Well, I relapsed yesterday afternoon. I just felt so frustrated with everything, especially my OCD, and ordered a bunch of food and just ate and ate and ate. Just when I thought I was getting better it all just seemed to crumble before my eyes. And I didn't tell anyone about it but i know I'll have to talk to my therapist about it. I just don't want to feel like a failure. I have too many issues right now (mental health wise) and it seems like everytime I try to get better something knocks me right back down. I don't know what I need from this post. I guess I just needed to get this out and a little encouragement. :nono:

you do need encouragement and i will give you as much as i can,but the person you really need to get it from is yourself.so you messed up,it's not the end of anything,just a part of your journey towards health.focus on what
positives you done.keep reminding yourself of your value and get back to work.positive thoughts and positive actions-together they will move you forward and your relapses will diminish.some day,without your realizing it,they'll be gone-replaced by your simply enjoying food for its own sake from time to time,without the guilt and remorse.

One of the positives that I've been able to pull from this situation is that I did go 4 to 5 months without binging so I guess I should just look to that and realize that I have it in me to do that again and maybe even go longer. :nono: