I don't know what is wrong. I'm almost 20, sophmore in college, majoring in something that I have been interested in for many years, and yet, I'm unhappy. My mother is overbearing (even though she lives miles away from here) and I don't have any friends, but I've been that way for years. I really just feel depressed all the time now, and I don't know what to do. I don't want to take anti-depressents, simply because I have a fear of side effects. Can someone help me in any way?

My mother is over bearing and that help contribute to my anxiety growing up. As far as friends it's good to have some. Is there something that you like to do? Fishing, scrapbooking, tennis,singing? Having a friend really helps depression, someone to talk to, to get advice from, to know that you are cared for, to care for someone else. I was against medication too but I had to do something because I missed "normal" life. Having energy, enjoying things I used to. I wasn't bad depressed but I was in some kind of a funk. You know you are depressed and your here so you must want help. I would suggest excersising, getting out of the house to do something, start slowly but saying "hello" to someone or just smile at someone. Find things that make you smile. I hope you do find a friend, they are the best things in the world. Good luck to you and we are here for you.

Soulcatcher-

Thanks for your reply. I pretty much missed out on a normal childhood, but we won't go into that.
I have lots of things that I like to do, but just can't compel myself to do anymore. It just seems that I'm in a circular path and can't get out of it.
I don't know how to make friends, either :(

I'm in pretty much the same boat. Same age but not in school and not working. No friends and no ability to socialize at all. I am also against medication for the same reason as you, I fear the side effects. I too missed out on a "normal" childhood/teenage life.. that thought makes me feel the worst. I know I should and have to move on but it's too hard and I can't seem to.

No real use for this post, just wanted to share my experience, to show you that you aren't alone here. Maybe you can talk to the counsler in your school?

I can't talk to school officials... I've had horrible experiences with them.