Hey! i don't know whats up with me...but i have really obsessive thinking...like 2 years ago a traumatic event happened that could have had serious repucussions and i was brought to the verge of terror.. but now its over.. and if anything does happen i'll be ok.. I went through constantly thinking about it for 6 months...then it went away and i lived 6 months without a care in the world relativley happy!!!! Then it came back.. the way it came back..well i started feeling anxiety then it intensified then i started thinking bad things... but after a while it went away for another few months...then it came back again!!! This time i went to the doctor, he sed as anyone in your family ever suffered from depression. i said no... he sed ok, we'll take a blood test to see that its not your hormones. I'm 19 btw.. In the end i didn't go.. Ive tried talkin to my parents but they jus go mad if i ever say theres summit wrong upstasirs if ya know what i mean.. One thing ive noticed is that this constant thinking goes away if im ill.... and when its dark outside!!!i don't understand it... does this sound familir to anyone? Also whenever i see a word such as cartoon my mind always wants to try and split it up in half so it says car - oon i don't know why. No one else in my familirs got any mental disorders that i know of. does anyone know what this is? Oh and when i was in high school i convinced myself that i smelt really badly, when i didn't.. i thought that for years. until i asked someone and they said no!!! Thx