My name is Stephanie ,I'm 17 and I've been battling with anorexia for almost 2 years now i'll be doing ok for at least 3 days and fall back into old patterns My friends don't understand why i do it all they know is that its not good and they say eat but its not as easy as they think so i figured that i could find a community to talk to because my friends don't understand but anyways i just wanted to say hello!

Hi Stephanie,
Welcome to the boards. You will find a lot of very lovely people post here who will be happy to help.
So 2 years of anorexia...have you got any help yet? You do know the dangers of anorexia don't you? I assume that you know very well how dangerous an eating disorder is.
In my personal experience it is very difficult for your friends to even begin to comprehend why you have anorexia. They feel that if you can just eat some food everything will be ok, but its not that easy is it?
My advice would be to get some therapy. Eating disorders are a way of hiding from the underlying problems in most cases.
If you wanna talk more then just post again. Take care of your precious self.
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Welcme to the board, i am only new here myself. We are always willing to talk and support others with in similar circumstances
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Welcome StephanieNicole,
You have come to a great place for support.

Listen to Aurora, she is wise! Please seek help from an adult. Your friends can support, but they won't be able to understand, but that doesn't mean they don't care about you!

Take care little one!

sadly i haven't had any REAL professional help on anorexia in perticular see my grandparents (i live with them) don't know one of my doctors said that i have a hyper active thyroid and they been going with that ever since and for months i've been going to doctors at least 3 times a month trying to find out why i've been loosing so much weight and doctors don't know but i do and my grandparents are one of those people that think that if you have a sniffle you go to doctor and they fix it but no one can fix this for me i have to fix this myself I don't like what i do to myself and i'm not proud of myself for doing it Physical pain is better then emotional and i've been to counseling for other things and it doesn't help cuz i think i'll be ok and the next day i continue to do what i do not to say that counseling won't help for anyone eles but it doesn't for me

StephainieNicole,
It sounds like you are having a tough time of it.

You say that counseling doesn't help you, but I am going to take a wild guess here and say that you probably were not honest with your counselor and he/she can not help you get better unless you trust them enough to be honest with them. The reason I make this statement is that you said you have been to the regular doc many of times and you have not been honest with them, so it only leads me to believe you were not honest with your counselor.

Stephanie, you CAN NOT get better on your own. You need help, but you have to be ready and want that help, and it does not sound like you are quite there yet. That is okay, just please read some of these posts and see that if you chose to stay on this road, it only gets harder and more lonely.

Honey it is time to start being honest with yourself and those adults in your life that can help you.

Take care
~Dance

StephanieNicole

I know exactly how you are feeing. Ive been struggling for about a year now and each day when i get out of bed is the begining of a battle. Ive had help, but the only real help happens whe you really want it to. I can relate to the friends aspect, all my friends notice and say they want to help me stop, but they dont understand how hard it truly is. I am also the same way about falling back into patterns. Some days i look in the mirror and think wow, im an attractive person and i feel great! and others its back to the old i hate myself today, i am going to eat as little as humanly possible. All i really want to say is that i completely understand how you are feeling. Ive been there, and still am there in alot of ways. Yes i am now at a healthy weight and have returned to playing sports again and everyone thinks im fine, but in reality, an ED is a continious stuggle. My advice to you is, on your good days, write down why you feel good about yourself and put it somewhere that you can see it. It really does help. Having a constant reminder of your good qualities makes each day that much easier. oh ya and keep posting on here, we are all happy to hear from you!