jianlian
06-02-2004, 09:20 PM
i'm new here and i'll start with a brief intro on my story (i'm male, 21):
about 5 months ago I realised I had OCD, and in doing so, I could trace it back many years in my life. But only in recent 3 years has it been extremely hard to deal with. However, in understanding my problem i've been able to cope quite well. I still get the obsessive thoughts throughout the day and this can sometimes cause great amounts of anxiety, but I know where it comes from now and i feel much happier.
However... this is one aspect of my OCD (or is it??) that SCARES me. They are "bad" sexual thoughts (i dont want to describe), and they are NOT GAY thoughts. Taking the approach of accepting these thoughts, I let myself have those thoughts and focus on them. Sometimes I will feel myself getting 100% turned on by these thoughts, and I will get an erection. It comes to a point where i don't feel threatened by the thoughts anymore, and I wonder if I really like all those "bad" sexual things.
Does anyone have any thoughts or experience to share? thanks.
about 5 months ago I realised I had OCD, and in doing so, I could trace it back many years in my life. But only in recent 3 years has it been extremely hard to deal with. However, in understanding my problem i've been able to cope quite well. I still get the obsessive thoughts throughout the day and this can sometimes cause great amounts of anxiety, but I know where it comes from now and i feel much happier.
However... this is one aspect of my OCD (or is it??) that SCARES me. They are "bad" sexual thoughts (i dont want to describe), and they are NOT GAY thoughts. Taking the approach of accepting these thoughts, I let myself have those thoughts and focus on them. Sometimes I will feel myself getting 100% turned on by these thoughts, and I will get an erection. It comes to a point where i don't feel threatened by the thoughts anymore, and I wonder if I really like all those "bad" sexual things.
Does anyone have any thoughts or experience to share? thanks.
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FroBoyPeaceGuy
06-03-2004, 03:45 AM
Hi jianlian, :wave:
This seems like an episode I used to be dealing with. I went thru the thoughts of extreme XXX rated stuff. I think the way it seemed to have gone away is "torturing myself". Not physical torture, but mental torture. I have a homegirl who I do not consider attractive that is a majorly bickering person that I learned to work my mind with to "torture" these thoughts away. I learned that if I put my XXX thought into the scenerio w/ this person. Not in person, but in mind and w/ "testing" these thoughts w/ questions.
As for your thoughts in general, it's human nature. I will say a prayer for you if you like for a future of less extreme thoughts. God Bless You Always :angel:
This seems like an episode I used to be dealing with. I went thru the thoughts of extreme XXX rated stuff. I think the way it seemed to have gone away is "torturing myself". Not physical torture, but mental torture. I have a homegirl who I do not consider attractive that is a majorly bickering person that I learned to work my mind with to "torture" these thoughts away. I learned that if I put my XXX thought into the scenerio w/ this person. Not in person, but in mind and w/ "testing" these thoughts w/ questions.
As for your thoughts in general, it's human nature. I will say a prayer for you if you like for a future of less extreme thoughts. God Bless You Always :angel:
jianlian
06-03-2004, 09:23 PM
thanks for the words.
let me try to put down more of my thoughts. I don't try to resist or deny obssesive thoughts anymore because at this point i have realised it won't make them go away, and infact makes them worse. The thing that scares me about this is that I think, "what if this aspect is not caused by OCD? what if I am a pervert?". Sex is a hard issue because there are "good" (acceptable, normal) sexual thoughts and there are very bad ones. Whereas eg violent thoughts seem easier to understand, because I know I am not violent and don;t want to hurt people.
let me try to put down more of my thoughts. I don't try to resist or deny obssesive thoughts anymore because at this point i have realised it won't make them go away, and infact makes them worse. The thing that scares me about this is that I think, "what if this aspect is not caused by OCD? what if I am a pervert?". Sex is a hard issue because there are "good" (acceptable, normal) sexual thoughts and there are very bad ones. Whereas eg violent thoughts seem easier to understand, because I know I am not violent and don;t want to hurt people.
aprilmay
06-05-2004, 05:26 AM
if you were a pervert you would enjoy these thoughts and try to think about them... the only reason you got an erection is cause you were scared to get one and your mind tricked you
jianlian
06-08-2004, 07:40 PM
does anyone else have other suggestions on how to deal with this problem?
it is very, very hard for me
it is very, very hard for me
danmc15
06-09-2004, 02:44 PM
Because of the nature of your problem I would say that you should definitely see a psychiatrist; the possibility of harming yourself or another with sexual obsessions is always a real threat. Keep in mind that OCD is caused by a chemical inbalance in your brain; you are not going to think yourself out of it. It also does no good to think of yourself as bad, evil, perverted, etc. because of these thoughts. Sexual thoughts are natural, human beings are animals after all.
amyocd
06-12-2004, 11:26 PM
hey there! I can definitley relate. Im female. I have ocd, and my thoughts are all sexual. Not just sexual, but bad perverted sexual. beleive it or not these perverted sexual thoughts are very common. I am also always scared because i think "maybe this isnt ocd, maybe i am a pervert." "did i just get a good sexual feeling because of this thought" my ocd is so servere that my brain makes me think that i am actually doing these perverted things, and it is hard to convince my self back and letting myself know that it is only ocd.
Are you in therapy? seeing a doctor? I am in cognitive behavior therapy and that seems to help me. I tell my therapist everything.
I also know what you mean when you say that it would be easier to deal with violent thought because you know you arent aviolent person. Sexual thought are hard to deal with. Good luck and please let me know how you are doing!
-Amy
Are you in therapy? seeing a doctor? I am in cognitive behavior therapy and that seems to help me. I tell my therapist everything.
I also know what you mean when you say that it would be easier to deal with violent thought because you know you arent aviolent person. Sexual thought are hard to deal with. Good luck and please let me know how you are doing!
-Amy
jianlian
06-13-2004, 12:33 AM
i will look into seeing someone about this, but it may be hard because I work full time and I would like to limit the number of people who know about this.
burg
07-01-2004, 08:38 PM
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expedition
07-05-2004, 01:13 AM
I'm having a similar problem. The trick is you have to recognize obsessional thoughts, realize that they are a product of OCD, not you, and dismiss them. You can't debate them in your mind or try to force them to go away. The more you try to get away, the worse it gets. If you're not on meds or seeing a doctor, I would start that right away.
xMosquitox
07-05-2004, 02:55 PM
It comes to a point where i don't feel threatened by the thoughts anymore, and I wonder if I really like all those "bad" sexual things.
I think i'm at this point right now. Though when the thoughts come, i still try to push them away automatically but i dont feel threatened. Sometimes i feel becuz i know its OCD, sometimes i feel becuz i like those thoughts. Can sumone give comments one dat? ...
I think i'm at this point right now. Though when the thoughts come, i still try to push them away automatically but i dont feel threatened. Sometimes i feel becuz i know its OCD, sometimes i feel becuz i like those thoughts. Can sumone give comments one dat? ...