I hate myself soo much right now...i gained 1-1/2 lbs and now i just feel sooooo rotten and horrible today...my day is completely ruined now not that i would have had a wonderful day anyhow but now i just really feel like a stupid rotten failure...i know logically i shouldn't be so upset about only 1-1/2 lbs but i can't help it...it really bothers me sooo much....i feel sooo fat. I'm gonna have to go to the gym now and do some crazy working out cause i just can't stand this. It's frustrating though cause the last week i've been having a lot of trouble working out...my body just won't let me do very much..i'm soo tired and aching but i need to burn cals. god i hate this...sorry guys but i just really needed to vent...i hate how this controls me but i also really hate being/feeling soo fat...i just want all the fat gone and now that i've gained i feel fatter than ever..after doing my body check in the mirror this morning i just wanted to cry or better yet beat myself up..i'm my own worst enemy today..o.k well i guess i am everyday but today i just feel sooo much more hate towards myself...ahhhh i dunno...i'll stop now i just really needed to get this off my chest...sorry to be a bother

honestly, 1.5 lbs is nothing. I know it feels like 20 million lbs, but 1.5 pounds is so small, it is probably not even weight. Did you do EVERYTHING the same before you weighed yourself? A change that small could be ANYTHING, but it is almost definately not an actual GAIN. You couldve had more sodium then usual (which retains water) without even realizing it yesterday...you couldve gone to the washroom less...you couldve had a constipating food without knowing...anything, even a tiny change, could affect your weight and you wont know it! Dont freak out PLEASE! Even if it is an actual gain (which it isnt) it isnt noticeable at ALL- trust me. I cant see you but I know that anyone who fluctuates can fluctuate up to 5 lbs on the scale and not look ANY different! Try not doing anything different, and you'll see that your weight will be normal the next time you weigh yourself!

Umm well i did do 1 thing a little differently because the 1st thing i do in the morning after i wake up is use the washroom and then weigh myself but today i ended up waiting a little longer and drank 1/2 glass of water as well before i weighed myself but i'm still afraid that that is not the reason why...i'm just terrified that it is pure fat not water weight...i dunno....oh and my weight never fluctuates that much....the most it ever fluctuates is 1/2 lb and no more so thats why this has me extra paranoid...but i dunno i'm going to work out now so that should help to settle my nerves knowing that i'm burning cals....i can't wait cause i really wanna make sure i go back down...i just don't want to take any chances of gaining any more...but i'm trying not to go crazy about it...thanks for replying to me

Cookiepls,
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Cookiepls,
We try to stay away from Heights and weights on these boards as they are triggering for some individuals.

Some folks still post them, but overall we try not to ask.
Thanks for letting me know that.

No problem. It is nice that you care. :)

Fallen- see? You DID do something different!! Waiting even an extra half hour to go to the bathroom PLUS the water is exactly why you were heavier! It isnt weight! Its just water! Please try to see that!!

yeah i dunno maybe you're right girlygirl but i just feel more awful than ever....fat and disgusting...i've felt awful even leaving my apartment in the last week cause i feel too rotten...i'll try to hold back from bashing myself and showing too much negativity but i'm just really down on myself and i just want to get rid of all this fat...i'm tired i just want it all gone and to waste away :( and then to make things worse my older sis. wanted me to take her shopping today (cause i have a car and she doesn't) so i had to tour around the town today..and go to the mall and stuff and so i had to be around people...which is not what i wanted to do but i can never say no when my sis. asks for something and then on top of that...my sis was talking about how thin she is and blah blah blah and i just wanted to scream at her...i wanted to say "yeah o.k i know you look sooo damn wonderful and here i am a stupid, fat, disguting loser but you don't have to rub it in" but i couldn't say that to her of course so i had to hold it in the whole time ahhhhh.......

I know its hard whenever the scale moves up even slightly, and those irrational thoughts take over even though they are exactly that- irrational! And its also really hard when you are silently suffering- people dont know that some things that they say can hurt you! Really, you are not fat or disgusting- not even remotely! But being alone in your apartment really isnt helping- is there someone who could live with you? Maybe a friend, or even your sister? Also, in case you havent, you should really talk to someone about your problem...you cant stay cooped up. Its not healthy, and you are really suffering! PLease consider it..!