Hi,
I just need to vent a little. I have fought depression for years. I was on antidepressants about 8 years ago. I fight it alot. You can tell when you are starting to get down, and then I try not to think about it. I was told Boarderline Personality. So I look at things black/white. I see only the extremes. I have learned to live with it. And most times I am fine.
I have kids and think I have to always be here for them. Holidays are hard for me. I try to be happy for everyone.
Right now my husband is on the verge of loosing his business. Financial stress. We are living on my income.
All I want to do is cry. There isn't $ for anything.
Sounds like fun? Sorry to be so gloom.
Oh well,
Thats all.

I just love these message boards because you can just vent away. :p

I have a problem with trying to make everyone happy too. In the end, I made myself fall into a very deep depression. Didn't want to see anyone, just wanted to sleep all the time.....this has been going on for 9 years!!

I'm done making everyone else happy! Now it's my turn. I don't even really care who gets mad about it either!!

Money isn't everything either. I think a lot of kids would be happy with hugs, kisses, I love you's, and not so many toys on x-mas.

My 2 boys get so many toys from my husband's mom and dad that they are spoiled rotten!!! They end up in the play room on the floor and they don't even play with half the stuff they buy them!

But, I know you're hurting right now. If I had extra money I'd send you some. Why can't I win the lottery??? I'd give so much of it out to people who would appreciate it.

It's good to vent! :) I agree that money is not everything. I am totally broke right now and living in a veteran's shelter. I have two part time jobs that pay half of what I usually make. Everything that I put in storage months ago is gone because I haven't been able to pay storage fees. I have a small duffle bag of clothes and that is about it. Right now I feel happier than I've been over the past year and a half. :bouncing: There are a lot of us stressing out over the holidays. It is a hard time. Keep venting and don't forget to take care of yourself once in awile! :D :wave:

Hello.

It's always good to vent. Feel free :)

The first thing you should do in your situation is realize what you DO have, and that you're fortunate to have them. You have children you love, and a husband who's struggling to take care of his family. Those are very fortunate things.

Keep your head up! Things always work out for the better in the long run, even though it may be hard to see that at first.

Thank you to everyone who responded. I just needed a sounding board. I know things will workout somehow. Thanks for being there... I can't talk to my husband about this because he is down himself about everything. He feels bad that he can't support us. I do realize that we do have alot. We have each other and we are healthy. That is about the most important thing.
We have gone through financial problems for the last 2 years and right now it is coming to a head.. I have gone through the stress of losing hair. It has started to thicken back out. I went back to work 1 year ago. That helped relieve some of the stress. Last year he didn't pay himself hardly at all. This is pitiful but on our IRS we could claim income of less than $10,000. This is supporting a family of 5. We were living off of cashing his life insurance policy. His business right now has about $12,000 in bills and he has $1,300 in the checking account. So you see why i don't think it should last too much longer.
Before when I had depression I had bouts of being down for months. I could look back on the year and see the peaks and lows. I had severe depression for about 2-3 years. Finally it is like I am not down, but I am not happy. After going through all of that I am afraid when I feel down. I don't want to go through all of that again. There would be times I would cry and I didn't feel there was a reason to cry.
I had tried so many different antidepressants and really none of them worked. I just had to look at how to view things differently.
I am glad that there are others who can understand these feelings. This just is a down time. I know the feelings will pass and get better. Thanks for listening.

Hang in there!! How old are your kids?

I have one girl who is 18 and off her first year to college. I later got remarried and had 2 more kids. They are 2 boys ages 6 & 4! So one off to college and one in Kindergarten! lol!

You have your hands full then! :)

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You are so sweet, but we will be okay! Thanks so much. There is always the credit card. (You don't have to have $ at the time! I'll be like Scarlett...I'll think about that tomorrow!)

Thanks! Here's a big hug! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} }}}}!

Your welcome. I'm glad you will be ok for x-mas! That makes me feel so much better!! :wave:

Scarlett did have a good attitude, didn't she? She was a real survivor. Well, we can't all be like her. Have you tried some natural mood-boosters? Vitamin B supplements w/ high folic acid? Omega-3 fatty acids? Vitamin D is supposed to boost serotonin.

I've been depressed since those twin towers crashed to the ground on 9/11. So have had to "reset my view" as well. It's not just clinical anymore. There is a serious reason for my feelings. I used to want kids!! After 9/11 I don't anymore. That's how profound it was for me. I have to avoid watching the news & concentrate on stuff I can actually change.

You know I had to actually wean myself from watching the news. I was glued to it for over a year. It is only now that I can not feel the need to be watching fox news all the time.
Do you live near NY?

Thanks for the info... I will try to enhancers to see if it will help. I feel right now I need something to help me.

You have your hands full then! :)

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Ok, Thank you!! :)