hi,

I hope everyone is doing okay and staying strong. Remember that angels are always watching by. I tell myself this everyday but I get into this mind phrases where I don't care that everyone is more important than me. I have to help everyone but me. That I am not important. I have always been like...just helping people. Like when I get the flu..I still go into work because I feel bad for calling in. The only way I will call in if I am so sick that I can't get up.

I want to get better..really bad but I get when my mind gets into a depress state and I go crazy and eat everything that I can. I can't stand this anymore. I want to be the happy Liana in high school, the happy go lucky girl that I miss so much. I don't like crying all the time. I put on a fake happy face at work or with my friends because they don't..wouldn't understand what I am going through. I am tired. :yawn: Very tired ..all the time. I always look like I am half a sleep when I get 8 hours of rest.

I am going to go read now. I am very sad but I don't want to eat anything..I wish my mom was here with me in Cincinnati...I feel so alone..and lonely even though I have my four cousins here with me. I just feel lost.

love..very sad
liana rose :angel:

Liana, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I'm there, and I know it's no fun. Lots of people with ed's are people-pleasers, and think of everyone else first. Or they're perfectionists, or both. I am both, I think.

I find that whenever I'm upset, I think of one of my favorite phrases. 'Be still and know that he is God.' It's in a song by Steven Curtis Chap-man (w/o the dash in-between, but it keeps beeping it out :rolleyes: ), and it's called 'Be Still.' You might want to get the cd, it's very inspirational, and I listen to it whenever I get down.

Please feel better soon, I'll be praying that at least emotionally you get better, if not physically too. They're both important. God Bless!

~Ana