Okay, so it's been a few days since my last post of feeling sad...but I've found myself even more depressed these last couple of days. It could do with the fact that I have been home a lot by myself, and all I can think about is what I am going to eat. I search internet sites, find recipes, even look forward to going to the store later to get some ingredients for some cookies I want to make. The only problem is the fear of consuming all the food.

I binged last night on cereal...does anyone ever tell themselves, "Okay..all I want to do is go home and eat!" ?? It's all I could think about on the way home from work. Man, when I even have one bite, I cannot stop. I cannot purge but I find myself spitting out the food once I've chewed it for a while. I find myself never really swallowing the food...I just continue to eat and chew, eat and chew...I get into this zone. I did that last night and couldn't stop.

My mind and body is going crazy-in so many ways and I cannot control it. I don't really want to talk to anyone anymore and I just feel like being sad still. I've snapped at my parents and husband many times and cannot help it. I feel like I've posted the same words as I did a few days ago. Thanks for listening... :confused:

Novblis

Novblis,

I do that all of the time. I always binge on cereal, so you are not alone. Sometimes I wonder if this will ever go away. My dr. tells me that give it time. It's been FIVE lonnnnnnnnnnnngggg years. Still I wait. I can't wait for everyone to leave the office sometimes, I go into our break room and just eat everything in site.

I don't understand why I do it, because you will eventually gain some weight. My dr. has me on Trileptal - 300 mgs twice a day - it's slowly starting to work. Do you take any meds?