Hey all!!!! (and to those I havent seen in quite sometime and have been 'compulsively lurking'- u know who u r!!:D)

I am here to say 'sorry' coz I havent been helping as much as I used to. Having a majorly hard time with myself right now......I have posted on the 'depression' bored ..if you wanna know what's going on inside this head!lol A complicated place, I must say.

My eating...well....let's just say Im up and down with it...Im doing alright, with it all at the moment. Im battling with depression at the moment and I feel that I have noone at this point in time apart from everyone on here who understands how I feel. I am in the middle of my exams as well...so...it isnt a good time to be getting distracted and extremely down about things. I have lost energy in me to be happy right now...i dont have energy to revise.....get out of the house.......Ive never felt so lonely, depressed, and in a complete mess at the moment...so...when I get myself back together..I will reply to your posts more!!!! So, thanks for taking time to read this....and wish u all the luck in the world to every single one of you to get through anything you are struggling with right now.....I feel ya!!!!!!

Mucho love-o and all that!!! :)


Carolinexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Caroline I just wanted to send you a big hug ((((((((caroline)))))))) Keep strong. We all care and I am sure there are lots of people in your life who care very much about how you feel too.
Take care,
H xoxoxo

Hi, Caroline. :) Am I the compulsive lurker by any chance?? :D

I will try to catch up with you on the depression forum tonight okay? I miss talking to you!

But don't feel bad for not being here as much at the moment. You've already helped so many of us including me so I'm already greatful. :)

Take care of yourself, please! :( I hate that you're so down all the time...

Talk soon,
Ash

Hey Ashlee.... U guessed that u were the lurker..n so you should!;) I have to say..i do lurk alot myself around the boards...then when Im feeling like typing something...i click the good old 'quick reply' button:D

It's great to hear from you anyways!!!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

AUrora.....thanks for replying...sorry I didnt say 'thank u' earlier!XXXXXXXX Your hugs are much appreciated!!!!:D

hey!

just dropping in to say hi to you all...hmmm im not on this board at all anymore ... but nothing bad...just school and junk and for now im eating reg enough lol. but anyhoo
this is again not a post about me :)

so keep hanging in there, depression sucks yea but it does go away again after a while too ! so dont give up and things getting a bit better.

just wanted to say that

laterz
ivy

Hey Ivy!!! Has been a while since I saw u...but...(((hugz)))....hope u r coping alright( (you seem to be), but...still.....we can always make this post about u....so...if u wanna vent..u know where we are:D

X

Ivy Ivy Ivy!!! You're still here! Welcome back!! Or maybe you never even left...? :confused: (Okay stop trying to think, Ash :nono:)

Caroline, Ivy and me... wow we have like 1 millionth of the old group here as well as all the newcomers! Not that most of the 'newer' members are exactly 'newcomers' anymore. LOL. Hehe, I can't think properly. And RunningQueen was here not long ago (then dissappeared again :(). Wow, I'm all excited! Hehe...

lol...im ok :D but good to know you guys are still around...even if it is once in a blue moon we run into each other !! i was gone for a while but i got over why i left lol...just stupid stuff !

im trying to brace myself for hard times coming at the end of july :( but i still have a ways to go before handling that all over again...but today has been up and down ...wasting hours online to stay busy ...just the old routine :P

ttfn

Hi Ivy!

What's happening in July? Is it exam time again?? Sorry it's hard for me to figure it out sometimes because living here in New Zealand, everything seems back to front to you guys. Hmm... or maybe you're the ones that are back to front... :rolleyes: Hehe... yeah I go with that one.

And you're not wasting time online either, cos you're talking to Caroline and I! Now what could be more worthwhile than THAT! LOL, you know how much we think of ourselves! Hey, Caroline?? :p :p

Take care, Ivy!
Ashlee

nah i have a test tomorrow :S not looking forward to it at all ! but its an anniversary... your lucky you get to live in nz! you live where 2 of my favoritest things in the whole wide word were filmed :D (xena and lotr). but before i was talking on here i was playing some games and things :) but i have to go to bed soon...i have to wake up early to finish studying some more or something lol ! ive been out of school for almost 2 months now :P regular year school that is....its summer now and killer hot here .... but i wanted to stay at school over the summer so its ok....but i want to go buy mystic river, that movie is good but harsh in a sad unbelieving kinda way...but still good enough to spend 20 bucks on it ! i love buying movies lol... if anyone is looking for a funny one the cat in the hat is great :D

ttfn !

Hiya Ivy.

Hmmm... then there's all the teenagers like me living here in NZ that think it's the most boring place in the world. I don't think it's boring, because I love living out in the country. But a lot of people do. :rolleyes: I guess you're never happy with what you've got, huh?

Yeah, LOTR is so amazing! They filmed part of that up in the mountains near where I live actually. :) And I'm lucky enough to have ridden a few of the LOTR horses as they were sold all over New Zealand.

You're lucky it's summer. It's so cold here already and it's not even the coldest month yet! July/August are much worse... :(

Well, I hope you're doing okay Ivy. :)

I don't get the whole school thing though. I thought you went to Uni? Pr have you graduated? I'm confused...

Take care!
Ashlee

LOL!!!

Ivy- I know what u mean by 'wasting time online'- MSN Messenger is THE WORST for fillin in time (not in a good way). Yet i always use it to distract myself!!!
I always think when Im posting these...'when will everyone see this....are they in bed ??'...so..I guess Im as confused as u are Ashlee! :D.

I have just got up so Im a bit dazed and confused...and it's 30 odd degrees already....GRREEEEEEAT!!:) Im such a wimp when it comes to hot weather *SIGH*

What happened to people like Rad.......lol..now I have forgotten all the people that used to come here....EEEK!!! I hope they come back and pay a visit sometime tho!!!

Big hugs etc!!

C x x x x x x x

PS IVY- GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!*********************** *** I have 2 exams tomorrow...oh the joy!!:D

your so lucky ashlee :D just put me in the same area where they thought about filming lotrs and ill be the happiest person ever :D but i liked nz before the lotr crew went there! like you guys there i think where i live is the dullest place on earth, literally :D i cant wait till i can anywhere else!

thanks for the well wishes for my test ... it was the hardest one so far....but then i would be the one making an a in psych of personality :P so ill see how i did when my grades are up. yes im still in college, i still have a couple years before i graduate.

i cant wait for winter to come back over here...i hate being to hot and well living without air conditioning doesnt help anything at all! but its manageable :)

ttfn

Talkin about exams......I thought it was Thursday for some strange reason- leaving school doesn't half throw you off course. So, it's great for me coz my exam isn't tomorrow afterall:D YEY!!!!xxxxxxxxxxxxx Sorry, am just being random at the moment!!!xxxx

Caroline, I wish Rad (Rachel) were still here. She was awesome!

There was CloudyDaze, Jjay, Melenie (Ivy's friend, so Ivy might know), Cat, Lilray (who was here about a week ago), RunningQueen (also here), Fiona, and so many more people but it was so long ago I can't even remember anymore. :( But people move on, you can't expect everyone to hang around forever I suppose!

Ivy, you LIKE winter! Sheesh... are you feeling okay? It's HORRIBLE! I absolutely love summer. But here it only gets about 28degrees AT THE HIGHEST. I love it hotter than that. I've been to Australia a few times when it was over 30degrees and it was awesome.

Oh and by the way Caroline, it's Thursday for ME :D

I'm glad all you're exams are going well! Wow, I'm so glad I don't go to school anymore! But I will have to return to study next year I suppose.

Take care you two!
Ashlee

Man, all those people.....I know they have to move on eventually...just wish I knew what they were up to etc if they were alright.

LOL..yeh..it's NOW Thursday for me.....:D

Well, I have just more-or-less coz up and have a bit of a headache...so..it's a good start to the day!

Byez for nowx

good grief it hits high 90's here with trouble!!! not fun at all lol...so yep winter is much better, the more it snows the better it is :D and melody is doing good :) lol wrong name there ashlee ! well its thrusday for me now but i had to take the morning off, i needed a break :confused: but i did good on my test yesterday.

good luck on your exam too, you will do fine :)

LMAO, okay Melody then. Was just testing ya... hehe... really I was... :rolleyes: Darn.

Well you know, the name Melenie sounds kinda familiar too... hmmm.

Well good to hear Melody is doing so well!

As for the high 90's, I wouldn't have a clue what that was in Celcius. :confused:

Hehe you guys are just SOOOO behind. Hey, I can tell you what's going to happen in the future! It's Friday evening for me now. I felt so bad today 'cos I didn't get up till 2pm! What a waste of a day. But I had a hard night. Hate night. I couldn't sleep - been like this for a week now. I really hope it's not going to be like it used to be... that's was SOOO frustrating!

So in reality I've only been out of bed for less than 4 hours and I'm tired again. :( Bout ready to go back to sleep I think!

Take care you two!
Ashlee

i thought you were reading your temp in celcuis lol! yep im on the other side :D im glad its friday though, im tired of classes this week ... for extra credit i have to go to the movies :D i want to see harry potter so much! but i dont want to go alone either :( ill think of something i guess. but anyhoo have a good day

ttfn

Heey!! Wow.....So....since you already predicted the future, Ashlee...you will know that Im gonna say' maaan...that media studies exam suuuuucked!!!' :)..but at least it's finished...i couldnt care less now coz it is F-F-F-FRIIIIIDAY PEOPLE :D Yippeeeeee! I think, for once, Im actually going out tonight (has been a little while since the last time). Im very tired as well.....Im thinking of sleeping for a little while...ill allow u to do the same ;)xxx

I think high 90s is around 45 centigrade...HMMMM......but...correct me if Im wrong (which Im most likely to be) :rolleyes: :D

eesh its took much work translating temps lol...just know that in the 90's for the US of A is major hot !!!! :D and if it hits the 100's im looking for air conditioning ;) have fun if you go out caroline! i havent been out for a while, waking up hung over just kills the day.

Hi everybody, just a little point of refrence- 95 degrees Fahrenheit equals 35 degrees Celcius

Louisa

Thanks Louisa. :)

Yeah that sounds pretty hot! Ivy, we DO use celcius here, not F (won't try spelling that whole word!).

Oh Caroline, of course I predicted that. And I also predict you are going to wake up with a hangover on Satuday morning, or maybe even Saturday afternoon - with basically no memory of the previous evening. :D Am I right?

But the exam... no... I whole heartedly believed that you were going to enjoy every last second of that exam. Really, I did...

Hmmm... maybe we better get this post a little more on topic? Just don't want it to get closed that's all. :D

I'll talk to you all later. I have to go and feed and cover the horses before they get all cold and hungry. :D Big babies. :rolleyes:

See ya!
Ashlee