Hi .....to all my friends.

Things have really been tough lately so let me apologize now for not posting sooner. Last we spoke I was scheduled for an anterior/poterior lumbar fusion to l4/l5 on july 1, 2003. The doctors (towards the end of june) in all there wisdom decided to reschedule to August 12, 2003. I found out that one of the Doc's decided to go on vacation. But in God in all of knowledge had something else planned. on june 28 I lost my sister to cancer and her memorial was held on the 5th of july. As much pain as I have Been in I give thanks that he knew and I was able to spend quality time with her before she died and precsious moments with her as she slipped away. She was and will always remain my closest friend and sister.

I have been very sad but am know clear headed and awaiting my surgery. That was how she wanted it and it is how it should be. I have a very special angel who is know watching over.

I have been reading the post and will try to catch up soon.

I see alot of new names out there welcome you've come to the right place. We can't fix it but it sure feels good to talk.


thanks again

Anne

Hi Ann. We haven't chatted, but I wanted to express my sincere sorrow for your loss. I lost my brother to a massive heart attack (age 46) several years ago. It's very hard to get through, but you will. I'm glad your surgery was postponed so you could have that time with your sister. I pray your surgery is a HUGE success, and welcome back. ~Daubie

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Car Accident 2/2/02
Herniated disc L5/S1
Epidurals x3, PT 4 mos, some relief
Microdiscectomy 6/6/03

Hello Anne,So sorry to hear all that you have been going through, I too was schedualed for surgery for my herniated disc, my Grandmother passed away before I was to have it. I had to rescheduale and now I am to have it Sept. 10.. I know how you feel and what you are going through, my prayers are with you......

Amy

Anne, I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a sibling is hard. My older daughter died 2 years ago. It was and is hard for me, but in watching my younger daughter grieve, I have realized how little is written about coping with the death of a sibling. I found something that I passed on to my daughter that I thought expressed it well. I don't remember all of it, but something about how your parents are your past, your spouse is your present, your children are your future, but your siblings are your past, present, and future. If I can find it, I'll post the website.

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers in your loss, and as you go toward this new challenge, your surgery.

StillWater

Dear Anne....

I am So sorry for your loss. I have 3 sisters and had one brother. He passed when I was 14, he was 18. I, too, Know that the good Lord knew what was best....but, it did little to calm my grieving when I was so young. Now, I understand that it was His will and it was Christopher's time.

It never ceases to amaze me that He knows just what to do....when to do it. It is good that you recognize this delay in surgery for what it was....God placing an angel to watch over you at his side.

God Bless you in your time of sorrow. May He give you strength and courage to see you through a successful surgery and speedy, uneventful recovery! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/angel.gif

Karen

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9/22/00 24 hour labor, baby posterior, left tailbone killing me
12/00 MRI -normal-but pain still-began taking vicodin
2/8/02 - 2nd baby born - Csection-healthy girl
2000-11/02 various PT + pain meds
11/02 Referred to Neuro
3/03 NEW MRI - slight bulge L3-L4, DDD, neural foramen,Superior aspect S1 and L5 Nerve root involvement-Neuro Refers to PM for ESI's
(2 Rt Transforaminal,1 lumbosacral,3rd one numbed tailbone little
5/9 - Discogram - shows Tear L4 w/ significant leak onto nerves, DDD
Performing doc oversedated, False Negative
7/8- Dept Head ClCl consult
7/28 - ClevelClinic for Facet Injection, changed to Caudal Epidural after seeing xray of displaced coccyx;also,coccygeal manipulation
8/12 - sched for 2nd Caudal & manipulation

Anne,

I am so sorry for your loss. As you said - she was - and ALWAYS will be your your closest friend- so it seems you will always keep her alive in your heart and mind. I lost my brother- my closest friend - many years ago at the age of 23. There will come a day when you can think of her and the tears in your eyes will be less sadness - but rather happy memories you were lucky to share. We are lucky to have been part of their lives-at least we had them for a little while. My daughter is grown now- but she was 4 yrs old when her uncle Byron passed away- and she totally surprised me when she told me a few yrs ago that when she was growing up & had a bad dream or was scared at night, or just needed some "divine help" - she would ask for her "special angel - Uncle By" & felt such comfort. That brought a smile - and a tear of shared love to my eyes.

Wishing you much success on your surgery and recovery, and the comfort in knowing your special angel will be there with you. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/angel.gif

Laura

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Mar 2003:Micro-Discectomy w/Hemilaminectomy L5-S1
Prior to that 4 mos of Sciatic pain; left side
Herniated Disc L5/S1
Bulging Disc L4/L5

Dear Anne,
Im sorry for your lose I know its hard and just to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you and good luck on your surgery.
Kathy

Thank you everyone for your stories and well wishes. It warms my heart that we all have a place to chat, vent, boost spirts and so on.

I was out of the loop again for a couple of days because of another trip to the E.R. on sunday night. My back locked up and I couldn't walk. And in so much pain that I would have been happy if they would have just shot me (LOL).

Well they got it back under control (if there is such a thing) but they had to put me on some pretty serious meds.So i'm back to my daily routine(bed..bathroom..bed).

I am trying to get all my final arrangments in place. got my medical clearance, chest x-rays, blood work up,and ekg. Monday I'll have my final fitting for my LSO brace and my pre-op meeting with my ortho. And then Tuesday morning at 8:30am they roll mr into the op-room.

I've been so worried this was not going to happen because here in florida they have been fighting over malpratice insurance and the surgeons have been threating to strike. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they will hold off till they get me done.


Again thanks everyone and i'll keep you posted.
You have all been so great and your words and prays have been precious to me.

you will all remain in my prays and hopes that you to may find some relief from what we all suffer from.

Anne

Anne,I want to say how sorry I am for all you have been through,and another trip to the ER I know how awful that can be,I'm happy to see that you have your surgery rescheduled and are moving along and soon you will be on the road to recovery,I know that with all that has gone on and is it's hard to keep a good attitude but please try as it will help in your recovery and know that you have a lot of people here pulling for you!!!Please keep as posted to your recovery and let us know how you are and I will keep you in my thoughts!
Linda