:) Hi everyone, I am new here and have quickly discovered that this will be a wonderful and uplifting place for me to write. I am 22 and have been anorexic for almost 3 years now. I battle with eating every day and some days are worse than others. I've been married almost a year now(in november) and my husband has given me support ever since he knew of my condition. It's extremely hard seeing my weight fluctuate as I tend to let the anorexia get a hold of me. I hope to relate to many of you as I know it is not fun being lonely. Hope to talk to you soon!!

Welcome to the boards Novblis!

You will find much support here. I do hope you are not trying to battle this on your own. It is far to much to handle on your own.

Share your story when you get a chance. We would love to know more about you.

Hi Novblis and welcome to the boards. It's a great place here, there are a complete range of people from those who are wondering whether they may have the beginnings of an ED, those who are deep in the clutches of an ED, those who are struggling through recovery (like me) and those who are fully - yes, fully - recovered. We will try to help you as much as we can :)

Let us know what we can do for you.

Take care

x J*L x

Thank you for welcoming me so quickly!
My story probably isn't much different from many who suffer from EDs. A couple of years ago I was in a long relationship with whom I soon found out was cheating on me. This new girl was much taller, much prettier, and much thinner than I was. Many unwanted, jelous thoughts decided to seep into my mind, which soon made me see that if I couldn't have control with what I wanted I would control my eating and show him who was boss. It became an obsession. I soon was down to 93 pounds and not even caring what my ex thought about me anymore. It was more of wanting to lose just one more pound...just one more....I became consumed with thoughts that I am not worth anything and that I have to be thinner to even have anyone notice me.

It's been three years and I still struggle with it daily. At rock bottom, I found my husband(a blessing from above) and he has been with me all the way. He tries to understand what goes through my head and he is always willing to listen...however, ..I regret to say that I still count calories, take laxatives, and now I find myself binging alot at night. My mind still has the better of me most days. I am not at the weight I used to be, so I here all the time that I "look healthier"...that doesn't help me much.

I want so much to get better, but at the same time I cannot let go of that control.

Thanks for reading my story...I hope to find support to get out of all of this.
Love,
Novblis

Hi Novblis

Everyone's story is unique - it always helps to know the background when you're supporting people.

I'm glad you got out of that relationship, and it's great that you have found someone as supportive as your husband. One person can make all the difference and even if they can't 'heal' you completely, they can stop you from regressing and make you realise there is a reason to be here.

Do you have a support group or a therapist at all? If you are wanting to get better they can really help you, finding the root of the problem (which you already seem to know) and finding out why you still need control over something. Are there any areas in your life where you are feeling very much out of control? This could be a trigger for your ED.

Also, the laxatives...they are so dangerous and can do so much damage. Please look into the damage they can do if you haven't done so already and perhaps this will put you off - it definitely put me off. You can also try a high-fibre diet as a deterrent for using laxatives and there are also fibre supplements that you can take. I am on one now and it tastes disgusting but really works!!

Take care

xxx J*L xxx

Hey,

Welcome to the boards! I don't really have anything to add, basically what the others have said!

Emily xoxox