:( Tonight...I had a brilliant night- went out for a meal with my dad and my friend came to meet me... I should be smiling and unbelievably happy..but Im so the opposite. One minute..im eating with ease...the next...im dying to get to uni so I can not eat and lose weight. One minute im happy and on top of the world...the next Im wanting to sob my heart out (like now). Im so confused....seeems I cant be left alone without getting upset. At the moment it is like ..if I dont have n e one around me..i break down into tears and become depressed. I know Im in the 'normal weight'..whatever boundary.....but im fat..i can see my stomach bulging over my jeans when I sit down. I should be able to get over this cr**...but I cant. I dunno what Im struggling against right now, i really dont..that's why Im so upset and 'up' and 'down' most of the time. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HH!!! Im sick of this..im going to bed.:(x

Oh sweetheart, I know EXACTLY how you feel! I am totally in the same shoes as you! I feel like I'm bi-polar sometimes! I hate that I can see my stomach hang a little over my jeans. I can eat one meal and feel totally fine about it and then the next meal is hell. I feel so bad for my husband because he sees the monester inside of me all the time. I don't quite know how to overcome it, but I just wanted you to know that I know how you feel! You aren't alone babe...

Love, Jen

PS- Let's just keep fighting!

The solution is more than simple. Food therapist, i dont know how you call them in the USA. First session, they put you on a machine and find out have much percent of your body weight is made up of fat, muscle and water.
Then they give you a guideline of what to eat, and you can basically eat throughout the day up to 5 times and lose weight.
This suggestion may bring another problem alive, that is if you are used to carrying an empty stomach all day long.
The worst thing you can do is eat a small meal each day only. That will only increase your appetite and may become manic.
Anyway thats my expirience, by your method of eating once per day and not going to a specialist that give you food guidelines you might be able to lose weight, as i did years ago but its a horrible pain i think! :)
Wish you two luck with your dieting.

they have dieticians u can see over here int he us as well as a regular therapist who can help... i am not totally sure though because i dont see any of them...

Hiya Caroline.

Sorry I have not yet replied. I've been so busy and I'm staying with a friend at the moment so I don't really get any 'alone time' to come here. But I AM thinking of you!

I hope that anything that was bothering you that night has now been resolved. :) I care about you and we all want to help you so we're here for you okay?

I promise when I go home I will have more time to come here again and write.

Until then,
Take care of yourself, missy! :nono:

Ashlee

hey!!
Sorry for not replying earlier- thanks soo much for all of your posts. Im still a bit up and down right now..dont know whether Im coming or going sometimes!!
Greenstumpie- Im in Brussels, Belgium and have never found any places of use! Nevermind....it's funny..coz..in September Im going to be doing Psychology and Dancfe at uni..and...you have to have 15 sessions of counselling :)...GREAAAAAAt! I suppose it wont do any harm tho.

XXX