Hi Everyone...Bare with me, a little long...

First off, like many of the other posts on here, I'm scared out of my mind. I've just felt really weird the past 3 weeks and I can't describe it...well, I can...symptoms wise..

Anyway, I had an encounter about a month ago this week that involved myself and a coworker. She has a histroy of sleeping around and what not...(i know, i know) Well, we both did a little oral to each other and then had protected sex. Afterwards, thoughts began racing through my head, what the hell did you just do.

Well, the rest of the week went by until that Friday night when I saw an ad in the movies for protecting yourself against HIV and I felt my stomach go into a knot. When I got home that night, I began hitting all the classic internet sites searching for HIV symptoms. I kid you not after that the moment I first looked at the symptoms...(aching muscles and joints, neck, armpit and groin pain, flu like symptoms, rashes, stc...) they all began to manifest. My neck started to hurt first....I then stopped eating for the following 3 weeks...had the worst birthday party of my life with this on my mind. I entered into deep depression. I started feeling worse...my back hurt every morning I got up, I thought every little mark on my body was a rash of some sort, I felt slight pains in my armpits and groin and my muscles all ached. My stomach was all screwed up and I had dieareaha I'm hoping to god all this was from not eating, sleeping, and tremendous stress, anxiety, and depression because as soon as I started calming myself down a bit, the symptoms went away gradually. I've been through stressful situation before...work, relationship breakups, etc...but nothing like this.

Well, I also went to the doctor a few times...embarrassing as all hell explaining my encounter and symptoms. He did blood workup for every std except of course HIV which he told me to get a test 6 weeks afterwards. (4 weeks down...2 to go) All my other tests came back negitive which was good but I'm so damn worried right now. I can't concentrate on anything, my appetite isn't fully back, and my sleep is still messed up at night.

I guess I'm just looking for support guys. Your experiences and what not and if you've been through this and all. I read a lot of the posts here and they all sound so familar. I basically convinced myself last week that I had this disease and had to live with it. I cried, my eyes out for about 14 straight days...(yeah, yeah, I'm a guy and I cried...go ahead...laugh)

This forum is great, I'm glad I found it and know others are going through the same feelings and horrors as me.

Jon

your risk was pretty low. Unprotected oral sex is pretty low risk for contracting hiv. Using a condom for sex was smart. Most of your symptoms are most likely stress related. I went through about 6 months were I was convinced I was hiv+ regardless of my test results. I had all sorts of physical symptoms created by this stress. Once I was able to actually believe my hiv- status my physical symptoms disappeared. Getting tested will probably ease your mind some. Have you asked your co-worker if she has been tested?

I agree with the first poster. Your risk is VERY low. I think your symptoms are stress related. Your mind is a very powerful thing and can talk your body into thinking it has just about any possible disease known to man!

I would do what the doctor told you and have the HIV test done at 6 weeks. It's good that the rest of the STD tests came back negative. I think you're alright. Just hang in there and try to keep yourself from freaking out.

as you all know and are sick of me posting and saying i have no risk and all but there is that what if

i had oral sex from a sex worker with a condom on

(She came down hard on the condom once or twice)

did the condom break

(not to my knowledge she put the condom on me as well)

after i layed next to her about ten minutes talked took the condom off walked her to her car talked to my friend then showered.

did i notice any cuts
(no but 3 days later after experiencing all kinds of stuff i think are symptoms i felt kinda soar on my head of my penis and there was a little purplr on the edge i dont know if it was a cut didnt hurt when i touched it but the pain dissapeared wehn i fell asleep two hours later)

I have had symptoms of

Being tired after i slept all night not wanting to get out of bed

muscle aches i explain my arms cuz had helped my dads friend move 4 days after and that night recieved achy arms.I cryed myself to sleep in my car at work and woke up shaking like i had the flu but it all dissapeared in like a hour it was weird.Could that be from the stress and being scared ?

i have had a tight leg muscle for about a week now not as bad as it was in the beggining it just feels a little tight.

I couldnt really eat like i usually do for a week cuz i just never felt as hungry and if i did eat it wasnt as much as i usually do.

I have been to docs left and right they all say it was no risk i have had hiv test and std test and thyroid test etc all negative.

i went to the er 4 times once cuz my genitals went numb after drinking and i got scared thought it was hiv and went for the std test

recently while sitting in my chair in front of my computer i had crossed me legs indian style and got a sharp pain on the edge of my left knee not on the bone but on the skin i layed down my whole leg went cold and numb and then wen i tryed to put my leg out it hurt.

2 days later i noticed on the edge of under my knee like when u fold ur knee where the crack starts if i put pressure there with finger it hurts.

went to hospital for that doc told me i just probably pulled something and it wasnt hiv after i told him a quarter of my story he rushed me out.

i dont know what to think any more this girl was a escort and stuff so ya it scared me.

the other day yesterday my tip of my penis ached for a second again theres no marks there i dont know if its in my mind or what.

my regular doc which i just got gave me anxiey pills kolonopins and prozac

haven touched the prozac did the colonapins when i was ached and they calmed me down i only took 3 so far and have had them for a few days since last wedensday

it all started i was with her on monday the 14th of june and started to feel sick 2 days later

i started getting the idea i could catch hiv and getting scared the day after when i told my cousin and he was like ur gonna get hiv then i started looking up symptoms

what do all of you think about this

i have had sweat palms really sweaty at times

whats funny is these things come then go hours or a day later

i have never been diagnosed with anxiety or any mental disorders have had asex without condoms before and never worried i havent had sex tho like in 3 years and last time was with a girl i just met unprotected twice and my recent hiv test was negative so she didnt give me anything is this stress should i just forget about it and move on do i require further testing please help thanks guys

i asked the escort if she got tested cuz i havent been feeling right lately she said she gets tested every three months and that i was scaring her.and that i had nothing to worry about cuz she should be the oone cuz she can get it easier than a guy.

should i believe her

what if she has it and cant afford meds or has a kid to feed so she does this for the money thinking the guys are safe.

she said shes a dental hygenist to me when we met yeah right i thought why is she a escort driving a crappy car then ?



what if shes lying and does have it

Dude...what happened?? I thought you were feeling better last night? I shouldn't be one to talk because I'm paranoid as all hell but you bring a whole new meaning to the word. You DON'T have anything!! It is practically impossible for you to have anything! Everything you are feeling is your mind playing tricks. Everyone here as told you that. I don't want to discount your fear because I know what its like but just try to take it easy. You're fine!

Jon

HappyFillmore,

You don't have HIV. End of story.

However, if you've recently tested negative after several unprotected experiences in the past, I've got to ask: why didn't you use protection?!? If you have only just met someone, and do not know their sexual history, you are putting yourself at unecessary risk.

I just thought I should say something about that, as it sounds like this might be an alarmingly normal (or regular) thing for you, from your comments.

how do you know i dont have anything granted i was tested negative but that was only after a week of the encounter shure it clears my mind of my other sexual experiences without condoms but i just cant stop thinking like why am i getting frustrated easy why when im out side i feel myself get cold for no reason even tho its like 90 degrees out i feel like cold down my back is that me being nervouse i dont know but it feels like when ever i bump into anything i get achy for a sec is that normal i dont know becuase i have never paid much attention to that stuff before.

i have calmed down alot but still not fully i havent had a panic attack like u know my heart beating fast at all if thats what they call it u know whats weird

i have had 15 unprotected blow jobs

had unprotected sex 5 times 2 times with girls i didnt know

but why am i freaking about this huh why?

last time i had sex unprotected and oral was like 3 years back so i know this test was negative for all of them its just why do i feel this way
after this encounter.

how long does it take for a bruise to dissapear cuz i had this one since june 19th and its still there and i just bumped my arm of a window was all man what is going on.

Oh boy, you've got yourself quite of a record over there buddy.

funny thing is that none of the symptoms you mentioned are reported as an early sign of infection. :rolleyes:

My thread has been hijacked....HELP!!!

:rolleyes: lol...its all good...

My thread has been hijacked....HELP!!!

:rolleyes: lol...its all good...

I am sorry! :wave:

it's just happyfillmore's posts got my attention. :D

no...no need to be sorry at all...just a joke!

avron have u actually read all of my symptoms in other posts

being tired even thou sleeping all night had muscle ache couldnt eat bruise easaly sweating well my palms any way alot lol.

no swallon glands to my knowledge had stomach aches light headed first few days as well as being exhausted not as bad now but am getting kinda sleepy in the day woke up one night shaking like i had the flu but i didnt feel likei had the flu i was asleep in my car and i was crying before it happened i got out to piss and i was shaking like whole body but when i got back in car and put heat on i did feel better

its like whenever i bump into something i ache like a basterd there afterward like example

today my car door closed onto mu breast area muscle and now when i touch it it aches like a basterd

people say the whole not being able to eat muscle ache sleepiness was anxiety becuase i was scared and say i had no risk exposure

but like i said i had a condom on oral she came down hard on condom once or twice didnt notice condom break took it off threw away she was a escort she provided condom put it on didnt notice any cuts but three days after i felt pain down there that mysteriously vanished a hour later had a little purple on bottom of head but doc said it wasnt nothing.

i went to bed at 4:30am last night slept till about 12:30 why am i tired now not as bad as i was before last week but still a litlle exhausted.

then also yesterday i felt pain down there but then went away it was weird

i have been tested for other std's as well all negative

was wither her monday june 14th and then had symptoms of being sick sleeping all day after 2 days it all started with my hands shaking vigoursly and i couldnt hold my ciggerete straight and i was nervouse and scared then all this crap happened after couldnt eat sleeping all day etc.

no swallon lymph nodes soar throats to my knowledge or fever or night sweats i sweat a little but it was hot and i had a blanket on

had calf muscle ache arms ache back for a day and i had weird ache between nose and eye while driving i was light headed for 4 days and tired and sleeping never wanted to get out of bed and docs tell me im fine it was anxiety/fear i scared myself they said.

can fear actually cause all of that.

and some times random muscle twitches too.

and i felt like u pulled my back yesterday and it hurts when i lay on it or lean against it.