I keep wishing that Ill wake up one day and this anxiety and all the symptoms will be gone. Then I can go out and start being normal and do things like I used to. It's so depressing when tommorow comes and its still there and I cant do anything. However I have no choice but to keep going and hope one day the anxiety and all the crap with it will be gone. Anyone else get depressed that thier anxiety might never be gone? I think its all we got sometimes that tommorow things will be different.

You know what? I'm ok if my anxiety never goes away, but I won' be ok if it stays the same. I think it's healthy to be a little anxious, unfortunately, we have extreme amounts of it. That's what I can't live with. But I know what you mean, try not to get to down about it. That's only going to feed it more.

for example, I have a lot of fun from just anticipating events before i actually do them, because my thoughts are so cyclic. Sure anxiety sucks but you cant have the good without the bad. Hehe whats cool is I'm already trying to think how this message will be recieved. I love my world :)

montgumpski would you like more gifts? you can have mine too. hehe, just kiddin. seriously though i love your positive attitude, it is what i am working on.

Yea I’m ok with the anxiety too; I can live with it forever. Anxiety is just an emotion, however, my bodies whacked out fight or flight response to anxiety is something Id like to get a hold of. For so long I was overreacting to anxiety and my body was getting all these weird symptoms like pounding heart, shortness of breath, sweaty palms, dizziness etc... Actually it’s a long story but it all started when I had a lot of turmoil in my life and my body never really came down from that anxious time (prolly because it lasted so long). Anyway now I’m Learning to control my body's reaction to things and not let my body over responds to anxious moments and I’m starting to get back to normal. Still it’s such a ***** sometimes. I’m just waiting for the day when Ill be "normal" like I was before. Keeping a positive attitude isnt a bad idea, it will for sure give you more strength then always being down!

Seems like my whole life has been fight or flight, even when I didn't have high anxiety I was always edgy, I never let anyone know it and tried to not show it by leaving swiftly an area that felt threatening. There's been times in my life I has felt so calm that I thought, wouldn't it be nice to feel this way at least 80% of the day? But my calm moments have never lasted longer than a couple hours and never more than a couple times a year. It's like when I use to smoke "pot" I would feel so relaxed and carefree but heck that was 30 yrs ago. If I get real tired of fighting the axniety after a couple weeks I will take a xanax to take the edge off, otherwise I try to flow with it. I'm waiting for the day to that I'm normal again, it's been such a long time, I wasn't always a nervous person, took an abusive ex to make me what I am today even after all these years and a second good marriage. Gee, anxiety can suck the life right out of ya if you are not careful

It's interesting how many people had some sort of event in their life that spurred their anxiety disorder. Looks like your exhusband was your thing NancyH. I know for a fact that it was my family that caused my anxiety too because before my family probs I was very unanxious and slept well and everything else. Then my dad got fired from his job and put on disability and a whole bunch of other bad stuff happened. For like three years I was living in some seriously anxious moments. I wish I knew what type of damage I was doing to myself back then and how I was setting myself up for an anxiety disorder. Now things have gotten better in my life but Im still anxious about everything too! I just keep waiting for the day that my body finally calms down. I guess what makes me really mad is that screwed up people can mess up everyone around them with their abuse and leave them a wreck for years to come.