Okay, so here is my problem with therapy in general....I was seeing a therapist for a while and it seemed like she kept asking me the same questions over and over..."what are your passions??" So, I told her I enjoyed singing and some reading, spending time with friends, etc.. We always went back to talking about the relationship I had with the ex(one that is non-existant now). We talked about family and how I felt when I was younger. But the thing is...that's all we talked about...we went over those subjects EVERY time. I hated that she talked with my dietician, and doctor, sharing information with them. My schedule DID conflict with hers often and I only had so much insurance visits that covered her costs, so I stopped seeing her.

It's been a year or so since I have seen the diatician, or her, but I don't really want to go to her again. On the other hand, I don't even want to share my whole story again with another stranger who could potentially stop right at the 60 minute mark saying..."Okay, let's schedule another time to meet"(even if I was right in the middle of talking). I might be exagurating the situation a bit...but o'well. In a way I feel that I need to go back to therapy because my mind seems to overwhelm me most days with thoughts of food and eating, but I don't know where to turn. I tried emailing my diatician, knowing that everything with her is confidential, but there was no response(I am thinking since I am not paying for her services any longer she doesn't respond?) I just feel like I am crying out for help and no one is listening..

sorry for the long post and vent..

novblis

Novblis,
I understand not wanting to share your story over and over, but finding a good therapist that you click with can take some time. I went through 3 therapists before I found the 4th one who saved my life. I had the therapist who wanted to teach me how to breathe to deal with my anxiety (not for me), the therapist who wanted to explore my "inner child" and have me speak to it (way not for me), the therapist who seemed okay, but we never clicked and then finally like I said the one who saved my life. This was in a period of about 18 months that I went through the therapy shuffle, but if I had not stuck with it, I know I would not be here today.

I understand also about insurance only covering so much. Actually the therapist I ended up staying with was not covered by my insurance at all and I had to sacrifice many things to see her, but again it was worth it. Her along with my doctor and a whole lot of hard work gave me my life back.

Please don't give up on therapy just because your experience did not seem to fit you. As you look for the next one, realize you can ask questions too. You need to have a connection with your therapist or you will not be able to develop the trust needed to get to the core of your issues.

You can do this and you can get your life back!

Dance-
Thank you for getting my mind straight. In some respect I know that all I need to do is search for the right therapist, but I am just too stubborn. Thanks for making me feel like I am not alone in all of this.

Novblis