hey everyone,

I was recently diagnosed with depression. The only thing is that when I was telling my doctor I did not elaborate enough, which makes me think he doesn't realise how bad i feel. I never had a stable, easy childhood, but i don't like using that as an excuse for the tears. I don't really know whats wrong with me to be honest. My mum thinks I was miserable because i didn't have a job for a few weeks. Now i've landed an incredible job, but i still feel so sad when i get home and am alone.
I was also diagnosed with Crohn's disease tuesday which makes matters worse. I am also obsessed with musicians who 'died' young (Ian Curtis for one). Does anyone know what I should do? I have nobody who I can tell this to without them thinking very differently of me. An ex boyfriend suggested I see a counselor- is that the right way to go about things? HELP!

I think your ex-boyfriend's suggestion was a very good one. I do believe that counseling is the best place to start. You've got alot going on (with the Crohns' disease, unhappy childhood, etc); it would probably be very helpful to have someone to talk to.

How do I go about getting councelling without my mum or my Doctor knowing? Honestly, people don't realise how I really feel because I'm so cheerful infront of them, and I have too many other medical probs to keep seeing my Doc about. I don't want to trouble anyone or make them worry but I need help

Your doctor is a professional and can handle you filling in details you left out previously. The more you can give him to work with the more he can help.
Your Mother should be willing to help you and may secretly not buying into your cheerful act but afraid to rock the boat because she sees youa s fragile.
You NEED their help. You don't have to protect them. You are ill. You deserve to have help in coping with that. Be a proactive patient. They usually live longer and exceed what their diagnosis said was probable.
I wish you well.