freaked out
09-18-2004, 02:53 PM
Hello to all,
I used to read this board and post a lot a few months ago but I've scaled back my viewing due to a number of things. However this board is always a good avenue to get support and I appreciate that more than anything. My story is located on page 3 now. I won't go into all the details but three months ago I had sex with a former partner. For some reason I thought I had contracted HIV. I like many thought I had all the symptoms. I convinced myself that I had HIV. At the six week mark I nervously went to the clinic and got tested. It came back negative. Since about that time I've been quite sure that I don't have HIV. Now that it is coming up to the three month test (ON THURSDAY) I'm starting to have the "symptoms I think I have" creep back. sore throat, white tongue and blotchy skin that only seems to last for a few minutes. My question and sorry if I'm boring anyone is do you think because I know i'm getting tested again that I'm making myself feel like I have HIV. Again refer to my story on page three, but I have had three doctors tell me that I don't have it and the girl in question (an ex girlfriend of mine) swears she doesn't have it. Also I'm told it's very hard for a man to get it from a woman from a one time encounter. Is this true? Also shouldn't I feel somekind of relief because of the six week test? I know it's not conclusive but the rate of negative test must corelate to non exposure, right? I mean I'm sorry to be taking up valuable space but as I write this I realize that I'm becoming irrational and I guess I just hope that I can get some positive Karma from all the readers.
GOD BLESS.
JOHN
I used to read this board and post a lot a few months ago but I've scaled back my viewing due to a number of things. However this board is always a good avenue to get support and I appreciate that more than anything. My story is located on page 3 now. I won't go into all the details but three months ago I had sex with a former partner. For some reason I thought I had contracted HIV. I like many thought I had all the symptoms. I convinced myself that I had HIV. At the six week mark I nervously went to the clinic and got tested. It came back negative. Since about that time I've been quite sure that I don't have HIV. Now that it is coming up to the three month test (ON THURSDAY) I'm starting to have the "symptoms I think I have" creep back. sore throat, white tongue and blotchy skin that only seems to last for a few minutes. My question and sorry if I'm boring anyone is do you think because I know i'm getting tested again that I'm making myself feel like I have HIV. Again refer to my story on page three, but I have had three doctors tell me that I don't have it and the girl in question (an ex girlfriend of mine) swears she doesn't have it. Also I'm told it's very hard for a man to get it from a woman from a one time encounter. Is this true? Also shouldn't I feel somekind of relief because of the six week test? I know it's not conclusive but the rate of negative test must corelate to non exposure, right? I mean I'm sorry to be taking up valuable space but as I write this I realize that I'm becoming irrational and I guess I just hope that I can get some positive Karma from all the readers.
GOD BLESS.
JOHN

