Chelle80
09-20-2004, 10:51 AM
Tomorrow is the day. I get to go back and get my rest results. Just thinking about walking into that room to get my results makes me shake and feel like I am going to vomit. Ugh.
Of course I have been attributing every odd symptom to HIV. haha. I have aches and pains all over my body. My temperature sometimes goes up to 99.5 at night [when temp is normally at its highest anyway, and its been after i've been running around]. I feel like my glands are swollen, even though my boyfriend and mom tell me they are not. I have felt dizzy and lighthead and I have a tummy ache. The list goes on and on. Everything I feel, I think it's because I have HIV attacking my whole system. Now I KNOW KNOW KNOW you can't depend on symptoms to tell you if you have it or not, and I do know that anxiety and stress are probably causing most of my symptoms, and I do suffer from health anxiety anyway. The mind is a terribly powerful thing and it can make you believe ANYTHING if you think about it enough [or google symptoms enough...haha].
BTW - for those of you who don't know my story, my exposure was a 3 minute bought of unprotected vaginal intercourse with my second boyfriend. I was only exposed to his pre-cum and as far as I know, I have no reason to think he is infected. This instance happened almost 3 years ago. I have been with my current boyfriend for 2.5 years and want to get married and start a family with him, so I want this all behind me.
I am at the point where I need you guys to give me advice on how risky my exposure was. I know that you guys are not doctors, but I would appreciate any help I could get.
Wish me luck for tomorrow. I really can't wait till it's done and over with already. I just pray that I am indeed NEGATIVE.
-Chelle
Of course I have been attributing every odd symptom to HIV. haha. I have aches and pains all over my body. My temperature sometimes goes up to 99.5 at night [when temp is normally at its highest anyway, and its been after i've been running around]. I feel like my glands are swollen, even though my boyfriend and mom tell me they are not. I have felt dizzy and lighthead and I have a tummy ache. The list goes on and on. Everything I feel, I think it's because I have HIV attacking my whole system. Now I KNOW KNOW KNOW you can't depend on symptoms to tell you if you have it or not, and I do know that anxiety and stress are probably causing most of my symptoms, and I do suffer from health anxiety anyway. The mind is a terribly powerful thing and it can make you believe ANYTHING if you think about it enough [or google symptoms enough...haha].
BTW - for those of you who don't know my story, my exposure was a 3 minute bought of unprotected vaginal intercourse with my second boyfriend. I was only exposed to his pre-cum and as far as I know, I have no reason to think he is infected. This instance happened almost 3 years ago. I have been with my current boyfriend for 2.5 years and want to get married and start a family with him, so I want this all behind me.
I am at the point where I need you guys to give me advice on how risky my exposure was. I know that you guys are not doctors, but I would appreciate any help I could get.
Wish me luck for tomorrow. I really can't wait till it's done and over with already. I just pray that I am indeed NEGATIVE.
-Chelle