hey I'm a 15 year old girl who used to be overweight but i was always inshape and active. a year ago i lost alot of weight and people started to notice and i was getting more attention so i kept trying to lose more weight and now i'm 125 and i'm 6 feet tall and no matter what i always think about how many calories i take in and i think how i can work them off, i just want to be happy with my body. Every night i cry because i hate it so much and my friends and parents notice but they dont understand how i feel they see me skinny but i still hate my body and want to lose more weight. it's horrible

Hey and welcome to the boards

It's sounds like you've got a lot of issues going on at the moment. 125lbs for your height is far too thin and I can't diagnose obviously but it certainly sounds like you're having disordered thoughts about eating. I don't know how much you know about eating disorders, so I'll try and tell you what they can be like and also ask a few questions if you don't mind :)

Anorexia takes over your life. From the moment you wake up to the moment you fall asleep, all you think about it how much you weigh, how you can avoid eating, how you can lose more and more weight. You look in the mirror and all you see is fat, even if you are wasting away. You don't see what everyone else sees. You lose your friends because you never have enough energy to go out or you start to argue with them when they try to make you eat. You become distanced from your family. Boyfriends are often out of the question - you don't want anyone to get too close unless they see how fat you are. I don't know how long you've been feeling like this, but I would ask you to please please see a doctor, therapist, talk to an adult, or someone you trust. Please stop before it gets too bad and takes over your life.

How do you feel when you get attention for being thin? Has anything happened recently that could have made you unhappy? Eating disorders are usually about underlying problems.

Please talk to us here and consider talking to a doctor or therapist about it. We all want to help you.

Take care

x J*L x