Danielle895
10-18-2004, 11:30 PM
Im 17, I don't keep friends, depressed, I have a low self esteem, I can never make up my mind I'm always tired, I think too much, I am sometimes shy, sometimes hyper, friendly sometimes, good at art, everyone at school is boring to me, all the people I eat lunch with are boring. I become really nervous around too many people. There are only a few people who amuse me. I have always prefered to be a loner. I was diagnose with ADD at 4 and took ridilin most my life. now taking clasapam and adderal and I'm supposed to be taking zoloft
does this sound like bi-polar?
does this sound like bi-polar?
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reesie
10-19-2004, 12:11 PM
that depends, ADD and bipolar have symptoms in common. What are your hypers like? Do you ever get inexplicably happy to the point of being too perky or enraged easily or feel like your brain doesn't shutoff and operates in overdrive? It could recurrent depression or something else. bipolar kinda requires a big swing to and from depression.
-reesie
-reesie
Ruth6:11
10-19-2004, 07:11 PM
Sounds like you're an average teen to me!!
Hang in there - time takes care of alot of the things you mentioned -
Come back here anytime tho, ok?
:angel:
Hang in there - time takes care of alot of the things you mentioned -
Come back here anytime tho, ok?
:angel:
Danielle895
10-19-2004, 09:16 PM
I've been depressed on and off for 8 years, as far as I can remeber. yesterday I slept all day and was depressed while today I did all my homework and did a painting for a friend. My psycologist who i see 15 minutes a month isnt much help
Danielle895
10-21-2004, 12:48 AM
This board isnt helping me yet.
I wish I could tell my parents I need help, I cant handle school, I dont like people, nothing is worthwhile, I dont like tv, I dont believe in god, I dont believe in love, I used to abuse my pets when I was young, I feel guilty over everything, I only eat because it's necessary, I dont like shopping, The only thing I always like is coffee, but I dont really like starbucks, I dont like being high or drunk. What I really want is to just go away from everything I know and start over, even a type of boot camp would be good.
I had a party when my dad was out of town and I wanted boot camp for that. When I was down to 105 and I'm 5'5 2 months ago and all my clothes were falling off (had to start wearing belts) my parents didnt say anything and I thought I wasent skinny enough cause a guy was ignoring me, All I needed was rehab, I dont even remeber 3-6 months of my life cause everynight was a party. I'm 17, and I cant even tell these things to my cousilor. What do I tell her? She never helps me, she only finds ways for me to help my self, and I do that in my own time with out her.
I wish I could tell my parents I need help, I cant handle school, I dont like people, nothing is worthwhile, I dont like tv, I dont believe in god, I dont believe in love, I used to abuse my pets when I was young, I feel guilty over everything, I only eat because it's necessary, I dont like shopping, The only thing I always like is coffee, but I dont really like starbucks, I dont like being high or drunk. What I really want is to just go away from everything I know and start over, even a type of boot camp would be good.
I had a party when my dad was out of town and I wanted boot camp for that. When I was down to 105 and I'm 5'5 2 months ago and all my clothes were falling off (had to start wearing belts) my parents didnt say anything and I thought I wasent skinny enough cause a guy was ignoring me, All I needed was rehab, I dont even remeber 3-6 months of my life cause everynight was a party. I'm 17, and I cant even tell these things to my cousilor. What do I tell her? She never helps me, she only finds ways for me to help my self, and I do that in my own time with out her.
analog2000
10-21-2004, 02:29 AM
I cant even tell these things to my cousilor.
Why can't you tell your counselor? Is there anyone you can talk to? If not your parents, then another relative, someone at church, a teacher? You are beginning to say these things here, and that's a start.
Good luck.
Why can't you tell your counselor? Is there anyone you can talk to? If not your parents, then another relative, someone at church, a teacher? You are beginning to say these things here, and that's a start.
Good luck.
MaineCub
10-21-2004, 12:20 PM
Danielle;
I think Im in the same boat as you. Only thing different is that I am 32 years old.
I get bored very easily, need constant stimulation, terrible mood swings. But I won't take medication. It would change who I am.
Instead of telling us what makes you sad, tell us what makes you happy.. Think big.. Think grand... Traveling off to far off lands.. Helping people..
--Dave
I think Im in the same boat as you. Only thing different is that I am 32 years old.
I get bored very easily, need constant stimulation, terrible mood swings. But I won't take medication. It would change who I am.
Instead of telling us what makes you sad, tell us what makes you happy.. Think big.. Think grand... Traveling off to far off lands.. Helping people..
--Dave
Danielle895
10-22-2004, 12:23 AM
Thanks for your replies. Yeah, right now I'm taking Zoloft 50 mg a night for the past two weeks (so I can still get off it) I hate taking meds, although I think Adderal XR is actually helping me (15mg a day) I had a problem with clasapam (I would take 3-8 .5mg A DAY) for a few months, however I started to slowly get off this summer so my mind could function. Now that I have new friends though I'm taking it again(I'm still prescribed!!) I've been taking it since Janurary (almost 10 months!!). I'm telling my mom I want a different pshycologist.
I did open up to my counselor once but I'm so paranoid by her. I have stoped abusing, however I'm slowly falling back to some old habits but with new friends. I'm so tempted because I have the money right now and This weekend I dont think I can stay clean. I dont know why I should. I like painting, music, and friends, although I often choose to go places alone.
I did open up to my counselor once but I'm so paranoid by her. I have stoped abusing, however I'm slowly falling back to some old habits but with new friends. I'm so tempted because I have the money right now and This weekend I dont think I can stay clean. I dont know why I should. I like painting, music, and friends, although I often choose to go places alone.
Windy 2
10-23-2004, 05:25 PM
You sound so sad. I am worried about you. You must find something that interests you. Also there is a natural thing that happens when you exercise called endorphins. When you exercise this stuff gets released in your system and you will have a sense of relief and well being. Do you want to go to college? Now is the time to plan for your future. Try to think of the future and not the past. You cannot change the past but you can make your future anything you want it to be. Do not feel guilty about things you have done. We all have done things we regret. You are not alone. These feelings of guilt are ways that we make sure we do not repeat the same acts that made us feel bad to begin with. It is all a learning process, life is, just like school and everything else. Write back to me and tell me what interests you and if you have thought about college. Take care, Windy 2 :confused: