Well I have been fighting anorexia for a few months now but recently I've decided to try to start recovering. There is a new plan by weight watchers called "The Core Plan". It's kind of like atkins but you can eat other things too, like wheat pasta. It's more like The South Beach Diet I guess. Well I've been on this diet since ... yesterday, lol. And it makes me sick to eat all that food. This morning I was at my friend's house and we were making breakfast (eggs and sausage, because you can eat that on this diet). I did ok while we were making eggs but during the time we were making sausage I started getting dizzy, and started to feel nauseated. I'm not sure exactly WHY this was, I'm thinking it was because I was overwhelmed by all the grease, and I still have the side effects of anorexia. I really do not want to eat. If I lose more in a week on this diet that I am on, I might stay on it, But if I lose more by not eating I'll probably continue to... starve myself. I feel better about myself when I don't eat as much. Do you think I will gain weight by eating all of this protein when I had not been eating barely anything before. I liked how I could control how much I put into my body, and how I could control the calories. I'm not sure what I should do. I can't WAIT until Friday when I weigh to see if this diet worked. I'll probably have a really low self esteem this week. The only thing I really like about the diet I'm on right now is that I don't feel like I am going to wake up really weak, or not wake up at all. That is what scares me the most, you know? Well I don't want to take up all of your time, So I will leave my post at this. I also have one more question, Do anorexics usually lose muscle before fat? Or water before fat? Thanks for everthing!

--Chelsea

hey hunny
um, i'm not sure what the diet will do to you...it's low carb right? carbs are what give to the energy for you to move and live day to day, and make ur brain and stuff work...i guess if u were eating nothing then the diet might be better than nothing, but after not eating much and then starting a diet with sausages which have high fat conent i dont think that would be very good for you. i think it might be better to start your diet with whole grain bread and fruit and vegies, just a little at a time. i think
good luck xxx
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Hey Chelsea

I'm so proud of you to be considering recovery, that is a huge step! Although from what you've said in your post, are you really trying this diet as a means to aid recovery? Or as a means to aid weight loss? I think if you really want to start recovery you need to come up with an eating plan that you really feel comfortable with rather than something that makes you feel sick and want to not eat. That is not what recovery is about. Are you seeing a therapist or dietician? If so, perhaps they could help you to put together an eating plan to gradually build up your calorie intake. When I first began recovery I was on one small meal a day to begin with, and I built it up from there. It takes a while for your stomach to adjust to being fed again.

I hope that recovery really is what you want. Imagine being free from all this pain and unhappiness, imagine being able to see yourself for who you really are, not for who ana thinks you are. Imagine looking in the mirror and seeing a beautiful, healthly body. 'In my head the flesh seems thicker' but this is just ana talking. You CAN be free from her.

Please re-think the diet you've started. It doesn't sound as though it's right for you and I don't want it to make you regress into anorexia.

Take care

xxx J*L xxx

it's not really eating fatty sausages, it has to be lean meat. sort of a protein thing. you can eat wheat pasta and whole grain cereals with skim milk. i really do not like this diet, it's so hard. the only good thing about it is i get to eat beef jerkey.. lol. once i started this diet i got sick though. i thought maybe i'd have less of a chance of getting sick if i started eating more again. i'm weighing friday and i'm counting down the days to see if i lost any weight. it is more of a diet thing, but i don't want to have anorexia anymore. i'm really tired of only seeing fat in the mirror. i know for sure it is more of a mind thing now. after friday if i have not lost as much weight as i usually would i'll go back to what i used to do. this sounds odd but at least i get to eat some of what i want. just not much. this is so difficult, i feel like i need to go weigh myself now, but i only do it once a week. i've realized this is more of a disordered thinking disease. well i'm going to go now, thanks for the support, i'll update and tell yall what happens.

heyy...reading what you said made me sad. anorexia is a hard thing to deal with i can imagine even tho im bulemic...its hard saying that..do you really want to be this way?? i dont think anyone does maybe u should consider help... its good to eat thats why i am bulemic and not anorexic i like to eat but i dont want to gain weight. try eating but not unhealthy foods..maybe u will feel better about yourself if you dont eat junk food i know that helps me..there is help for you and im sure with all the support you get from here it will help you everyday. i just hope you are ok and try to recover

I kind of agree with the first reply to this post. I am not sure that this diet is healthy for you. It is very controversial anyway, the whole low carb things. And if you have been battling anorexia and maybe your heart is already weakened from undernutrition, I am not sure you should do this, in any case not without talking to a doctor or other health professional first. Of course protein is important for building up muslce, but the body needs carbs too. The Atkins diet works by not allowing the body enough carbs to live on them, so it will burn fat (OK, KIND of works like this, I am not sure anymore how exactly). There are some waste products that the body produces in the process though. I is, as I said, controversial.

Kathrin


p.s. I am not quite sure from your post - are you trying to lose weight or to gain weight?

ohio - the thing i is really don't eat junk food. thank you for caring though. i don't want to be this way. no one does. i went through a spell with bulimia but have recently stopped, for a while at least. i haven't done it in several weeks.

kathrin - i am trying to lose weight. I used to weigh about 185 and lost 59 pounds. the thing is it developed into anorexia. Which I hate. Since today, I have decided against the whole low carb thing. it is too hard for me. i didn't eat all day until around 4:00 p.m. I know that is bad but I just don't get around to eating. When I got home I had a salad, with shredded cheese, and light italian dressing, and a plum. that is a big step for me. i feel like i weigh so much it is awful. I weighed on friday and I was about 128.5 or 129, I started the low carb diet on sunday and weighed today and weighed 126. So, the low carb thing works. I'm just worried that I will gain the weight I lost back. I am starting to eat "normal" again and now I'm hungry all the time from the low carb thing. AHH! Well I figure I had around 400 calories today. Maybe more, less than 500 though. I feel like a pig and this disease is absolutely.. awful. At school today this girl said WOW YOU HAVE THE SKINNIEST LEGS EVER! Well that is a compliment I guess, but it seems that my legs are skinny because of my stomach pouch. It is so ugly and I can't possibly have that much weight to lose in my legs, so I figure It will start to come off of my stomach or my arms. Or boobs, I have lost barely any weight there and I'd like to. That sounds weird LOL. Well I apologize for making this a long post.

--Chelsea!

The thing with anorexia is, in the beginning it gives you kind of a high to lose weight, it feels good... maybe even more so if you were overweight before you developed the eating disorder, I don't know. It is a very deceptive high though, and in the end the disease just takes away sooo much and becomes such an obsession and doesn't feel good anymore.
In your case I guess the thing I don't understand is - you say you want to overcome the anorexia, but still you are trying to lose weight. Is there a certain weight goal you want to reach? (Careful - anorexia makes you feel like once you have reached the goal you will stop trying to lose weight, but really it just wants to go on and on).

Sorry if it sounds like I am dumb, I just don't really understand the situation yet!

Kathrin

don't worry you don't sound dumb. i do not think i really made it clear. yes i do want to overcome anorexia but i still want to lose weight. i'm not at a point right now where i want to be. i am saying i want to lose weight the healthy way. yes, i was overweight and that is when the ed developed. well i'm off.. to go eat something.. lol. i've had around 120 calories so i figure a few more won't hurt ;).
--Chelsea

OK I think I understand now.
Losing weight the healthy way sounds good... but make sure you don't just THINK you still weigh too much. Maybe calculate your BMI or something... if you feel you are at risk in regard to eds, maybe try to work together with a nutritionist or something... of course I don't know what your possibilities are here.
Usually the best way to lose weight permanently if you are overweight is a permanent change in the way you eat, and not a crash diet. Meaning, eat healthy and don't starve yourself - eat in a way that you can imagine for the long run. Of course that means eating more than 130 calories!!! :nono: It means eating a balanced, healthy diet.
Remember that your body is something precious. It is not something you have to fight. You were created with a body that needs to be nourished. Try to love your body. It has deserved food, it needs it.

Kathrin