reesie
11-03-2004, 02:57 PM
does anyone else find that a life with small or little stress makes being bipolar easier. I'm an engineer and my current job is just gobs of stress and crazy expectations. I think that kind of stress is a trigger for me. Every now and again I break down (with convulsions) and become convinced the world will fall on me and my pdoc orders me home for a week or so. This my vicious cycle. But when I'm at home, I'm fine. I can handle housework and day to day as long as I'm away from work. Seems like simple things like type a document, wash dishes, stuff with definite beginnings and ending work well for me. The open endedness and constant chaos of my job doesn't work well. I feel boundless and without structure to hang my hat on and I drop everything I'm doing when I start panicing (and convulsing). I'm thinking all my pyscotherapy is never going to help me unless I get lower stress job. Anyone else have this scenario happen to them?
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mudhound
11-03-2004, 10:20 PM
the wife can not handle stress at all.
rd1978
11-03-2004, 10:59 PM
my ex when stressed,,,, is an extremly confused person with lots of thaughts and many different ideas running thru her head,, :bouncing: the more stress,, the farther her head is in the clouds,, and the more racier she gets,,,
reesie
11-04-2004, 04:59 AM
i'm starting to shutdown whenever work stress heats up, which is about three to four times a week now
Concerned39
11-04-2004, 11:22 AM
I too can not handle stress.I have been on a medical disability because of it and find that when I get that way everything is 10x louder and faster and it feels like my nerve endings are being rubbed raw and I get super angry and feel like I am going to explode if I don't have quiet right that minute.I actually had to make my 17 year old son move out because life with him was so stressful that we were fighting ever day and I was losing it.I get exactly where you are coming from and so do a lot of people on here.Hope you are able to find a way to ease that stress for you as I find it makes my bipolar worse.All the best to you.Nadine
reesie
11-04-2004, 12:06 PM
Thanx. I hope I can figure it out too cause I'm single and have earn a living. I might have a job opportunity soon with a smaller company where groups and projects are smaller. I hope such an environment will reduce the chaos and subsequently the stress I feel now. I've spoken with people who work at this other company and they largely don't seem as affected by their jobs as much as those I work with. Where I'm at now, EVERYONE has some degree of negativity going on. I keep telling myself I just have to hang on and not shutdown, wouldn't want to be fired before I can get another job offer.
Edit: I also want to add that I appear to be getting dumber. I wonder if thats the klonopin. I just can't do higher level thinking to be an engineer. I feel out to lunch all the time. I can manage physical labor and abit forgettful at that too. Jeez, this is hard.
Edit: I also want to add that I appear to be getting dumber. I wonder if thats the klonopin. I just can't do higher level thinking to be an engineer. I feel out to lunch all the time. I can manage physical labor and abit forgettful at that too. Jeez, this is hard.