lsw56
11-23-2004, 11:57 PM
I am also a serial quitter, but this time for the last time <spoken very emphatically> After years of trying to quit with hypnotism, acupuncture, Nicorette and the patch, this time I did it cold turkey, 7 days and 20 hours ago... I am determined to succeed this time, 35 years of smoking has left me with COPD, chronic bronchitis and high blood pressure...
Before I smoked my last cigarette I did a little research and found that the addictive nicotine only stays in my system for 72 hours after that last cigarette, after that, it's just the habit to deal with... My 72 hours passed in a haze, I kept myself busy and when the urge hit, I rode it out, and now the worst seems to be over... I think about that after-dinner cig, the morning coffee and cig, and the stress cig - and then I forget about it for a while...
Meanwhile, I can breathe better after only a few days, my coffee tastes great, but I've lost my taste for Pepsi. I've won the battle with the nicotine and I will never let it enslave me again!!! God Bless all of us for having the courage to beat this addiction, by any way or means we can.....
Linda
Before I smoked my last cigarette I did a little research and found that the addictive nicotine only stays in my system for 72 hours after that last cigarette, after that, it's just the habit to deal with... My 72 hours passed in a haze, I kept myself busy and when the urge hit, I rode it out, and now the worst seems to be over... I think about that after-dinner cig, the morning coffee and cig, and the stress cig - and then I forget about it for a while...
Meanwhile, I can breathe better after only a few days, my coffee tastes great, but I've lost my taste for Pepsi. I've won the battle with the nicotine and I will never let it enslave me again!!! God Bless all of us for having the courage to beat this addiction, by any way or means we can.....
Linda
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Deda
11-24-2004, 06:30 AM
Linda- -
Way to go girl! :) YOU DID IT!!!!! :D
I'm happy to hear that you were able to finally do it. I'm sorry that you have been ill, but you can look forward to nothing but better days ahead! Just don't smoke again, no matter what. :nono:
I quit 13 months ago today, after 30 years of smoking, and many attempts to quit. A couple times for a full year, always to go back to it again. This time I WON'T go back! I feel too good about it, I HATE smoking now, and anyway, I'm getting too old to keep playing with my life like that! Plus I LOVE all of the benefits of not smoking, more $$$, no more ugly smell, no longer feel like a social outcast, etc. I would be crazy to go back at this point now, as I rarely crave a cig! I had a small crave today, for the first time in I don't remember how long...a quickie crave, gone in a flash! I quit with gum and then patches.
Keep that strong determination going, and do all that you have to do to remain smoke free!
Congratulations!!! :jester:
Deda
Way to go girl! :) YOU DID IT!!!!! :D
I'm happy to hear that you were able to finally do it. I'm sorry that you have been ill, but you can look forward to nothing but better days ahead! Just don't smoke again, no matter what. :nono:
I quit 13 months ago today, after 30 years of smoking, and many attempts to quit. A couple times for a full year, always to go back to it again. This time I WON'T go back! I feel too good about it, I HATE smoking now, and anyway, I'm getting too old to keep playing with my life like that! Plus I LOVE all of the benefits of not smoking, more $$$, no more ugly smell, no longer feel like a social outcast, etc. I would be crazy to go back at this point now, as I rarely crave a cig! I had a small crave today, for the first time in I don't remember how long...a quickie crave, gone in a flash! I quit with gum and then patches.
Keep that strong determination going, and do all that you have to do to remain smoke free!
Congratulations!!! :jester:
Deda
Lia813
11-25-2004, 05:34 PM
Hi, Linda . I quit 3 weeks ago on 11/4 /04 . I was very abruptly diagnosed with colon cancer after a routine colonoscopy . None of the drs nor expected it as I had no symptoms at all. So I had surgery to resection the colon and was in the hospital for 4 days. I was too sick to even think about a cigarette in there and when I got out I still felt really bad so I figured well this is the time to do it. I already had that 72 hours of detox under my belt so I just did not start again. For 2 weeks when I felt so awful it did not bother me one bit . But this past week as I felt better I would have a fleeting thought that I wished I had a cigarette. But the thought passed and I was determined not to act on it. Already I can breathe deeply and I do not cough or wheeze or rattle. Food does taste different. I hope someday these cravings will go away. I have smoked for 40 yrs and never even tried to quit, never wanted to. I start with the Chemo Dr. on 12/2 so this was definitely the time for me to quit. Good luck to us all. Lia
Deda
11-25-2004, 06:05 PM
Lia...
Good for you quitting too. I'm sorry you have been sick, but you will feel so much better not smoking. Just wanted to say, in time your cravings will be less and less there. I quit 13 months ago, and can honestly say I don't have many craving at all any more. Now and then one will come upon me, but rare for me to have one now. And when they do happen, they pass so quickly.
Best of luck to you with your quit and your overall health, and just don't smoke!
Deda
Good for you quitting too. I'm sorry you have been sick, but you will feel so much better not smoking. Just wanted to say, in time your cravings will be less and less there. I quit 13 months ago, and can honestly say I don't have many craving at all any more. Now and then one will come upon me, but rare for me to have one now. And when they do happen, they pass so quickly.
Best of luck to you with your quit and your overall health, and just don't smoke!
Deda
Lia813
11-25-2004, 06:11 PM
Thanks, Deda. Congratulations on your 13 monsths ! I am glad to hear that most of your cravings are gone and those that remain are fleeting. I hope so much that I can do this. It truly makes no sense for me to put myself thru chemo to kill one type of cancer and then use a known cancer causing agent . I have to stay with the not smoking but it is hard as of course this is a very high stress time. I do know though that smoking will not help one thing . Then I will only feel bad for falling off the wagon. Thanks for your input. Lia
Deda
11-25-2004, 06:32 PM
Yes, you are right, Lia, smoking will not help one thing! It will aggravate everything in our body! I quit after I was diagnosed last year with autoimmune hypothyroid. I knew it would only make a bad situation with my health so much worse. I had quit 10 X, but always returned to smoking again, even after I quit for a year, 2 X. Won't do it again, ever. :nono:
Yes it is hard, but anything good doesn't come easy, right? So it may be hard the first few weeks, but just remember this, each week gets easier and easier, it really does! This first year went by SO fast for me. I'm so glad I hung in there and didn't go back. I even had a couple of short relapses, and picked myself back up and quit again. I'm now at the point that I feel pretty secure about it. I hate to even be around it. Yes, I will still have an occasional craving, I did the other day, and it only lasted about one minute. I did quit with the patches, and I practice relaxation as well. (you can buy CD's) I also took up walking, really good for stress, meditating and keeping the weight down too.
Don't just hope that you can do this. KNOW that you can do this! If I can quit, (and most people on this board will say the same thing), anyone can!!
Stick to these support groups too, if you need to, they really help. You can be posting the same message a year from now.
Happy Thanksgiving Lia! :)
Deda
Yes it is hard, but anything good doesn't come easy, right? So it may be hard the first few weeks, but just remember this, each week gets easier and easier, it really does! This first year went by SO fast for me. I'm so glad I hung in there and didn't go back. I even had a couple of short relapses, and picked myself back up and quit again. I'm now at the point that I feel pretty secure about it. I hate to even be around it. Yes, I will still have an occasional craving, I did the other day, and it only lasted about one minute. I did quit with the patches, and I practice relaxation as well. (you can buy CD's) I also took up walking, really good for stress, meditating and keeping the weight down too.
Don't just hope that you can do this. KNOW that you can do this! If I can quit, (and most people on this board will say the same thing), anyone can!!
Stick to these support groups too, if you need to, they really help. You can be posting the same message a year from now.
Happy Thanksgiving Lia! :)
Deda
Lia813
11-25-2004, 06:39 PM
Thank you, Deda, Happy Thanksgiving to you too. We have much to be thankful for. I also am hypothyroid . In 1994 I was diagnosed with Graves which is autoimmune HYPER thyroid. I had the radio active iodine treatment and was then hypo thyroid , so I have had that for 10 yrs. Oh and I have many more ailments , not even counting this newest, worst one, colon cancer. I had plenty of reasons to quit before and did not. Now I absolutely have to. I'm ok I think. My husband smokes and I can even be around it and am not really tempted. I am determined and must succeed. I will be checking in on this board as I can see there is a lot of help here. You are right, it is not TRY it is just DO. Lia
Deda
11-25-2004, 07:58 PM
Whoa, you had Graves too? Yes, I know what Graves is, my cousin had that. She had RIA also, and has never had problems with it since. Me, i have had the hardest time with it. I'm still not regulated, but I do feel better than I did months back. Thought I was going to die with the worst fatigue imaginable, lots of muscle pain, and all kinds of bizarre symptoms. :eek: How manys years have you been smoking, Lia? Just to reassure you...my closest girlfriend here had colon cancer when she was 40 years old. Hers had spread, and she just turned 62 the other day and is doing well. :)
Yes, we do have a lot to be thankful for. :) I especially am grateful this Thanksgiving that I am no longer a smoker! :D I'm sure that you are too!
Now the thing about your hubby being a smoker...after a while when he sees how great you are getting along without smoking, he may decide to give it up himself. Wouldn't that be wonderful? My hubby quit around 7 months before I did. I only smoked in the garage, never in my home or car, but still, I think it was hard for him. It really bothered me that I was still smoking and he wasn't! I thought, I don't want something to happen to me, and pictured him by himself. Or worse yet, with another chick! :eek: EEK! Perish the thought!!! No, was not gonna do it. 32 years together right now, I'm not going to go away that easy!!! LOL!!!!!
Keep in touch Lia, and hope you guys are enjoying a great turkey dinner together, or whatever else you chose to do/fix.
Off to check on my turkey.....
Deda
Yes, we do have a lot to be thankful for. :) I especially am grateful this Thanksgiving that I am no longer a smoker! :D I'm sure that you are too!
Now the thing about your hubby being a smoker...after a while when he sees how great you are getting along without smoking, he may decide to give it up himself. Wouldn't that be wonderful? My hubby quit around 7 months before I did. I only smoked in the garage, never in my home or car, but still, I think it was hard for him. It really bothered me that I was still smoking and he wasn't! I thought, I don't want something to happen to me, and pictured him by himself. Or worse yet, with another chick! :eek: EEK! Perish the thought!!! No, was not gonna do it. 32 years together right now, I'm not going to go away that easy!!! LOL!!!!!
Keep in touch Lia, and hope you guys are enjoying a great turkey dinner together, or whatever else you chose to do/fix.
Off to check on my turkey.....
Deda
Lia813
11-25-2004, 10:10 PM
Deda , I hate to even admit to this as it is just awful. I have been smoking for 40 years ! Yikes . I started when I was 18 and I am 58. Isn't that just crazy ?? I do not know how on earth I put them down. I was just way too sick to smoke and by the time I got out of the hospital with this abdominal surgery for colon cancer after 4 days I was still so sick and nauseated that I could not even think of a cigarette. I knew right then that it was the perfect opportunity to quit as I had already detoxed from nicotine in the hospital ! So I just did not do it anymore. I am not having that bad a time of it. I would not even say that I have cravings. Just fleeting thoughts of " I want a cigarette." But it passes. Well as far as TG dinner, my husband enjoyed turkey , dressing and all the trimmings , at his Mom's ,while I drank Ensure. I also have an esophageal problem called Nutcracker Esophagus and I cannot eat any solid food. None. It hangs up in my throat completely and will not go down so I have to throw it up. I have finally just quit trying to eat. I drink Ensure and lots of water to stay hydrated and I will have an appt with the Gastro Dr soon I hope. My PCP was calling in a referral as I have suffered since Jan. with this esophagus. Girl I have a lot more ailments too. Most all of them very strange !! Congratulations on being with the same husband 32 yrs. I can't claim that . I lasted 13 miserable yrs with the first one and have been with this one 16 yrs and he is wonderful. I could not ask for a better husband. Well gotta get off , we get up at 4:30 as I see my husband off to work etc. and drink coffee with him and pack his lunch, etc. Oh and the fact that your GF is 62 and got colon cancer at 40 gives me great hope. Mine has spread too , it was in 2 of the 5 lymph nodes they took out . I dread that chemo. Lia
Deda
11-26-2004, 03:13 AM
Lia- -
Don't be embaressed about taking so long to quit! 30 years, 40 years, it's all too long, but at least we are quitting. Some people never do! I go to casinos and see women that I know are in their 70's and up, and I think, OMG, I don't ever want to end up like that. It always shocks me to see elderly people smoking. A few make it without getting sick, but I think they are the exception to the rule. You're still young enough to do yourself a world of good by quitting now. :)
That Nutcracker esophogitis sounds horrible Lia! I have read about that, in fact I have costochronditis, and it is known to cause a bad pain in the breastbone. It's supposedly innflamation in the breastbone, and some Dr's call it "Nutcracker Syndrome". That sounds so miserable. Can you ever eat solid foods? Are you thin as a result of that? Do you have GERD too? I have that and another very strange thing called vulvodynia, (don't ask! ;) . These things come with having autoimmune disorders. Fortunately, these 3 things don't give me much trouble lately, tho a few months ago they were so bad, causing constant pain. My heart goes out to you, you have been through a lot. You know when we are getting older and having these health problems, it's just crucial that we quit smoking, (for good), start eating right, taking the supplements we need, exercise, adequate sleep, minimal stress, etc. I have learned this all in the past 2 years, and have changed my lifestyle completely around. I never thought I'd be so disciplined, but I now walk 2-4 miles every day, (5 days a week), I eat 4 servings of fruits and veggies a day, never thought I'd do that! Eat an apple before? HA...I'd rather smoke!!! :rolleyes: In fact, it's 50 degrees out, and dh and I just walked 3 miles.
Lia, I know you must be stressing that chemo coming up girl, but hang in there, you will survive, and come out in the end as good as it gets. :) You are going to get healthier now that you aren't smoking any more. It will be tough, but you are tough! And I will pray for you too, I promise! :nono: That's wonderful that you have such a wonderful husband, and I'm sure he will see you through every step of the way! My hubby has been wonderful since I've got sick. This is when you find out how much they really love you.
So where does Lia reside? I'm up here in cloudy and gray N. CA, near Sacramento.
Lia, let me know when do you start your chemo and how long will it be for. I will put you on my prayer list. I'm glad you made it through the hellacious time and surgery in the hospital! Sounds awful. But something good DID come out of it, :nono: you quit smoking!
Keep in touch sweetie.
(((((hugs)))))
Deda
Don't be embaressed about taking so long to quit! 30 years, 40 years, it's all too long, but at least we are quitting. Some people never do! I go to casinos and see women that I know are in their 70's and up, and I think, OMG, I don't ever want to end up like that. It always shocks me to see elderly people smoking. A few make it without getting sick, but I think they are the exception to the rule. You're still young enough to do yourself a world of good by quitting now. :)
That Nutcracker esophogitis sounds horrible Lia! I have read about that, in fact I have costochronditis, and it is known to cause a bad pain in the breastbone. It's supposedly innflamation in the breastbone, and some Dr's call it "Nutcracker Syndrome". That sounds so miserable. Can you ever eat solid foods? Are you thin as a result of that? Do you have GERD too? I have that and another very strange thing called vulvodynia, (don't ask! ;) . These things come with having autoimmune disorders. Fortunately, these 3 things don't give me much trouble lately, tho a few months ago they were so bad, causing constant pain. My heart goes out to you, you have been through a lot. You know when we are getting older and having these health problems, it's just crucial that we quit smoking, (for good), start eating right, taking the supplements we need, exercise, adequate sleep, minimal stress, etc. I have learned this all in the past 2 years, and have changed my lifestyle completely around. I never thought I'd be so disciplined, but I now walk 2-4 miles every day, (5 days a week), I eat 4 servings of fruits and veggies a day, never thought I'd do that! Eat an apple before? HA...I'd rather smoke!!! :rolleyes: In fact, it's 50 degrees out, and dh and I just walked 3 miles.
Lia, I know you must be stressing that chemo coming up girl, but hang in there, you will survive, and come out in the end as good as it gets. :) You are going to get healthier now that you aren't smoking any more. It will be tough, but you are tough! And I will pray for you too, I promise! :nono: That's wonderful that you have such a wonderful husband, and I'm sure he will see you through every step of the way! My hubby has been wonderful since I've got sick. This is when you find out how much they really love you.
So where does Lia reside? I'm up here in cloudy and gray N. CA, near Sacramento.
Lia, let me know when do you start your chemo and how long will it be for. I will put you on my prayer list. I'm glad you made it through the hellacious time and surgery in the hospital! Sounds awful. But something good DID come out of it, :nono: you quit smoking!
Keep in touch sweetie.
(((((hugs)))))
Deda
Lia813
11-26-2004, 09:26 AM
NO , Deda, are we twins or what !!!??? Vulvodynia , girl do I ever know ALL about that. I have LS ( lichen sclerosus ) . Are you familiar with that? Put it in a search engine and you'll know what I mean about us being twins !! You know my husband once had a bout of costochronditis and it scared him to death, he was certain he was having a heart attack. I don't have Gerd. Just terrible chest pain upon swallowing though that part of it has subsided some what over the 11 mos. I have had this mess. I am now left with not being able to eat anything at all. Am I thin? Well I lost 40 pounds in 1999 and have gained about 10 back. That was on a low fat diet which I have contd to this day , trying to get my cholesterol down. I have not been successful I might add as far as chol. goes. I guess it is familial and I cannot take the statins. Been there done that. I nearly died of the muscle pain. But anyway, not eating I don't lose weight as those Ensures have plenty of calories. I am 5'4" and weigh 122 . This morning sometime my daughter and her hubby and 2 kids are coming by on their way home to see how bad off I am, heehee. They visited her Dad in Louisiana for TG for several days and will come visit me a couple of hours before heading home to San Antonio. My stomach is right in the hug zone for those kids. Whew and is it sore. Some of the steri strips are about to let go and then I will see the finished product !! Anyway I am from the great state of Texas. Central Texas in fact , 40 miles west of Waco. I will let you know if and when I live thru those kids visit. You know the parents do not watch them anymore and I sure cannot chase after them. It should be interesting. Lia
Deda
11-26-2004, 04:43 PM
Lia...
I just typed you a big reply, hit go advanced, and the whole thing disappeared! Dang, that makes me mad! Wonder why it does that sometimes?
Yes, I know what Lichen is. I don't have that, but I'm on a message list for the vulvodynia, and I see that quite a few of the ladies have that as a cause of their vdy. Lichen S. is another auto immune disorder. Many women with vdy have AI diseases, such as thyroid, MS, Lupus, etc. Now, this condition sucks, doesn't it? Talk about pain, OMG! Mine is under control right now, but I do think that once you have it, it never goes completely away. Mine was caused by the hypo, and recurrent yeast inf. You know, when you said in your last email that you had some strange disorders, my first thought was that you might have that too. I hope you have it under control.
Yes, I am familiar with that part of TX. My hubby is retired from the aF and we did an assignment in Abilene, 1976-80. I had my baby girl over there. I liked it it there... Ppl were very friendly, and I liked the hot dry summers.
Lia, do you take Niacin for your cholesterol problem? My hubby is on that for his. He has his levels down below the limits now, but I don't think his is familial. You sure have had your share of health problems, bless your heart. You know with all of these conditions, we better not smoke! I did used to wonder if my smoking had anything to do with my Vdy, but in research that has been done on it, they didn't see any correlation to smoking. BUT, smoking does affect the circulation, as does the hypo, and that would definitely aggrevate it.
I am 5'4" too, :rolleyes: but I'm in the 140's now! I look very slim at 140 lbs, the way I carry my weight, and still wear a sz 8, so not too upset. I have gained 8 lbs, but more from still being hypo, than from quitting smoking.
I couldn't beleive your hubby had costochondritis! Is it gone now? What did/does he take for it? I was told to take 800 mg Motrin, but it didn't help at all. And yes, omg, it is so painful! Feels like your chest bones are in a vise grip! OUCH! Haven't really had much pain there lately, thank God!
Well Lia, you enjoy those grandchildren and your daughter's visit, but be careful. Sounds like you are still fragile. When did you have your surgery?
You have a good day, but don't try to do too much with the kids there. I know what you mean about parents not watching their kids anymore. I don't have grandchildren yet, but I see this problem with my friends and their G'kids. No one seems to dicsipline their little ones anymore, do they? (Not the way we were raised, huh?)
Take it easy, and whatever you do, (or don't do) JUST DON'T SMOKE!!! :nono:
keep in touch...
Deda :)
I just typed you a big reply, hit go advanced, and the whole thing disappeared! Dang, that makes me mad! Wonder why it does that sometimes?
Yes, I know what Lichen is. I don't have that, but I'm on a message list for the vulvodynia, and I see that quite a few of the ladies have that as a cause of their vdy. Lichen S. is another auto immune disorder. Many women with vdy have AI diseases, such as thyroid, MS, Lupus, etc. Now, this condition sucks, doesn't it? Talk about pain, OMG! Mine is under control right now, but I do think that once you have it, it never goes completely away. Mine was caused by the hypo, and recurrent yeast inf. You know, when you said in your last email that you had some strange disorders, my first thought was that you might have that too. I hope you have it under control.
Yes, I am familiar with that part of TX. My hubby is retired from the aF and we did an assignment in Abilene, 1976-80. I had my baby girl over there. I liked it it there... Ppl were very friendly, and I liked the hot dry summers.
Lia, do you take Niacin for your cholesterol problem? My hubby is on that for his. He has his levels down below the limits now, but I don't think his is familial. You sure have had your share of health problems, bless your heart. You know with all of these conditions, we better not smoke! I did used to wonder if my smoking had anything to do with my Vdy, but in research that has been done on it, they didn't see any correlation to smoking. BUT, smoking does affect the circulation, as does the hypo, and that would definitely aggrevate it.
I am 5'4" too, :rolleyes: but I'm in the 140's now! I look very slim at 140 lbs, the way I carry my weight, and still wear a sz 8, so not too upset. I have gained 8 lbs, but more from still being hypo, than from quitting smoking.
I couldn't beleive your hubby had costochondritis! Is it gone now? What did/does he take for it? I was told to take 800 mg Motrin, but it didn't help at all. And yes, omg, it is so painful! Feels like your chest bones are in a vise grip! OUCH! Haven't really had much pain there lately, thank God!
Well Lia, you enjoy those grandchildren and your daughter's visit, but be careful. Sounds like you are still fragile. When did you have your surgery?
You have a good day, but don't try to do too much with the kids there. I know what you mean about parents not watching their kids anymore. I don't have grandchildren yet, but I see this problem with my friends and their G'kids. No one seems to dicsipline their little ones anymore, do they? (Not the way we were raised, huh?)
Take it easy, and whatever you do, (or don't do) JUST DON'T SMOKE!!! :nono:
keep in touch...
Deda :)
Lia813
11-26-2004, 05:45 PM
Deda, my company is gone. The children were well behaved as I had a sack of surprises for them and that kept them busy. They were very mindful of my incision too. It was a good visit. When my husband had that costochondritis his cleared up with Lodine. Maybe your Dr will give it to you. You will have to eat food with it or it will really tear your stomach up. The LS I have went misdiagnosed for about 5 yrs thus now I am fused almost to the utrethra. And cannot have sex at all as the vaginal opening is too small now. Also I have no labia minora , they have absorbed into the labia majora. I have a VERY UNDERSTANDING husband. And guess who else has LS?? My 8 yr old granddaughter , the one that was here today and the one I am so close to. She was diagnosed at 6 yrs old. sigh. Mine is under control as far as the itching goes, I use Temovate once on Sat. and once on Sun, a pea sized amout. There is no cure of course .Get a load of my family history. My brother has RA , his 3 daughters have Graves and Hashimotos , my sister has Fibro, my daughter has Lupus and Hashimotos, her daughter has LS and Asthma.I have High blood pressure, Graves, osteoarthritis, spinal stenosis with referred pain to my legs and feet which is neuropathy , oh and I have a bulging disk between L4 and L5. I also have Osteoporosis, am an insomniac. have nutcracker esophagus and now colon cancer. How about that line up. Boy do I get tired of all this. What all do you have?Lia ........PS ......Deda ,I just hit quick reply and mine have always gone thru .
Deda
11-26-2004, 06:55 PM
OMG, Lia, I can't believe your little grandaughter has that LS too! Is it in the same place??? Bless her little heart, that is SO unfair!! :(
And bless your heart, you poor girl! You have such an extreme care of LS. I'm so sorry. Sounds like your hubby is truly an angel, :angel: so you are so blessed in that respect!
Yes, we have tons of AI diseases in my family too. The worst of all AI diseases, 3 family members have died of pulmonary fibrosis, (there is a familial type, I guess what this is, and it scares me to death!) my mom, brother, aunts, all with hashimotos/hypoT, my brother died at 46 with Wegener's Granulomatosis, (very rare AI disease), vasculitis, pernicious anemia, etc., neice had ITP at 3 years old, nephew had rheumatic fever when he was about 2, and arthritis, etc. Where it all came from, I dunno. :confused: My mother's parents both lived to old age, her mother to 91 and she didn't have a single disease, just her heart gave out from old age. I think there are enviromental factors/agents playing a role in these diseases. All of the chemicals in our foods, water, and the air that we breathe. They are becoming so much more prevalent. So far, I guess I've been lucky. I have the hypo, TMJ, Vdy, tendonitis, (probably from my hypo), costochondritis, and GERD. I do have some serious back pain as well, and haven't had that investigated thoroughly enough. Terrible muscle spasms in my upper back, that travels to the muscles in front. This seems to be better today, as I skipped my thyroid meds. I think the Armour, (the T3 in it) aggravates it. Whenever my levels get a little high, these spasms get worse. If I cut my dose way down, or skip taking it for 1 day, it almost goes away. But I hate to quit Armour, and go back to Levothroid, as the Armour is what got my Vdy under control. 4 weeks after starting Armour it went totally away. Now it only rears it's ugly head when my levels get too low or too high. I need to find a better GP too. I'm thinking of searching for a D.O., as I think they are more capable and open minded to handle all of these rare things.
I'm glad you had a good visit with your family. I can't get my mind off that poor little girl! And your poor daughter has Lupus? I take it she has it under control, as she is working? Lia, do you take Moducare, or any supplements that are good for the Immune system?
How many days now since you had a smoke? :confused:
((((hugs))))
Deda
And bless your heart, you poor girl! You have such an extreme care of LS. I'm so sorry. Sounds like your hubby is truly an angel, :angel: so you are so blessed in that respect!
Yes, we have tons of AI diseases in my family too. The worst of all AI diseases, 3 family members have died of pulmonary fibrosis, (there is a familial type, I guess what this is, and it scares me to death!) my mom, brother, aunts, all with hashimotos/hypoT, my brother died at 46 with Wegener's Granulomatosis, (very rare AI disease), vasculitis, pernicious anemia, etc., neice had ITP at 3 years old, nephew had rheumatic fever when he was about 2, and arthritis, etc. Where it all came from, I dunno. :confused: My mother's parents both lived to old age, her mother to 91 and she didn't have a single disease, just her heart gave out from old age. I think there are enviromental factors/agents playing a role in these diseases. All of the chemicals in our foods, water, and the air that we breathe. They are becoming so much more prevalent. So far, I guess I've been lucky. I have the hypo, TMJ, Vdy, tendonitis, (probably from my hypo), costochondritis, and GERD. I do have some serious back pain as well, and haven't had that investigated thoroughly enough. Terrible muscle spasms in my upper back, that travels to the muscles in front. This seems to be better today, as I skipped my thyroid meds. I think the Armour, (the T3 in it) aggravates it. Whenever my levels get a little high, these spasms get worse. If I cut my dose way down, or skip taking it for 1 day, it almost goes away. But I hate to quit Armour, and go back to Levothroid, as the Armour is what got my Vdy under control. 4 weeks after starting Armour it went totally away. Now it only rears it's ugly head when my levels get too low or too high. I need to find a better GP too. I'm thinking of searching for a D.O., as I think they are more capable and open minded to handle all of these rare things.
I'm glad you had a good visit with your family. I can't get my mind off that poor little girl! And your poor daughter has Lupus? I take it she has it under control, as she is working? Lia, do you take Moducare, or any supplements that are good for the Immune system?
How many days now since you had a smoke? :confused:
((((hugs))))
Deda
Lia813
11-26-2004, 07:04 PM
Deda, my surgery was on 11/4 and that morning before we walked into the hospital was the last time I smoked , so I guess 3 weeks and a day . I don't take any supplements but the calcium. I was taking a multi vitami and glucosamine for my arthritis but I can't swallow the pills anymore, I do good to get down the prescription ones . So I am not taking anything but them right now and there are a bunch of them. The Chemo Dr will also tell me what I can and cannot take . Some meds interfere with it . So I will do as he says as he is bound to know more than I do. My PCP is a DO and he is nice and sweet but I don't think he has anymore expertise than the other PCP's . Wow your family is full of AI diseases too. What a drag. Yes my daughter is in remission with the lupus , but we are always waiting for the other shoe to drop. And yes the granddaughters LS is right where mine is. Sigh. Lia
Deda
11-26-2004, 10:05 PM
Lia- -
What is spinal stenosis? I forgot about another cousin of mine that had extreme psoriasis, all over her body, when she was 6 years old. Came and went over the yrs, stress made it worse. Poor thing, then she was murdered at 24. (Took ride home from a party w/ the wrong 2 guys). Also my daughter has asthma. They say that's AI too, and the psoriasis is AI as well. If my costochondritis ever comes back as severe as it was before, (right now it's gone), I will ask my doc about that Lodine. Thank you for letting me know about that Lia. Did his go away for good? If so, that's wonderful!
I'm so happy for you succeeding quitting the smoking! Next week will already be a whole month! You go girl! :D Rah! Rah! LIA!!!!!!
Give that poor little grandaughter tons of hugs, Lia, that poor baby. I know what that Temovate is, a Dr. that was treating my vdy gave me that once. My skin had become excoriated from the long term yeast. Ouch, that steroid made it hurt worse for me. In time, the skin did heal up, but took a long time.
Keep up the good work staying smoke free in TX, girl! :)
Deda
PS~It would be nice if they started a VDY board here...maybe someday they will. I've seen it mentioned on various boards here.
What is spinal stenosis? I forgot about another cousin of mine that had extreme psoriasis, all over her body, when she was 6 years old. Came and went over the yrs, stress made it worse. Poor thing, then she was murdered at 24. (Took ride home from a party w/ the wrong 2 guys). Also my daughter has asthma. They say that's AI too, and the psoriasis is AI as well. If my costochondritis ever comes back as severe as it was before, (right now it's gone), I will ask my doc about that Lodine. Thank you for letting me know about that Lia. Did his go away for good? If so, that's wonderful!
I'm so happy for you succeeding quitting the smoking! Next week will already be a whole month! You go girl! :D Rah! Rah! LIA!!!!!!
Give that poor little grandaughter tons of hugs, Lia, that poor baby. I know what that Temovate is, a Dr. that was treating my vdy gave me that once. My skin had become excoriated from the long term yeast. Ouch, that steroid made it hurt worse for me. In time, the skin did heal up, but took a long time.
Keep up the good work staying smoke free in TX, girl! :)
Deda
PS~It would be nice if they started a VDY board here...maybe someday they will. I've seen it mentioned on various boards here.
Lia813
11-27-2004, 08:36 AM
Indeed, Deda, they need a Vulvodynia board here. Many are suffering from it. Yes girl asthma and psoriasis are both AI. My mother who died 33 yrs ago on Xmas Eve (at my age I might add, 58 ! )of a form of colitis had psoriasis too. It just all runs rampant in my family. Spinal Stenosis is a narrowing of the spinal canal. That is what protects our spinal cord. So mine has narrowed and mashes on nerves that lead to my feet and the back of my calves. So I had to go to a Physiatrist and he ordered PT which I completed and I did exercises from PT everyday until this surgery. The exercises are to strengthen the back and stomach muscles so that my spine will be supported more by them. That has all fallen by the way side since I got the colon cancer and had my stomach muscles cut all the way thru. I do not know when on earth I can go back to abdominal exercises. But that PT was helping me so much and now I am back to square one. The Physiatrist also has me on nuerontin and amitriptyline, both used off label for nerve pain which is what my legs and feet have caused from the Spinal problems. It has helped them alot. Not sure what of my meds I can take during chemo. Oh dear I hope I am not nauseated from that mess. And of course I do not want to lose my hair. I better get busy getting a wig and some head coverings. Sigh. Lia
Deda
11-28-2004, 06:22 AM
Lia...you poor dear, so much pain you have been through, it makes my problems seem so much more minimal. Your mother died young like my mother, she was 56. :(
That is too bad that you had to stop your exercises, but I'm sure there will come a day that you'll be able to do them again. :nono: Be patient, Lia, it will happen. Try to stay positive in thinking about the chemo treatments, not everyone gets real sick. And don't they have some new meds to help w/ that? I'm glad the Neurontin is helping you too. You must have really good health insurance, girl. :) It sound as if you do.
You will have a lot of ppl here on these boards to cheer you on and help keep your spirits up! And you sound like you are very strong, which helps! :angel:
God bless you...
Deda
That is too bad that you had to stop your exercises, but I'm sure there will come a day that you'll be able to do them again. :nono: Be patient, Lia, it will happen. Try to stay positive in thinking about the chemo treatments, not everyone gets real sick. And don't they have some new meds to help w/ that? I'm glad the Neurontin is helping you too. You must have really good health insurance, girl. :) It sound as if you do.
You will have a lot of ppl here on these boards to cheer you on and help keep your spirits up! And you sound like you are very strong, which helps! :angel:
God bless you...
Deda
Lia813
11-28-2004, 12:10 PM
Thanks, Deda, you are a sweetheart. I see that you lost your mother at a young age too. There is never a good time for that. I'm not sure how good the insurance is with surgery or a hospital stay as I have never used it for that. I sure am hoping though that it is. We have to go to an appt with the Business Office right before the Chemo Dr appt and that worries me. Sounds to me like they are gonna want to know how we are gonna pay whatever the ins. does not pay. Sigh. I know chemo has improved thru the years and hopefully it will not be too bad. I think I hope for the best but prepare for the worst. I'll let you know how Thursdays appt . goes with the Business office and the Chemo Dr. Oh Deda, lately I have really been wanting a cigarette. I resist and will make myself resist from now on . This is all hard though without the cigarette crutch. But I am really trying and have now made it 3 weeks and 3 days. I wonder when one day will go by that I do not think of cigarettes !! Lia
Deda
11-29-2004, 10:00 PM
Oh Lia...don't give in to those cravings, what ever you do, girl! :nono: Believe me, you would really regret it. 3 weeks and 3 days is such a GOOD start, and you don't want to go through that withdrawl again. (at least you were in the hospital when you went through that before, and your feeling so sick kept you from having that desire to smoke...it would probably be harder next time). Plus, with that chemo coming up, you will probably get through that much better without smoking. We get through everything better w/o smoking! :) I would suggest some nicotene replacement, but you are already totally weaned from nicotene, so you are just dealing with the mental aspect of it. Hang in there, they pass quickly, and with each passing week, they WILL lessen. Yes, I used to wonder the same thing you are in the first couple of months...will a day ever come when I won't think about having a cigarette???? Well, I'm now having many days (most days), without thinking about them. And when I do, it passes really quickly...HONESTLY!!!! Please don't give in...
I'm sorry I took so long to reply, I've been feeling tired the past few days. Sometimes I feel too tired to even type a message, but I had to tell you this...PLEASE DON'T SMOKE!!!!! I like you, and I really want to see you kick this horrible habit, and I want you to get healthier too! :)
Good luck with the insurance people, and let me know how your doc appt. goes.
Hang in there, it will get better...
Deda
I'm sorry I took so long to reply, I've been feeling tired the past few days. Sometimes I feel too tired to even type a message, but I had to tell you this...PLEASE DON'T SMOKE!!!!! I like you, and I really want to see you kick this horrible habit, and I want you to get healthier too! :)
Good luck with the insurance people, and let me know how your doc appt. goes.
Hang in there, it will get better...
Deda
Lia813
11-29-2004, 10:50 PM
Why are you tired, Deda? What all other ills do you have ? Girl I have so many that they are too numerous to list . This colon cancer being the latest and the worst by far. My ill health began 10 yrs ago with Graves Disease, it has gone steadily down hill from that. I sure am glad you posted as I was really in a foul humor today . Over these stupid cigarettes. I started thinking that it was not really my intent to quit. And it wasn't. Of course I knew I could not smoke during the hospital stay but I fully intended to pick them right back up when I got out. Even though I know the danger I really like to smoke !! I know I sound like a lunatic tonite but I tell you this is a hard time to quit with this chemo looming. Anyway I have not smoked and I will continue to not smoke , I hope. I am waiting for that day when I do not think about a cigarette. I did not think much about them at all when I was so sick the first 2 weeks of this colon thing . That surgery wiped any thought of them out of my mind. But now that I am feeling better it seems that is all I think about. You get some rest . Hopefully we will all feel better tomorow . Lia
Deda
11-30-2004, 12:11 AM
Oh Lia, it's just this stupid hypo. I'm still not regulated, so I still have my moments. But overall, really, I'm feeling better than a few months ago, just get fatigued still. And some days not. I took a long walk tonight, and that usually helps get my energy up, if I do it daily. I would've walked further, but it was 45 degrees out there...brrrrrr..shiver...yikes!
I'm so glad that you haven't smoked yet. Please remember, that with that chemo, it would probaby make you feel worse. Also, smoking is really bad for those of us with AI diseases. I know it's hard, but you are still in the early stages of quitting, so the little monkey will be on your back more often right now, than say, a month from now. Is it because of your hubby smoking that it's tempting you? Try to stay away from him when he's lighting up! :nono: Does he smoke in the house? Anyway he can go in the garage, or at least confine it to only one room in the house, and close the door?
I'm so sorry Lia that you have had so many health problems. That doesn't surprise me that it all started with the Grave's disease. On the thyroid boards here, a lot of ppl talk of their health going downhill after the thyroid problem started. It weakens our immune systems. Is your thyroid disease managed well? Are your levels tested frequently, and are they optimal for you? It's crucial that all of this is carefully monitored. I think I'm getting closer to optimal levels soon. :)
Please check in tomorrow and let us know how you are doing. Try your hardest to distract yourself with something that keeps your mind busy. Read, take walks, crafts, go watch a movie, heck, type on these boards all day!!! :rolleyes: Just don't smoke, girl!!!
Love,
Deda
I'm so glad that you haven't smoked yet. Please remember, that with that chemo, it would probaby make you feel worse. Also, smoking is really bad for those of us with AI diseases. I know it's hard, but you are still in the early stages of quitting, so the little monkey will be on your back more often right now, than say, a month from now. Is it because of your hubby smoking that it's tempting you? Try to stay away from him when he's lighting up! :nono: Does he smoke in the house? Anyway he can go in the garage, or at least confine it to only one room in the house, and close the door?
I'm so sorry Lia that you have had so many health problems. That doesn't surprise me that it all started with the Grave's disease. On the thyroid boards here, a lot of ppl talk of their health going downhill after the thyroid problem started. It weakens our immune systems. Is your thyroid disease managed well? Are your levels tested frequently, and are they optimal for you? It's crucial that all of this is carefully monitored. I think I'm getting closer to optimal levels soon. :)
Please check in tomorrow and let us know how you are doing. Try your hardest to distract yourself with something that keeps your mind busy. Read, take walks, crafts, go watch a movie, heck, type on these boards all day!!! :rolleyes: Just don't smoke, girl!!!
Love,
Deda
Lia813
11-30-2004, 12:10 PM
Oh yes, Deda, I am not surprised that you feel bad with the hypo. I have never been so sick in all my life as I was with Graves . Since going hypo mine has stayed pretty regulated. In fact in all the 10 yrs I have had it the dosage has only had to be changed once. But I have had sooooooo many diseases to follow it that I just know it was the beginning of all the rest. I feel better mentally today than yesterday. I was just put out and feeling sorry for myself about the smoking. Actually I am kinda sick too. I find that when I lie down , for the last few nights ,I just cough and cough and cough and wheeze also. My goodness I did not cough and wheeze like this when I was smoking !! I am fine sitting up but if I lie down I just feel like I cannot get a deep breath and cough and wheeze. Wonder what that is ? Lia
Deda
11-30-2004, 06:54 PM
Hello there Lia...
I'm glad that you are feeling in better spirits today! :jester:
That coughing and wheezing is probably all the "junk" coming up from your lungs, that is known to happen to some ppl after they quit smoking. I wonder if it might help to take some Mucenex from the drug store. It's now OTC, used to have to get a script for it. It thins out those secretions, and helps it to come up easier.
What thyroid med do you take? Well Lia, better go, have a lot to do, been neglecting things for a few days here. I hope your cravings are settling down some today. Chew some bubble gum or get some lollipops, maybe? Keep your mind busy, try to not think about those stinkin' cigs. :nono:
Hang tough girl...I know you can!
Deda
I'm glad that you are feeling in better spirits today! :jester:
That coughing and wheezing is probably all the "junk" coming up from your lungs, that is known to happen to some ppl after they quit smoking. I wonder if it might help to take some Mucenex from the drug store. It's now OTC, used to have to get a script for it. It thins out those secretions, and helps it to come up easier.
What thyroid med do you take? Well Lia, better go, have a lot to do, been neglecting things for a few days here. I hope your cravings are settling down some today. Chew some bubble gum or get some lollipops, maybe? Keep your mind busy, try to not think about those stinkin' cigs. :nono:
Hang tough girl...I know you can!
Deda
Lia813
11-30-2004, 07:15 PM
Ok, Deda, I wrote down Mucenex to look for at Walmart when we go to the Chemo Dr on Thursday. I really think that this coughing and wheezing is coming from my esophagus problem more than from the stopping smoking but who knows. I just wish SOMEBODY could do something about my esophagus. I have never been so tired of liquids in my life. I am waiting everyday for an appt in the mail to see the Gastro Dr again and it does not come. I will have to call them tomorrow and see what the hold up is. I do know one thing, that the chemo may put any work on the esophagus on hold. The chemo comes first and some treatments and procedures they simply will not do with that going on. I am at least ok about not smoking today . I've given it little thought. Small mercies. Lia..........PS.......My thyroid med is Levothyroxin .112 mcg. :wave:
Deda
12-01-2004, 02:49 AM
I am at least ok about not smoking today . I've given it little thought.
Good job, Lia!!! :p Glad you are still trying...don't give in girl!!
Wow, one med adjustment in 10 years is NOT bad. I'm on Armour, which is a little more complicated to adjust, as it has T3 in it. Yours is straight T4. Can't wait to get this adjusted and stable. Today my thyroid itself has bothered me since I first got up this morning. I have an ultra sound scheduled for it next week. :)
I know, it must be tough, not being able to swallow anything but liquids. I have a feeling after a few months of not smoking, that your esophogus problems might improve some. I'm sure the smoking greatly affected that, since that smoke goes right through the esophogus. But yes, I would think the chemo would come first before anything else. You are in my prayers, Lia. Good luck with your appts on Thursday. :) Hope you find out good news regarding insurance covering everything. It's all so important. Have you been getting out any, to get your mind off things? Keeping busy? I hope things are going well for you today. :)
((((hugs))))
Deda
Good job, Lia!!! :p Glad you are still trying...don't give in girl!!
Wow, one med adjustment in 10 years is NOT bad. I'm on Armour, which is a little more complicated to adjust, as it has T3 in it. Yours is straight T4. Can't wait to get this adjusted and stable. Today my thyroid itself has bothered me since I first got up this morning. I have an ultra sound scheduled for it next week. :)
I know, it must be tough, not being able to swallow anything but liquids. I have a feeling after a few months of not smoking, that your esophogus problems might improve some. I'm sure the smoking greatly affected that, since that smoke goes right through the esophogus. But yes, I would think the chemo would come first before anything else. You are in my prayers, Lia. Good luck with your appts on Thursday. :) Hope you find out good news regarding insurance covering everything. It's all so important. Have you been getting out any, to get your mind off things? Keeping busy? I hope things are going well for you today. :)
((((hugs))))
Deda
Lia813
12-01-2004, 08:55 AM
I've gotten out a couple of times. And of course will be out tomorrow. I finally feel like I am healing , on the outside at least. The last steri strip fell off this morning. Now I can start putting some lotion on this scar. Since I do not hurt inside I have to assume that the re section of the colon is ok too. I am still not gonna lift anything too heavy and of course the incision is still very tender to the touch so I am sure it has more healing to go. I would think too that not smoking would help the esophagus , but tomorrow is 4 weeks and it has not changed for the better. Is worse if anything. I am so tired of dealing with the esophagus as I never get any relief after all the tests and pills. It is the same and getting steadily worse. I am gonna call my PCP's office AGAIN today and light a fire under them ! Lia
Deda
12-01-2004, 05:54 PM
Lia...well THAT is good news, that your scar is healing well, and no pain on the inside, thank goodness! And yeah, don't lift anything heavy, girl. You need to take it easy, you surgery was, what, only 4 weeks ago? I'd treat myself very gently. :)
I know, Lia, that problem with your esophogus sounds horrible. I don't think you would notice any improvement there from quitting smoking for a while. It took a few months really, before I started seeing changes. (we smoked a longggg time!) I hope that after your chemo and all of that's over with, they can help you with your esoph. problems. My heart goes out to you Lia, and I will pray for you. :nono:
Good luck when you call your PCP's office. But when you light that fire under them, please don't light a cigarette, okay??? :blob_fire
Wow...4 WEEKS ALREADY???? YooooHoooo! Alright, LIA!!!!
Proud of you...
Deda :D
I know, Lia, that problem with your esophogus sounds horrible. I don't think you would notice any improvement there from quitting smoking for a while. It took a few months really, before I started seeing changes. (we smoked a longggg time!) I hope that after your chemo and all of that's over with, they can help you with your esoph. problems. My heart goes out to you Lia, and I will pray for you. :nono:
Good luck when you call your PCP's office. But when you light that fire under them, please don't light a cigarette, okay??? :blob_fire
Wow...4 WEEKS ALREADY???? YooooHoooo! Alright, LIA!!!!
Proud of you...
Deda :D
Lia813
12-01-2004, 06:08 PM
4 weeks today , Deda. Have not smoked. I will not say that I do not want to, but I am not consumed with it at least. Yes I would prefer to smoke ,if I had my druthers but I don't . My health has forced me to give them up and detoxing from them in the hospital was too good a chance to pass up. I called the PCP 's office and they said the referral had been sent but they had not heard back from Temple ( where the specialist's are ) yet. So I wait. I really don't think there is much to do for Nutcracker Esophagus though I cannot imagine not eating any solid food forever. If you get a chance go to the Digestive Disorders board and read the post entitled Possible Esophageal Stricture . I could have written that post . It is a good description of what I go thru everyday with my esophagus . Thank you for praying for me Deda. You have helped me a lot already . Lia
Deda
12-01-2004, 06:28 PM
Awww, that's sweet, Lia. But I really do pray for you. You have been so sick, and my health problems are not half as bad, and I feel miserable sometimes.
I know...about the smoking. The truth is, yeah, I would prefer to smoke. Not gonna lie...but we all know, they are NEVER going to be able to manufactor a safe ciggie, so we have to try our best to live the best life we can, right? And it's just not going to happen if we continue to smoke! We KNOW that, yet sometimes our brains are in denial, and try to convince us otherwise. I fight those little thoughts. And I tell myself that I really didn't, and wouldn't enjoy it. Anyway, the whole time I smoked, (well, at least the last 15 years) all I ever did is WISH that I could QUIT!!!! So, I'm happier being a non smoker, I really am! And you will be too, in time, I know you will!! :)
I will go to that board and check that thread out later this evening. I'm off to go walk now.
Take care sweetie...
Deda
I know...about the smoking. The truth is, yeah, I would prefer to smoke. Not gonna lie...but we all know, they are NEVER going to be able to manufactor a safe ciggie, so we have to try our best to live the best life we can, right? And it's just not going to happen if we continue to smoke! We KNOW that, yet sometimes our brains are in denial, and try to convince us otherwise. I fight those little thoughts. And I tell myself that I really didn't, and wouldn't enjoy it. Anyway, the whole time I smoked, (well, at least the last 15 years) all I ever did is WISH that I could QUIT!!!! So, I'm happier being a non smoker, I really am! And you will be too, in time, I know you will!! :)
I will go to that board and check that thread out later this evening. I'm off to go walk now.
Take care sweetie...
Deda
Lia813
12-01-2004, 06:36 PM
I think that I don't yet have the non smoker attitude because I really did not choose to not smoke. I knew of course that going in the hospital I could not smoke and knew that the average hospital stay for colon resection was 3 to 5 days . I knew that the detoxing from niccotine would go on in there but still I planned to smoke as soon as I got out. But I was still so sick from the anesthesia, so nauseous that I could not have smoked at gun point. So that lasted another week and by the time I could even have thought about smoking I was already 2 weeks with out smoking. So I figured I better not throw that chance away . I hope someday I will not want one. M rational mind tells me it would be insanity to start especially since I have cancer already. Just insane. I'll be ok. I can do it , there is not doubt about that. It is just hard at times. Lia
Deda
12-02-2004, 04:18 AM
Oh Lia...I know it's hard at first, but it will get easier. Keep hanging around here, it will help change your attitude. Do you know what I did when I first quit, (and even before I quit?) I would go read a few postings at the Lung Cancer board! That would usually freak me out enough that I would right away start thinking..."alright, I DON'T want to smoke, no, no, no, I don't really want to smoke!" Also go read at Quit net, they have stories too. I had to use scare tactics, as well as everything else I had to do to quit. I have really worked hard at this quit Lia, in comparison to the other times I quit. There were MANY times in the beginning of this quit, Lia, that I made up my mind that I really didn't want to quit. (and I DID have a couple of short relapses) Then I'd have to "re-program" my mind. I guess it's been worth it tho, or I wouldn't be here still. :) Let's start a new thread possibly? This one's gettin' so long. LOL!!! :D
Hang tough...
Deda
Hang tough...
Deda
Deda
12-02-2004, 03:56 PM
Lia,
Hey girl...didn't see a post from you today, and then realized that you have that appt. at the hospital today. Let me know how it went, and don't forget to read my post above. I hope everything went well over there. :)
Deda
Won't be on till later, I have a lot to do today.
Hey girl...didn't see a post from you today, and then realized that you have that appt. at the hospital today. Let me know how it went, and don't forget to read my post above. I hope everything went well over there. :)
Deda
Won't be on till later, I have a lot to do today.