Hi

I'm Missy19. The truth is, I need some help.I know that I have a disorder of some kind, but I don't know what it is .It could be:

-Attention Deficet Disorder
-Dissociatve Identity Disorder
-Schizophrenia

I'm not sure, but I hate living my life this way and need some help.

I also have been suffering from bulimia for almost five years now. But I know that there's something else wrong and I want to find out what it is. The whole bulimia thing has been going not to bad. I'm learning to just eat little portions at a time so that I don't feel too full, but sometimes its hard.

Anyway, could someone get back to me about the other possible disorder that I may have. I would really appreciate that.

Thanks

Missy you have not listed any symptoms. Why do you think you have one of these problems?

Well, i've read up on the web about these disorders and I have some of them.Like for ADD, I have trouble concentrating,I can never seem to finish anything,when I read I switch the letters around and don't realize it until the sentence doesn't make sense, I figet. Those are just some of them. For Dissociative, I sometimes feel like I don't know who I am, I have frequent mood swings, I look in the mirror and don't recognize myself,a lot of times my handwriting is completely different, I don't always feel like the same person. As for Schizophrenia, I see and hear things,usually see things though, I can get angry realy fast.

These are some of my symptoms. I guess I should have known to put symptoms on my first post but I forget a lot. Sorry about that. I guess I can't expect help if I haven't given you any info as to why I think these things.

Missy19

You really need to be seen by a doctor, this is a complex area and only a trained MD can tell you what is going on. It may take several visits, some of the symptoms can be caused by many things i.e. drugs or hormone imbalance ect.. If you don't have insurance try looking in the phone book for a mental health comunity, or free clinic. Do you ever have thoughts of hurting yourself or others? If you have call your local ER or suicide hotline, they will better know what is available in your area. You really need to be seen. Good luck.

Thanks, but I'm just afraid that I will go for help and they will tell me theres nothing wrong with me when I know there is. But I hate feeling this way day after day.

Hello Missy19!

I do agree with 'fl cat'! Ask your Dr. to do more blood and urine testing on all areas of your being. I've been telling my Dr. that something is wrong with me. Every test that I've asked for has come back in the so called "normal zone". My wife of 24 yrs. knows that I'm not making up any of the symptoms over the past three years. I went in to see my Dr. one time and asked him if I could be hypo-glycemic. He did a blood-sugar test then and there. The other Dr. in the clinic came in to see me too. My blood-sugar was at 34. The norm is 70-100. The other Dr. said that I was supposed to be in the hospital or the morgue.

I also have been dxed with hypo-thyroidism which leans toward the irritableness, unexpected anger and depression. I've been on Prozac for that. It has helped a little!? Also levothroid.

Hypo-thyroid normally makes you fat. Hypo-glycemia uses up any energy you have. For quite a few years I weighed in at 120lbs. My ideal weight should be 150. There have been too many times when I would eat, only to toss it up later.

I used to have a husband/ wife team of Drs.. He was a Psych. Dr and she was Internal-medicine. They believed in the whole body and mind concept. Too bad they retired.

Our body and mind have automatic alarms installed that tell us there is som-sing wrong with us. If we ignore it then we might as well buy a '4x6' plot ahead of time. I never needed to see a Dr until 3 yrs. ago (out of 45 yrs.) The Drs. have dxed me with multiple problems, yet my GP says I'm healthy.

About all I can say is to get the blood-work done so you and your Dr. can see if your hormones are imbalanced. Even giving a lot of blood and urine would be better than , not knowing the truth. Search the web for lists of symptoms of possible problems you feel you have.

Here on Health Boards, we understand how you feel when they say "There's nothing wrong with you! It's all in your head!" ;) O.K., I'm crazy! So is my shadow, so don't step on it!

Good luck, hope to hear from you soon!
Ed

Thanks etIII

I guess it wouldn't hurt to get checked out, after all, if they say I'm fine, it's not going to kill me. I can just go to someone else. Thank you for being so supportive. I wish my fiance was as supportive as you. He doesn't believe that there's anything wrong with me, even though he sees the signs. I just want to start feeling better and have a happier life. All of this going on makes me so depressed. I'm going to make an oppointment as soon as possible. I hope that the doctor can find what's wrong with me so I can get help for it and start living a normal life.

Thanks again

I'm scared to go for help. I'm scared their going to say that I'm making everything up in my head.Plus, if they decide that there is something wrong with me,they might want me to stay in the hospital and I can't do that. I have three young kids to look after and theres no one else who can take care of them. I need to be at home with them. But I do also want to get help because the way I feel is really affecting me. What should I do?

Hello Missy19!

Sorry I didn't get back to you right away. My wife was admitted to the hosp. for irregular heart beat and high blood pressure. I was a nervous wreck for the past few days. She's feeling better now and it's under control. It's very difficult to keep her away from salt tho'. She also does a lot of cooking with soy-sauce. I've been on her so many times to go to a Dr. since she's always moaning and groaning about not feeling well. So the ambulance finally got her to go. She definetly is scared to death of Drs. and Dentists. You should not be afraid to go and tell them how you feel. It's very important for you and also very important for your kids!

I don't think you said whether or not you have insurance or medicaide. There should still be assistance through some sort of Mental Health facility near you. And nobody should even think that you're crazy for going there either. The Mental Health Dept. here even has a program where they come to your home to help and assist you. Many of their programs are Federally funded. So please check it out. They can't help you unless you ask! If you feel there's something wrong with you then find a Dr. who will listen and help you.

I have faith that you'll be able to get thru this. We're all counting on you.:)

Good-luck!
Ed

Thanks etIII

Hope your wife keeps doing well.That must've been quite a scary moment for you. I'm glad she' s doing better.

Hi Again,
I just have a question that I'm not sure that you will be able to answer or not but here goes:

If a person has Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder, would the person with the disorder know if they have different personalities or not?

Hello Missy,

People with Disassociative Identity Disorder do not get along with people who have Multiple Identity Disorder. Because there would be too many Identities in the same place.
Disassociation means to seperate. If someone were to have both, then there would be WWIII. Or, there would be an exclusive party that no-one else would be invited to. Then...again, it depends on which identity has Disassociative behavior. LOL

Please forgive me for those garbled rantings! I think I've seen too many Psych. Drs.! Heaven forbid if I started analyzing myself, I just wouldn't be able to afford my fees.

Girl, please don't take yourself and the problems you're going thru too seriously. My wife makes sure I have my cell phone with me so she can remind me why I'm out there. I had to stop working with electricity because I forgot that it was still plugged in -while I was holding it. I almost 'bought the farm' too many times. My family won't let me drive any more.

I do hope that you're allowing your Fiance' to read what you're going through! It helps him understand what your feelings truely are. My wife and I have no secrets, After 24 years, we pretty much read each other's minds. A good marraige is not selfish. It's sharing and compassionate to other's feelings, trying to put other's feelings before our own. Right now, I realize that we're on this thread because we are each hurting inside and out. I'm trying to remember to look through other people's eyes and not just my own. Hoping every day will be a brighter one. Hopefully your future hubby will understand what's going on inside you. So he'll be able to help you enjoy each and every day. I have faith that you'll get through this rough time!:)

Sincerely,
Ed

Thanks etIII

Thanks for being so understanding. It's nice to have people that understand.I wish my fiance' would understand as well as you.

Missy19

Hi

I'm Missy19. The truth is, I need some help.I know that I have a disorder of some kind, but I don't know what it is .It could be:

-Attention Deficet Disorder
-Dissociatve Identity Disorder
-Schizophrenia
I'm not sure, but I hate living my life this way and need some help.

I also have been suffering from bulimia for almost five years now. But I know that there's something else wrong and I want to find out what it is. The whole bulimia thing has been going not to bad. I'm learning to just eat little portions at a time so that I don't feel too full, but sometimes its hard.

Anyway, could someone get back to me about the other possible disorder that I may have. I would really appreciate that.

Thanks

Have you been reading about these and think that you have them? That happens to a lot of people.

There is a big secret that no one talks about, everyone is crazy and if they tell you that they are not, then they really are nuts. There is no such thing as normal, only relative to the situation at hand. There are all these people who portray what life should be like throught the use of the media. It is great now that we have all of the reality shows because if you really watch them carefully, everyone has some sort of disorder. What is normal? Why be normal? Do you want to run with the big dogs? Swim around the big ocean in the same direction as everyone else? Fit in? Stand out? It is all possible. Who decided what is abnormal? I have seen a lot of head shrinkers and they are nuttier than we are. Do you look to anyone to be more sane than you are? Ask them what their quirks are. As you get older the big picture becomes much clearer. By the time you are my age, it is evident that no one is really sane. If they were, what a dull world it would be.

If you feel like you are more than one person, get a video camera, set it up, and film yourself. Do you find that you have lost track of time or periods of your life? Or, do you just space out? Could be what you are eating. There is a great book out there right now, This Food Is Driving Me Crazy. Seriously.

I'm scared to go for help. I'm scared their going to say that I'm making everything up in my head.Plus, if they decide that there is something wrong with me,they might want me to stay in the hospital and I can't do that. I have three young kids to look after and theres no one else who can take care of them. I need to be at home with them. But I do also want to get help because the way I feel is really affecting me. What should I do?


As long as you don't say that you are a threat to yourself or others, they won't keep you.

Thanks for the posting moonlight. It's nice to see a different perspective on things. Yes, I have read up on these disorders.I don't have all the symptoms that were named for each one, but I do have a few of them.All I know is, my mind is so cluttered all the time and it's affecting the way that I do things. Would you really know if you have split personalities? I know that I always don't feel like the same person but maybe it's just big mood swings.I really don't know what to think anymore. I would videotape myself, but I don't have a videocamera, and I can't offord to buy one neither. Money is extremely tight right now with three kids and bills.

Thank You Moonlight!

You put it in perspective very well! That's why I feel quite comfortable over at the Dept. of Mental Health. Because they're not trying to be someone that they're not. I've traveled around the world and I still haven't found anyone that's normal.

Missy, please get some tests done, it'll ease your mind. Don't be afraid! We're praying for ya!

Ed

Thanks everyone. You are all such a big help. And a great confidence booster too. I'm going to try to get checked out as soon as I can.

I just had a question. Well, I can't remember a lot of things from my past. Is there any way that I could do something so that I would remember? I mean, maybe there's an answer in my past as to why I am the way that I am.Is there any way that I could remember?

Hi Missy!

You might try Hypnosis. Since I've been on Prozac, all kinds of memories of my past have been popping into my mind. I can't remember things from five minutes ago, but my past has always been creeping up on me. My stepmother had always told me that she and my father would always take me to a Dr. after my visitation with my real mother. Blaming my real mother and her boyfriends for my bruises. After being on Prozac the only beatings that I remember were from my stepmother. Then she would convince my father that it happened when I was with my real mother. I'm just so thankful that I never reciprocated any of my past on my wife's 7 kids! Also, I never hit my wife. She had been thru that with her first two husbands too much.

When I spoke with my real mother recently, she confirmed that she also has had many surgeries on her back and Hypothyroidism along with colon surgery. I'm going to have that checked soon also. If you can, ask your family if they've had any of the problems that you're going thru! :wave:

Sincerely,
Ed

Thanks etIII