Hi everyone,

This is my first time being here. My name is Liana Rose and I am 23 years old. I have been bulimic for six years and I have been trying to recover for about seven months. I have been going to a concelor for about five months and I have wonderful support from my family and a couple of my friends that know. This has been the biggest roller coaster of my life.
I have started when I was 17. If there is anyone out there who is trying...please don't. You have no idea of the emotional stress you are getting yourself into. I am 5'2' and weigh 93lbs. That is how much I weigh the last time I got on the scale. That was tuesday June 15th. I may weigh a little bit more concidering my mom has been helping me a whole lot while I am visting here in Rome, NY. (I live in Cincinnati, OH) But I still throw up everyday. But the worst part is that I feel like I am the only one that has this but I know I am not. I don't know what else to do. When I come home, I am going to look up support groups. I hate thinking like this.
Last night I eat so much because I didn't want to be rude. But when I got home, I was having the hardest time staying positive and keeping the food down. I wanted to throw it up so bad. I started crying and arguing with myself and evenually my mind won over my heart and I threw all of it up.

Does anybody else know what I can do to get ever over this...it is so hard and I can't take bulimia controlling my life anymore. I want to be happy again. I want me back. I miss her.

lonely eyes,
Liana Rose :angel:
:wave: :bouncing: <- smile..these make me happy too

Liana,
Hello and welcome to the boards. I am here to tell you that you can get through this. I know it seems almost impossible, but I am proof that you can recover and live a normal life.

It sounds like you are taking the right steps, recovery is not easy, but it is possible. One of the best things for me was my therapist. I had to really get at the root of why my self image was so perverted in my head.

I also would suggest getting rid of your scale and all the magazines you have that have pictures of "perfect" women in them. I know it sounds kind of dumb, but it does not take much to trigger yourself.

I also want to encourage you that you will have good days and bad days on the road to recovery. Some times it will seem like the bad out weigh the good, but if you hang in there you will see the good begin to surpass the bad.

You can have your life back and it will be better than it was before!

Hang in there.

Hi everyone,

This is my first time being here. My name is Liana Rose and I am 23 years old. I have been bulimic for six years and I have been trying to recover for about seven months. I have been going to a concelor for about five months and I have wonderful support from my family and a couple of my friends that know. This has been the biggest roller coaster of my life.
I have started when I was 17. If there is anyone out there who is trying...please don't. You have no idea of the emotional stress you are getting yourself into. I am 5'2' and weigh 93lbs. That is how much I weigh the last time I got on the scale. That was tuesday June 15th. I may weigh a little bit more concidering my mom has been helping me a whole lot while I am visting here in Rome, NY. (I live in Cincinnati, OH) But I still throw up everyday. But the worst part is that I feel like I am the only one that has this but I know I am not. I don't know what else to do. When I come home, I am going to look up support groups. I hate thinking like this.
Last night I eat so much because I didn't want to be rude. But when I got home, I was having the hardest time staying positive and keeping the food down. I wanted to throw it up so bad. I started crying and arguing with myself and evenually my mind won over my heart and I threw all of it up.

Does anybody else know what I can do to get ever over this...it is so hard and I can't take bulimia controlling my life anymore. I want to be happy again. I want me back. I miss her.

lonely eyes,
Liana Rose :angel:
:wave: :bouncing: <- smile..these make me happy too


Hi Liana Rose

I wish I knew how to help you because I have the COMPLETE opposite problem :-( there are many others on this Board who are very similar to you, and who can relate. Have you some of the other threads? If not, I hope you do so that you can see that you are not alone. And Dance4jc is very smart and understanding about this! And BTW, welcome bac Dance - I've missed you!!! How are you doing??

Hugs to you both!!
Char :wave:

OH my gosh!!! i'm from Cincinnati...well, i live close to it!!! i'm trying to recover from anorexia and bulimia. it's a hell of a fight. i've had it too since i was 17. i can tell you the name of a good woman who does support groups. i was in her support group, and it helped.

i've been in and out of hospitals basically since i was 18. it's so hard trying to fight this... i just wanted you to know that you aren't alone. :)

Her name is Anne Kearney Cooke. my name is kristi. i went to one of her groups a few years ago, and it was such a huge help. she's a really great person. Look her name up, and see if she still does groups.

and, keep going to therapy. i've been to many therapists and psychiatrists, due to the many hospital stays i've been in...one even told me i was a hopeless case(that's where i got my name hopelesslyfalling) but i'm still here, lol.

and when you eat, while you are eating, try to be around people. try to force yourself to be around people, that way it will make it more hard to go and throw up. that's what i have to do...because i know if i'm surrounded by a bunch of people, one of them is going to notice that i'm going to the bathroom, and they won't let me.

at least try to drink one glass of milk...i don't know if you do or not, but my bones are very thin for my age, i may even have osteopenia in my back. and, with your weight, as low as it is, you might start getting bone loss too. do you still have periods??? if not, that's a bad sign. or even if they are irregular, thats' a bad sign.

gosh...i could sit here and give you a whole list of advice, lol...but you've probably heard it all before...so, if there is anything specific that you want to know, please ask... and we'll try to help. oh yeah, i'm 22, i'll be 23 in september.

kristi