Its the holidays. And that means that theres gonna be another family dinner. :eek: Anxiety is starting to kick in. What am I gonna do when I get to the table? I don't wanna eat. I hate food. My family is gonna stare at me too cause they are all telling me that I've lost too much weight. They watched me like a hawk at Thanksgiving! To make matters worse I have a gyno appt on the 28th and I'll be getting weighed there! So I for sure can't eat. I've been drinking like 120 ounces of water a day. And eating a little, tiny bowl of spinach for lunch. I'm really panicking tho!! What can I do this time of year?!?! Any advice is appreciated please!

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I know how you feel. I'm going to TN with my sister, brother, and friends. The only one that knows that I have an ed is my sister. I'm afraid to eat because I'll either not eat and sneak food later or binge really bad and embarrass myself. It's a no win situation. :nono:

Thanks for listening and replying :wave:

My sister is the only one who knows about my ED too. And she watches me go thru these panic attacks whenever food is around. And whenever I am forced to eat at a family event, I always end up crying from my guilt of eating and then when ppl ask me whats wrong I always come up with some kinda love life issue. I hate this feeling. Getting weighed on the 28th is the only thing on my mind. I will flip if that number doesn't get lower. What more can I do to get that number as low as I can? I drink water, barely eat, work out like crazy!! How am I gonna avoid eating at Christmas? :(

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It's comforting to know that I am not the only one that fears food at Christmas. It's great that we are all here to support each other in our fears. Like the Thanksgiving post....we are all in this together. I know its hard to even take my own advice, but food isn't meant to be our enemy...let's not have it overcome our Holiday. Let's not let it mask what is important about Christmas-Christ's birth, family, and fellowship. I'll be thinking of both of you this next week:)

Novblis

I agree with you guys completely. Someone just sent me an e-mail today about eating lots cause its christmas and we just have to and it killed me to read it... knowing I won't enjoy myself. I won't enjoy christmas cooking and such but I'll only feel terribly guilty afterward... anyways...thanks for knowing what its like. Hope everyone has a great christmas though.
God Bless
~Mel

Thanks guys!
Novblis, You helped me realize that there is more meaning to Christmas than food. You put some relief on a panic attack I was about to have! I guess cause my ED is always like the only thing on my mind, I lose track of thought on whats really going on. I don't mind cooking food, its just I don't want to eat it. I like to bake cookies and things and give them to nieces and nephews and see their faces light up when they see cookies. But as for myself, I'll just avoid eating and concentrate on the more important things of this holiday.
I'll be thinking of you as well this following week. And I'll be praying for you as well as everyone else on this board in church on Christmas night! :angel:

I like to remind my self that it takes 3500 calories to gain one pound, and that my body uses 1200 calories a day just for so I can live...there is no way that I will gain weight in one day by sitting down and being social at the table with my family by having dinner with them.
Hope this helps.

Jenn