gfdgdsreg
12-02-2004, 07:43 PM
Unfortunatley, I'm stuck with 3 mental disorders. obsessive compulsive, ADD (Not ADHD), and schizophrenia. I also have germ-a-phobia, and epilepsy.
I've noticed somthing different about me. My intelligence is going away.. I've felt like this for the last week. I used to be able to do 6-step mathmatical equations in my head in less that a second. I noticed now when I try to do math, I can keep the current numbers in my head, but the other ones that i'll need later on I seem to be forgetting. I do everything much slower now. Somthing simple, like sending a semi-lengthy e-mail to a friend would take about 10 minutes.. After I finished up, I looked on the clock and an hour had passed! I can tell that my thought patterns are different.. The equivalent as they were when I was a 5-year-old.. I try to visualize stuff.. You know, like fantasies to keep myself from being sexually deprived.. When I visualize, everything turns to black and white instead of color, and then gray, then goes away. This happened to memories too.. I think of a memory when I was a child or infant, but then the same happens.. But later I can remember back in color, but the same process repeats.. My litterary skills also seem to be going away.
I do a very good job of identifying another persons thought patterns. I was watching I movie with an infant in it. I pictured what it would bel ike to be the infant.. And my memory shut off for a minute.. could this be part of the problem? It keeps coming back to me.. I wish this thoiught would leave me mind.. Another thing.. I looked at an animal and pictured to be the animal,. I then lost my intelligence or short term memory for a a second, then it came back later. This negative thought keeps entering my mind and destroying me.. Is this part of the problem?
I've been very concerned about this.
I've noticed somthing different about me. My intelligence is going away.. I've felt like this for the last week. I used to be able to do 6-step mathmatical equations in my head in less that a second. I noticed now when I try to do math, I can keep the current numbers in my head, but the other ones that i'll need later on I seem to be forgetting. I do everything much slower now. Somthing simple, like sending a semi-lengthy e-mail to a friend would take about 10 minutes.. After I finished up, I looked on the clock and an hour had passed! I can tell that my thought patterns are different.. The equivalent as they were when I was a 5-year-old.. I try to visualize stuff.. You know, like fantasies to keep myself from being sexually deprived.. When I visualize, everything turns to black and white instead of color, and then gray, then goes away. This happened to memories too.. I think of a memory when I was a child or infant, but then the same happens.. But later I can remember back in color, but the same process repeats.. My litterary skills also seem to be going away.
I do a very good job of identifying another persons thought patterns. I was watching I movie with an infant in it. I pictured what it would bel ike to be the infant.. And my memory shut off for a minute.. could this be part of the problem? It keeps coming back to me.. I wish this thoiught would leave me mind.. Another thing.. I looked at an animal and pictured to be the animal,. I then lost my intelligence or short term memory for a a second, then it came back later. This negative thought keeps entering my mind and destroying me.. Is this part of the problem?
I've been very concerned about this.
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gfdgdsreg
12-02-2004, 08:51 PM
If it helps.. I'm on a new medicine called concerta for ADD. It's been making me get very iritated at things that aren't much of a big deal. Also, I've been very stressed out for the last few weeks.