T-
I just wanted to let you that i also lost my little bean. I had no bleeding or even cramping, my 11 week three day u/s reported that the baby had died a week and a half before. I had a D&C the following day. I still haven't gone back to work...I'm trying desperately to deal with this. Right now, I'm not even sure that I want to try again. Now I know why S was so adament not to tell anyone about her pg after her m/c, because I don't know how I'll deal with everyone now. I wish I had listened to her advice.

Depressed
Doreen

DSK22 -- I am so sorry to hear about your m/c. You hae so much to offer a little one - I can't say that I've ever had a m/c, but I can only imagine how you feel. Know that my thoughts are with you!!! :angel:

Dorreen I am so sorry for your loss. I have been thinking about you. I hope that you take all the time you need ot heal. I know that your sticky bean is right around the corner.

Doreen, I'm so sorry to hear that I just got home from vacation today and I just came on and that is the worst news to hear. It's the worst feeling in the world and nobody else unless they have gone though with it knows. You take all the time in the world to recover it's a hard time, Right now you may not feeling like trying, I was the same way the first thing I told my DH was that were not going though this again and now I'm waiting to try again. It's very frustrating I'm still upset thinking about it, and than having to wait again to try and if it doesn't work i'll be so disappointed..... My vacation back home was great and it helped alot but the worst was when people were coming up to me and saying that maybe it's god's way and I'm sorry for you but you can try again. But it's so hard and they don't know what we go though to have one, most of them get pregnant first or second try naturally, so they don't understand. But keep your chin up and just think positive I know it's hard right now but you'll be ok and trust me we will become mothers before next yr. The way I had to think is that I can get pregnant, now it's just keeping it and going to term. Well if you need to talk I'll be here with you, just rest and be strong.

take care
Teseaya

Thank you ladies for your kind words and suess great beta #'s don't mean too much huh? I went thinking three to zero. Right now I just don't feel like doing any thing. Today is my first day back at work and I just feel like I'm in another world. Hopefully I'll feel better soon. Maybe If I had some cramping or blood...anything to show me that it's over ya know???

Talk to you guys soon....
D

Hey D,
How are you??? How are you feeling? I just want to let you know i'm still here if you need to talk!!!!

Take Care,
Hollie

T- You still around???

bump...bump

Hi D
I was just wondering how you're doing? I'm ok. I've been having some depressed days as well. I thought I was over this m/c.
How's your cycle going?
ok talk to u later.
S :)

Hey S-

I too, have been depressed lately. I actually have been SUPER emotional over stupid stuff... sort of like when first PG. Yesterday I cried over a stupid record at my job..I also used to be a part of a feb due date month on another board...where they can post photos and stuff...stupid me went over and looked.....ugh

Anyway, I got AF on 9/17 and my RE appoint. is 10/12 so I'm hoping that he'll let me do the IUI in Oct since I waited a full 2 months for AF. I hope he don't make me wait.

Where are you in your cycle? Your getting ready to do your IUI's right? Let's see if we can both get a sticky BFP this time. I don't think I can go through another m/c. Did you get to find out why you m/c? I don't think you did but I'm asking just in case... My RE says that my chances of m/c are not higher because the lil bean had 69 chromosomes...an extra strand...

Well, I guess i wrote a book today... Keep me posted I'm prayin' for us!!!

D

Hi D.
I'm so sorry that you feel depressed lately and I really can relate :( I don't know why I'm so emotional either. This is so weird but I also started posting at another board and put in my EDD. It was feb 5/05.....I haven't been back and won't go back until I'm very positive that I won't m/c again..so at 9 mos I guess.

I'm happy that you've gotten AF back! I'm also hoping/praying that you get to do your IUI in oct as well!!! Currently I'm in my 2 week wait without the IUI..have 8 more days to go. I'm not getting my hopes up of course since hubby's "boys" aren't great..but he did start taking Vit. that hopefully will help with morphology etc. If AF comes then I will be starting clomid again on days 3-7 and IUI.

No, I never did find out why I miscarried. I really wish my Dr. would have done tests...if and when i am pregnant again I will be changing Dr. I wanted to have an ultrasound done earlier that 16 weeks but she said i didn't need one. I wanted one earlier because I just felt that something was wrong.

Good luck on the 12th! I'll be thinking about you!
S :)

Hi there S-

I'm hoping and praying that you will not have to do an IUI because you'll have that BFP!! when are you due to test??? How are you feeling?

I just wanted to say that it takes 3 months for any changes (vitamin) to have an effect on DH's sperm...a little info that I have picked up from these boards.

Less than a week to go for my re appoint....PRAY I can do the IUI this month...one step closer to the BFP that I've been praying for...now i pray even more that it will be a sticky lil' bean!!!

have a good day!!

D

S-

Whats going on? I haven't heard about your 2WW....Keep me posted!

I go to my RE today. I'll post what he determines when I get back!!!

take care,
D

Hi D.

AF came to visit on sun. :(
I start clomid today....at least I can try and be positive that this month is the IUI. Dh tells me not to be so negative. I don't know how I'm going to be if the IUI doesn't work this month. I guess i shouldn't be since it did work once.

I saw the 2 relatives who are both pregnant at Thanksgiving here (Canada)and i handled it pretty well...even when they were talking about the baby room colors and cribs..etc. I still hurt inside but i managed not to leave the room and have a little cry.

I hope your Dr. lets you do the IUI this month! I'll be thinking about you today! Good luck!
S. :)

Hey S-

I can do the IUi this month!!!!! I'm expecting AF on friday (I hope) I will not be using clomid again, as I couldn't deal with the s/e. I'll be using folistim, ovidrel and progesterone.... YIPPEEEE also my chance of twins goes up from 5% to 25%!!!! That excites me as well!!!!!!

I hear you about oter pg women...but we do have to deal with it. DH is right we need to stay more positive about it. Well, here's to TTC this month!!!!!!

Good luck to you!!!!!!
D

Goodluck to everyone, hope we all get some BFP's soon! I had a miscarriage in mid August, and had no cramping either, had I not known I was pregnant (bloodtest confirmed) I would have just thought I had a late period. I said then, after only knowing I was pregnant for 2 days and miscarrying, that I couldn't imagine how hard it would be to be further along, I almost think as hard as it was, that it somehow was easier because I didn't have much time to get used to the fact that I was really pregnant yet...I agree it is difficult to see pregnant women, or hear about how easily and quickly friends and relatives have gotten pregnant. I have 2 friends who just had babies in the past week, and as happy as I am for them there's still a part of me deep inside that is mourning that it isn't me in their shoes. I know what you are going through. Baby dust to us all...goodluck.

Hi K-

I'm sorry for your loss as well :( :(. I don't think it easy for any of us....but yet we all handle it differently. I knew i was pg for 3 months so it was a bit of a shock, but i think if it had happened at day 2 it would have been just as devistating......

This site, and others like it...are the best form of support networks that i have ever known.

Good luck to you on your journey.....

D

D!!!

Whooo hoooo for you! I 'm soooooo happy for you! I hope everything works for us this month!
I hope AF comes to see you on fri and then things start to get going. It would be super if we both were pregnant by the end of this month or november!!
Again I'm excited for you! I'm sure it just made your day!
keep me posted!
S :)
HI K.
I'm sorry for your loss. No matter how far along we are in pregnancy it's absolutely awful to miscarry. How long have you been TTC? I also hope a BFP comes your way as well!

D- Congrats on doing IUI this month... i will keep praying for you!

Good luck to everyone!

Morning--

OK, I know it's only 10 am but AF isn't here yet :( She usually is first thing in the morning. Funny, I'm actually not upset about it though.
How's the clomid going? I couldn't take the s/e.... Keep me posted

D- I wrote you in another post...How are you doing? How's being pg? Keep me posted! You make me feel like a heel cause I don't check up on you but the PG boards are still a bit rough for me. I would love to hear about your PG though.... Keep me posted!

D

Hi D.
I hope AF shows up soon. I've never really had any side effects being on clomid..only cramps...odd headache and a few hot flashes..oh and just a teensy bit on the crabby side!
keep me updated as well!
S :)

oh i didn't see the other post i just come back to check on everyone.. i know it's hard .... went through some simliar feelings for a few years...that's why i don't bring it up.... I'll wait until you can share your joy!
I wish luck to all of you... and many many prayers!!!!!
Don't feel like a heel! Just concentrate on you.... like i said i just come in and check on everyone ..........

AF arrived on Sunday night!! It's about time!!!!!!!

D

Hi D!
Yayyyyy for you!! I'm sooo excited for you! I don't really know what the follitism does? When approx. can you guys go for your IUI? I start using the OPK on fri/22nd..then we go in! This time around I'm just going to be calm and collected and not have ANY doubts...it's going to be hard but this is going to be our month and yours toooo!
let me know how you're doing :D
S :)

Hi S-

I started the follistim last night, and boy am I a wimp. I truly tried to give myself the injection...I just couldn't get myself to do it. I mean I kept saying this is for a baby but I didn't care, I couldn't do it. DH had to do it for me. It's funny because I've never had a problem with needles before...but I guess that's just when a doc or nurse is doin it. It stinks cause I need to do the injects for several days and now DH will ALWAYS have to be there to do it for me.
I don't know when I do the IUI. I go back to the RE on friday for more b/w and u/s. I hear that follistim will speed up your cycle though.

You are lucky to not have any s/e..I wish i didn't so that i didn't have to do the injects :( The 22nd huh? Maybe well get to that 2ww together! Keep me posted!!

Here's to our BFP's this month!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D

HI D.
Sorry it's taking me so long to write back.
How are you? Things are ok at my end. It's day 15 of my cycle and no pos. on the opk. I usually O day 17 so i'm not getting worried.
How does the follitism make you feel? I don't know if I could give myself the needle either!
Well, i thought I'd send ya a little note!
Let me know how things are going!
S :)

Hey D
I'm back!!! I've been very busy lately and last month I thought I was pregnant but It turned out I was not but I was 8 days late for my cycle!! I'm not trying again until after christmas not until Feb when my insurance kicks back in and I can use it again there a quota on how much I can spend a yr which is 2400 so I have to wait until a yr is up. I was so mad in Sept when I was ready to start but come to find out insurance would not cover it. I'm leaving for Florida on the 5th of Nov for 2 weeks and than christmas and than back to cycle in which I can't wait I'm hoping to get pregnant on my own before than. So your starting a new cycle, I wish you all the luck in the world it would be a great Christmas gift if you get a BFP:) Keep me posted! Talk to you soon
Teseaya