Hi, Aurora :)

Just wanted to see how you were doing. I know by some of your recent posts that you've been having a difficult time lately. How are things going now?

I remember when I came to this board because I was all upset about some setbacks I had had some time ago, and you really helped me out. So I hope all us members here can do the same for you.

You've helped out a lot of people here, Aurora. You're an awesome person and don't you forget it! :nono:

So remember everyone's here for you to return the favor... :)

Take care of yourself, okay?

Ashlee

Ashleeeeeeee!
How are you my dear?
Hows things on the horsey front?
Thankyou for caring enough to post - ah I feel all special. I get treated so nicely on here by like everybody!
I so remember that longwinded post I wrote to you when you were down. It seems ages ago now. I'm glad it helped you though.
I'm doing ok....well I dropped out of the programme and have had a few kidney issues. But I'm ok really. I feel free now to do my own thing.
But how are you doing?
Oh I'm all embarassed :o , I'm not awesome but thanks anyway.
Hugs from H xoxo

H sorry things haven't been going well for you (this is sorta a reply to the post on the thread which has been closed where you said you weren't doing too great). I really wanted your parents to accept it and support you, but they haven't. What I'm about to say is gunna sound harsh and please don't take this the wrong way, but you have to forget what your mum said. forget she even visited. I know its easier said than done, but can you honestly say that it wasn't due to her that you aren't doing so great recently? You've started restriciting again, and excersizing. Dropping out of the program meant that you got bored during the day so you started working again and there's the kidney programs. Plus, how do you actually feel. I mean, its pretty clear to me from where I'm sitting that your mum's words effected you a lot, and, lets face it, not many people on this board would cope well with being told what she said. But it only matters of you believe it. Its not true H, you are not greedy and you are DANGEROUSLY UNDERWEIGHT. The program you were on made a special allowance to let you on that program right? Well, why do you think that was? Do you honestly think they would of done that for anyone who wasn't seriously compromising their health? When the nurse said you were signing your death warrent she was harsh and its only true if you let it be but H, she may have been tactless saying that but would a PROFESSIONAL say that if you were'nt seriously ill?

Sorry if any of this is harsh but we all care about you so much and we worry H. You can't let what your mum said get to you like this. I know its hard, I've been there when my mum's making comments on how overweight I am and they totally tear me up. I just start binging whenever she says stuff like that. Or I eat as little as possible. But why should you suffer for her? Whats she offering you right now that you should be risking your life to make her 'accept' you? H, its like that whole perfect weight thing. When someone says 'well i'll just lose x amount, but then I'll lose x amount more because I won't get abouve this amount' no matter how much weight you carry on losing, however many times you go into hospital, if you die its not gunna make her accept this any more than she is now. You can't make her open her eyes and see there is a problem and she's out of line. But you can work on getting better, on recovering from this. Ultimately, you know yourself. You know how sick you are, you know how much damage your eating disorder is inflicting on you, you have the power to change it, NOT her.

sorry if this was out of line, I'm just worried your getting worse again and I don't want to see that happen :(

Stay strong
Love Emily xXx

Hi Aurora. :)

Sorry it's taken me a while to reply - hope ya didn't think I'd forgotten about ya! :p

Aww I embarressed ya did I?? :D Hehe... well done on my part then!

On the 'horsey front' things are fine. My new horse is going nicely and my other horse is insanely jelous. I feel kinda bad for him actually! But I'm really happy with my mare - she's going to be an excellent dressage horse! (I hope!)

Anyway, better get on topic before I get told off. :D

What Emily said was right on. And Emily, I don't think you sounded harsh, and I'm pretty sure Aurora won't have thought so either.

Then again, maybe it's time us people here started letting Aurora make up her own mind! Hehe... okay sorry Aurora I'll but out.

I know you've got a lot of support here and good friends who are really trying to encourage you in the right direction, so I won't start. :) But if you need any support at all I'm here for you.

Can I ask, are you still getting any form of help since you've dropped out of the program? I hope you are for the physical side of things as well as the emotional, because I know that kidney issues isn't something that you would take lightly.

I'll look out for your posts on the other thread, okay? And take care of yourself!

Ashlee