Well, I guess I *do* know why I'm here, I'm just not sure what I'm hoping to accomplish.

I know that I'm addicted to Vicodin, and I know that it's getting w-a-a-y out of control, but as much as I DON'T want to be, I also don't know if I'm ready to stop.

Did that make sense?

And how quickly all of the issues that have given me problems in the past, have snuck back into my life. No, I take that back. Why does it always have to be "issues" that make one an addict? No excuses? Maybe it's just because I like it.

Geesh, I'm so confused.

I've been looking for a place where I could learn more about quitting... or just have someone to talk to since I haven't told a soul, and I think about it 24 hrs a day...

I guess that's it for starters. Didn't say a whole lot - sorry about that - just babbling. "Testing the waters" so to speak...

Thanks for listening.

Hey psychbaby you have come to the right place,there is such great support on this board.The first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem,trust me I have been taking vikes and perks for almost 2 wasted years,and now I am on day 4 no pills.Do you think you can tell your family or a friend?What have you been taking(how many mil.)?How many a day?Honestly the best thing I ever did was tell my family,no more lying which I don't think I realized how messed up I was acting to the people I love the most.Now my brother told me even today that hes proud of me for stopping and if I ever crave a pill(which I do about 100 times a day lol)to call him day or night and he will talk me out of it.The wds are yucky at first but just take it one day at a time.Good luck!!

SSoooo glad you are here. It is good that you have recognized the problem and that you are willing to make steps to get it under control, talking about it is the first step to freedom..... :)