Hello I am a 22 yr old male. During the last few months I have been making bad decesions when it has come to sex. One of my best friends died in may and I have been in horrible mental state and kinda just not cared about anything. But anyways I have been having sex with this one girl who I really do not know to well for the last couple of months and have not been wearing a condom consistantly. Last weekend I was having sex with her without a condom..(she is on birth control) and I finshed up then I went into the bathroom and notcied that there was blood all over me! I had no idea that she was bleeding during sex and I am not sure if she did either. Anyways I kinda freaked out and started to wash myself up, and then I asked her if she was ok...I think this was about the same time that she noticed because she had started to cry. We are kinda of in a relationship so I was being considerate and not trying to make her feel bad...because she was really really embarressed. But anyways I do not know what was the cause...I asked her if it was her time of the month...and she said, "I guess so..." she obviously was not sure about it..I told her that she should get checked out, and she said she would. But now I am so worried. I really do not know the sexual history of this girl and not only did I have unprotected sex with her, but she bleed on me! Is that a sign of a disease from her? I am in such a horrible place right now...my friend has died and now I am worried that I have gotten HIV or something...I could deal with other forms of STDS and I am going to get tested..but I would have a really hard time teasting myself for HIV because I just dont know If I could bear the idea of getting a positive back. I want to call her and and if she has checked up on it yet, but it is so hard to talk about and I really do not want her to get the impression of me accusing her of anything, I dont want to give her any kind of complex because she seems like she has low self-esteem. The next day she left me a message saying she was sorry and could understand if I would never want to see her again. I of course called her back and told that I was just worried about her and made her fell better. But of course I am really freaked out for myself. Anyways could anyone give me some advice/suggestions on how to approach this situation. Anyone have any idea of how it could of happend? Maybe something to to with the PIll? I fell so stupid for not protecting myself, but I went into the whole situation not carring so I guess if something happens I deserve it. Anyways, any help would be greatly appreciated!