ;)
no patience
04-29-2004, 09:43 PM
I'm so sorry for you. All I can tell you is this; it is entirely possible to become drug free and panic free one day. I remember in the early days of my experience that I was so exhausted from racing heart/panic that I could barely talk. I talked in a hushed tone. Sleep? Impossible...
I went to get several opinions from doctors; not one really told me anything about the drugs except they shouldn't have caused any of this; that after 2 weeks, the drug is gone and so should any problems be. ONe time during my early withdrawal I went to a new doctor for a cold and mentioned my conditon at the time...in which I was only sleeping 14 hours a week. She told me it would never improve without pills of some sort because she had seen some of her patients try unsuccessfully....but then again, I wonder how long they tried....2 wks? SHe had never heard of benzo protracted syndrome. But by then, I finally had so I declined her offer of some AD that supposedly would help me sleep. She even offered some more Ativan.....I told her no way.
Now, I don't need pills for anything. I certainly sleep many more hours now too.... and heart racing/panic??....all gone.
Guess she was wrong now, wasn't she? :p
So no matter how long it takes, you will be ok. It may take awhile. It may not. You have a really good chance your withdrawals will be mild or short-lived. I took the benzos much longer than you and developed tolerance....that means, basically, if you took your regular Klonopin right now and felt absolutely no relief. So I was much worse off than you and not informed intil well into it. No doctor informed me of the truth; I found out myself on those websites on benzo withdrawal. I feel very lucky and fortunate that others were willing to go to the trouble to help people like me. I guess sometimes I feel I owe a debt....this is why I periodically visit the boards to try and warn others. Some listen; some don't but I feel it's worth a shot.
Don't let fear about all this get to you because although it is hard to go through, it's not permenant. If you had cancer, or some horrible disease without any cure, it would be a different story. You have something that does have a cure....unfortunately, it's not a magical bullet. It's simply time and preserverance. Take care of yourself, eat right, exercise, rest as much as you need.....and mostly don't be scared this is a life sentence because it isn't. Like Howard said, change your name to have patience! ;)
thanks jennita that makes me feel so much better thanks for your story it helps considerably you've been so helpful and i can't thank you enough i'm glad you stay on the boards because so many people could use people like you and howard no sugar coating thanks again kelleigh :) :angel:
I went to get several opinions from doctors; not one really told me anything about the drugs except they shouldn't have caused any of this; that after 2 weeks, the drug is gone and so should any problems be. ONe time during my early withdrawal I went to a new doctor for a cold and mentioned my conditon at the time...in which I was only sleeping 14 hours a week. She told me it would never improve without pills of some sort because she had seen some of her patients try unsuccessfully....but then again, I wonder how long they tried....2 wks? SHe had never heard of benzo protracted syndrome. But by then, I finally had so I declined her offer of some AD that supposedly would help me sleep. She even offered some more Ativan.....I told her no way.
Now, I don't need pills for anything. I certainly sleep many more hours now too.... and heart racing/panic??....all gone.
Guess she was wrong now, wasn't she? :p
So no matter how long it takes, you will be ok. It may take awhile. It may not. You have a really good chance your withdrawals will be mild or short-lived. I took the benzos much longer than you and developed tolerance....that means, basically, if you took your regular Klonopin right now and felt absolutely no relief. So I was much worse off than you and not informed intil well into it. No doctor informed me of the truth; I found out myself on those websites on benzo withdrawal. I feel very lucky and fortunate that others were willing to go to the trouble to help people like me. I guess sometimes I feel I owe a debt....this is why I periodically visit the boards to try and warn others. Some listen; some don't but I feel it's worth a shot.
Don't let fear about all this get to you because although it is hard to go through, it's not permenant. If you had cancer, or some horrible disease without any cure, it would be a different story. You have something that does have a cure....unfortunately, it's not a magical bullet. It's simply time and preserverance. Take care of yourself, eat right, exercise, rest as much as you need.....and mostly don't be scared this is a life sentence because it isn't. Like Howard said, change your name to have patience! ;)
thanks jennita that makes me feel so much better thanks for your story it helps considerably you've been so helpful and i can't thank you enough i'm glad you stay on the boards because so many people could use people like you and howard no sugar coating thanks again kelleigh :) :angel:
no patience
04-30-2004, 08:25 AM
howard i read alot on the ashton manual last night very informative and scared the crap out of me i have a councelor meeting tuesday and i'm definitly bringing up the klonopin god i never realized benzos were so evil i know you and jennita have worned me but reading it in the aston manual really opened my eyes i thank tou and jennita both for all your help i read every w/d is different and if i do have them with the luck have it will be the worst anyone has ever had didn't see any thing from you last night hope your ok kelleigh :angel:
Jennita
04-30-2004, 03:08 PM
howard i read alot on the ashton manual last night very informative and scared the crap out of me i have a councelor meeting tuesday and i'm definitly bringing up the klonopin god i never realized benzos were so evil i know you and jennita have worned me but reading it in the aston manual really opened my eyes i thank tou and jennita both for all your help i read every w/d is different and if i do have them with the luck have it will be the worst anyone has ever had didn't see any thing from you last night hope your ok kelleigh :angel:
You are welcome but the best thanks you can give us is to get better, ok? I know it's scary but remember this is a temporary condition....may get a bit rough but it's still temporary nevertheless. You will win here if you are willing to do it.
I remember being very scared. But then I felt better a bit. I realized then it is possible to improve. I improved at snails pace; a few times I wondered if I would be ok when I would have a setback. But then I started to improve again; more and more as time went on. Then, I got incredibly angry over what was done to me....this is turn made me more determined to get through it. I still get angry at times, but it sure helps me calm down to know when I have helped someone else who has been a victim of this.
I've been fortunate too, that my husband travels and knows alot of people in his work so I've been able to help alot of people through him. He works for a labor union, and every once in awhile he runs across another victim of prescription pills and he tells them my story. One man in particular I was able to talk with on the phone.....
He was a mess; he had been very well in his life, intil he needed hip surgery.... withdrawals from the amount of painkillers/benzos he was on in the hospital left him sleepless (2 hours a night of sleep) and anxious when he came home (panic attacks).
And then his doctor, true to form, when this problem didn't go away in a week or two referred him to a psychiatrist who gave him the catch-all diagnoisis of clinical depression. This was hard for him to understand since he was always so upbeat; had a great family, loved his job, etc. But thinking he was to believe anyone with M.D. next to his name, he did take the Zoloft the psych prescribed for him.....which worked for a few days and then sleep troubles came back. I talked with him a long time, explaining he was surely not depressed and he simply went through drug withdrawals which do not end in a short time as commonly thought. I told him things I had learned from Ashton Manual, Dr. Ann Tracy and Dr. Peter Breggin websites. Also, I had my own story to go by.
He seemed grateful; he weaned off the Zoloft slowly (he hadn't taken it long but I warned he still needed to taper for safety) and last we heard, he was feeling alot better, less panic and more sleep....
So hang in there!!!! Do remember not to skip your pill or try a cold turkey as this will cause you considerable distress! Slow tapering is the way to go.
Don't thank me.....get better....that's the best thanks for me. Let howard and I know how it all goes from time to time!
Hey howard, hope you are doing well. :wave:
You are welcome but the best thanks you can give us is to get better, ok? I know it's scary but remember this is a temporary condition....may get a bit rough but it's still temporary nevertheless. You will win here if you are willing to do it.
I remember being very scared. But then I felt better a bit. I realized then it is possible to improve. I improved at snails pace; a few times I wondered if I would be ok when I would have a setback. But then I started to improve again; more and more as time went on. Then, I got incredibly angry over what was done to me....this is turn made me more determined to get through it. I still get angry at times, but it sure helps me calm down to know when I have helped someone else who has been a victim of this.
I've been fortunate too, that my husband travels and knows alot of people in his work so I've been able to help alot of people through him. He works for a labor union, and every once in awhile he runs across another victim of prescription pills and he tells them my story. One man in particular I was able to talk with on the phone.....
He was a mess; he had been very well in his life, intil he needed hip surgery.... withdrawals from the amount of painkillers/benzos he was on in the hospital left him sleepless (2 hours a night of sleep) and anxious when he came home (panic attacks).
And then his doctor, true to form, when this problem didn't go away in a week or two referred him to a psychiatrist who gave him the catch-all diagnoisis of clinical depression. This was hard for him to understand since he was always so upbeat; had a great family, loved his job, etc. But thinking he was to believe anyone with M.D. next to his name, he did take the Zoloft the psych prescribed for him.....which worked for a few days and then sleep troubles came back. I talked with him a long time, explaining he was surely not depressed and he simply went through drug withdrawals which do not end in a short time as commonly thought. I told him things I had learned from Ashton Manual, Dr. Ann Tracy and Dr. Peter Breggin websites. Also, I had my own story to go by.
He seemed grateful; he weaned off the Zoloft slowly (he hadn't taken it long but I warned he still needed to taper for safety) and last we heard, he was feeling alot better, less panic and more sleep....
So hang in there!!!! Do remember not to skip your pill or try a cold turkey as this will cause you considerable distress! Slow tapering is the way to go.
Don't thank me.....get better....that's the best thanks for me. Let howard and I know how it all goes from time to time!
Hey howard, hope you are doing well. :wave:
no patience
04-30-2004, 05:21 PM
You are welcome but the best thanks you can give us is to get better, ok? I know it's scary but remember this is a temporary condition....may get a bit rough but it's still temporary nevertheless. You will win here if you are willing to do it.
I remember being very scared. But then I felt better a bit. I realized then it is possible to improve. I improved at snails pace; a few times I wondered if I would be ok when I would have a setback. But then I started to improve again; more and more as time went on. Then, I got incredibly angry over what was done to me....this is turn made me more determined to get through it. I still get angry at times, but it sure helps me calm down to know when I have helped someone else who has been a victim of this.
I've been fortunate too, that my husband travels and knows alot of people in his work so I've been able to help alot of people through him. He works for a labor union, and every once in awhile he runs across another victim of prescription pills and he tells them my story. One man in particular I was able to talk with on the phone.....
He was a mess; he had been very well in his life, intil he needed hip surgery.... withdrawals from the amount of painkillers/benzos he was on in the hospital left him sleepless (2 hours a night of sleep) and anxious when he came home (panic attacks).
And then his doctor, true to form, when this problem didn't go away in a week or two referred him to a psychiatrist who gave him the catch-all diagnoisis of clinical depression. This was hard for him to understand since he was always so upbeat; had a great family, loved his job, etc. But thinking he was to believe anyone with M.D. next to his name, he did take the Zoloft the psych prescribed for him.....which worked for a few days and then sleep troubles came back. I talked with him a long time, explaining he was surely not depressed and he simply went through drug withdrawals which do not end in a short time as commonly thought. I told him things I had learned from Ashton Manual, Dr. Ann Tracy and Dr. Peter Breggin websites. Also, I had my own story to go by.
He seemed grateful; he weaned off the Zoloft slowly (he hadn't taken it long but I warned he still needed to taper for safety) and last we heard, he was feeling alot better, less panic and more sleep....
So hang in there!!!! Do remember not to skip your pill or try a cold turkey as this will cause you considerable distress! Slow tapering is the way to go.
Don't thank me.....get better....that's the best thanks for me. Let howard and I know how it all goes from time to time!
Hey howard, hope you are doing well. :wave:
jennita THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!
I remember being very scared. But then I felt better a bit. I realized then it is possible to improve. I improved at snails pace; a few times I wondered if I would be ok when I would have a setback. But then I started to improve again; more and more as time went on. Then, I got incredibly angry over what was done to me....this is turn made me more determined to get through it. I still get angry at times, but it sure helps me calm down to know when I have helped someone else who has been a victim of this.
I've been fortunate too, that my husband travels and knows alot of people in his work so I've been able to help alot of people through him. He works for a labor union, and every once in awhile he runs across another victim of prescription pills and he tells them my story. One man in particular I was able to talk with on the phone.....
He was a mess; he had been very well in his life, intil he needed hip surgery.... withdrawals from the amount of painkillers/benzos he was on in the hospital left him sleepless (2 hours a night of sleep) and anxious when he came home (panic attacks).
And then his doctor, true to form, when this problem didn't go away in a week or two referred him to a psychiatrist who gave him the catch-all diagnoisis of clinical depression. This was hard for him to understand since he was always so upbeat; had a great family, loved his job, etc. But thinking he was to believe anyone with M.D. next to his name, he did take the Zoloft the psych prescribed for him.....which worked for a few days and then sleep troubles came back. I talked with him a long time, explaining he was surely not depressed and he simply went through drug withdrawals which do not end in a short time as commonly thought. I told him things I had learned from Ashton Manual, Dr. Ann Tracy and Dr. Peter Breggin websites. Also, I had my own story to go by.
He seemed grateful; he weaned off the Zoloft slowly (he hadn't taken it long but I warned he still needed to taper for safety) and last we heard, he was feeling alot better, less panic and more sleep....
So hang in there!!!! Do remember not to skip your pill or try a cold turkey as this will cause you considerable distress! Slow tapering is the way to go.
Don't thank me.....get better....that's the best thanks for me. Let howard and I know how it all goes from time to time!
Hey howard, hope you are doing well. :wave:
jennita THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!
Annie45
04-30-2004, 10:18 PM
:rolleyes:
howard678
04-30-2004, 10:51 PM
<<Hey, no patience,
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.>> Jennita
I am one more case you have heard of that quit with no withdrawals, 8 months, .5 mgs of Xanax = the same with Klonopin, ran out of pills, was off 3 months with no problems at all. I just did not want to bother going to the doc to get more. Was using Benadryl for sleep but the sleep problems pre-dated the benzos. Got the typical winter flu, went in for some anti-biotics and decided to ask for some Xanax. Got it. Four months later quit again for 10 days, only to save pills in case I needed extras on vacation, do not sleep well in strange beds. Again, no withdrawals, and with the very short half-life of Xanax, chances are excellent that if I was going to feel something I would have within 10 days. I just had no interest in quitting for good as I was ignorant of the potential withdrawal syndromes, severity, longevity. One would have a ways to go to sell me on the idea that my case is "pretty rare." I would also have difficulty with the idea that cases where people that stop in 2 to 4 weeks with no problems, which is the recommended use time frame in the U.S. & the U.K., is in any way rare. What I would think would be rare is your story about the man that had surgery, used benzos and opiates in that setting, and came out addicted. But I do not know how long he was in the hospital on the drugs... I am aware of no research to illustrate that benzos create anything like instant addiction in even the majority that take them. A quote from Breggin would not surprise me, but actually about nothing would. This man is obviously a crusader...
If Kay Leigh comes off Klonopin in a month and still has panic attacks then these episodes cannot be fairly attributed to benzos as the condition pre-existed. Tapering is a pain in the butt and expensive if you do not have good insurance, cutting pills, carrying them around, monthly doctor visits. There is no point in this if it is not necessary. And her panic problem, just as like my sleep problem, will have to be addressed. Benzos did not cause these in our cases, and I do not believe they magically go away when ceasing the drugs unless other therapies are employed in the interim. Why? Because it makes no sense. Plus, if she embarks on one of these one year or so tapers that are so often recommended she could become addicted in the process while at the present time she is not. :eek:
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.>> Jennita
I am one more case you have heard of that quit with no withdrawals, 8 months, .5 mgs of Xanax = the same with Klonopin, ran out of pills, was off 3 months with no problems at all. I just did not want to bother going to the doc to get more. Was using Benadryl for sleep but the sleep problems pre-dated the benzos. Got the typical winter flu, went in for some anti-biotics and decided to ask for some Xanax. Got it. Four months later quit again for 10 days, only to save pills in case I needed extras on vacation, do not sleep well in strange beds. Again, no withdrawals, and with the very short half-life of Xanax, chances are excellent that if I was going to feel something I would have within 10 days. I just had no interest in quitting for good as I was ignorant of the potential withdrawal syndromes, severity, longevity. One would have a ways to go to sell me on the idea that my case is "pretty rare." I would also have difficulty with the idea that cases where people that stop in 2 to 4 weeks with no problems, which is the recommended use time frame in the U.S. & the U.K., is in any way rare. What I would think would be rare is your story about the man that had surgery, used benzos and opiates in that setting, and came out addicted. But I do not know how long he was in the hospital on the drugs... I am aware of no research to illustrate that benzos create anything like instant addiction in even the majority that take them. A quote from Breggin would not surprise me, but actually about nothing would. This man is obviously a crusader...
If Kay Leigh comes off Klonopin in a month and still has panic attacks then these episodes cannot be fairly attributed to benzos as the condition pre-existed. Tapering is a pain in the butt and expensive if you do not have good insurance, cutting pills, carrying them around, monthly doctor visits. There is no point in this if it is not necessary. And her panic problem, just as like my sleep problem, will have to be addressed. Benzos did not cause these in our cases, and I do not believe they magically go away when ceasing the drugs unless other therapies are employed in the interim. Why? Because it makes no sense. Plus, if she embarks on one of these one year or so tapers that are so often recommended she could become addicted in the process while at the present time she is not. :eek:
no patience
05-01-2004, 09:23 AM
<<Hey, no patience,
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.>> Jennita
I am one more case you have heard of that quit with no withdrawals, 8 months, .5 mgs of Xanax = the same with Klonopin, ran out of pills, was off 3 months with no problems at all. I just did not want to bother going to the doc to get more. Was using Benadryl for sleep but the sleep problems pre-dated the benzos. Got the typical winter flu, went in for some anti-biotics and decided to ask for some Xanax. Got it. Four months later quit again for 10 days, only to save pills in case I needed extras on vacation, do not sleep well in strange beds. Again, no withdrawals, and with the very short half-life of Xanax, chances are excellent that if I was going to feel something I would have within 10 days. I just had no interest in quitting for good as I was ignorant of the potential withdrawal syndromes, severity, longevity. One would have a ways to go to sell me on the idea that my case is "pretty rare." I would also have difficulty with the idea that cases where people that stop in 2 to 4 weeks with no problems, which is the recommended use time frame in the U.S. & the U.K., is in any way rare. What I would think would be rare is your story about the man that had surgery, used benzos and opiates in that setting, and came out addicted. But I do not know how long he was in the hospital on the drugs... I am aware of no research to illustrate that benzos create anything like instant addiction in even the majority that take them. A quote from Breggin would not surprise me, but actually about nothing would. This man is obviously a crusader...
If Kay Leigh comes off Klonopin in a month and still has panic attacks then these episodes cannot be fairly attributed to benzos as the condition pre-existed. Tapering is a pain in the butt and expensive if you do not have good insurance, cutting pills, carrying them around, monthly doctor visits. There is no point in this if it is not necessary. And her panic problem, just as like my sleep problem, will have to be addressed. Benzos did not cause these in our cases, and I do not believe they magically go away when ceasing the drugs unless other therapies are employed in the interim. Why? Because it makes no sense. Plus, if she embarks on one of these one year or so tapers that are so often recommended she could become addicted in the process while at the present time she is not. :eek:
hey howard hope everything is well keep up the good work and thaks for all your help kelleigh
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.>> Jennita
I am one more case you have heard of that quit with no withdrawals, 8 months, .5 mgs of Xanax = the same with Klonopin, ran out of pills, was off 3 months with no problems at all. I just did not want to bother going to the doc to get more. Was using Benadryl for sleep but the sleep problems pre-dated the benzos. Got the typical winter flu, went in for some anti-biotics and decided to ask for some Xanax. Got it. Four months later quit again for 10 days, only to save pills in case I needed extras on vacation, do not sleep well in strange beds. Again, no withdrawals, and with the very short half-life of Xanax, chances are excellent that if I was going to feel something I would have within 10 days. I just had no interest in quitting for good as I was ignorant of the potential withdrawal syndromes, severity, longevity. One would have a ways to go to sell me on the idea that my case is "pretty rare." I would also have difficulty with the idea that cases where people that stop in 2 to 4 weeks with no problems, which is the recommended use time frame in the U.S. & the U.K., is in any way rare. What I would think would be rare is your story about the man that had surgery, used benzos and opiates in that setting, and came out addicted. But I do not know how long he was in the hospital on the drugs... I am aware of no research to illustrate that benzos create anything like instant addiction in even the majority that take them. A quote from Breggin would not surprise me, but actually about nothing would. This man is obviously a crusader...
If Kay Leigh comes off Klonopin in a month and still has panic attacks then these episodes cannot be fairly attributed to benzos as the condition pre-existed. Tapering is a pain in the butt and expensive if you do not have good insurance, cutting pills, carrying them around, monthly doctor visits. There is no point in this if it is not necessary. And her panic problem, just as like my sleep problem, will have to be addressed. Benzos did not cause these in our cases, and I do not believe they magically go away when ceasing the drugs unless other therapies are employed in the interim. Why? Because it makes no sense. Plus, if she embarks on one of these one year or so tapers that are so often recommended she could become addicted in the process while at the present time she is not. :eek:
hey howard hope everything is well keep up the good work and thaks for all your help kelleigh
howard678
05-01-2004, 01:51 PM
Rosie Tree,
Am quite sorry I missed your post and did not reply right away. You are feeling it, normal. Heather Ashton is a good scientist, seems to try to be objective, and chooses her words carefully, but she is not God. What might be considered "barbariac," IMO, is the cold turkey part, not the Phenobarb. A non-benzo, sedative, ant-seizure med is advisable if one is to cold turkey off benzos. Phenobarb use short term is not a bad choice. Keeps withdrawals in check, gets one over the initial hump. But you are poly addicted, opiates in the mix, and I do not believe everyone has the discipline to taper. How long have you been off all the drugs at this point?? I want to know more. Also it may not be easy to distinguish between your opiate and benzo withdrawals at this point... How long did you take benzos? Did you take them daily? You may not be addicted to them at all, but just opiates. You may want to seriously consider toughing this one out rather than going back on benzos, especially if you do not have to work. If I had it to do over I would have done just that. I worked through my cold turkey and saw real relief at about 2 weeks off, but a stressful week followed and tremors and muscle tension really flared up. Pills were in the house and I caved in. If I had it to do over, I would have flushed the pills as so many had advised me, then in all likelihood I would be fine right now and not having to bother tapering, not to mention the extra money I am spending.
As to "protracted withdrawals," this is defined differently by different people. For Ashton it means withdrawal symptoms beyond 18 months, occuring in about 15% of cases according to her, but I have also read that she did not follow her patients up past a year... Is mystery on this one. But this by no means means that you would feel like you do now for that long. And she only states that cold turkeying increases the likelihood of the situation, is no guarantee of it, could happen also with a slow taper. But worrying about something that may or may not happen is certainly not good for our psychological health... You have chosen a course of action. Trying another avenue at this point may not be the best move.
P.S.
You mentioned in an earlier post that you liked Ambien. The chemical composition of this drug is very close to benzos, it is addictive, has a withdrawal syndrome, and is also made for short term use only. Beware, that and Sonata.
Am quite sorry I missed your post and did not reply right away. You are feeling it, normal. Heather Ashton is a good scientist, seems to try to be objective, and chooses her words carefully, but she is not God. What might be considered "barbariac," IMO, is the cold turkey part, not the Phenobarb. A non-benzo, sedative, ant-seizure med is advisable if one is to cold turkey off benzos. Phenobarb use short term is not a bad choice. Keeps withdrawals in check, gets one over the initial hump. But you are poly addicted, opiates in the mix, and I do not believe everyone has the discipline to taper. How long have you been off all the drugs at this point?? I want to know more. Also it may not be easy to distinguish between your opiate and benzo withdrawals at this point... How long did you take benzos? Did you take them daily? You may not be addicted to them at all, but just opiates. You may want to seriously consider toughing this one out rather than going back on benzos, especially if you do not have to work. If I had it to do over I would have done just that. I worked through my cold turkey and saw real relief at about 2 weeks off, but a stressful week followed and tremors and muscle tension really flared up. Pills were in the house and I caved in. If I had it to do over, I would have flushed the pills as so many had advised me, then in all likelihood I would be fine right now and not having to bother tapering, not to mention the extra money I am spending.
As to "protracted withdrawals," this is defined differently by different people. For Ashton it means withdrawal symptoms beyond 18 months, occuring in about 15% of cases according to her, but I have also read that she did not follow her patients up past a year... Is mystery on this one. But this by no means means that you would feel like you do now for that long. And she only states that cold turkeying increases the likelihood of the situation, is no guarantee of it, could happen also with a slow taper. But worrying about something that may or may not happen is certainly not good for our psychological health... You have chosen a course of action. Trying another avenue at this point may not be the best move.
P.S.
You mentioned in an earlier post that you liked Ambien. The chemical composition of this drug is very close to benzos, it is addictive, has a withdrawal syndrome, and is also made for short term use only. Beware, that and Sonata.
Jennita
05-01-2004, 06:35 PM
<<Hey, no patience,
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.>> Jennita
I am one more case you have heard of that quit with no withdrawals, 8 months, .5 mgs of Xanax = the same with Klonopin, ran out of pills, was off 3 months with no problems at all. I just did not want to bother going to the doc to get more. Was using Benadryl for sleep but the sleep problems pre-dated the benzos. Got the typical winter flu, went in for some anti-biotics and decided to ask for some Xanax. Got it. Four months later quit again for 10 days, only to save pills in case I needed extras on vacation, do not sleep well in strange beds. Again, no withdrawals, and with the very short half-life of Xanax, chances are excellent that if I was going to feel something I would have within 10 days. I just had no interest in quitting for good as I was ignorant of the potential withdrawal syndromes, severity, longevity. One would have a ways to go to sell me on the idea that my case is "pretty rare." I would also have difficulty with the idea that cases where people that stop in 2 to 4 weeks with no problems, which is the recommended use time frame in the U.S. & the U.K., is in any way rare. What I would think would be rare is your story about the man that had surgery, used benzos and opiates in that setting, and came out addicted. But I do not know how long he was in the hospital on the drugs... I am aware of no research to illustrate that benzos create anything like instant addiction in even the majority that take them. A quote from Breggin would not surprise me, but actually about nothing would. This man is obviously a crusader...
If Kay Leigh comes off Klonopin in a month and still has panic attacks then these episodes cannot be fairly attributed to benzos as the condition pre-existed. Tapering is a pain in the butt and expensive if you do not have good insurance, cutting pills, carrying them around, monthly doctor visits. There is no point in this if it is not necessary. And her panic problem, just as like my sleep problem, will have to be addressed. Benzos did not cause these in our cases, and I do not believe they magically go away when ceasing the drugs unless other therapies are employed in the interim. Why? Because it makes no sense. Plus, if she embarks on one of these one year or so tapers that are so often recommended she could become addicted in the process while at the present time she is not. :eek:
Hey howard,
True, that man was not addicted after his hospital stay but had become a bit dependant on the drugs; his natural sleep patterns effected mainly.
It is entirely possible in 2 weeks as we have read, especially with cold turkey as he was. However, he is already, in just a few months, alot better and almost back to normal sleep and anxiety has already passed. He may have been better sooner had he not tried some Ambien, then Zoloft as per his doctor's urging after he still had some insomnia for 3 weeks...when the brain is trying to recover, other drugs, even for a few nights or a week, may delay proper healing.
But at any rate, his suffering did not last long but if I hadn't talked to him, he may have again resorted to whatever magical drug the doctor had to offer him after the failure of Zoloft, or he may have stayed on it like his doc wanted him to and then who knows if he would still be having trouble now.
He told my husband we saved his life! I suppose that's over stated a bit, but he really meant it, he is doing so well now! :)
I don't think no patience will be absolutly certain of no lingering drug effects after only a month as even mild cases can linger for a few months; however, you have a point about the pre-existing panic which if the source of that is still around(whether external, emotional, etc), then it must be sorted out.
Yes, you are also right about protracted withdrawals as they get weaker and weaker as time goes, then finally exit. For example, there was a time when a "bad" night for me was no sleep at all; then later, a "bad" night's "definition" became only 2 hours sleep. Even later, 4 hours became the definition of a bad night. In contrast, early withdrawals meant no sleep for days. So when in protracted withdrawals, you are right, that condition changes quite a bit!!
Benzos don't always cause original condition, but they can worsen it. Sometimes, original condition would have went away (depending!), or may have already gone by the time one is in too deep with benzos. I think that's why I read of some people who were very surprised that after their withdrawals were over, their original panic/sleep problems did not come back. They assumed whatever was causing it in the beginning was no longer around because they wondered why it never returned.
But for some, the original reason is still around. This is why kelligh must continue some sort of therapy to figure this out, even after withdrawals. A full physical, some psychotherapy or even CBT may eliminate that original cause, if it is indeed still around. And of course, there should not be a years' worth of tapering for such a short run and lower dose as she is on. A few months should be ok; however, it's no race and she should go as slow/fast as she feels is ok.
Wish I could predict this all for you but when it comes to benzos, who knows...why, I've even heard of a few people not having withdrawals but boy that's pretty rare. The reason the panic came back after you tried not taking one is because you simply can't do that and expect to feel nothing because that's cold turkey which always causes that. But if you really do a super slow taper when the time comes to get off, you may only feel a little bad. You do have the advantage of not being on it for very long....which brings me to the question, why does your doctor want to extend that time? The recommended time on benzos according to the drug companies is usually only 2 weeks; 1 month should be plenty.>> Jennita
I am one more case you have heard of that quit with no withdrawals, 8 months, .5 mgs of Xanax = the same with Klonopin, ran out of pills, was off 3 months with no problems at all. I just did not want to bother going to the doc to get more. Was using Benadryl for sleep but the sleep problems pre-dated the benzos. Got the typical winter flu, went in for some anti-biotics and decided to ask for some Xanax. Got it. Four months later quit again for 10 days, only to save pills in case I needed extras on vacation, do not sleep well in strange beds. Again, no withdrawals, and with the very short half-life of Xanax, chances are excellent that if I was going to feel something I would have within 10 days. I just had no interest in quitting for good as I was ignorant of the potential withdrawal syndromes, severity, longevity. One would have a ways to go to sell me on the idea that my case is "pretty rare." I would also have difficulty with the idea that cases where people that stop in 2 to 4 weeks with no problems, which is the recommended use time frame in the U.S. & the U.K., is in any way rare. What I would think would be rare is your story about the man that had surgery, used benzos and opiates in that setting, and came out addicted. But I do not know how long he was in the hospital on the drugs... I am aware of no research to illustrate that benzos create anything like instant addiction in even the majority that take them. A quote from Breggin would not surprise me, but actually about nothing would. This man is obviously a crusader...
If Kay Leigh comes off Klonopin in a month and still has panic attacks then these episodes cannot be fairly attributed to benzos as the condition pre-existed. Tapering is a pain in the butt and expensive if you do not have good insurance, cutting pills, carrying them around, monthly doctor visits. There is no point in this if it is not necessary. And her panic problem, just as like my sleep problem, will have to be addressed. Benzos did not cause these in our cases, and I do not believe they magically go away when ceasing the drugs unless other therapies are employed in the interim. Why? Because it makes no sense. Plus, if she embarks on one of these one year or so tapers that are so often recommended she could become addicted in the process while at the present time she is not. :eek:
Hey howard,
True, that man was not addicted after his hospital stay but had become a bit dependant on the drugs; his natural sleep patterns effected mainly.
It is entirely possible in 2 weeks as we have read, especially with cold turkey as he was. However, he is already, in just a few months, alot better and almost back to normal sleep and anxiety has already passed. He may have been better sooner had he not tried some Ambien, then Zoloft as per his doctor's urging after he still had some insomnia for 3 weeks...when the brain is trying to recover, other drugs, even for a few nights or a week, may delay proper healing.
But at any rate, his suffering did not last long but if I hadn't talked to him, he may have again resorted to whatever magical drug the doctor had to offer him after the failure of Zoloft, or he may have stayed on it like his doc wanted him to and then who knows if he would still be having trouble now.
He told my husband we saved his life! I suppose that's over stated a bit, but he really meant it, he is doing so well now! :)
I don't think no patience will be absolutly certain of no lingering drug effects after only a month as even mild cases can linger for a few months; however, you have a point about the pre-existing panic which if the source of that is still around(whether external, emotional, etc), then it must be sorted out.
Yes, you are also right about protracted withdrawals as they get weaker and weaker as time goes, then finally exit. For example, there was a time when a "bad" night for me was no sleep at all; then later, a "bad" night's "definition" became only 2 hours sleep. Even later, 4 hours became the definition of a bad night. In contrast, early withdrawals meant no sleep for days. So when in protracted withdrawals, you are right, that condition changes quite a bit!!
Benzos don't always cause original condition, but they can worsen it. Sometimes, original condition would have went away (depending!), or may have already gone by the time one is in too deep with benzos. I think that's why I read of some people who were very surprised that after their withdrawals were over, their original panic/sleep problems did not come back. They assumed whatever was causing it in the beginning was no longer around because they wondered why it never returned.
But for some, the original reason is still around. This is why kelligh must continue some sort of therapy to figure this out, even after withdrawals. A full physical, some psychotherapy or even CBT may eliminate that original cause, if it is indeed still around. And of course, there should not be a years' worth of tapering for such a short run and lower dose as she is on. A few months should be ok; however, it's no race and she should go as slow/fast as she feels is ok.
howard678
05-01-2004, 07:52 PM
Jennita,
It is refreshing finding someone like yourself that can stand some disagreement without getting defensive and personal. :-) Kay Leigh`s case is not easy as opiates and panic issues are also on the table, so what may be quickly attributed to benzos may be something else. I hate these drugs as much as anyone but insist on trying to be objective. Some of this relates to my academic training.
I think a lot of tapering problems are related to the fear of tapering rather than the tapering itself. Ashton alludes to this. I feel it but cut 1.25 mgs a week and remain thus far plenty functional. And "plenty functional" is my definition of stable. And have no plans of taking 20 weeks to bust out the last 10 mgs, though I remain open minded on it. Stringing out a taper too long leaves one more prone to get hit more and more from two directions, reduction and tolerance withdrawals.
I have a hard time personally viewing insomnia as a withdrawal symptom. The problem is no worse now than it was 10 years ago, long before benzos. I recall Janik, and no offense to him if he reads this, speaking of taking 5 months to taper off of .25 mgs of Xanax, this over insomnia. That is unimagineable to me. That equates to 5 mgs of Valium. I know it is relative to some degree by that is just not much benzo. I plan to take the plunge at 2 or 3 mgs, especially if I am already feeling it, see no point in tapering pinches that only partially postpone the inevitable, some discomfort for a while.
As to Kay Leigh, well I think the discussion regarding her tapering will probably prove moot in the end, as I strongly suspect she will take her doctor`s advice and keep taking her pretty high dose of Klonopin for a while long, and then will need to taper. My suggestion I guess about 10 days ago was to ditch the stuff but I do not think that is going to happen. I never had a panic attack pre-benzo. Last one I had was in detox last Nov. I think some of the reason is that I am no longer afraid of them. I used to think they were heart attacks but all my tests in that area are normal. I know what they are, what they feel like, and what they can and cannot do. If I have one, I`ll just have it and if by chance I am in public I will excuse myself for a while. I am not looking for them or expecting them.
It is refreshing finding someone like yourself that can stand some disagreement without getting defensive and personal. :-) Kay Leigh`s case is not easy as opiates and panic issues are also on the table, so what may be quickly attributed to benzos may be something else. I hate these drugs as much as anyone but insist on trying to be objective. Some of this relates to my academic training.
I think a lot of tapering problems are related to the fear of tapering rather than the tapering itself. Ashton alludes to this. I feel it but cut 1.25 mgs a week and remain thus far plenty functional. And "plenty functional" is my definition of stable. And have no plans of taking 20 weeks to bust out the last 10 mgs, though I remain open minded on it. Stringing out a taper too long leaves one more prone to get hit more and more from two directions, reduction and tolerance withdrawals.
I have a hard time personally viewing insomnia as a withdrawal symptom. The problem is no worse now than it was 10 years ago, long before benzos. I recall Janik, and no offense to him if he reads this, speaking of taking 5 months to taper off of .25 mgs of Xanax, this over insomnia. That is unimagineable to me. That equates to 5 mgs of Valium. I know it is relative to some degree by that is just not much benzo. I plan to take the plunge at 2 or 3 mgs, especially if I am already feeling it, see no point in tapering pinches that only partially postpone the inevitable, some discomfort for a while.
As to Kay Leigh, well I think the discussion regarding her tapering will probably prove moot in the end, as I strongly suspect she will take her doctor`s advice and keep taking her pretty high dose of Klonopin for a while long, and then will need to taper. My suggestion I guess about 10 days ago was to ditch the stuff but I do not think that is going to happen. I never had a panic attack pre-benzo. Last one I had was in detox last Nov. I think some of the reason is that I am no longer afraid of them. I used to think they were heart attacks but all my tests in that area are normal. I know what they are, what they feel like, and what they can and cannot do. If I have one, I`ll just have it and if by chance I am in public I will excuse myself for a while. I am not looking for them or expecting them.
Jennita
05-02-2004, 03:39 AM
Jennita,
It is refreshing finding someone like yourself that can stand some disagreement without getting defensive and personal. :-) Kay Leigh`s case is not easy as opiates and panic issues are also on the table, so what may be quickly attributed to benzos may be something else. I hate these drugs as much as anyone but insist on trying to be objective. Some of this relates to my academic training.
I think a lot of tapering problems are related to the fear of tapering rather than the tapering itself. Ashton alludes to this. I feel it but cut 1.25 mgs a week and remain thus far plenty functional. And "plenty functional" is my definition of stable. And have no plans of taking 20 weeks to bust out the last 10 mgs, though I remain open minded on it. Stringing out a taper too long leaves one more prone to get hit more and more from two directions, reduction and tolerance withdrawals.
I have a hard time personally viewing insomnia as a withdrawal symptom. The problem is no worse now than it was 10 years ago, long before benzos. I recall Janik, and no offense to him if he reads this, speaking of taking 5 months to taper off of .25 mgs of Xanax, this over insomnia. That is unimagineable to me. That equates to 5 mgs of Valium. I know it is relative to some degree by that is just not much benzo. I plan to take the plunge at 2 or 3 mgs, especially if I am already feeling it, see no point in tapering pinches that only partially postpone the inevitable, some discomfort for a while.
As to Kay Leigh, well I think the discussion regarding her tapering will probably prove moot in the end, as I strongly suspect she will take her doctor`s advice and keep taking her pretty high dose of Klonopin for a while long, and then will need to taper. My suggestion I guess about 10 days ago was to ditch the stuff but I do not think that is going to happen. I never had a panic attack pre-benzo. Last one I had was in detox last Nov. I think some of the reason is that I am no longer afraid of them. I used to think they were heart attacks but all my tests in that area are normal. I know what they are, what they feel like, and what they can and cannot do. If I have one, I`ll just have it and if by chance I am in public I will excuse myself for a while. I am not looking for them or expecting them.
Thanks, howard. Well, we all have our individual views, experiences, and collection of information. For example, if you don't like Breggin, that's ok although I think he's a pioneer; Dr. Ann Tracy has been warning about SSRi's, inaccurate disclosures in clinical testing, etc. for 14 years now finally the mainstream media and the FDA have discovered it for themselves so I admire her too but you don't have to just because I do....but we both have Ashton so at least that's something, huh? ;)
I believe Janik's experience because you really never know about these drugs...I remember one poor woman had horrible insomnia over letting go of just 3 mgs. Valium in the support group at the end of her taper...I forgot what she started on.
She would give up too soon and take it again then try not to...very irregular and soon the 3 mgs. stopped working. I tried to tell her she did not give natural sleep enough time and she kept giving in to more Valium after a few days, then she'd get mad at herself and try to not take any. She never stayed on course. She stopped writing so I don't know what happened to her but she was in bad shape, passing out at work, losing her job, etc...all over 3 mgs. Valium!
So I know some of this is hard to believe but sometimes you never know. That's why I don't think the drugs should be taken so lightly. I know some people can take them and then leave them but it's such a risky business...like you said, if you had known how risky you wouldn't have chanced it. Neither would I have!
Your insomnia was different than mine's or Janiks. You would be so jealous of my sleep history I don't know if I should tell you about it. Well, suffice to say it was excellent. Benzos took that away. I got most of it back; at 3+ years off, it's not back to my pre-benzo sleep but that's ok as I am still, unbelievable as it would seem at this point, improving steadily. I remember once a very nice woman e-mailed me in the group, an old-timer who was back to normal sleep and said it took 5 years for that to happen for her....during that time, she began to sleep well, but it took longer for it to become consistant and whole again. In other words, back to old consistancy and reliability.
That's an aweful amount of time to have to wait for something that was taken away from you so needlessly. This is what is so disgusting about all this...needless suffering.
I think your insomnia is a different story. I hope after benzos you can do something to help it. I do know good diet and exercise really helps but I also know there can be more to it, so I hope you can figure it all out.
I don't know if I'm right, but it also sounds like the panic stuff is on it's way out with you. I think you've passed it up already; if any does appear again I'm sure it will be short lived. Hurray!!! :bouncing:
I think you were right about kelleigh; maybe should have stopped the klonopin sooner, but she has to do what she feels is best and she was also battling methadone problems. At least she has the information she needs now to get through everything ok....that does really make a difference.
It is refreshing finding someone like yourself that can stand some disagreement without getting defensive and personal. :-) Kay Leigh`s case is not easy as opiates and panic issues are also on the table, so what may be quickly attributed to benzos may be something else. I hate these drugs as much as anyone but insist on trying to be objective. Some of this relates to my academic training.
I think a lot of tapering problems are related to the fear of tapering rather than the tapering itself. Ashton alludes to this. I feel it but cut 1.25 mgs a week and remain thus far plenty functional. And "plenty functional" is my definition of stable. And have no plans of taking 20 weeks to bust out the last 10 mgs, though I remain open minded on it. Stringing out a taper too long leaves one more prone to get hit more and more from two directions, reduction and tolerance withdrawals.
I have a hard time personally viewing insomnia as a withdrawal symptom. The problem is no worse now than it was 10 years ago, long before benzos. I recall Janik, and no offense to him if he reads this, speaking of taking 5 months to taper off of .25 mgs of Xanax, this over insomnia. That is unimagineable to me. That equates to 5 mgs of Valium. I know it is relative to some degree by that is just not much benzo. I plan to take the plunge at 2 or 3 mgs, especially if I am already feeling it, see no point in tapering pinches that only partially postpone the inevitable, some discomfort for a while.
As to Kay Leigh, well I think the discussion regarding her tapering will probably prove moot in the end, as I strongly suspect she will take her doctor`s advice and keep taking her pretty high dose of Klonopin for a while long, and then will need to taper. My suggestion I guess about 10 days ago was to ditch the stuff but I do not think that is going to happen. I never had a panic attack pre-benzo. Last one I had was in detox last Nov. I think some of the reason is that I am no longer afraid of them. I used to think they were heart attacks but all my tests in that area are normal. I know what they are, what they feel like, and what they can and cannot do. If I have one, I`ll just have it and if by chance I am in public I will excuse myself for a while. I am not looking for them or expecting them.
Thanks, howard. Well, we all have our individual views, experiences, and collection of information. For example, if you don't like Breggin, that's ok although I think he's a pioneer; Dr. Ann Tracy has been warning about SSRi's, inaccurate disclosures in clinical testing, etc. for 14 years now finally the mainstream media and the FDA have discovered it for themselves so I admire her too but you don't have to just because I do....but we both have Ashton so at least that's something, huh? ;)
I believe Janik's experience because you really never know about these drugs...I remember one poor woman had horrible insomnia over letting go of just 3 mgs. Valium in the support group at the end of her taper...I forgot what she started on.
She would give up too soon and take it again then try not to...very irregular and soon the 3 mgs. stopped working. I tried to tell her she did not give natural sleep enough time and she kept giving in to more Valium after a few days, then she'd get mad at herself and try to not take any. She never stayed on course. She stopped writing so I don't know what happened to her but she was in bad shape, passing out at work, losing her job, etc...all over 3 mgs. Valium!
So I know some of this is hard to believe but sometimes you never know. That's why I don't think the drugs should be taken so lightly. I know some people can take them and then leave them but it's such a risky business...like you said, if you had known how risky you wouldn't have chanced it. Neither would I have!
Your insomnia was different than mine's or Janiks. You would be so jealous of my sleep history I don't know if I should tell you about it. Well, suffice to say it was excellent. Benzos took that away. I got most of it back; at 3+ years off, it's not back to my pre-benzo sleep but that's ok as I am still, unbelievable as it would seem at this point, improving steadily. I remember once a very nice woman e-mailed me in the group, an old-timer who was back to normal sleep and said it took 5 years for that to happen for her....during that time, she began to sleep well, but it took longer for it to become consistant and whole again. In other words, back to old consistancy and reliability.
That's an aweful amount of time to have to wait for something that was taken away from you so needlessly. This is what is so disgusting about all this...needless suffering.
I think your insomnia is a different story. I hope after benzos you can do something to help it. I do know good diet and exercise really helps but I also know there can be more to it, so I hope you can figure it all out.
I don't know if I'm right, but it also sounds like the panic stuff is on it's way out with you. I think you've passed it up already; if any does appear again I'm sure it will be short lived. Hurray!!! :bouncing:
I think you were right about kelleigh; maybe should have stopped the klonopin sooner, but she has to do what she feels is best and she was also battling methadone problems. At least she has the information she needs now to get through everything ok....that does really make a difference.
no patience
05-02-2004, 08:43 AM
howard and jennita thank you for all the information you 2 have shared when i first went on klonopin i think 3 to 4 weeks ago i never would have known how horrible this med no drug really was i would have been nieve to it just like to methadone i can't wait to go to my prescriber tuesday and see just how much she is aware of you 2 have educated me so much just by chatting back and forth see the problem with the klonopin they think it's an underlying anxiety disorder because tomorrow will be 3 months off methadone and i still have aniexty symptoms which some say is normal and some say is not i've reasearched and reasearched about methadone w/d and anxiety and all i find is conflicting research so i'm stuck do i have an anxiety disorder or is it still from the physchological w/d of methadone you 2 are so well educated if you could help me in that department i'd be greatful thank you 2 kelleigh :wave:
no patience
05-02-2004, 11:34 AM
I just quit using the duragesic patch. I have been on opiates for 5 years. I am having increased anxiety attachs also. My dr put me on a low dose of xanax for the anxiety and upped my antidepressent to also help. Good luck in staying of the methadone.
thank you karla what were you on the duragesic patch for
thank you karla what were you on the duragesic patch for
no patience
05-02-2004, 11:37 AM
howard i meant to ask how your taper is going and if your sleep is still in alittle bit of chaos hope all is well thanks again for all your help kelleigh :wave:
howard678
05-02-2004, 01:44 PM
<<Dr. Ann Tracy has been warning about SSRi's, inaccurate disclosures in clinical testing, etc. for 14 years now finally the mainstream media and the FDA have discovered it for themselves so I admire her too but you don't have to just because I do....>>
I am not familiar with this doctor, but if it is the drug companies that can be proven to have given inaccurate disclosures in clinical trials then many should be on their way to some successful lawsuits. I know someone that piggy backed on a Phen Phen lawsuit and she is healthy as a horse, strutting about buying designer clothes and every luxury item imagineable. Wish I had got a script of that, just never had a weight problem...
<<She would give up too soon and take it again then try not to...very irregular and soon the 3 mgs. stopped working. I tried to tell her she did not give natural sleep enough time and she kept giving in to more Valium after a few days, then she'd get mad at herself and try to not take any. She never stayed on course. She stopped writing so I don't know what happened to her but she was in bad shape, passing out at work, losing her job, etc...all over 3 mgs. Valium!>>
I do not know what this woman was thinking. Valium loses it`s real effectiveness as a sleep aid in about a month or two according to many and that was the case with me. I had real trouble keeping my eyes open at work on several occasions for about two weeks, then I loaded up the night dose reducing the day. Now, four months later, it may push me along a bit if I am already tired before bed, that`s it. I would still contend that 3 mgs. of Valium amounts to about nothing and should not be expected to do much. She may have been doing some serious updosing, thus the passing out at work. Who knows.
No personal offense toward anyone, but I have read all personal accounts on the net with a grain of salt. We do not know these people from Adam or necessarily the whole story about their histories. I do know this, I have gotten a few on the phone that were no doubt way out there, real mental problems that may well have pre-dated benzos. A couple contradicted themselves about every 10 minutes. Benzos are regularly prescribed to such individuals, but when the focus is on attributing all or about all symptoms/problems to benzos this rarely comes out...
As to the people on this board, that are coming off opiates, taking SSRIs and benzos, I just do not know what to say, or how to unravel it all. And frankly, do not have much faith in their doctors, especially if they are psychiatrists, to do likewise. I have just told my doctor what I want to do, get off benzos period, no SSRIs for me please, and he is doing all he can to help. I like him.
I am not familiar with this doctor, but if it is the drug companies that can be proven to have given inaccurate disclosures in clinical trials then many should be on their way to some successful lawsuits. I know someone that piggy backed on a Phen Phen lawsuit and she is healthy as a horse, strutting about buying designer clothes and every luxury item imagineable. Wish I had got a script of that, just never had a weight problem...
<<She would give up too soon and take it again then try not to...very irregular and soon the 3 mgs. stopped working. I tried to tell her she did not give natural sleep enough time and she kept giving in to more Valium after a few days, then she'd get mad at herself and try to not take any. She never stayed on course. She stopped writing so I don't know what happened to her but she was in bad shape, passing out at work, losing her job, etc...all over 3 mgs. Valium!>>
I do not know what this woman was thinking. Valium loses it`s real effectiveness as a sleep aid in about a month or two according to many and that was the case with me. I had real trouble keeping my eyes open at work on several occasions for about two weeks, then I loaded up the night dose reducing the day. Now, four months later, it may push me along a bit if I am already tired before bed, that`s it. I would still contend that 3 mgs. of Valium amounts to about nothing and should not be expected to do much. She may have been doing some serious updosing, thus the passing out at work. Who knows.
No personal offense toward anyone, but I have read all personal accounts on the net with a grain of salt. We do not know these people from Adam or necessarily the whole story about their histories. I do know this, I have gotten a few on the phone that were no doubt way out there, real mental problems that may well have pre-dated benzos. A couple contradicted themselves about every 10 minutes. Benzos are regularly prescribed to such individuals, but when the focus is on attributing all or about all symptoms/problems to benzos this rarely comes out...
As to the people on this board, that are coming off opiates, taking SSRIs and benzos, I just do not know what to say, or how to unravel it all. And frankly, do not have much faith in their doctors, especially if they are psychiatrists, to do likewise. I have just told my doctor what I want to do, get off benzos period, no SSRIs for me please, and he is doing all he can to help. I like him.
howard678
05-02-2004, 02:20 PM
howard i meant to ask how your taper is going and if your sleep is still in alittle bit of chaos hope all is well thanks again for all your help kelleigh :wave:
Hello. :) I am doing good, am cut to 12.5 mgs of Valium a day. In Klonopin terms that is .625. I just keep pressing on, have an excellent doc in my corner. I am prepared to feel pain and discomfort if it comes, am no stranger to it, part of the price to pay. Sleep? No problem on the weekends as I can be my night owl self. My job however requires early risings so during the week I either function on less sleep or use Benadryl. I do not have sleepless nights. How are you doing?
Hello. :) I am doing good, am cut to 12.5 mgs of Valium a day. In Klonopin terms that is .625. I just keep pressing on, have an excellent doc in my corner. I am prepared to feel pain and discomfort if it comes, am no stranger to it, part of the price to pay. Sleep? No problem on the weekends as I can be my night owl self. My job however requires early risings so during the week I either function on less sleep or use Benadryl. I do not have sleepless nights. How are you doing?
no patience
05-02-2004, 03:37 PM
:) Hello. :) I am doing good, am cut to 12.5 mgs of Valium a day. In Klonopin terms that is .625. I just keep pressing on, have an excellent doc in my corner. I am prepared to feel pain and discomfort if it comes, am no stranger to it, part of the price to pay. Sleep? No problem on the weekends as I can be my night owl self. My job however requires early risings so during the week I either function on less sleep or use Benadryl. I do not have sleepless nights. How are you doing?
i'm doing ok that's great that you have an excellent doc in your corner at my appointment tuesday i'll know just how great mine is due to you and jennita i have alot of klonopin questions for her and her responses will let me know what i'm in for. i'm sorry i thought you were having trouble sleeping thats why i asked if every thing was getting better in the sleep department. am i correct that you are going to school and working if so that's gotta be tough with the valium taper you are going through just checking in as for my situation to me it's still unresolved due to the fact of being on so many meds when i am med free i will finally change my user name to all the patience in the world lol keep in touch and keep up the great work you are now a role model to me i know it sounds wierd but you are kelleigh :)
i'm doing ok that's great that you have an excellent doc in your corner at my appointment tuesday i'll know just how great mine is due to you and jennita i have alot of klonopin questions for her and her responses will let me know what i'm in for. i'm sorry i thought you were having trouble sleeping thats why i asked if every thing was getting better in the sleep department. am i correct that you are going to school and working if so that's gotta be tough with the valium taper you are going through just checking in as for my situation to me it's still unresolved due to the fact of being on so many meds when i am med free i will finally change my user name to all the patience in the world lol keep in touch and keep up the great work you are now a role model to me i know it sounds wierd but you are kelleigh :)
howard678
05-02-2004, 11:44 PM
:)
you are now a role model to me i know it sounds wierd but you are kelleigh :)
Kelleigh I hope I can live up to that. :) Am still a good ways from the finish line. The personal cost here, still unknown, I take it a day at a time. One thing is for sure though, I will eventually be free of benzodiazepines and will not look back.
you are now a role model to me i know it sounds wierd but you are kelleigh :)
Kelleigh I hope I can live up to that. :) Am still a good ways from the finish line. The personal cost here, still unknown, I take it a day at a time. One thing is for sure though, I will eventually be free of benzodiazepines and will not look back.
Jennita
05-03-2004, 02:35 AM
<<Dr. Ann Tracy has been warning about SSRi's, inaccurate disclosures in clinical testing, etc. for 14 years now finally the mainstream media and the FDA have discovered it for themselves so I admire her too but you don't have to just because I do....>>
I am not familiar with this doctor, but if it is the drug companies that can be proven to have given inaccurate disclosures in clinical trials then many should be on their way to some successful lawsuits. I know someone that piggy backed on a Phen Phen lawsuit and she is healthy as a horse, strutting about buying designer clothes and every luxury item imagineable. Wish I had got a script of that, just never had a weight problem...
<<She would give up too soon and take it again then try not to...very irregular and soon the 3 mgs. stopped working. I tried to tell her she did not give natural sleep enough time and she kept giving in to more Valium after a few days, then she'd get mad at herself and try to not take any. She never stayed on course. She stopped writing so I don't know what happened to her but she was in bad shape, passing out at work, losing her job, etc...all over 3 mgs. Valium!>>
I do not know what this woman was thinking. Valium loses it`s real effectiveness as a sleep aid in about a month or two according to many and that was the case with me. I had real trouble keeping my eyes open at work on several occasions for about two weeks, then I loaded up the night dose reducing the day. Now, four months later, it may push me along a bit if I am already tired before bed, that`s it. I would still contend that 3 mgs. of Valium amounts to about nothing and should not be expected to do much. She may have been doing some serious updosing, thus the passing out at work. Who knows.
No personal offense toward anyone, but I have read all personal accounts on the net with a grain of salt. We do not know these people from Adam or necessarily the whole story about their histories. I do know this, I have gotten a few on the phone that were no doubt way out there, real mental problems that may well have pre-dated benzos. A couple contradicted themselves about every 10 minutes. Benzos are regularly prescribed to such individuals, but when the focus is on attributing all or about all symptoms/problems to benzos this rarely comes out...
As to the people on this board, that are coming off opiates, taking SSRIs and benzos, I just do not know what to say, or how to unravel it all. And frankly, do not have much faith in their doctors, especially if they are psychiatrists, to do likewise. I have just told my doctor what I want to do, get off benzos period, no SSRIs for me please, and he is doing all he can to help. I like him.
Oh, sorry howard, I mispelled her name, the doctor. It's Dr. Anne Tracy and she has a site running for some years now.
Yeh, as far as personal stories on the net you have to sort of one-eye them as sometimes you can't be sure. The man who had the surgery though, as I mentioned, my husband knew personally. But others who come on the support groups are mixed; some accidental addicts who are perfectly normal like you and I; others do seem to have some previous mental and/or possibly prior street drug and/or alcohol abuse histories. So yes, it's ok to read and help one another but I think best to keep it safe and not always be giving out phone numbers and other personal info.
Yes, I did wonder about the woman who wrote me; seems Valium did help her sleep for awhile but she didn't realize the whole tolerance problems with benzos....
Lawsuits over the SSRi's would be great if only what the drugs co's did was illegal...it wasn't if you can believe it! But it is now creating alot of bad press for them which could prove to be worse for them than paying off any lawsuits.
Well, I'm glad to hear you are not going to consider SSRi's as they also come with a pandora's box of problems.
I am not familiar with this doctor, but if it is the drug companies that can be proven to have given inaccurate disclosures in clinical trials then many should be on their way to some successful lawsuits. I know someone that piggy backed on a Phen Phen lawsuit and she is healthy as a horse, strutting about buying designer clothes and every luxury item imagineable. Wish I had got a script of that, just never had a weight problem...
<<She would give up too soon and take it again then try not to...very irregular and soon the 3 mgs. stopped working. I tried to tell her she did not give natural sleep enough time and she kept giving in to more Valium after a few days, then she'd get mad at herself and try to not take any. She never stayed on course. She stopped writing so I don't know what happened to her but she was in bad shape, passing out at work, losing her job, etc...all over 3 mgs. Valium!>>
I do not know what this woman was thinking. Valium loses it`s real effectiveness as a sleep aid in about a month or two according to many and that was the case with me. I had real trouble keeping my eyes open at work on several occasions for about two weeks, then I loaded up the night dose reducing the day. Now, four months later, it may push me along a bit if I am already tired before bed, that`s it. I would still contend that 3 mgs. of Valium amounts to about nothing and should not be expected to do much. She may have been doing some serious updosing, thus the passing out at work. Who knows.
No personal offense toward anyone, but I have read all personal accounts on the net with a grain of salt. We do not know these people from Adam or necessarily the whole story about their histories. I do know this, I have gotten a few on the phone that were no doubt way out there, real mental problems that may well have pre-dated benzos. A couple contradicted themselves about every 10 minutes. Benzos are regularly prescribed to such individuals, but when the focus is on attributing all or about all symptoms/problems to benzos this rarely comes out...
As to the people on this board, that are coming off opiates, taking SSRIs and benzos, I just do not know what to say, or how to unravel it all. And frankly, do not have much faith in their doctors, especially if they are psychiatrists, to do likewise. I have just told my doctor what I want to do, get off benzos period, no SSRIs for me please, and he is doing all he can to help. I like him.
Oh, sorry howard, I mispelled her name, the doctor. It's Dr. Anne Tracy and she has a site running for some years now.
Yeh, as far as personal stories on the net you have to sort of one-eye them as sometimes you can't be sure. The man who had the surgery though, as I mentioned, my husband knew personally. But others who come on the support groups are mixed; some accidental addicts who are perfectly normal like you and I; others do seem to have some previous mental and/or possibly prior street drug and/or alcohol abuse histories. So yes, it's ok to read and help one another but I think best to keep it safe and not always be giving out phone numbers and other personal info.
Yes, I did wonder about the woman who wrote me; seems Valium did help her sleep for awhile but she didn't realize the whole tolerance problems with benzos....
Lawsuits over the SSRi's would be great if only what the drugs co's did was illegal...it wasn't if you can believe it! But it is now creating alot of bad press for them which could prove to be worse for them than paying off any lawsuits.
Well, I'm glad to hear you are not going to consider SSRi's as they also come with a pandora's box of problems.
Jennita
05-03-2004, 02:38 AM
howard and jennita thank you for all the information you 2 have shared when i first went on klonopin i think 3 to 4 weeks ago i never would have known how horrible this med no drug really was i would have been nieve to it just like to methadone i can't wait to go to my prescriber tuesday and see just how much she is aware of you 2 have educated me so much just by chatting back and forth see the problem with the klonopin they think it's an underlying anxiety disorder because tomorrow will be 3 months off methadone and i still have aniexty symptoms which some say is normal and some say is not i've reasearched and reasearched about methadone w/d and anxiety and all i find is conflicting research so i'm stuck do i have an anxiety disorder or is it still from the physchological w/d of methadone you 2 are so well educated if you could help me in that department i'd be greatful thank you 2 kelleigh :wave:
The answer is pretty simple. If you did not have anxiety before any drugs, methadone or whatever, it's not underlying because it never existed in the first place, it was drug-induced. If you did have previous problems before any intro to drugs, that previous panic issue could still be outdated/no longer relevant/has passed. So it will take some therapy and discovery to sort it all out if that's the case.
The answer is pretty simple. If you did not have anxiety before any drugs, methadone or whatever, it's not underlying because it never existed in the first place, it was drug-induced. If you did have previous problems before any intro to drugs, that previous panic issue could still be outdated/no longer relevant/has passed. So it will take some therapy and discovery to sort it all out if that's the case.
DannDees
05-03-2004, 05:11 AM
kayleigh, Hi...I feel great but I am not completely normal yet :) I do still get a little anxiety but less now that I am getting some sleep. The thing is that since I now know what it is , it doesn't scare me as much..I know yours might be much harder then mine but try to talking to yourself as they are happening..3 mo. is along time but you went c/t from 50mg. I would give it some more time..How often are you having the anxiety..are they attacks or are is it constant? mine come as attacks and last 10 to 20 minutes..
Jennita, I took your advice and only had to take a half of amitrypilene 1 night to sleep. My sleep came back exactly as you described. Minutes to half hours, half hours to hours..I am getting about 5 to 6 hours now and am extremely grateful.. before the withdraw I would have felt deprived with only 5 to 6 hous since I have always been one that loves my sleep and I demanded at least 8 hours..The only pill I now take is my thyroid med..I want to start exercising as I truly believe you know what you are talking about. I made an appointment 4 months ago ( the wait is that long ) to get a shock in the ear to quit smoking. The date just happens to be this tues.I have to fly to st. louis as this is the only place in u.s. to do it. Geez, if this works I will be completely free from any substance having some control over me..Suppose to have a 95% success rate..I found out about it on 20/20....I am so exicted. When I made the appointment I thought hey it might help me with the methadone also, I never thought I would be off of it before the appt. Gods plan for me was different then my own..So much thanks to you for all your knowledge..I am sure you will be needed on this board time and time again..hope you never get tired of helping people.Noone around me could imagine what I was going through. I wished I found this board early in my withdraws. I actually found myself on a pro mehadone board with people telling me to stay on it. It was completely safe on al body organs..Is the brain an organ..lol...Guess it isn't as important to them as it is to me.sorry post is so long..I am off to get my SLEPP>>hehe
Jennita, I took your advice and only had to take a half of amitrypilene 1 night to sleep. My sleep came back exactly as you described. Minutes to half hours, half hours to hours..I am getting about 5 to 6 hours now and am extremely grateful.. before the withdraw I would have felt deprived with only 5 to 6 hous since I have always been one that loves my sleep and I demanded at least 8 hours..The only pill I now take is my thyroid med..I want to start exercising as I truly believe you know what you are talking about. I made an appointment 4 months ago ( the wait is that long ) to get a shock in the ear to quit smoking. The date just happens to be this tues.I have to fly to st. louis as this is the only place in u.s. to do it. Geez, if this works I will be completely free from any substance having some control over me..Suppose to have a 95% success rate..I found out about it on 20/20....I am so exicted. When I made the appointment I thought hey it might help me with the methadone also, I never thought I would be off of it before the appt. Gods plan for me was different then my own..So much thanks to you for all your knowledge..I am sure you will be needed on this board time and time again..hope you never get tired of helping people.Noone around me could imagine what I was going through. I wished I found this board early in my withdraws. I actually found myself on a pro mehadone board with people telling me to stay on it. It was completely safe on al body organs..Is the brain an organ..lol...Guess it isn't as important to them as it is to me.sorry post is so long..I am off to get my SLEPP>>hehe
no patience
05-03-2004, 08:26 AM
kayleigh, Hi...I feel great but I am not completely normal yet :) I do still get a little anxiety but less now that I am getting some sleep. The thing is that since I now know what it is , it doesn't scare me as much..I know yours might be much harder then mine but try to talking to yourself as they are happening..3 mo. is along time but you went c/t from 50mg. I would give it some more time..How often are you having the anxiety..are they attacks or are is it constant? mine come as attacks and last 10 to 20 minutes..
Jennita, I took your advice and only had to take a half of amitrypilene 1 night to sleep. My sleep came back exactly as you described. Minutes to half hours, half hours to hours..I am getting about 5 to 6 hours now and am extremely grateful.. before the withdraw I would have felt deprived with only 5 to 6 hous since I have always been one that loves my sleep and I demanded at least 8 hours..The only pill I now take is my thyroid med..I want to start exercising as I truly believe you know what you are talking about. I made an appointment 4 months ago ( the wait is that long ) to get a shock in the ear to quit smoking. The date just happens to be this tues.I have to fly to st. louis as this is the only place in u.s. to do it. Geez, if this works I will be completely free from any substance having some control over me..Suppose to have a 95% success rate..I found out about it on 20/20....I am so exicted. When I made the appointment I thought hey it might help me with the methadone also, I never thought I would be off of it before the appt. Gods plan for me was different then my own..So much thanks to you for all your knowledge..I am sure you will be needed on this board time and time again..hope you never get tired of helping people.Noone around me could imagine what I was going through. I wished I found this board early in my withdraws. I actually found myself on a pro mehadone board with people telling me to stay on it. It was completely safe on al body organs..Is the brain an organ..lol...Guess it isn't as important to them as it is to me.sorry post is so long..I am off to get my SLEPP>>hehe
danndees my panic was everyday from feb 3 (when i quit methadone) until april 5 i was having attacks all the time i don't know if you read my other reply to you but i would end up going to wrong places like my primary doc instead of my pain doc and then driving 30 minutes to an appointment and saying to my self i don't have an appt today and turn around get half way home and reality would set in and i would say sh-t i do have one my panic was so bad i was taking it out on mydaughter and not meaning to she would ask the smallest questions and i'd start freaking out and going into an attack which i know the breathing technique but i had to do this over 6 times aday so finally i said my daughter can't suffer this anymore i feared for her because i drive her to school and take her many other places and did'nt want to have one with her in the car and end up off the road it was that bad that's why i have to take these stupid meds i don't want to but i'll see tomorrow if i need them long term if this is from the methadone i think i may have a few choice words for my primary doc for not weaning me properly oh one more thing i smoke also my councelor said i can't quit yet it may cause a set back but on wednesday i'm done with those to my boss and i are doing it together i cant believe some of the things we have in common i swear i have a long lost twin i'm so happy you're feeling better especially with no meds to today is day 90 for me and i'm still not doing 100 % but i envy you for doing so well after 17 days sorry so long luv kelleigh :angel: :wave:
Jennita, I took your advice and only had to take a half of amitrypilene 1 night to sleep. My sleep came back exactly as you described. Minutes to half hours, half hours to hours..I am getting about 5 to 6 hours now and am extremely grateful.. before the withdraw I would have felt deprived with only 5 to 6 hous since I have always been one that loves my sleep and I demanded at least 8 hours..The only pill I now take is my thyroid med..I want to start exercising as I truly believe you know what you are talking about. I made an appointment 4 months ago ( the wait is that long ) to get a shock in the ear to quit smoking. The date just happens to be this tues.I have to fly to st. louis as this is the only place in u.s. to do it. Geez, if this works I will be completely free from any substance having some control over me..Suppose to have a 95% success rate..I found out about it on 20/20....I am so exicted. When I made the appointment I thought hey it might help me with the methadone also, I never thought I would be off of it before the appt. Gods plan for me was different then my own..So much thanks to you for all your knowledge..I am sure you will be needed on this board time and time again..hope you never get tired of helping people.Noone around me could imagine what I was going through. I wished I found this board early in my withdraws. I actually found myself on a pro mehadone board with people telling me to stay on it. It was completely safe on al body organs..Is the brain an organ..lol...Guess it isn't as important to them as it is to me.sorry post is so long..I am off to get my SLEPP>>hehe
danndees my panic was everyday from feb 3 (when i quit methadone) until april 5 i was having attacks all the time i don't know if you read my other reply to you but i would end up going to wrong places like my primary doc instead of my pain doc and then driving 30 minutes to an appointment and saying to my self i don't have an appt today and turn around get half way home and reality would set in and i would say sh-t i do have one my panic was so bad i was taking it out on mydaughter and not meaning to she would ask the smallest questions and i'd start freaking out and going into an attack which i know the breathing technique but i had to do this over 6 times aday so finally i said my daughter can't suffer this anymore i feared for her because i drive her to school and take her many other places and did'nt want to have one with her in the car and end up off the road it was that bad that's why i have to take these stupid meds i don't want to but i'll see tomorrow if i need them long term if this is from the methadone i think i may have a few choice words for my primary doc for not weaning me properly oh one more thing i smoke also my councelor said i can't quit yet it may cause a set back but on wednesday i'm done with those to my boss and i are doing it together i cant believe some of the things we have in common i swear i have a long lost twin i'm so happy you're feeling better especially with no meds to today is day 90 for me and i'm still not doing 100 % but i envy you for doing so well after 17 days sorry so long luv kelleigh :angel: :wave:
no patience
05-03-2004, 08:39 AM
;) howard when you are benzo free we will celebrate. you're experience has given me hope and with all i've read about benzo w/d and tapering it just sounds awful and it's like you're handling so well and the role part comes from doing this with out any aid except benadryl that to me is just awesome and now i have a goal to slowly rid my body of all theses stupid drugs and you've given me the will power to do that just from reading about your experience thank you so much (and jennita also) just reading your replys to each other has helped me so much i can't thank you enough kelleigh :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:
no patience
05-03-2004, 02:21 PM
howard i also wanted you to know that today is 90 days methadone free got rid of one med hopefully soon the rest will go to kelleigh :wave:
no patience
05-04-2004, 08:34 AM
:wave: hi howard i was hoping you were on last night i have an appointment today with the one prescribing me klonopin and need some advice about what i should say to her hope your doing well :) kelleigh
Jennita
05-04-2004, 03:43 PM
kayleigh, Hi...I feel great but I am not completely normal yet :) I do still get a little anxiety but less now that I am getting some sleep. The thing is that since I now know what it is , it doesn't scare me as much..I know yours might be much harder then mine but try to talking to yourself as they are happening..3 mo. is along time but you went c/t from 50mg. I would give it some more time..How often are you having the anxiety..are they attacks or are is it constant? mine come as attacks and last 10 to 20 minutes..
Jennita, I took your advice and only had to take a half of amitrypilene 1 night to sleep. My sleep came back exactly as you described. Minutes to half hours, half hours to hours..I am getting about 5 to 6 hours now and am extremely grateful.. before the withdraw I would have felt deprived with only 5 to 6 hous since I have always been one that loves my sleep and I demanded at least 8 hours..The only pill I now take is my thyroid med..I want to start exercising as I truly believe you know what you are talking about. I made an appointment 4 months ago ( the wait is that long ) to get a shock in the ear to quit smoking. The date just happens to be this tues.I have to fly to st. louis as this is the only place in u.s. to do it. Geez, if this works I will be completely free from any substance having some control over me..Suppose to have a 95% success rate..I found out about it on 20/20....I am so exicted. When I made the appointment I thought hey it might help me with the methadone also, I never thought I would be off of it before the appt. Gods plan for me was different then my own..So much thanks to you for all your knowledge..I am sure you will be needed on this board time and time again..hope you never get tired of helping people.Noone around me could imagine what I was going through. I wished I found this board early in my withdraws. I actually found myself on a pro mehadone board with people telling me to stay on it. It was completely safe on al body organs..Is the brain an organ..lol...Guess it isn't as important to them as it is to me.sorry post is so long..I am off to get my SLEPP>>hehe
Ha, yeh, why do people forget it's an organ and not just a bunch of emotions/feelings/thoughts? It's the grand master of the body, regulating things like our heartbeat and breathing....is it any wonder how meds screw with those things? Screw with the brain, and you screw with the body. For an example, when I've visited other boards, I have heard people on antidepressants complain about heart-racing and lack of satisfying breath after they would start the AD and still not get it. I'd even point out that those things are listed side effects. And as we know, the liver and kidneys bear the burden's of processing the drugs. So you are not alone in your wondering why people do not take their brain seriously in matters of the health of the body!
I don't recall corresponding with you but I am so happy I could help!!! I'm also glad to hear your sleep has come back. I've been told and also it has been my experience as well that it will continue to improve, even if it takes months/years. It will reach whatever level is required for health, whether it be 6 hours, 7 or 8. Everybody is different in the amount of sleep they need and it changes as people get older....my mother-in-law said since she got older, her average is 4 1/2 to 5 hours a night but it is enough and she feels good. Usually most of us need 7 hours in adulthood although 6 hours a night is considered normal sleep.
I'm so happy for your sleep victory! And yes, the exercise will help as we know in all areas of health, it will keep your blood pressure down and more.
Good luck with quiting smoking, oh boy, there's something that slowly killed my uncle over many years so I hope that technique works for you; I never heard of it but it sounds promising being on such a program as 20/20. I will keep trying to help people from time to time; now, with your experience you can easily do the same.... I truly believe that people can win this thing, no amount of lawsuits against drug companies concerning the negative effects/promises of psychoactive drugs will have the same power as people spreading the word of how unhealthy and damaging the drugs have been for them.
We also have to be grateful to such people and professionals who speak out like Anne Tracy, Peter Breggin, Joseph Glenmullen, Heather Ashton and other professionals/websites who help explain these drugs. Sometimes they do come on too strong but if you can look past that and really read what they know, it becomes clear that any drug that is a mind/mood drug has dangers, illegal and legal!
Jennita, I took your advice and only had to take a half of amitrypilene 1 night to sleep. My sleep came back exactly as you described. Minutes to half hours, half hours to hours..I am getting about 5 to 6 hours now and am extremely grateful.. before the withdraw I would have felt deprived with only 5 to 6 hous since I have always been one that loves my sleep and I demanded at least 8 hours..The only pill I now take is my thyroid med..I want to start exercising as I truly believe you know what you are talking about. I made an appointment 4 months ago ( the wait is that long ) to get a shock in the ear to quit smoking. The date just happens to be this tues.I have to fly to st. louis as this is the only place in u.s. to do it. Geez, if this works I will be completely free from any substance having some control over me..Suppose to have a 95% success rate..I found out about it on 20/20....I am so exicted. When I made the appointment I thought hey it might help me with the methadone also, I never thought I would be off of it before the appt. Gods plan for me was different then my own..So much thanks to you for all your knowledge..I am sure you will be needed on this board time and time again..hope you never get tired of helping people.Noone around me could imagine what I was going through. I wished I found this board early in my withdraws. I actually found myself on a pro mehadone board with people telling me to stay on it. It was completely safe on al body organs..Is the brain an organ..lol...Guess it isn't as important to them as it is to me.sorry post is so long..I am off to get my SLEPP>>hehe
Ha, yeh, why do people forget it's an organ and not just a bunch of emotions/feelings/thoughts? It's the grand master of the body, regulating things like our heartbeat and breathing....is it any wonder how meds screw with those things? Screw with the brain, and you screw with the body. For an example, when I've visited other boards, I have heard people on antidepressants complain about heart-racing and lack of satisfying breath after they would start the AD and still not get it. I'd even point out that those things are listed side effects. And as we know, the liver and kidneys bear the burden's of processing the drugs. So you are not alone in your wondering why people do not take their brain seriously in matters of the health of the body!
I don't recall corresponding with you but I am so happy I could help!!! I'm also glad to hear your sleep has come back. I've been told and also it has been my experience as well that it will continue to improve, even if it takes months/years. It will reach whatever level is required for health, whether it be 6 hours, 7 or 8. Everybody is different in the amount of sleep they need and it changes as people get older....my mother-in-law said since she got older, her average is 4 1/2 to 5 hours a night but it is enough and she feels good. Usually most of us need 7 hours in adulthood although 6 hours a night is considered normal sleep.
I'm so happy for your sleep victory! And yes, the exercise will help as we know in all areas of health, it will keep your blood pressure down and more.
Good luck with quiting smoking, oh boy, there's something that slowly killed my uncle over many years so I hope that technique works for you; I never heard of it but it sounds promising being on such a program as 20/20. I will keep trying to help people from time to time; now, with your experience you can easily do the same.... I truly believe that people can win this thing, no amount of lawsuits against drug companies concerning the negative effects/promises of psychoactive drugs will have the same power as people spreading the word of how unhealthy and damaging the drugs have been for them.
We also have to be grateful to such people and professionals who speak out like Anne Tracy, Peter Breggin, Joseph Glenmullen, Heather Ashton and other professionals/websites who help explain these drugs. Sometimes they do come on too strong but if you can look past that and really read what they know, it becomes clear that any drug that is a mind/mood drug has dangers, illegal and legal!
no patience
05-04-2004, 04:20 PM
hi jennita i read all your posts and let me tell you are so well educated on this subject and i don't mean this in a sarcastic way but you should write a book i am so amazed at all the information you've written i can't even begin to tell you how much i've learned just from you and howard corresponding back and forth i know i've thanked you guys over and over but i just can't say enough to you my eyes have been opened to yet another drug i was so nieve to again thanks and i'm glad you stay on the board to keep informing people of the harm that these drugs can cause kelleigh :angel:
howard678
05-04-2004, 10:13 PM
Kelleigh,
Sorry I was not on yesterday, but my ISP was down all evening. Thank you for the encouragement. You beat methodone, great, just hope you tread softly with the Klonopin.
Jennita,
Was funny in my case, Xanax was a good sleep aid for at least a year with no tolerance building. Valium was a much better one but only for a month. It has some real strong sedating effects for a while which, like some said on a forum, subside in about a month. I deal with withdrawal symptoms but am not sure how much is related to cuts, how much to tolerance, guess there is no way to differentiate and thus know. I am glad the lady was trying to work. I have done it with little or no sleep. Some of us, unfortunately, when it comes to that will have to go down swinging if we go down at all in that regard. I have read of people that could not answer the telephone or door while tapering. Well in my case, there would be no telephone to not answer, no door either unless it be that of my automobile but when a cop is knocking with a flashlight, you got to answer, benzo withdrawals or not.
As to SSRIs, not interested here, too risky, and they often speed people up which is the last thing I need.
Sorry I was not on yesterday, but my ISP was down all evening. Thank you for the encouragement. You beat methodone, great, just hope you tread softly with the Klonopin.
Jennita,
Was funny in my case, Xanax was a good sleep aid for at least a year with no tolerance building. Valium was a much better one but only for a month. It has some real strong sedating effects for a while which, like some said on a forum, subside in about a month. I deal with withdrawal symptoms but am not sure how much is related to cuts, how much to tolerance, guess there is no way to differentiate and thus know. I am glad the lady was trying to work. I have done it with little or no sleep. Some of us, unfortunately, when it comes to that will have to go down swinging if we go down at all in that regard. I have read of people that could not answer the telephone or door while tapering. Well in my case, there would be no telephone to not answer, no door either unless it be that of my automobile but when a cop is knocking with a flashlight, you got to answer, benzo withdrawals or not.
As to SSRIs, not interested here, too risky, and they often speed people up which is the last thing I need.
no patience
05-05-2004, 08:09 AM
Kelleigh,
Sorry I was not on yesterday, but my ISP was down all evening. Thank you for the encouragement. You beat methodone, great, just hope you tread softly with the Klonopin.
Jennita,
Was funny in my case, Xanax was a good sleep aid for at least a year with no tolerance building. Valium was a much better one but only for a month. It has some real strong sedating effects for a while which, like some said on a forum, subside in about a month. I deal with withdrawal symptoms but am not sure how much is related to cuts, how much to tolerance, guess there is no way to differentiate and thus know. I am glad the lady was trying to work. I have done it with little or no sleep. Some of us, unfortunately, when it comes to that will have to go down swinging if we go down at all in that regard. I have read of people that could not answer the telephone or door while tapering. Well in my case, there would be no telephone to not answer, no door either unless it be that of my automobile but when a cop is knocking with a flashlight, you got to answer, benzo withdrawals or not.
As to SSRIs, not interested here, too risky, and they often speed people up which is the last thing I need.
howard thats ok one question whats is an isp ? you're welcome for th encouragement and the klonopin i'm not taking the prescribed dose hopefully that will be in my favor hope you're well talk to you soon kelleigh :angel: :)
Sorry I was not on yesterday, but my ISP was down all evening. Thank you for the encouragement. You beat methodone, great, just hope you tread softly with the Klonopin.
Jennita,
Was funny in my case, Xanax was a good sleep aid for at least a year with no tolerance building. Valium was a much better one but only for a month. It has some real strong sedating effects for a while which, like some said on a forum, subside in about a month. I deal with withdrawal symptoms but am not sure how much is related to cuts, how much to tolerance, guess there is no way to differentiate and thus know. I am glad the lady was trying to work. I have done it with little or no sleep. Some of us, unfortunately, when it comes to that will have to go down swinging if we go down at all in that regard. I have read of people that could not answer the telephone or door while tapering. Well in my case, there would be no telephone to not answer, no door either unless it be that of my automobile but when a cop is knocking with a flashlight, you got to answer, benzo withdrawals or not.
As to SSRIs, not interested here, too risky, and they often speed people up which is the last thing I need.
howard thats ok one question whats is an isp ? you're welcome for th encouragement and the klonopin i'm not taking the prescribed dose hopefully that will be in my favor hope you're well talk to you soon kelleigh :angel: :)
no patience
05-05-2004, 03:40 PM
howard i know i'm a pain in the but but my dr visit yesterday they told me i deinitly have an underlying anxiety disorder i know your not a doctoe but how do they know its not from the methadone the told me it's social anxiety disorder and i'm asking you because i know you may have some other answers this whole klonopin thing just freaks me out i've actually cut back on the dose though and have noticed i get a bit anxious would that be from a w/d or is it to soon for that sorry to be a pain talk later kelleigh :)
Jennita
05-05-2004, 06:10 PM
howard i know i'm a pain in the but but my dr visit yesterday they told me i deinitly have an underlying anxiety disorder i know your not a doctoe but how do they know its not from the methadone the told me it's social anxiety disorder and i'm asking you because i know you may have some other answers this whole klonopin thing just freaks me out i've actually cut back on the dose though and have noticed i get a bit anxious would that be from a w/d or is it to soon for that sorry to be a pain talk later kelleigh :)
One question: did you have the same problems/symptoms before the methadone? I mean actual symptoms, not life/emotional issues. If not, then it's not underlying, it's drug-induced. This underlying stuff is the same bull-puckey as the magical "unmasked" condition that happens when on a med.
For example, as howard mentioned, SSri's have the tendency to speed people up; if you get a bit too speedy it could resemble a manic episode, in which case the doctor will say the person was probably bi-polar all along and the SSRi simply "unmasked" the condition. Well, I wonder what was masking it before and why not just stop the substance that did the unmasking.........thereby lets just throw that mask back on, you know? Instead, they decide that they must now medicate the unmasked conditon with more drugs, this time it's for life.
So apparentely, people can be going around with such an illness as bi-polar and have no symptoms at all intil the introduction of an SSRi? That's plain retarded if you ask me and why would anyone buy into it......well, I'm sure they comb the person's past and manage to find some behavior or reaction to a life situation that fits their very broad criteria since mental disorders seem to have a zillion layers/degrees and almost any unsocial/acceptable behavior or habit may be able to be scrutinized as abnormal.
I'm sure there are legitamite mental cases out there, but in reality they are very rare. I believe some are drug (legal or illegal) induced, starvation or a trauma induced event from what I've read. Certainly, some disorders are not really disorders but reactions to life and hardships.....remove the hardships and the disorder is gone (unfortunately, some hardships are here to stay and sometimes we need to relearn how to react to life and expectations).
Social Anxiety is not uncommon since people have changed in these times. Most people are not trustworthy or truthful. Some are vengeful, violent, judgemental or downright mean. Some people expect way too much of others and like to make fun of others to boost their own egos. Of course, there are good souls still out there but weeding them out is very difficult. So no wonder there is such a thing as social anxiety, but I think it's more a social disease than a person disease!
But now everyone and their brother is on a med for this thing or that, and every problem, life situation or emotional feeling becomes a disorder. This is very profitable for the psychiatric and drug communities.
So, they are selling something..... now the question is, are you buying?
One question: did you have the same problems/symptoms before the methadone? I mean actual symptoms, not life/emotional issues. If not, then it's not underlying, it's drug-induced. This underlying stuff is the same bull-puckey as the magical "unmasked" condition that happens when on a med.
For example, as howard mentioned, SSri's have the tendency to speed people up; if you get a bit too speedy it could resemble a manic episode, in which case the doctor will say the person was probably bi-polar all along and the SSRi simply "unmasked" the condition. Well, I wonder what was masking it before and why not just stop the substance that did the unmasking.........thereby lets just throw that mask back on, you know? Instead, they decide that they must now medicate the unmasked conditon with more drugs, this time it's for life.
So apparentely, people can be going around with such an illness as bi-polar and have no symptoms at all intil the introduction of an SSRi? That's plain retarded if you ask me and why would anyone buy into it......well, I'm sure they comb the person's past and manage to find some behavior or reaction to a life situation that fits their very broad criteria since mental disorders seem to have a zillion layers/degrees and almost any unsocial/acceptable behavior or habit may be able to be scrutinized as abnormal.
I'm sure there are legitamite mental cases out there, but in reality they are very rare. I believe some are drug (legal or illegal) induced, starvation or a trauma induced event from what I've read. Certainly, some disorders are not really disorders but reactions to life and hardships.....remove the hardships and the disorder is gone (unfortunately, some hardships are here to stay and sometimes we need to relearn how to react to life and expectations).
Social Anxiety is not uncommon since people have changed in these times. Most people are not trustworthy or truthful. Some are vengeful, violent, judgemental or downright mean. Some people expect way too much of others and like to make fun of others to boost their own egos. Of course, there are good souls still out there but weeding them out is very difficult. So no wonder there is such a thing as social anxiety, but I think it's more a social disease than a person disease!
But now everyone and their brother is on a med for this thing or that, and every problem, life situation or emotional feeling becomes a disorder. This is very profitable for the psychiatric and drug communities.
So, they are selling something..... now the question is, are you buying?
howard678
05-05-2004, 06:12 PM
No patience,
"Social Anxiety Disorder" is the new catch all for about anything then follow the SSRIs or God forbid benzos. Anyone dealing with drug withdrawal faces anxiety. Is why the alcoholic does not want to come out of their house for a week (just a week, they are very blessed) until they are detoxed and felling better. I had a level of anxiety when I was first prescribed Xanax but I was in a tough job situation that I have long sense been away from. It was also prescribed for sleep. Well, I did not know the meaning of the word "anxiety" until I tried to come off Xanax. Feelings never before imagined. Drug withdrawal, and no one, M.D. or not, will ever succeed in pinning one of these new psychiatric labels on me. I know what is going on. That is my experience. As to yours, you must decide for yourself.
"Social Anxiety Disorder" is the new catch all for about anything then follow the SSRIs or God forbid benzos. Anyone dealing with drug withdrawal faces anxiety. Is why the alcoholic does not want to come out of their house for a week (just a week, they are very blessed) until they are detoxed and felling better. I had a level of anxiety when I was first prescribed Xanax but I was in a tough job situation that I have long sense been away from. It was also prescribed for sleep. Well, I did not know the meaning of the word "anxiety" until I tried to come off Xanax. Feelings never before imagined. Drug withdrawal, and no one, M.D. or not, will ever succeed in pinning one of these new psychiatric labels on me. I know what is going on. That is my experience. As to yours, you must decide for yourself.
no patience
05-05-2004, 09:42 PM
jennita and howard i did have a social thing before i was on methadone could never be around to many people i moved around alot as a kid and spent most of my life making new friends and then losing them needless to say i was shy of alot of social situations that i do remember even if it meant going to an aunt or uncles house for dinner i just did'nt want to go i was to embarassed and hated being the center of attention in any situation even if it was my how you've grown or whatever it maybe so as time moved on i still suffered in social situations like my husband would want me to go to dinner with his side of the family and i would dread it and make every excuse not to go but then i went on methadone lets just say it made me a totally different person i could talk to anyone any where any time go to any function you name it i was there i don't know if that is social anxiety or just the person i am i hate this situation because i feel like i'm going crazy do i have anxiety or don't i i know you can't answer that but this whole situation just seems like its never ending now i can barely even go out of my house anymore for work yeah i hate even going to my sisters or brothers house i have so many issues and have been looking to you 2 for guidance because you both are so well educated in this area and about the buying and the selling i have'nt purchased any thing yet with all i've read on these boards and all i've been through with drs i 'm losing complete faith in them thank you guys for caring enough to warn me though you guys have been great talk later kelleigh :yawn: :confused:i completly understand where you guys are coming from though it's awful they make a pill for everything i wish i was'nt so nieve to all them when ifirst started methadone for my chronic pain :blob_fire
howard678
05-05-2004, 11:19 PM
<<I'm sure there are legitamite mental cases out there, but in reality they are very rare.>>
I`ve heard this affirmation before but personally think there are a lot of people that need to be on meds, that or institutionalized, and have real problems with people on the net writing with an aire of scientific authority (not saying you are one) strongly implying or downright telling people they do not know from Adam to drop all meds, this based on drug company conspiracy theories. I would not be surprised if some, if not many deaths have occured as a result. How many that just up and go away from the boards are now in the ground? Though there may be some profit driven motives when it comes to SSRIs, but hardly with benzos as the patents have long run out and people typically get dirt cheap generics.
The insane has been with us in abundance since the beginning of recorded history. I have observed them in action, bi-polar and the like, it`s far out, and all I can think of right now claimed the condition pre-existed the meds. One may debate cause and effect, but if the truth be known, there is mystery here. I think most doctors would admit this but if it comes down to suicide or strong meds, an institution or experiment with meds, perhaps let the doctors do their jobs and try the meds. I dare not toy with their conditions, out of my league. Though I know there is a lot of over-prescribing and too little non-drug therapy. The disclaimers that go with these forums should be truly heeded and not viewed as simply a CYA...
I`ve heard this affirmation before but personally think there are a lot of people that need to be on meds, that or institutionalized, and have real problems with people on the net writing with an aire of scientific authority (not saying you are one) strongly implying or downright telling people they do not know from Adam to drop all meds, this based on drug company conspiracy theories. I would not be surprised if some, if not many deaths have occured as a result. How many that just up and go away from the boards are now in the ground? Though there may be some profit driven motives when it comes to SSRIs, but hardly with benzos as the patents have long run out and people typically get dirt cheap generics.
The insane has been with us in abundance since the beginning of recorded history. I have observed them in action, bi-polar and the like, it`s far out, and all I can think of right now claimed the condition pre-existed the meds. One may debate cause and effect, but if the truth be known, there is mystery here. I think most doctors would admit this but if it comes down to suicide or strong meds, an institution or experiment with meds, perhaps let the doctors do their jobs and try the meds. I dare not toy with their conditions, out of my league. Though I know there is a lot of over-prescribing and too little non-drug therapy. The disclaimers that go with these forums should be truly heeded and not viewed as simply a CYA...
howard678
05-06-2004, 12:09 AM
Kelleigh,
IMO, an internet diagnosis is not always the best idea, unless you have the ability to seperate the wheat, the chaff, and the questionable and apply what is needed to your situation. And just thinking about these messes all day, reading in these forums, etc. can create alot of problems of their own. I know what I was like before the Xanax and I am trying to get back there, slowly but surely. It is going to hurt. Withdrawal from addictive drugs hurts. But keeping a positive outlook and avoiding anger and despair, or people that enourage such, is a plus. I am no stranger to either, but have realized I cannot afford those luxuries at this time.
What you describe does not sound like insanity to me. But you did mention that you had suicidal idealizations so I thus defer to the professionals, though such thoughts in and of themselves would not necessarily make one insane I do not think.
I have always had some difficulty in intimate social situations, but love large gatherings, crowds, and exciting, never a dull moment work around people. That is me. I live with it, may improve some over time. But I do not need meds.
I suggest looking for some real hope, something much bigger than you will find from any human being. Small steps may turn into giant ones, and doubt may gradually transform into faith. I recommend NA Meetings, right up your alley as you kicked methodone, plus the Hazelden website is good. Getting around people, people you relate to, that can actually hear, see, and even hug you may be a huge help. This all takes action on your part. It is up to you. I had to seek the right sort of support for me, mental, emotional, and spiritual. I have a little bit, need more, will get it. Shut down the computer and go after it friend. :-)
IMO, an internet diagnosis is not always the best idea, unless you have the ability to seperate the wheat, the chaff, and the questionable and apply what is needed to your situation. And just thinking about these messes all day, reading in these forums, etc. can create alot of problems of their own. I know what I was like before the Xanax and I am trying to get back there, slowly but surely. It is going to hurt. Withdrawal from addictive drugs hurts. But keeping a positive outlook and avoiding anger and despair, or people that enourage such, is a plus. I am no stranger to either, but have realized I cannot afford those luxuries at this time.
What you describe does not sound like insanity to me. But you did mention that you had suicidal idealizations so I thus defer to the professionals, though such thoughts in and of themselves would not necessarily make one insane I do not think.
I have always had some difficulty in intimate social situations, but love large gatherings, crowds, and exciting, never a dull moment work around people. That is me. I live with it, may improve some over time. But I do not need meds.
I suggest looking for some real hope, something much bigger than you will find from any human being. Small steps may turn into giant ones, and doubt may gradually transform into faith. I recommend NA Meetings, right up your alley as you kicked methodone, plus the Hazelden website is good. Getting around people, people you relate to, that can actually hear, see, and even hug you may be a huge help. This all takes action on your part. It is up to you. I had to seek the right sort of support for me, mental, emotional, and spiritual. I have a little bit, need more, will get it. Shut down the computer and go after it friend. :-)
howard678
05-06-2004, 12:12 AM
oh yea,
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howard678
05-06-2004, 01:14 AM
<<i know you may have some other answers this whole klonopin thing just freaks me out i've actually cut back on the dose though and have noticed i get a bit anxious would that be from a w/d or is it to soon for that sorry to be a pain talk later kelleigh>>
You may be worrying too much. Heather Ashton says not to worry. I agree. Easier said than done, but work on it. Drug addiction is a pain and fear of the unknown is of the worst sort. Did we analyze every feeling, every ache and pain before drug addiction and reading all of the various opinions and experiences on the internet? Of course not. Fear can create symptoms or make moderate to mild anxiety (from drug withdrawal) much worse. Me, I have to take the bull by the horns, every day. I think it is important for you to get involved in your own recovery. Klonopin is a short term solution because of tolerance building. Stevie Knicks got up to 72 a day and still had no relief. But for now, why toy around with it? Either take it as prescribed or work out a tapering off schedule with your doctor. If you do not trust this doctor, find another one.
You may be worrying too much. Heather Ashton says not to worry. I agree. Easier said than done, but work on it. Drug addiction is a pain and fear of the unknown is of the worst sort. Did we analyze every feeling, every ache and pain before drug addiction and reading all of the various opinions and experiences on the internet? Of course not. Fear can create symptoms or make moderate to mild anxiety (from drug withdrawal) much worse. Me, I have to take the bull by the horns, every day. I think it is important for you to get involved in your own recovery. Klonopin is a short term solution because of tolerance building. Stevie Knicks got up to 72 a day and still had no relief. But for now, why toy around with it? Either take it as prescribed or work out a tapering off schedule with your doctor. If you do not trust this doctor, find another one.
no patience
05-06-2004, 08:18 AM
howard thank you for the advice it makes alot of sense maybe i do think being on these boards everyday are going to solve my problems that why i'm on it some much but i'm definitly gonna take the advice on the website you gave me and see if there are some groups for my condition all i do is come on these boards because i know i can say things and not embarrass my self and i like to tryto help the people going through opiate w/d because mine was so bad and i just want to try help ease it for them i did have totally faith in my phsychiatrist but now knowing about klonopin i wonder if she knows what she's doing thanks for all your help kelleigh :angel:
no patience
05-06-2004, 08:20 AM
i'm always on the computer but don't know much about them chat soon kelleigh not all that computer literate (this reply goes to the definition of isp)
Jennita
05-06-2004, 02:59 PM
<<i know you may have some other answers this whole klonopin thing just freaks me out i've actually cut back on the dose though and have noticed i get a bit anxious would that be from a w/d or is it to soon for that sorry to be a pain talk later kelleigh>>
You may be worrying too much. Heather Ashton says not to worry. I agree. Easier said than done, but work on it. Drug addiction is a pain and fear of the unknown is of the worst sort. Did we analyze every feeling, every ache and pain before drug addiction and reading all of the various opinions and experiences on the internet? Of course not. Fear can create symptoms or make moderate to mild anxiety (from drug withdrawal) much worse. Me, I have to take the bull by the horns, every day. I think it is important for you to get involved in your own recovery. Klonopin is a short term solution because of tolerance building. Stevie Knicks got up to 72 a day and still had no relief. But for now, why toy around with it? Either take it as prescribed or work out a tapering off schedule with your doctor. If you do not trust this doctor, find another one.
<<i know you may have some other answers this whole klonopin thing just freaks me out i've actually cut back on the dose though and have noticed i get a bit anxious would that be from a w/d or is it to soon for that sorry to be a pain talk later kelleigh>>
You may be worrying too much. Heather Ashton says not to worry. I agree. Easier said than done, but work on it. Drug addiction is a pain and fear of the unknown is of the worst sort. Did we analyze every feeling, every ache and pain before drug addiction and reading all of the various opinions and experiences on the internet? Of course not. Fear can create symptoms or make moderate to mild anxiety (from drug withdrawal) much worse. Me, I have to take the bull by the horns, every day. I think it is important for you to get involved in your own recovery. Klonopin is a short term solution because of tolerance building. Stevie Knicks got up to 72 a day and still had no relief. But for now, why toy around with it? Either take it as prescribed or work out a tapering off schedule with your doctor. If you do not trust this doctor, find another one.
Howard, do you have a link or some key words on the story concerning Stevie Knicks? I read one but it didn't mention how much she got up to in the one I read, I can't believe it was that high and she still had tolerance, wow!
Kelligh, you can't beat yourself up about the methadone because physical pain is something that needs to be addressed; people get into accidents or injuries calls for some pain control intil they heal; nobody expects someone to live with severe pain. But they should have not cold-turkeyed you off it should be tapered properly but that doesn't always happen since they don't take the drugs that seriously...if a person isn't wildly abusing them, or on some illegal drug like cocaine, they don't think there should be much problems. I don't quite understand this, other than maybe they think just because it's controlled by prescription? Sometimes severe pain calls for larger doses and that is when it gets harder to come off of it.
You may be worrying too much. Heather Ashton says not to worry. I agree. Easier said than done, but work on it. Drug addiction is a pain and fear of the unknown is of the worst sort. Did we analyze every feeling, every ache and pain before drug addiction and reading all of the various opinions and experiences on the internet? Of course not. Fear can create symptoms or make moderate to mild anxiety (from drug withdrawal) much worse. Me, I have to take the bull by the horns, every day. I think it is important for you to get involved in your own recovery. Klonopin is a short term solution because of tolerance building. Stevie Knicks got up to 72 a day and still had no relief. But for now, why toy around with it? Either take it as prescribed or work out a tapering off schedule with your doctor. If you do not trust this doctor, find another one.
<<i know you may have some other answers this whole klonopin thing just freaks me out i've actually cut back on the dose though and have noticed i get a bit anxious would that be from a w/d or is it to soon for that sorry to be a pain talk later kelleigh>>
You may be worrying too much. Heather Ashton says not to worry. I agree. Easier said than done, but work on it. Drug addiction is a pain and fear of the unknown is of the worst sort. Did we analyze every feeling, every ache and pain before drug addiction and reading all of the various opinions and experiences on the internet? Of course not. Fear can create symptoms or make moderate to mild anxiety (from drug withdrawal) much worse. Me, I have to take the bull by the horns, every day. I think it is important for you to get involved in your own recovery. Klonopin is a short term solution because of tolerance building. Stevie Knicks got up to 72 a day and still had no relief. But for now, why toy around with it? Either take it as prescribed or work out a tapering off schedule with your doctor. If you do not trust this doctor, find another one.
Howard, do you have a link or some key words on the story concerning Stevie Knicks? I read one but it didn't mention how much she got up to in the one I read, I can't believe it was that high and she still had tolerance, wow!
Kelligh, you can't beat yourself up about the methadone because physical pain is something that needs to be addressed; people get into accidents or injuries calls for some pain control intil they heal; nobody expects someone to live with severe pain. But they should have not cold-turkeyed you off it should be tapered properly but that doesn't always happen since they don't take the drugs that seriously...if a person isn't wildly abusing them, or on some illegal drug like cocaine, they don't think there should be much problems. I don't quite understand this, other than maybe they think just because it's controlled by prescription? Sometimes severe pain calls for larger doses and that is when it gets harder to come off of it.

