last night under my knee those two muscle line things started to ache real bad i dont know if it was aches or pains but it was wicked uncomfortable if i stretched my leg straight out then while a hour went bye my whole leg went cold and tingley and it just dissapeared not completely but i still feel a ligth tightness there when i walk.and this was just after i had the whole calf muscle thing.i did take two asperins for the pain/aches before this.

Hey man...

Let me tell you, I'm glad I found this board. I've been ripping the hair outta my head for the past 4 weeks just wondering the ifs and ands of everything. I had protected sex with a coworker that I know sleeps around 4 weeks ago. We did a little oral to each other as well and I'm paranoid as all hell.

It all started when I went to the movies a few days after this happened with a buddy of mine. One of the commercials before the movie started was something about HIV...from that moment on, I freaked out. I was like, ohh no, what did I do...I went on all the websites trying to diagnose myself when I wasn't even feeling anything. The moment after I read the site, I started feeling sick the next minute and thats the way I've been for 4 weeks. I havn't slept good in that time, I have aches and pains all over....(hopfully from stress) havn't eaten a decent meal in 3 weeks, and the list goes on and on. I've been to my doc more times in these weeks then I think I've ever been there in 10 years. He probably thinks I'm nuts. I got bit by a musquito and it got infected a few days ago...I thought I had something. I cried myself to sleep making me feel worse in the morning. I went to the doc again and she said you got a boil and it has nothing to do with what you think. I thought I had pains in my groin, neck, and armpits like you read all over...but they come and go...only when I'm thinking about it. I thought my tongue had that oral thrush or whatever you call it but fact is I probably burned it drinking hot soup at lunch the other day. I'm freaking myself out. A few people at another baord recommended a book to me...its called "I can do it" by Louise Hay. Its a small book about positive thinking and it works! Pick it up and give it a try.

Rest assured your probably ok just like me and we are stressing ourselves out beyond belief. My friends think I'm nuts to...havn't seen them in a few weeks because of my depression and all. I think every little thing happening to me is a sign when its probably not. Hang in there buddy...I'm here to talk with ya...makes me feel better getting this stuff off my chest...

Jon

me too like i wa sleeping all day tho ya know i can sleep at night but in the beggining i was tired and yeah i get aches that come and go its weird i was lightheaded couldnt eat and i ahve never been like this before and as for me seeing the syptoms first to be honest i dont remember i did run in my room and read about them online the day after i think for some reason.

Im just scared everyone tells me im fine becuase like i said it was protective oral but this girl was a callgirl i just turned 21 last saturday and my bday was ruined all tho my whole symptom thing has calmed down its still messing with me slightly my mind from what they say anyway.

like tonight i woke up at 3:00pm cuz i was up all night working till 8:00am i ate at about 6:00pm i had two slices of crappy pizza then i had a hotdog and beans at 9:00pm i am just scared i dont want this man is there any way we can get over this i feel for ya man this girl says she is tested every three months and is clean i had a std test dont via schwab all negative and now my doc thinks its a thyroid problem im on anxiety pills and she gave me a hiv test to ease my mind and im awaiting the results i thought this girl might have cut me through condom but wasnt sure my doc didnt see anything and they say im fine im just scared u know.

i will never have sex again its not worth the worry any more.

to much crap going around these days to want to.

Hey again...

Well, for me to say I'll never have sex again is probably going a little too far...I will say that I won't be this stupid again in the future and have my real head doing the thinking instead of the other head...(Seinfeld joke :) ) This is of course if I'm healthy which I'm praying that I am. We all make stupid mistakes and I hope I get the chance to prove that I learned from my mistake.

You on the other hand have nothing to really worry about. You got oral with a condom on. There is basically no chance of transmission that way. Even oral without a condom with you being the reciever is very low risk from what I'm told. I used a comdom when we had sex but I also recieved and gave oral without protection which is my worry. I'm a real worry wort with everything. I get anxious when there is no reason sometimes so you can imagine how I feel with this. I have another 2 weeks to go before I get my 6 week ELISA test. 4 weeks of torture so far...I don't wish this upon my worst enemy. I'm eating again which is good and my body does feel better considering how I felt last week after no food for 3 weeks....pretty stupid but I couldn't eat with all the stress. I'm continuing to stress myself out however...to the point where my arms feel all heavy and weak and my legs seem to bukle. I need to sit down at that point and tell myself to chill out. Sleeping is still a problem some nights for me. Last night I had a tosing and turning night where I couldn't get comfortable and woke up every hour. I gotta stop my mid-day depression naps so I can sleep right at night.

Hang in there man...how long has it been for you since this encounter? Believe me, you should have no worries!

Jon

it was last monday i think it was june 14th a week before my bday and my bday was ruined i have calmed down a bit and feel better to just sometimes i start to think about it and i hate it cuz it scares me my doc gave me clonazapam and assured me im clean and made me take 2 blood tests for a thyroid chemical inblanace and then a hiv test to get my mind off it.

what scared me was is that she came down on the condom hard what if she cut me through it i didnt see any breaks in the condom and i know that if a condom breaks it must snap and tere preety tuff plus i was wondering if she used latex it was pink and felt like latex.

4 days after i thought i felt pain down below like there was a cut there but my doc looked and there was nothing im doing much better than i was before that whole week i was sleeping all day couldnt eat lightheaded etc soar calf and arm muscles but i did help my dads friend move so that explains that ya know.

but then the other day i was sitting in my chair with my legs crossed indian style and then got a sharp pain next to my knee on the right side of my left knee and then i couldnt stretch it out in bed cuz it hurt then my whole leg went numb and cold then the pain sorta dissapaired then now there a little lump u cant see and u gotta press to feel and it stings when u rub it on the side of my knee in the skin not bone right on the edge where when u close ur leg there a little crack gap right there could that be a pulled msucle or something its the only thing that hurts and yesterday while in my chair i pulled my back muscle but that pains gone.

i took my clonezapam at work last night its a muscle relaxer and it felt great.

it seems at night i can convince myself im fine and relax but when i wake up all hell breaks loose.

would u worry if u had oral from a sex worker with a condom ?

what scares me is is that was what happened to me worry or was it something else i hate the thought i dont feel myself anymore.

and alot of people on here are not a big help but they try to be.But i havent found one person i dont think with symptoms close to mine.

if i see someone who had the exact same syptoms got tested at a good time and was clean i might calm down knowing that this proves that anxiety can do this becuase i dont know who to believe anymore.

I don't think I caught how old you were...btw I'm 25...

Anyway, I guess I might have a little fear if it involved a sex worker but a condom with oral? I'de say you're in the clear almost 100% Did your penis bleed or have any cuts afterwards? I mean, if thatwas the case, I'd say yeah but if not, no worry at all.

The mind is a powerful tool my man. Check out the stress and anxiety forum and take a look at all the symptoms those people face. I know I have a slight anxiety/stress problem that appears and goes away from time to time...
(I especially have it now!) You'll will find a lot of your symptoms there...maybe not word for word but very very close. Mine are but a part of my mind keeps telling me I have HIV when I have no real proof other then the supposed symptoms.

Ohh, and btw, I always wake up feeling worse then ever and gradually get better as the day goes on....these are classic anxiety symptoms...Do you wake up early often for no reason?

Jon

would u worry if u had oral from a sex worker with a condom ?

Honestly? NO! UNPROTECTED oral carries a theoretical risk.why would you even worry about protected oral??


and alot of people on here are not a big help but they try to be.But i havent found one person i dont think with symptoms close to mine.


Thats because your symptoms have nothing to do with HIV infection and no one even bothers listing things like this becuase they are in no way related.Seriously man,I really wish I was in your shoes.You have nothing to worry about. :)

like i go too bad early sorat wake up late and get better at night but guess what went to hospital about the leg thing.

they had my hiv results and my thyroid results both negative all tho it was early for the test the doc said i was fine and the only way that i could have caught it is if she bit a chunk enough for me to seriously bleed not even a scratch could do it and he said all these symptoms are anxiety and im sticking with that. he said just move on your fien and u dont have hiv and you know what that hiv test as a negative was enough for me man as for you id say the same thing just forget it and move on man no since in worrying and i just turned 21 on the 19th.Although i am a little tired now just cuz i worked from 11:30pm to 7:30am and slept from 9:00am to about 3:00pm but i feel great and im not worrying no more.

im just gonna move on and forget it i suggest u do the same.Quit posting and cruising the net for symptoms man its not worth the worrys.Its like whenever i hear the word hiv i freak out.

if i doc told me i had nothing to worry about then i dont and thats it just forget it all man or it will kill you.Go out have sex just be safe and wear a condom and after say to yourself **** yeah that was good brag to your friends about it.

people have sex everyday millions this second and most arent married and are having one night stands as we speak without condoms etc.Do you think they all worry this much no they say **** it wake up the next day and find another broad to play with.

Forget it all man just end it i am. :)

wow, your tone has changed from a few hours ago! Glad you are feeling better! Like we all said, you had nothing to worry about.

well i keep telling myself im retarded lol cuz now i feel a little panicky ahh damn it im fine lol