:nono: everyone keeps telling me I am depressed, doctors, family, friends. But I DO NOT have the crying and wanting to die!!!! This is how I feel :bouncing: !!! constantly. Also, can depression screw up your periods (females) and your bowels??? I feel like I'm going crazy. I really don't have intrest in anything I used to, I do stay in and don't clean or cook or well anything. but it is mostly because I feel like crap all the time, my head feels like it is constantly hummimg, well, any thoughts??? :confused:
Thanks

Most of the time I don't have the crying thingie either, but I do have them... maybe once per month...
I recommend you to make a search through the web on the depression simptons and try to figure out if you're depressed or not. It does sound like you are... maybe then you may seek help and enjoy the things you used to enjoy again...
Sol

Most of the time I can't cry when I'm really depressed. OTOH, some of the things you're describing ring a bell ... have you been checked for fibromyalgia and/or CFIDS?

Just a thought ... :)

N.

Nakomis, Thanks I have not been checked for much of anything, I get the ole "heres some ssri's take these blah blah..." I don't know if I am depressed. I have read so much about it I have confused myself.., It's hard for me to understand how depression can make you so physically sick. to the point that Now, I DON'T feel like doing anything, my kids are even saying Mom, get your act together. I get so sick of everyone I know saying How are you and then when you start telling them everything they are like well, I gotta go....lol it is horrible. ( my mom and on of my brothers are good about talking to me, they really love me I know, but I can't really tell them too much because I don't want to worry them.) oh well, I did get up and out of bed today and I did do some dishes and cleaned my bathroom, (I hate a dirty bathroom..) So, I am ok right now, ahhhhhhhhhh !!!! I want to cry or scream right now but can't.... :bouncing: :bouncing: :bouncing:
thanks again,
blessings to you always
ML

many people who do not know what depression really is or the long term of it - think of it as sitting in chair looking out a window sighing. if only if only - they do not know that the mind is often in over drive with weight and a heightened sense of sensitivity to everything around us - there are all levels of depression even at the clinical level - and the blood being what it is there is not one place depression ever stays even day by day - so its a flux within the realm even if the doctors give you the diagnosis of clinical depression - in other words they got a one size fits all outlook towards it but lack any way of measuring accurately what a person feels like in their own little black rain day.. sometimes your really soaked other times you got that mildew thing going on and other times you can feel a bit of sun drying you out. I have cut down suicided dead people while working psych wards and not flinched and other times cried because a little girl was yelling for her mom when the little girl accidently got on the up escalator at a department store (and mom didn't notice at first) - I have been sobbing and then suddenly given to fit of laughter at the same time - now this is edifying in having the thought "I am really a gonzo baby" - its like depression for me has wrecked natural reactions in normal ways - I cry in front of people I dont know over something stupid like a baby bird dead on the ground - and laugh at something others give so much meaning to like the current presidential race (turn down the sound and watch the talking heads). I think people say its healthy to cry - but they mean in the normal scheme of things in life - in depression the sorrow is so far down inside how can you cry or sob enough to get it out - its would be like trying to puke to get rid of a headache - the depression on the clinical level is way beyond tears - however tears come for other reasons - deeper reasons of how you see life and what is important to you in your awareness of the life around you. You are your own person live your life as you see not how others tell you it should be.

Just my opinion, but sometimes I think drs are too quick to hand out the antidepressants. But the reason I asked if you've been checked for physical disorder is because some of the things you mentioned or the way you said it made me think of Fibro and CFIDS symptoms. You say you feel physically sick? May I ask in what way? A person with FM/CFIDS can want to do something but not be able to because they're totally exhausted and/or in too much pain. I've had both conditions for over 20 yrs and it IS depressing (and anxiety-producing) and what I've found is that most drs will automatically just dish out the ADs rather than take the patient's word for it that something doesn't feel 'right' physically.
Oops -- I'm sorry for babbling at you. I'd just add that if you can, I'd really recommend seeing a dr who's knowledgable in these and similar diseases. It can't hurt to rule out physical causes.
Best of luck to you and all best wishes :angel:
N.

sure you can have depression without crying, my symptoms are usually angry outbursts, obsessing and lack of interest in anything. Tantrums are the biggest for me, when I feel them coming on, I know that I have to get back on the meds, insurance or no.

Hey y'all !!
Nakomis, When I said I feel like crap, I generally do but, really If I'm honest with myself, I just see no point in doing it all (cleaning etc.) BUt, I do feel shaky and weak, and lightheaded alot. I did have blood work and all was normal, I don't eat hardly anything and that makes it worse. well, I see a gastro soon, so maybe he will help my physical symptoms. I keep telling myself " if they don't find a physical reason for all this, then I will take the meds" I hope I never have to take meds, But, I do have children and theyr eally need me to function properly, I don't think allergies can give you this foggy, spacey feeling that I have. (sigh) Thank GOD for these boards!!!!