I have no idea what to do! It sounds so simple...eat less, eat healthy, and exercise. Why do I have such a mental block about this? I am 28 years old. I have never been thin, but as a teenager I could at least get disgusted enough to start dieting/exercising for short periods. Now, I am convinced that I am unable to change. I eat horrible, mostly junk food, and tons of it. As disgusted as I am, I don't do anything to change. I am so embarrassed at how I look and how quickly I am gaining...40 pounds in 5 months. I wake up in the middle of the night and immediately inhale a package of pop tarts. When it's pizza for dinner...it's a whole pizza for me. And pints have replaced scoops of ice cream. I am completely out of control and I have some sort of mental block about changing. What is happening to me?

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Thanks...I do feel alone with this, it is comforting to hear that I am not. My husband yo-yo's too, but he is always capable of just getting sick enough of his excess weight to diet and exercise, so I always feel weak and lazy for not doing the same. I have no doubt that my eating is tied to emotional problems, but financially right now I can't afford to pay someone to listen to me! It seems like I should be able to draw a line in the sand and just do what I need to do. Throw out the junk and JUST DO IT. It's like I am terrified of feeling hungry or unsatisfied with what I am eating, and I am way too lazy and out of shape to be able to exercise. I am considering getting a script for adipex, but that is another problem for me as I have used them in the past and when they stop working, I start abusing them. I have been addicted to lots of things in my life and always have "conquered" them...but food is still kicking my you know what. Anyway, I am just whining and rambling...thanks for listening :)

I can appreciate that I need to lose 80 more pounds just to be at a healthy active weight let along the charts, I wouldn't go by the weight charts they are inaccurate and another advice? get rid of the scale.

I lost 20 pounds and 3 sizes and i am plataueing right now which is okay, I am taking my time, I would suggest you not go on a diet, you need to eat better not less. the fact you have a junky diet is telling me that you are on the famine feast cycle, you are not in a quantity famine but a quality famine, being famine sensitive like you are (and more famine sensitive then me) you cannot eat alot of junk (without eating alot of real foods with it in abundance) as this is a triggor for the famine feast cycle that keeps you fat.

I recomment these books highly, how to be naturally thin by eating more (type in naturally thin by eating more in search and it will take you to the authors new website to order the book.)also go to half price.com and order there I got my book breaking out of the food jail by jean antenello the same author as for naturally thin for 3 dollars.

The fat instinct, it explains how animals bodies react to a lower quality diet (tho higher caloire) such as eating rotten apples as opposed to fresh and hwo their bodies interpret this, it applies to us to.

you are filling up on lousy food, if you would eat a substantial breakfast of real foods you like and eat until food no longer appeals or looks good and keep eating when food looks good and try to minimize the junk you will find in time your cravings for such fare will subside.

you will actually develope and aversion to these junky foods. don't eliminate them just fill up on real foods first until you can't eat any more, if the pleasure foods still appeals eat some until you are fed up.

do this for several weeks and you will find you won't be eating as much and frankly you won't care, you will be so full continuously from eating so well on real foods that junk won't appeal as much.

read thos books, if you have questions you can ask them at ezboard lani's healthy bodies and naturally thin. you have to register which is free to post the questions, there are all kinds of ex dieters and ex eating disorders people there that can tell you anything you need to know.

RR I post there as horselover